TA Chase - Embrace My Reflection

EMBRACE MY REFLECTION
The door clicked shut and Lucius turned, his breath catching at the sight of Ronnie leaning against the door. Ronnies hands were hidden behind him, causing his hips to angle forward in a way that drew Lucius attention to the pronounced bulge at Ronnies groin hidden under black velvet and whatever underwear he wore. Lucius rubbed his sweaty palms on his jeans and cleared his throat again. Shit, he sounded like he had TB or something. Im sorry. I shouldve put on some different clothes, but I only have an hour between sets, and sometimes its difficult to get dressed on my own. So I usually change right after my first set. Ronnie straightened and tugged his robe tight around him. Lucius touched Ronnies hair as the slender man walked past him. Ronnie froze as Lucius stroked his fingers over the waves of golden brown. Its as soft as I remembered it to be, he said, savoring the silkiness of the strands. Ronnie made a noise, and Lucius realized what he was doing. He jerked away his hand, trying not to notice the few strands caught in his rough skin. Im sorry, Ronnie. I didnt mean to touch without asking. You always had such beautiful hair. God, he was babbling. Why was he so nervous? It wasnt like he hadnt faced uncomfortable situations before. Hed served as an MP in the army for eight years before joining the New Orleans Police Department. Yet something about Ronnie threw him off, and it wasnt just the clothing. It was Ronnie himself, bringing feelings Lucius thought buried to the surface
ALSO BY T. A. CHASE
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BY T. A. CHASE
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This book is a work of fiction. All names, characters, locations, and incidents are products of the authors imagination, or have been used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual persons living or dead, locales, or events is entirely coincidental. Amber Quill Press, LLC http://www.AmberQuill.com All rights reserved. No portion of this book may be transmitted or reproduced in any form, or by any means, without permission in writing from the publisher, with the exception of brief excerpts used for the purposes of review. Copyright 2011 by T. A. Chase ISBN 978-1-61124-063-4 Cover Art 2011 Trace Edward Zaber
PUBLISHED IN THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA
Thank you to all my readers everything I write is ultimately for you. And thank you, C, for always understanding why I need to write all the time.
CHAPTER 1
The bright neon sign blinked on and off, bathing Lucius in red for a second before casting him in shadows. He fidgeted, tugging on his cuffs and glancing down the street. Honey, are you coming in? The shows about to start. Blinking, he met the amused gaze of the bouncer at the door of Cindis Cabaret. At six-four, no one ever called Lucius honey, but the man had about three inches on Lucius and outweighed him by about thirty pounds. Lucius figured that extra weight was all muscle as well. It didnt matter how uncomfortable he felt about watching men dressed as women. There were extenuating circumstances forcing him to enter the building. He paid the cover charge and slipped into the crowd. Lucius fought the urge to slap his forehead. God,
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he sounded like an obnoxious asshole. He didnt have any problem accepting the fact he was gay, but going to see a show where men dressed as women freaked him out a little bit. It was his problem to deal with, not anyone elses, and he wasnt going to judge the men who did it. Not even if they liked dressing in womens clothes outside of work. After finding a seat, he looked at the program sitting on his table. He found the name he was looking for. Ms. Veronica Lake would be performing in the first set. His heart skipped a beat. Christ, one would think he was a kid with his first crush. Yet Ronnie had been his first crush, first everything really, but ten years without any contact should have dulled his reaction to even just the thought of seeing Ronnie again. Can I get you something to drink? Lucius shot a look up at the waiter standing next to him. Yeah, Ill have a whiskey straight up. Okay. Be right back. He nodded, and scanned the crowd. It seemed busy for a weeknight. It was a mixture of tourists, laughing uncomfortably at each other, and regulars who came every week to watch their favorite entertainers. The research Lucius had done before he arrived at Cindis told him the cabaret was one of the most popular nightspots in the French Quarter, which was saying a lot. On weekends, it was standing room only, plus a waiting line outside and down around the block. The crowd parted for a moment and Lucius caught sight of a man sitting at one of the VIP tables. Dressed all in black, big burly bodyguards surrounded the man. Lucius shifted a little more into the shadows enveloping his table. He didnt want Cameron to see him. Not yet anyway.
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Here you go, sir. Would you like to pay as you go or start a tab? Ill pay now. And I was wondering if you could do me a favor. Lucius pulled out cash to pay for the drink. He also set a fifty-dollar bill on the waiters tray, along with a yellow paper rose and a note. Could you deliver this to Ms. Lake for me? The waiter looked unsure, and Lucius rushed to reassure him. Im not a stalker. The young mans eyebrows went up, drawing a strangled laugh from Lucius. Im sure you probably hear that a lot. Im an old friend of Ms. Lakes. We went to high school together. I really need to talk to heror him. Im not sure what Ronnie wants to be called nowadays. Lucius muttered the last part, not caring if the waiter heard him. Wary brown eyes studied him, and he couldnt help but be glad the workers at the cabaret took the performers safety and privacy seriously. He pushed his coat out of the way and showed the waiter his badge. Im not looking to get Ronnie in trouble. I just would like to talk to him/her, privately if I could. The guy nodded. Ill give it to Ms. Lake, but I cant promise shell want to talk to you. Shes busy. I know and Ill wait until shes free. Ill be enjoying the show. He watched the waiter move away and sighed at how young the kid looked. Maybe it wasnt that the kid was young. Maybe it was simply that Lucius felt old. Some days were worse than others, and this was one of those days. Going into work this morning, he never in a million years believed hed end the night watching a drag
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show. The lights dimmed even more and Lucius sipped his whiskey as the first act came on. By the time Ronnie came on, Lucius had had two drinks and was enjoying himself. The performers were wonderfully talented, and he understood why Cindis had the reputation it did. When the waiter returned with his second drink, he told Lucius, Ms. Lake will see you after her sets finished. Someone will come and get you. Thank you. He tipped the man another ten. The waiter shook his head. I dont know who you are, man, but Ive never seen Ronnies eyes light up like that. You mustve been a good friend of hers. She was a better friend to me than I ever was to her. The club went dark and the crowd tensed, anticipation weighing down the air. Now, gentlemen and ladies, the singer youve all been waiting forMs. Veronica Lake. Lucius straightened, his breath catching in his chest. For the past two years, since hed returned to New Orleans, hed wanted to find Ronnie and talk to him, explain why hed done what hed done, but he couldnt find the courage. It seemed wrong that it took Lucius job to get him to contact his old friend. The haunting refrains from Defying Gravity echoed through the quiet room as the curtain drew back and Ronnie stepped out onto the stage. Lucius cock immediately stood up at attention. Holy shit, the years had been kind to Ronnie, and even though his hair and eye color were different, Lucius recognized his friend. Long blond hair waved over pale white shoulders, and the right side draped over Ronnies face in Veronica Lakes famous peek-a4
boo style. Big blue eyes, framed with long, dark lashes, sparkled under the lights. Lush red lips curled into a sultry smile as Ronnie strolled up to the microphone. The strapless scarlet full-length gown fit Ronnie like a glove, and Lucius reached down to adjust himself, suddenly longing for more room in his pants. A slit graced the left side of the dress, slicing up to the middle of Ronnies thigh, and when he moved, it revealed stiletto heels and the lace of thigh-high stockings. Something has changed within me. Ronnies husky voice rang over the speakers, yet it was so quiet in the club that Ronnie didnt need the mic. Even though Lucius knew it wasnt possible, it felt like Ronnie sang right to him. His friend wouldnt be able to see him this far back in the theater in the dark. But for two years in high school, Lucius was the only one Ronnie would sing for, and listening to Ronnies pure voice drew Lucius back all those years to when hed first met Ronnie. * * *
Another new school and another day of being sized up as the new kid. Lucius hated it with every atom in him, but his father wouldnt listen when hed begged to stay with his grandmother in Texas. He hadnt wanted to move his junior year in high school. Unfortunately, his father went where the money was, and that meant going to Louisiana and working on the oil rigs in the Gulf. That meant his third school since entering the eighth grade. Lucky for Lucius, he liked school and managed to do well enough to keep his grades up in each school. Keeping friends was the hardest part. Lucius glanced up from the paper in his hand with his locker
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number to find his gaze land on the cutest ass hed seen in forever. The person it belonged to was slender and wore his light brown hair in waves to his shoulders. Lucius stared at the boy in front of him. He knew the person was male because Lucius had never been attracted to girls, not even when he first realized there were two different sexes. He admitted to himself when he was fifteen that he was gay, just never mentioned it to anyone else. He wasnt about to give his dad another reason to hit him, and his mother wouldve dragged him to church for an exorcism or something. As he watched, two big kids strutted down the hallway, and one deliberately ran into the brunette. Books and papers went flying, and the other students moved out of the way, not wanting to get involved. Lucius had seen bullies in all the schools hed gone to, and while hed always chosen to stay out of it, something wouldnt let him do that this time. Rushing forward, Lucius elbowed one of the big guys, driving it deep into the kids gut. He knelt to help the brunette pick up his things. Hey, man, watch where youre going. The one hed hit was doubled over, groaning slightly. The other guy glared at Lucius. Oh, sorry. Didnt see you there. He grinned as he lied. Pay attention next time, and why are you helping the fag here? Hes the one who likes to be on his knees. The boy crouched next to Lucius winced, but didnt say anything. Lucius growled low under his breath and started to surge to his feet. A hand resting on his arm stopped him. He met golden hazel eyes peeking at him through bangs. Dont. Its not important. Lucius wasnt sure about that, but he honored the kids request.
