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A DREAM FULFILLED
By Noemi Serdino“The first time that I heard about AFSwas one year and one-half ago, in myschool.Initially I wasn’t paying attentionbecause I assumed I needed money.When I heard the word
scholarship
,my ears started to work more thanever. Thanks to my love for theculture, my good grade, and the
misfortune
to be born in a not-richfamily, I won a scholarship thatcovered completely my AFSexperience. I could not believe it wastrue; I was selected to go in UnitedStates of America. To me it was likea dream fulfilled; it was a place that Icould only dream or see in themovies. To come to America was apossibility to learn an importantlanguage that the whole worldspeaks; it was a possibility to bring anice word to my town that wasalways in the newspaper for not goodthings.The orientation followed theselections soon, which was a niceway to talk about what I was going tosee, and where I was going to live.We answered as best as possible allthe questions they asked us. We triedto come with our minds prepared fora life that could have big difficultiesfor us.August came so fast; it was a day forcrying and for saying good-bye to ourfamilies. It was a day to cry and tosalute our families. It was a day inwhich I said good farewell to mywhole life because I knew thatcoming back home next June I wasgoing to be different.My expectation? That I would learnEnglish; I would learn about a newculture, and I would bring a little bitof my culture to show to theAmerican people.When I came, my dreams and myexpectations changed to a nightmare.America was not a movie backgroundanymore; America was my new life. Idid not speak English at all; the onlythings that I could do were smile andsay “hi”, “hello” or “yes”. Thewelcome orientation was horrible; Iwas in a group where everybodycould speak, and understand, andlaugh and I was cursing in Italian.When I met my host family all thingsgot worse: there was no one whocould translate English into any otherlanguage that I knew, who was withme. I think God had mercy of mebecause when I came to my house,two exchange students from Italywere there. They came with anotherassociation for the summer time, andthey reassured me. Riccardo, whowas one of them, said that thesepeople were crazy but that I wasgoing to be fine. It was true, theywere so patient with me, and theytried in everyway to help me.The first days in the school wereterrible. That big place made me feelso small; the teachers were nice tome, but the students were not. Ithought that everybody was going tobe nice and interested about a personcoming from another place, but I wasnot big news. Most of the studentshad emigrated from another country; Iwas equal to everybody else.The whole first month I felt alone,and sometimes I would cry because Icould not be “normal”. By that time, Istarted to make some new friends, but just a few; many people looked melike a freaking Italian, like a freakinggirl with a mafia’s accent: most of them would not stop and talk to mebecause of my accent. My school’sgrades were lower then ever, and mysocial life was almost non-existent.I was angry, I was starting to detestAFS, and all the stupid orientationsthat we did.To say and to do were two words sodifferent and so far one from eachother. They were as far as the USAand the Europe.My mind changed so fast, I wasappreciating the new cultures in theschool and during the orientationwhere I could make confrontationbetween myself and the otherexchange students like me. It was inthat period that I stopped being aracist; I admit I was it. I understoodwhat it was being different and whatthe different persons felt. I think thatwas the most important change thatAFS made on me. Time started torun from November to now. I spentbad and good days, but I was alwayswith people who loved me. OnChristmas, it was the first time that Ireally missed my family. I alwaysbelieved that Christmas was the“family-day”, and being far from myreal home was hard. One of theamazing days in this year was March31, when in a school academyassembly they presented some goodawards to the students who passed thefirst semester with a GPA higher than3.0 point. My name was on the list, Iwas so exited and I came back homeimmediately for lunch to call mymother in Italy; all my family was soproud of me. When I read “B” on theweekly English grade on my name, itwas also my happiest day.Coming here, I thought I was going tofind a new world, and I did it, but themost important things that I foundwere a wonderful family, a sister(Lucrezia), and two musketeers thatcompleted the trio. Who were thosetwo musketeers? They are Laura andNicola, who are two people that I metat the orientation in Italy whomhelped me in the hard moments. Iunderstood that the entire world iswonderful, but nothing is better thanthe own country. Every country isdifferent, and most of the things,which apparently are stupid, are justdifferent.I understood that America to me wasa time machine that put my mind andmy behavior thirty years later, whichleft my physique in the 2005 as it was(but just with some pounds more).Now I am scared by this timemachine. Coming back home, I willbe different, may be too muchdifferent than my friends. My mindwill be too old, but I still have mygrandma, and maybe we will be like“same age”!Italia, altritre mesi e una delle tue figlietorna a casa. Ti amo! Noemi
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