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After getting all the books and papers into a pile, he straightened, making sure to step on one of the bullies feet. He got shoved back into the boy, but he was ready for it, so he gripped the kid and they both found their balance without dropping anything else. Maybe youre a fag as well. Maybe thats why youre not upset about being on your knees. He sighed and rolled his eyes. Call me what you want, but Ill be calling you an ignorant redneck jackass each time you do. The students surrounding them snickered, and Lucius saw the flush on the bullies faces. Im not ignorant, one of them mumbled. But you are a redneck jackass? Oh, good, I want to make sure I get my name calling right. Hate to call someone something they might not be. Lucius eyed the other kids. I have to get to my home room. Morning entertainment is over. For now, but Ive got my eye on you, new kid. Now whos the fag? You gonna check out my ass while youre keeping an eye on me? Lucius rolled his eyes and turned away to face the boy. Hi, Im Lucius Montagne. Ronnie Lake. The soft voice was musical and beautiful, just like the kid. Would you know where I could find room three-forty-two? I think Ive wandered around this entire fucking school looking for it. He held out the paper with his homeroom number on it. Ignoring the bullies seemed to work for the moment. Everyone wandered off toward their rooms, leaving Lucius and Ronnie in the hall together. Ronnie nodded and gestured in the direction theyd been going. Im in the same home room. We could walk together. Ronnie ducked his head like he expected Lucius to refuse the
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offer. Hell, no, Lucius might not be out to the world, but he was more than willing to admit he was extremely attracted to Ronnie. Thank God he wore baggy jeans to school because his cock had taken a severe interest in the slender boy. Great. He fought the urge to offer his arm for Ronnie to take or to grab the kids books away from him to carry. Just because Ronnie seemed effeminate didnt mean he wanted Lucius to treat him like a girl. Theyd spent the day together after finding out that their schedule coincided and Lucius outlook on the Podunk little town his father had dragged him to changed at the instant friendship he created with Ronnie. After school, Lucius started to walk back to the house his father rented. It was about five miles away, and the threatening rainstorm broke as he left school. Ronnie had raced off after the last bell rang, and Lucius didnt get to ask him if hed have lunch with him the next day. Hunching in his light jacket, Lucius trudged down the side of the road, trying to decide what to do about his attraction to Ronnie. A horn startled him, and he paused as a blue truck pulled up beside him. The window rolled down and he saw Ronnie peer out at him. You want a ride home? Never one to look a gift horse in the mouth, Lucius nodded. Ronnie opened the door and slid over, letting Lucius climb in. A reed-thin woman sat behind the steering wheel, a cigarette dangling between her fingers. Mom, this is Lucius. Hes new in school. Maam. Lucius was raised to be polite.
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Ronnies mom grunted at him, but didnt say anything. She took a drag on her cigarette and blew the smoke out her window. Where do you live? Lucius gave directions, and Ronnie nodded. Thats two houses down from us. Maybe we could give you a ride to and from school. If you want? Ronnie offered, without even glancing at his mother. Id like that. I could probably get some gas money from my dad, so you wouldnt have to pay for it all. We can work something out. Ronnie didnt dismiss Lucius offer outright. That day was the beginning of the closest friendship Lucius had ever had with anyone; even his army buddies didnt know him as well as Ronnie did. It was a friendship he still regretted letting go. * * *
Applause broke into his memories and he blinked, coming back to Cindis Cabaret. The lights came up and Ronnie blew kisses and strolled off the stage, his hips swaying enticingly. Right before he slipped behind the curtain, Ronnie looked back over one shoulder and his gaze met Lucius. In their beautiful blue depths, Lucius saw happiness and hesitation. At least, he hoped Ronnie was happy to see him. He could understand the hesitation. After running out on Ronnie ten years ago, why would he want to see or talk to Ronnie now? Sir, Ms. Lake will see you now. This time it wasnt the waiter standing by his table; it was the bouncer whod talked to him outside the club. Lucius climbed to his feet and followed the man through the crowd. He glanced over
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at Cameron and noticed the man was still staring at the stage. Good. He needed to talk to Ronnie before Cameron ever realized Lucius had been at the club. Backstage was organized chaos. Men in dresses ran back and forth between rooms and the stage. Lucius gave them a lot of credit because he knew he couldnt walk two feet in those heels. Seeing all that satin and lace spiked his interest and he bit his lip to keep from moaning. The bouncer stopped in front of a closed door. Lucius read the name on the star, Veronica Lake. He smiled as he remembered watching old black-and-white movies starring Veronica Lake and Alan Ladd with Ronnie. It didnt surprise him that of all the starlets Ronnie could have impersonated, Veronica was the one hed picked. Sir, I want to tell you that I dont care if youre a cop or not. You bother Ronnie or hurt her, Ill take care of you myself. Just because she works here doesnt mean shes a whore or crazy. Nodding, Lucius met the bouncers serious expression. I know. Believe me, Im not here to bother Ms. Lake or hurt her. I simply want to say hi and talk with her for a little while. Catch up on old times. Well, she doesnt usually allow people back here, not even after the show, so I guess youre special to her. But Im keeping an eye on you and if I think somethings wrong, Ill throw you out of here. The bouncer flexed his muscles, and Lucius nodded again. Im wondering if youd do something for me. Theres a customer here by the name of Cameron. Hes kind of a big name in the city. The grimace of disgust on the mans face told Lucius all he needed to know about the bouncers thoughts about Cameron.
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If you could just make a note of what time he leaves tonight, Id appreciate it. He wont leave until Ronnie does her last set. He only comes for her. Fuck, that was what Lucius was afraid of. Okay. Well, if you mark down what time he leaves anyway, I probably wont be here then. Too late at night for me to stay out. The bouncer snorted and knocked on the door. Yes? That musical voice Lucius had never forgot floated through the door. Your guest is here, Ms. Lake. The door swung open, and Lucius mouth went dry. He could only stare in stunned silence at the sight greeting him. Ronnie had changed out of the scarlet gown and into a black velvet robe tied loosely around his waist. The neck gapped open, showing the edge of something white and lacy. His legs, encased in silky black stockings and black knee-high boots, peeked through the bottom half of the robe. Instead of blond hair, Ronnie had shoulder-length light brown hair, so he had obviously worn a wig while he performed. Ronnie ducked his head and let his hair cover his eyes as he met Lucius gaze with a hesitant smile. Hello, Lucius. He had to clear his throat a couple times before he could get any words out. The bouncer beside him chuckled at his inept fumbling. Hey, Ronnie, you were marvelous tonight. Not the greatest opening, but it was the best Lucius could do at the moment. Thank you. Ronnie flashed a bright grin at the bouncer. Dont worry, Tomas. Lucius isnt a stalker and wont be dragging me off to his house for nefarious reasons.
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I wish, Lucius muttered, and flushed when Ronnies eyes widened slightly. Shit, hed said that loud enough for Ronnie to hear. He cleared his throat again and tried to look innocent. All right, but you call if you need me. Tomas glowered at Lucius once more before turning and heading out to the dance floor. Jesus, youd think you were some stranger. I told them I knew you and it wasnt any big deal to have you come back here and talk to me. Ronnie stepped aside and gestured for Lucius to come in the room. Lucius entered and found himself surrounded by sparkles, feathers, leather, and lace. It was like a fabric store had exploded, covering every square inch with rainbows. He breathed deep and sighed. The air smelled like cinnamon and vanilla, another combination that made him think of Ronnie. The door clicked shut and he turned, his breath catching at the sight of Ronnie leaning against the door. Ronnies hands were hidden behind him, causing his hips to angle forward in a way that drew Lucius attention to the pronounced bulge at Ronnies groin hidden under black velvet and whatever underwear he wore. Lucius rubbed his sweaty palms on his jeans and cleared his throat again. Shit, he sounded like he had TB or something. Im sorry. I shouldve put on some different clothes, but I only have an hour between sets, and sometimes its difficult to get dressed on my own. So I usually change right after my first set. Ronnie straightened and tugged his robe tight around him. Lucius touched Ronnies hair as the slender man walked past him. Ronnie froze as Lucius stroked his fingers over the waves of golden brown. Its as soft as I remembered it to be, he said, savoring the
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silkiness of the strands. Ronnie made a noise, and Lucius realized what he was doing. He jerked away his hand, trying not to notice the few strands caught in his rough skin. Im sorry, Ronnie. I didnt mean to touch without asking. You always had such beautiful hair. God, he was babbling. Why was he so nervous? It wasnt like he hadnt faced uncomfortable situations before. Hed served as an MP in the army for eight years before joining the New Orleans Police Department. Yet something about Ronnie threw him off, and it wasnt just the clothing. It was Ronnie himself, bringing feelings Lucius thought buried to the surface. Thats all right. Its been a while since anyones touched me like that. Ronnies pale skin flushed and he ducked his head again, a sure sign he was as uncomfortable as Lucius. I wear the wig and blue contacts to help look more like Veronica Lake. Please dont feel like you need to change because of me. Ill admit to being uncomfortable. Lucius held up his hand to stop Ronnie from speaking. Its because of you and your clothing, but not because I think its wrong or anything like that. Lucius took a deep breath. Just get it over with. Ronnie wouldnt laugh at him for admitting it. Im uncomfortable because I find you incredibly sexy dressed like that, Ronnie. Ive been hard since you came on stage and Im not used to feeling that way. I need to become accustomed to it. You dont have to change at all. He ran out of steam and stopped, clenching his hands to keep from grabbing Ronnie. Really? Ronnie stared up at him with hopeful eyes. You really think Im sexy dressed like this? Lucius followed the journey of Ronnies hand down the front
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of his robe and he couldnt stop himself. He took Ronnies hand in his and pressed it to his pants, right over his own erection. Ronnie gasped, but didnt pull away. Yes. I do think youre gorgeous, and I think it wouldnt matter what you wore. Feminine clothes or male clothes. Its all you, not the outfit you wear that does it for me. Always has been that way. Oh. Ronnie lifted his red painted lips toward Lucius, and being only a man, Lucius couldnt say no to the offer. He lowered his head, pressing their mouths together in a gentle kiss. As much as he wanted to ravage Ronnie, he was mindful of where they were and that Ronnie had another performance to do soon. He didnt want to ruffle anything that might take longer than a few minutes to straighten. His cock strained against his briefs, wanting a chance to get closer to Ronnies smooth, scented skin. It had been a while since hed held anyone in his arms and longer still since he wanted that person beyond reason. A soft whimper and Ronnies hand pushing at his chest brought Lucius to a stop. At some point during the kiss, hed let go of Ronnies hand and grasped Ronnies upper arms. He eased away a step or two, but kept his hold on Ronnie. Licking his lips, Ronnie met Lucius stare with a glazed look in his eyes. Wow. Just like I remember. Remorse shot through Lucius. Ronnie, I wanted to tell you I am sorry for how I treated you. Long, elegant fingers with red polish matching Ronnies lipstick pressed against Lucius lips. You can apologize later if you wish. I have a feeling you wanted to talk to me about something else tonight.
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Lucius shook his head, letting Ronnie wipe off the lipstick before he spoke. While I dont regret kissing you and watching you perform, youre right. I need to talk to you about Cameron. The little moue of disgust and anger alerted Lucius to the fact that no one at Cindis seemed to like the United States senator from Louisiana. Why am I not surprised you want to talk about that snake? Ronnie whirled around and stalked toward a chair in front of a make-up table. Lucius followed, trying not to stare at the way Ronnies hips swayed while walking in those high-heeled boots. His friend dropped into the chair and crossed his legs, the robe falling open enough to show off most of Ronnies long limbs. The man wasnt very tall, but most of his height came from his legs. Lucius closed his eyes and took a sharp breath. Get your head out of the gutter, you bastard. Youre here to retrieve information, not imagine Ronnies legs wrapped around your waist while you ream his ass. What do you want to know about our lovely senator?
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CHAPTER 2
Ronnie saw lust flare in Lucius dark eyes as the man practically stripped him naked. Ronnie had become familiar with the expression in the last nine years since hed started performing. Men and women both wanted him when he dressed like Veronica Lake and sang. But in the harsh light of day, none of them wanted him when he dressed like Ronnie Lake, a cute man who liked womens clothes. They all wanted him to change and become something else to make them feel comfortable. For a while, when he first figured out what he liked, he tried to be what others wanted him to be, but he wasnt happy. After one particularly spectacular break-up, Ronnie realized something. Of course, it was after hed eaten a gallon of mint chocolate chip ice cream and cried buckets of tears on Cindis shoulder that he
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concluded there were people out there who would accept him for who he was. Hed had the privilege of knowing such a person for two years in high school during what could have been the worse time of his life. Lucius Montagne had burst into Ronnies life their junior year and had kept Ronnie from ending everything. Oh, Ronnie never told Lucius all he meant to him. Hed never wanted to weigh Lucius down with that kind of responsibility. Yet it was the memory of how Lucius had looked the night Ronnie stepped from the bathroom wearing a dark pink negligee and pink heels that Ronnie remembered and made him believe there were men out there who would accept him as he was. Shock had warred with desire in the eighteen-year-olds eyes until desire won out. Lucius had been Ronnies first lover, and the only one who really saw Ronnie inside and out, and wanted him anyway. Those memories were the ones to keep Ronnie honest and unwilling to compromise. If Lucius, one of the most masculine men Ronnie knew, thought he was sexy dressed in silk and lace, then Ronnie believed there were other men out there who would feel the same. It didnt matter now because Lucius stood before him, erection noticeable against his pants and a smear of lipstick still on his lips. Ronnie waved him over. Come here, cher. Let me take care of that for you. Lucius rested his ass against Ronnies dressing table and leaned forward enough for Ronnie to rub the remaining red off his skin. Ronnie filled his lungs with the musky male scent drifting from Lucius. He wanted to bury his nose in the base of Lucius throat and breathe. Ronnie settled back in his chair, tugging his robe to cover his
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legs. Talking about Senator Cameron always made him want to take the hottest shower he could and scrub all the dirt off his body. What did you want to talk to me about, Lucius? Lucius blinked, and Ronnie could see reality returning to the mans brain. There were other reasons why Lucius had come to Cindis. Did Lucius see kissing Ronnie as a delightful bonus or had it been his way of loosening Ronnie up before asking the tough questions? They might have been apart for ten years, but Ronnie couldnt see Lucius changing that much. Honest and straightforward, Lucius would never use their attraction as a way to get Ronnie to help him. I read the complaint you registered with the police last month about Cameron stalking you. Lucius straightened and crossed his arms over his wide chest. Id like to hear about it in your own words. The police took one look at me dressed in heels and thought I was crazy. There wasnt any way the honorable senator would stalk someone like me. Ronnie rubbed his hands together and shot to his feet. Im not crazy, Lucius. He sent me flowers and notes. When I didnt respond to those, he tried sending me more expensive gifts, which I returned unopened. He comes to my show when hes in town, every night sometimes. Hes out there right now. I know youre not crazy, Ronnie. I had a friend of mine at the FBI do a little research for me. Cameron has a history of stalking women who look like you. Beautiful, blonde, and blue-eyed. Nothings ever come of the allegations, but I do believe hes stalking you. But he knows Im a guy. Why would he keep doing that if
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hes not gay? At least, I havent ever heard a whisper of him being gay or bi. And when Im not performing, I have brown hair and eyes. I dont understand why hed do this. Ronnie bit his lip, not caring about ruining his make-up. Thereve been times hes followed me home to my apartment and tried to get inside. He only went away when Cindi and Percy showed up. Ronnie shivered in fear as memories of those nights raced through him. Hed ended up moving out of his apartment and moving in with Cindi and Percy. Christ, he hated being afraid, especially in a place where he should feel the safest. Oh, honey. Lucius stood and embraced Ronnie, drawing him into his arms. Ronnie wrapped his arms around Lucius waist, resting his head on Lucius broad chest. He smiled slightly at the quick kiss brushed over his hair. Do you have a place to stay? Nodding, he shrugged. Im staying with Cindi and his partner, but its kind of cramped for the three of us. Poor Percy, living with two cross-dressers. The mans swimming in clothes and shoes. Lucius chuckled. I bet. Now Im making this offer as a friend, Ronnie. Ronnie stepped back, not breaking Lucius embrace. What? Youre more than welcome to move in with me. I have an extra bedroom with a walk-in closet. Lucius winked. That way, you have your own room and dont have to worry about sharing your clothes with Cindi. Ronnie burst out laughing. Sweetheart, if youd seen Cindi, youd never say something like that. Cindi wouldnt fit into any of my clothes, much to his despair. Ive never been here before, so Ive never had the pleasure of
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meeting Cindi, but he and his partner must be wonderful people to open their home to you. Lucius chuckled. Ive gotten off track again. I need to talk to you some more about Cameron. Right. Ronnie moved away toward the screened off corner where his costume for his next set hung. I have to get dressed. Is it all right if we talk while I finish changing? Sure. I dont want you to get in trouble for not being ready. Lucius prowled around the room, not coming close to the section where Ronnie dressed. It was the gentlemanly thing to do, and Ronnie appreciated the fact Lucius didnt assume Ronnie would be willing to get naked or half-naked in front of him. Not that Ronnie wouldnt, but he wanted to spend a little time getting to know Lucius again before he gave his body to him. Ronnie snorted silently. Conceited much? Just because the man kissed him and was seriously attracted to him didnt mean Lucius wanted him in his bed. He didnt even know for sure Lucius was gay. Their first and only time together could have simply been the hormones of an eighteen-year-old boy overwhelming him to the point he didnt care if he fucked a boy or a girl. Also, with the way Ronnie had dressed that night, Lucius couldve easily deluded himself into thinking he was sleeping with a girl. Yanking his black sequined cocktail-length gown down, he asked, Are you gay? What? Surprise colored Lucius voice. Why are you asking that? I dont know. I just got thinking about it, and I wondered if youre gay or if I was just an experiment back when you were in high school. He squeaked as his screen got yanked out of the way. He turned, holding his dress to his chest with his hands, and stared up
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into Lucius angry eyes. Dont you remember me telling you that I knew I was gay when I was fifteen? None of that changed in the years since I slept with you. You werent an experiment, Ronnie, or something I outgrew as I got older. Im still gay and I still think youre the most beautiful man Ive ever seen. If you dont kiss the man, Ronnie honey, I just might be forced to, and Percy wouldnt like that at all. Cindis voice coming from behind Lucius surprised them both, but Ronnie took what Cindi said to heart. He reached out with one hand and cradled Lucius cheek with it. Pushing up on his tiptoes, he licked along the seam of Lucius mouth, begging the man to open to him. Lucius moaned and surrounded him with hard male flesh. Ronnie shuddered as Lucius rough hands stroked along a strip of his skin, bared by the corset he wore on stage. Forgetting about his dress, Ronnie raised both hands and buried them in Lucius hair, tilting his head for a deeper kiss. Their tongues dueled and stroked, teasing each other by nibbling or sucking on bottom lips. Jesus Christ, children, I dont want you doing it here in the dressing room. Not good form at all. They broke apart, panting and staring at each other. Ronnie blushed when Lucius knelt and picked up his dress from the floor. He held still as Lucius settled it in all the right places before turning Ronnie around to zip him up. Go fix your make-up and hair. I have an early morning meeting with my captain tomorrow, so I have to leave. Lucius led Ronnie to his mirror before digging out a business card and sticking it in the corner of the frame. Heres my card. When you get up tomorrow, give me a call and well continue our talk? If its
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okay with you. Ronnie nodded, but couldnt bring himself to say anything. Dont worry about the time when you call. I figure you probably end up sleeping in since you work so late. Lucius bent over and kissed Ronnie quickly. As Lucius turned, Ronnie saw his eyes widen as he spied Cindi standing just inside the dressing room. When Ronnie said Cindi wouldnt fit into his clothes, he meant it. Cindi was as tall as Lucius without heels, and his shoulders were almost as wide as the doorway. Cindi started life as Charles, and after moving to New Orleans, became Cindi, owner and the original performer at Cindis Cabaret. I know youve been keeping an eye out for Ronnie and I really appreciate it. Lucius held out his hand. Cindi took a hold of his, but instead of shaking it, Lucius bowed over it and brushed a kiss on his knuckles. Cindis eyebrows shot up as he looked at Ronnie over Lucius head. Lucius straightened and started to walk out the door. Pausing, he turned back and said to Ronnie, My offer is open for as long as you might need a place. Ronnie blushed and nodded. Ill think about it. Great. Ill talk to you tomorrow. After Lucius disappeared, Ronnie reapplied his lipstick and brushed his hair back before slipping his wig on again. He smoothed the wrinkles out of his dress and checked his ass in the mirror. Christ, child, you look as stunning as you always do. Actually, you look better. Theres a light in your eyes I havent seen in a long time. Cindi waved a hand in the general direction Lucius took. Is he a new friend? And if he is, I didnt think you worked
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that fast, honey. That was Lucius, Cindi. Ronnie shut his dressing room door behind him, making sure it was locked. He tucked his key in his corset. Cindi placed his hand in the crook of Ronnies elbow. Lucius, huh? You always had the best taste. I bet hes better looking now than he was back in high school. Probably broke a lot of hearts. Did he break yours? Cindi nodded regally at one of the other performers as he came off stage. Ronnie shook his head. No, but I think he thinks he did, or that he did something to hurt me. He left you? Cindi pulled him to a halt. Cindis gaze bore into Ronnies, asking for honesty. Yes, but I knew he would. We came into New Orleans for the night. He was leaving the next day for boot camp. His dad wouldnt come say good-bye to him, so I came. For two years, we were each others family. Ronnie rubbed his hand over his chest and smiled up at Cindi. We gave each other our virginity, and Ive never regretted letting him be my first. I cant wait to get to know him better. Cindi gave him an air kiss and a pat on his ass. Now get up there and wow them like you usually do. Ronnie took a deep breath and calmed his nerves. As much as he loved performing in front of a standing room only crowd, he still got nervous until he sang the first note. Confidence filled his heart as he stepped out from behind the curtain and the audience clapped and whistled. Ronnie set his shoulders and swayed to the rhythm of the music. It happened to be one of his favorite songs, and one he sang often because it reminded him of Lucius. When one is lonely, the days are long
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As the last notes of Someday Ill Find You drifted over the heads of the people in the crowd, Ronnie realized he didnt have to sing that song anymore. Hed found Lucius again, and this time he didnt intend to let him go. * * *
When Ronnie finished his third and final set at around two in the morning, he kept his gaze on the people in front of him and didnt even turn in the direction of Senator Cameron, who still sat in his booth, leering at Ronnie. The mans gaze bore into Ronnies back as he exited the stage. Cindi and Percy waited for him backstage. He hated needing an escort everywhere, but he couldnt trust that the senator would stay away from him. Also, the man had never learned the meaning of the word no. Ronnie rushed to his dressing room, unlocked the door, and slipped inside. He locked himself in. Again, another precaution he hated taking. Yet hed discovered the hard way that a closed door wasnt a deterrent to Cameron. The man had burst on him more than once while he was changing. After sitting, Ronnie unzipped his boots and sighed as he slipped them off. He loved them and they made his legs look amazing, but at times, they were a bitch to wear. Taking off his wig, he stuck it on the Styrofoam head and pinned it there. He took out the blue contacts and popped them into their containers. He left those things at the club. It saved on wear and tear if he didnt have to transport them back and forth. Ronnie packed his boots away and changed out of his dress, hanging it up to keep it from wrinkling. His stockings came off and were rolled up, tucked in his bag along with his corset and underwear.
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He always brought a change of undergarments with him since he tended to sweat under the floodlights on stage, plus the underwear he wore under his gowns practically strangled his cock, keeping the illusion of femininity. He slid on a pair of black silk and lace panties before tugging on his jeans. As much as he liked wearing skirts and cute outfits, after a long night of performing, he wanted comfort clothes that were jeans, a fitted T-shirt, and a pretty cardigan for a jacket. He washed off his stage make-up and pulled his hair back in a ponytail. Checking his reflection in the mirror, he caught sight of Lucius card in the corner. Ronnie plucked it up and read the words on it. Lucius Montagne, Detective, New Orleans Police Department. It had a work number on it, along with a cell number. A knock on the door and he heard Cindi call out, Ronnie honey, you ready to go? Tomas will take you home. Okay. He brushed on some lip-gloss and mascara before checking his hair once more. He hated the stage make-up he had to slather on, but enhancing what God gave him wasnt bad. Ronnie slipped into his favorite black heels and slung his bag over his shoulder before opening the door. Tomas stood there, arms crossed and back braced against the wall. Smiling up at the bouncer, Ronnie apologized, Im sorry you have to do this, Tomas. I could just grab a taxi. Ronnie grinned in thanks as Tomas took his bag from him and laid his hand at the small of Ronnies back. Hed rather it was Lucius escorting him home, but he understood about Lucius doing his job and he didnt want to be a bother. Tomas shook his head. No way, Ms. Lake. Your boyfriend told me I needed to make sure you got back to Ms. Cindis without any problem. I might be bigger than him, but hes definitely
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meaner than me when it comes to you. Plus Ms. Cindid have my balls if I let you go on your own and something happened to you. It always amazed him that people cared that much about him. His mother never really cared one way or the other. In fact, when he ended up staying in New Orleans instead of going home after Lucius left, she didnt freak out. In fact, she didnt realize he was gone until he went back. For several months, it was Cindi and the other performers at the cabaret who had kept him going. Hed missed Lucius more than he ever though possible, but he accepted that Lucius had a different path to follow than he did. Little did Ronnie know their paths would re-connect years later, yet there they were, lives somehow intertwining again. Lucius wouldnt hurt you, Tomas. Hes just protective of me. I didnt realize you were dating anyone, but Im glad you picked that guy. He seemed a little uncomfortable about coming into the cabaret, though. Didnt he know what you did for a living? Tomas grinned. Though it didnt seem to bother him once he got inside. Oh, Lucius knows what I do, but hed never seen me perform before. Which was as true as it went. Ronnie didnt feel like elaborating. If Tomas believed Lucius was his boyfriend, then the bouncer would tell other people who might ask. The knowledge there was someone else in Ronnies life might make the senator back off, especially if that man was a police officer. Ah, well, you were great as usual, so Im sure hes proud as hell of you. Tomas offered Ronnie his arm as they strolled down Bourbon Street through the crowd. Hes been proud of me since we first met.
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Lucius threw a casual arm around Ronnies shoulder and gave him a quick hug. I have to get to algebra class. Old man Renfordll be pissed if Im late again. Okay. Ill see you at lunch, right? Ronnie clutched his books tightly to his chest, trying hard not to throw himself against Lucius. Of course, honey. I wouldnt miss eating with my favorite guy. The endearment Lucius used was said softly because Lucius didnt want anyone to take offense at it and go after Ronnie. Ronnie figured he should be more upset about Lucius calling him honey, but it thrilled him that Lucius cared so much for him. Lucius walked off, turning once to wave before being swallowed up by the milling crowd of teenagers. Ronnie whirled around, needing to get to his French class or risking being late himself. Oh, look, if it isnt little Miss Faggot, and surprise, shes all alone without her butch boyfriend. Ronnie gasped as hard hands grabbed his shoulders and shoved him into the nearest locker. His books flew everywhere, and he caught himself before his face hit the metal. Swinging around, he glared at Max and Zane Brosier. You cant talk to me like that, he spoke up, hands clenched at his sides. We cant? Whos going to stop us? You? Max laughed harshly and elbowed his brother. The little girl is trying to tell us
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what we can and cant do. Like she can stop us from doing anything. Zane stayed silent, and for the first time, Ronnie looked into one of his tormenters eyes and saw compassion mingled with shame. Come on, Max. Were going to be late for class. Its not worth it. Zane took a step back, unwilling to continue antagonizing Ronnie. When did you turn into such a girl? Max swung a punch at Ronnie. He remembered what Lucius had shown him the night before about dodging blows. Ducking, he let Maxs fist slide off his shoulder. There was a lot of power behind Maxs fist, but Ronnie only caught some of it. Ronnie kicked out and nailed Max in the balls. The bigger guys eyes rolled back in his head and he fell to the floor, gasping like a goldfish out of water. Ronnie stood over him, watching Max writhe on the ground, holding his balls. Glancing up, he saw Zane standing there, hands shoved in his pockets. Are you going to do something about it? He swallowed his fear. Hed always be bullied and picked on, if he didnt start standing up for himself. Luckily, he had someone to back him now instead of always feeling alone. No. Zane shook his head and apologized. Im sorry, Ronnie, about picking on you. It aint right, and I wont do it again. Ill try to keep Max away from you. Lucius stepped into the clearing created by the students and glared at Zane. Well, we know Ronnie can take care of himself now. Just make sure your brother remembers what happened this time.
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He ignored the still-groaning Max as he crouched to pick up Ronnies books. After cradling the pile in his arms, he straightened and offered Ronnie his arm. Lets get out of here. Youll be late for French, and I dont want the teacher to keep you late for lunch. Ronnie stepped over Max and slid his hand into the crook of Lucius arm. Someone in the crowd snickered, but Ronnie didnt care anymore. He could defend himself, if he chose to, and Lucius would be there to protect him if he couldnt. Senior year was looking up. * * *
Do you know if Ms. Cindi or Mr. Percy was expecting anyone tonight, Ms. Lake? Tomass question broke through the memories playing in Ronnies mind. He glanced ahead and saw a figure standing on the sidewalk in front of the courtyard leading to Cindis. He squinted to get a clearer view of the man. Shit. He just cant take no for an answer. His parents totally spoiled him as a child. Is that the senator? Yes. Ronnie stopped Tomas from continuing. Come on; lets head to Slys. You can let Cindi know the senators at her place, so she doesnt get surprised. Ill call Lucius. Slys was a bar just around the corner from Cindis place. Thank God, the bar was still open. Sometimes, when they couldnt sleep, Cindi, Percy, and Ronnie would go there to unwind. Sly didnt care. They managed to duck around the corner and into Slys
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through the side door before Cameron spotted them. Ronnie dug out his phone and Lucius card. Tomas knocked on Slys office door. Whats the racket out here? Sly stuck his head out the door and grinned when he saw it was Tomas and Ronnie standing there. Come for a night cap? Sort of. We need a place to hide out for a few. Tomas waved as they walked past. Sure. You hiding out from that bum whos been stalking you? Sly followed them into the main room of the bar. Yes. I need to use your phone to call Ms. Cindi. Tomas headed for Slys phone. Ronnie dialed Lucius number, pulse racing. Montagne. Lucius voice was low and rough, like Ronnie had woken him from a sound sleep. Oh, Lucius, Im sorry about calling so late. Ronnie frowned. Dont worry, honey. Whats wrong? Cameron was waiting outside of Cindis when I returned home. Pacing, he brought the end of his ponytail to his mouth and started chewing on it. Stop chewing on your hair, Ronnie. Tell me where you are, and Ill come and get you. You can crash at my place tonight and you can stay with me for as long as you want. Rustling sounded over the phone, and Ronnie closed his eyes, imagining Lucius climbing out of his bed and getting dressed. Ronnies cock stiffened at the thought of Lucius being naked. Would he have a chance to share Lucius bed again? Im at Slys Bar. I know where that is. Ive been there a time or two since I got
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back. Some of the guys at the precinct like to go there for a drink after work. Lucius yawned before chuckling. I shouldve just stayed around to watch the rest of your show. Im sorry. I know you have to get up early. Ronnie nibbled on his hair again. Lucius grunted. Ronnie, I told you stop chewing on your hair. Its okay. When we were in high school, I said Id always come if you needed me and I meant it. Things havent changed in the ten years since weve seen each other. Okay. Ill try not to feel guilty. He laughed softly. Good. Try to relax and not to worry. Im sure Slys bouncers will keep an eye out for the senator if you ask them. Who else is with you? Ronnie looked over at Tomas, leaning against the bar and sipping from a beer bottle. Tomas walked me home and hes still here. A door shutting sounded under Lucius voice. Good. Ask him to stay until I get there. It should take me about ten minutes. Just dont go outside until I call you to let you know Im outside. Thanks, Lucius. Hang up, Ronnie, and have a drink. Ill be there soon and Ill take care of it all.
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CHAPTER 3
Lucius gritted his teeth as he drove through the nearly empty New Orleans streets, heading from his place in the Garden District into the Quarter. Who the hell did Cameron think he was? What right did he have to terrorize people, especially a person as wonderful and sensitive as Ronnie? His grip on the steering wheel turned his knuckles white. He had to admit Cameron had good taste wanting Ronnie, but Lucius didnt plan on letting the man harass his friend any more. It didnt matter how rich or powerful the man was or who his friends were. Forcing someone to spend time with him or her when that person doesnt want to was wrong and cruel. Not to mention, illegal. Pulling to a stop in front of Slys bar, he dug out his phone and
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dialed Ronnies number. Hello? Im outside, honey. Have Tomas walk you to the car. Ronnies laugh eased some of Lucius worries. Im not some celebrity being stalked by the paparazzi. I can hardly believe that man has fixated on me. Lucius watched the front door. Well, I hate to admit this. For the first and only time, I agree with Cameron on something. I find you unforgettable as well. Flattery will get you something, Mr. Montagne. He climbed out of the car and walked around it to open the passenger door when Ronnie stepped from the bar. Tomas stayed with him step for step. Lucius enjoyed the view of Ronnie in tight jeans and high heels, making the mans legs look a mile long. He noticed how Ronnie glanced up and down the street. Unless hes in a doorway, hes not around. Please, get in and Ill take you to my place. Ms. Cindi knows youll be with me? Ronnie dashed across the sidewalk and into the car. Lucius made sure he was safely in before shutting the door. Thanks, man. I appreciate you taking care of Ronnie. He shook Tomass hand after taking the bag the bouncer carried. You told me to, plus Ms. Lakes a nice person. Been good to me. Its not right what that asshole is doing to her. Tomas grimaced. Ms. Cindi and Mr. Percy know shes staying with you. You mustve made a good impression because Ms. Cindi didnt protest at all. Good. Lucius returned to his side of the car. After opening the door, he tossed the bag in the backseat. Ronniell call Cindi in the morning. Tomas waved good-bye and strolled back in the direction of the
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cabaret. Lucius slid behind the wheel and started the car. He pulled into traffic and headed home, reaching for Ronnies hand as he drove. Cindi said I shouldve gone home with you earlier, Ronnie murmured, his grasp on Lucius hand firm. I wouldve liked that, but I figured it was too soon to ask. Hell, this is only the second time weve seen each other in a decade. As much as I always believed wed be attracted to each other after all these years, I dont want to rush anything. He winked at Ronnie. Besides, I didnt want to come off all stalkerish. Oh, good. One stalker is quite enough for me. Ronnie seemed to relax the farther Lucius drove away from the Quarter. I noticed the waiter at the club and Tomas both call you Ms. Lake. This might be a question I shouldnt ask, but do you identify as male or female? Again, Lucius was uncomfortable asking, but he wanted to treat Ronnie with respect and part of doing that was calling him by the right pronoun, as silly as it might seem to others. They usually only do it at the club. Its my stage persona. Just because I dress like a girl doesnt mean I want to be one. Ronnie chuckled. I like having a dick. Im very glad you have one as well. Lucius laughed. He saw Ronnie studying him out of the corner of his eye. What is it? Would it have made you nervous if you had to call me ms. or she? Ronnie had the right to an honest answer, and Lucius never wanted to lie to him either. At first, it probably would have. He could almost hear the apology sitting on Ronnies tongue.
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He shook his head. Dont say youre sorry. It wouldve been my problem to deal with, along with getting used to you dressing in womens clothes. Its a part of you, Ronnie. It makes you the beautiful, sexy man I cared about all those years ago. They stopped at a red light, and Lucius met Ronnies teary gaze. He rubbed his thumb over Ronnies bottom lip, enjoying the slickness of the lip-gloss covering Ronnies plump mouth. Youve changed. I think the years have given you a maturity and confidence you didnt have before, and I have to admit, the older you turns me on a hundred times faster than when we were eighteen. The blush staining Ronnies cheeks was prettier than any make-up Ronnie could put on in Lucius opinion. Seriously? A car honked behind him, and he stepped on the gas. They continued, and Lucius nodded. Yes, Im serious. Im not ashamed to tell you I want you in my bed, but not tonight. Maybe not even tomorrow night. Id like to take you out on a date and show you how special you are to me. Do it right, instead of jumping you like I did when I was eighteen. Ronnie squeezed his hand. See, I told Cindi you think you did something wrong, but I dont see it that way. How do you see it? Lucius had worried Ronnie would hate him for leaving him, or at least resent him for taking his virginity. Ronnie peered over at him for a moment and shook his head. Im not going to tell you just yet. After weve spent a few days together, Ill tell you. Okay. Lucius could wait until Ronnie felt like telling him. It
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wasnt like he would abandon Ronnie again. Hed spent ten years holding Ronnies memory tight to his heart, never letting anyone know how he cared for the young man hed left behind. Yet it looked like Ronnie had done well for himself. Hows your mother? He figured that was a safe topic. I dont know. I havent seen her in ten years. I stayed in New Orleans after you left and Ive only gone home once since then. It was a couple of months after I got my job at the cabaret. She hadnt even noticed I was missing. Decided if she didnt notice my absence, I wasnt going to waste my time worrying about her. Lucius snorted softly. I send my dad a card on his birthday and Christmas, but we dont talk or see each other. He disowned me when I told him I was gay. Their loss, right? Your mother doesnt know how great a son she has. Thank you, but I sometimes think you were the only one who thought that when I was younger. Ronnie stared out the window, a pensive expression on his face. Well, people are idiots. What can I say? But look at all the people who know how marvelous you are now. Not just your friends at the club, but all the people who come to watch your show. Im sure Cindi and Percy feel like youre part of their family or they wouldnt have opened their home to you. Lucius parked on the street just a few feet from the Victorian house he owned. I hope youve always known no matter what, youre a part of my life, even if I dont happen to be around. If youd called me, Id have come to help you. Ronnie didnt say anything until they were inside Lucius apartment. It took up the entire top floor of the building. Ronnie stared around in awed wonder. How can you afford this?
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A high vaulted ceiling graced the living room, dining room, and kitchen area. Large windows looked out onto the street and one set of French doors led to a small balcony. Ronnie glanced out the French doors and spied another small courtyard in the back of the building and how the bottom apartment opened onto it. The other apartment had a balcony in the front and one looking out into the back yard. In Lucius place, walls had been built to separate out two bedrooms and the bathroom. Lucius had grabbed Ronnies bag from the car and he gestured down the hallway. Ill show you to your bedroom. The sheets are clean since I havent had any guests for a month or so. Oh, one of my buddies in the army owned this entire house. We became pretty good friends when he learned I was from Louisiana as well. Unfortunately, he was killed by a sniper two weeks before he was to ship home. Oh, Lucius, Im so sorry. Ronnie rested his hand on Lucius shoulder, and Lucius covered it with his free hand. Thanks. I mourned him when I got back here. Come to find out, he didnt have any family, so hed left it to me. Said he wanted to give it to someone who would appreciate it. I do the maintenance on the other apartments for the people who live there. Its worked out good for me. I certainly wouldnt be able to afford this place on my salary. He pushed open the door to the right. Heres your room. He set the bag on the bed and turned to see Ronnie standing in the doorway. There were black smudges under Ronnies eyes, telling Lucius his friend was running out of energy quickly. Is there something wrong with the room? He glanced around. Interior decorating wasnt a trait he had, so hed left the guest
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room the way hed found it. Rather bland in tan and white. It didnt really suit Ronnies personality, or at least thats how Lucius felt about it. Maybe Ronnie felt the same way. No, theres nothing wrong. Ronnie bit his bottom lip, and Lucius groaned softly, wanting to be the one who did that. Then why dont you look happy? Ronnie tugged on the end of his ponytail while he stared down at the hardwood floor. I guess I was hoping Id be sharing your bed tonight. In two steps, Lucius stood directly in front of Ronnie. Using his knuckle, he lifted Ronnies face so those brilliant hazel eyes met his. Everything about Ronnie spoke to Lucius, digging deep into his soul where hed cherished all his memories of their time together. You can share my bed any time you want to, honey. I didnt want to rush things or presume anything since youre here because some jackass is trying to force himself into your life. You should be asked, Ronnie, never told what to do. Lucius dropped a gentle kiss to Ronnies cheek. Come on. Ill show you my bedroom and the bathroom. You can take a shower and get ready for bed. Theres an unopened toothbrush in the drawer under the sink. Ronnie pouted slightly, and Lucius laughed. You need to sleep and so do I. Youve been up late and had a little bit of a scare. I have to get up in four hours to meet with my boss. Well revisit what you were thinking later, when were both more awake. Promise? Ronnie looked happier. Have I ever broken my word to you? Ronnie shook his head. Youre the only one who hasnt. Then you can trust me when I say that well be having fun in
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bed soon enough. He slapped Ronnies ass as they stopped outside Lucius bedroom. Heres my room and the bathrooms across the hall. There are clean towels and everything in there. If you want something to sleep in, there are T-shirts and sweats in the top drawer. When you get up, why dont you run over to Cindis place and pack? Bring some clothes over you can wear for the rest of the week, and on the weekend, well move the rest of your wardrobe over. Are you sure you want to do that? I have a lot of clothes. Ronnie grinned. Im not surprised. Good thing theres a walk-in closet in the guest bedroom. You can fill it to your hearts content. Lucius watched Ronnie slip into his bedroom before turning to head back to the living room. He wanted to write up what had happened tonight. He planned to add it to the file he was gathering on Cameron. The senator stalked blonde women regularly in D.C. and New Orleans, but every time someone complained, they were dismissed because Cameron was as charming as the anti-Christ, plus no one could ever find any evidence tying the senator to the stalkings. He wasnt sure why the senator chose to continue to harass Ronnie since the man wasnt blond like the others, but Cameron was crazy, so there really wasnt any rational explanation for what he did. All the other cops bought his lies hook, line and sinker, but not Lucius. Not after having read Ronnies first complaint. The officer who had taken Ronnies statement had written down a snide comment about not believing that the senator would chase a tranny. Lucius planned to point that out to his boss in their meeting.
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A gut instinct warned Lucius that Cameron was a serial stalker and it could escalate into more, if something wasnt done soon. Actually, he feared it already had. One of the ladies who complained and asked for a restraining order against the senator had disappeared. When Lucius asked the officer who had taken her first statement about it, the man dismissed it as just a disgruntled ex-girlfriend trying to get revenge on the senator. Maybe so, but it didnt explain why the woman had gone missing. Lucius swore nothing would happen to Ronnie. Cameron would never get his dirty hands on him. Mostly because no man, no matter how powerful, had the right to terrorize other people into doing what he wanted. The other part was because Ronnie was Lucius and no one else got to have him. Well, unless Ronnie wanted the other person and didnt want Lucius. The water kicked on, and Lucius fired up his laptop, quickly typing up everything that had happened tonight. Hed get Ronnie to go over it and make sure he got all the details right. He shot an email off to his friend at the Bureau. When hed asked him for the information on Cameron, Lucius had promised the agent hed keep him updated on what went on down in New Orleans. Lucius. He looked up and almost swallowed his tongue. Ronnie stood in the doorway, one foot resting on top of the other, wearing one of Lucius T-shirts. His hands were clasped behind him in a shy demeanor that suited Ronnie. Lucius shut his computer down and set it on the coffee table. He pushed to his feet and approached the slender man. After encircling Ronnies waist, he pulled Ronnie closer to him. Ronnie raised his arms and wrapped them around Lucius neck. Their lips came together in a gentle kiss, welcoming and
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caring. Lucius nibbled along Ronnies bottom lip, sucking on it softly to soothe the sting of his bite. Ronnie whimpered and tried to climb Lucius, but Lucius eased back a few inches and shook his head. Lets go to bed, Ronnie. Youre exhausted and so am I. When I make love to you, I want us both to be awake for it. He kissed Ronnie again quickly. Youre too special to fuck fast and leave behind. No ones ever believed that about me before, Ronnie murmured. I guess they see the clothes and assume Im crazy or kinky. Ive had guys want to tie me down and whip me. Or they want to do other things to me. Im not saying those things are terrible or anything like that because its not like I can talk, right? But Im not into those things. I just like pretty things, yet some people think that gives them a green light to use me. Lucius swept Ronnie into his arms and carried him back toward his bedroom. If I ever do anything you dont like, you tell me. Id prefer to do nothing to disrespect you or make you feel bad. Ronnie rested his head on Lucius shoulder. Youre doing pretty good so far, but believe me, Ill tell you what I think. Youve been the one person Ive trusted to accept me, warts and all. Wait. You have warts? He set Ronnie down on the bed. That might be a deal-breaker. The giggles coming from Ronnie made Lucius laugh and dodge Ronnies fist as the man tried to punch him. They wrestled on the bed until Ronnie ended up on top and Lucius was pinned to the mattress, or at least he pretended to be. Youre a dip shit, cher. Ronnie kissed him, smiling the entire time.
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That might be the truth. He rested his hands on Ronnies hips. Lucius fingers slipped under the hem of the T-shirt and rubbed along the edge of Ronnies black lace panties. Oh, these are nice. Ronnie wiggled slightly, his tight ass moving against Lucius cock. A groan tore out of Lucius chest and he tightened his grip on Ronnies hips. Lie down next to me, honey. Lets get some sleep. They snuggled together under the covers. Lucius spooned with Ronnie; his hand rested on Ronnies flat stomach and he nuzzled Ronnies neck. Ronnie had braided his hair to keep it out of his face. I used to dream about your hair, that and your singing. I relived all those times you sang me to sleep when Id stay over at your house, Lucius admitted in the dark as they settled down. Do you want me to sing to you? He shook his head. Not tonight. Youve used your voice enough. I just wanted you to know I did think about you while I was gone. You were a part of everything I did because you meant home to me. Not my parents or even my grandmother. After I met you, you became my family. Im sorry for leaving you that day. Ronnie rolled over to face Lucius. I know you think you abandoned me, but you didnt. I knew you were leaving the next day. I didnt expect you to change your mind or anything. I chose to give my virginity to you. You were my first love. Whom else would I have given it to? Your first love? Really? Lucius met Ronnies eyes and saw the honesty in them. Wow, I dont think Ive been anyones first. Well, you were mine, and I clung to that night with my whole heart because while it wasnt the best sex Id ever had, it was the
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only time I made love to someone who loved me. Ronnie dropped his gaze. Or someone I thought loved me. Lucius cupped Ronnies cheeks in his hands and waited until Ronnie looked at him. I loved you, Ronnie Lake. Is it too soon for me to admit I still love you? Why would you consider it too soon? Ronnie covered Lucius hands with his. We just found each other again after ten years. How do we know if were compatible any more? Maybe you dont want a barely making it police detective. Ive got crappy long hours. I cant guarantee Ill be home at five every night. Ronnie snorted. Cher, Im a guy who dresses in drag, not just for my job, but all the time. Youve got lousy hours, and so do I. I work from nine at night to three in the morning. Usually I sleep until five, then I do very mundane things. Ive got crazy friends you havent met yet, but once you do, youll agree with me. I make a living impersonating a woman. I like your job. It suits you. And your job suits you. Protecting people from the bad guys. Ronnie rubbed his face into Lucius palms. There are worse guys I could hook up with than a barely making it detective. Im willing to take my chances and see where this could lead us. We had to split up for us to grow, so when we finally get back together, were ready for a serious relationship. I do believe youre a romantic at heart, Ms. Lake. Ronnie chuckled, but didnt deny it. Lucius made a note to send Ronnie flowers the next day at the club. He wanted to let everyone know Ronnie had a man who appreciated him. He would have to make a point to get to know Ronnies friends. Lucius, you didnt mention your mother. Is she still alive?
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Lucius let go of Ronnie and rolled over on his back to stare up at the ceiling. No. She died about five years ago from cirrhosis of the liver. Seems she was an alcoholic. Ronnie propped his head up on his hand and trailed a finger over Lucius chest. Why dont you get out of those clothes and tell me about it? After climbing out of the bed, he stripped off his clothes, letting them fall to the floor without worrying about wrinkles. He went to the bathroom where he brushed his teeth and took a piss. Lucius didnt really want to talk about his mother, not even to Ronnie, though, of anyone, Ronnie was the most likely to understand and least likely to judge. He got back to the bed and slipped under the blankets. When he settled, Ronnie crawled back into his embrace, laying his head on Lucius chest. Lucius inhaled deeply, filling his nose with the soothing scent of Ronnie. She was an alcoholic? Ronnies soft question brought back his shame and guilt at never knowing how much his mother suffered. Yeah. I didnt know it until she died. I spent as much time away from home as I could when I was in school. You know that because Id stay with you as much as your mother would let me. Which was a lot, but I dont think she noticed how much time you spent with me. She was so wrapped up in herself, no one else mattered, Ronnie muttered. They both had their own demons to deal with. Maybe that was one reason why they had gravitated to each other in school. Im not sure when she started, whether she drank while I was in school or if it started after I left for the army. All I know is when I was in Afghanistan, she was diagnosed with cancer and the
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doctor I talked to said it had to do with all the alcohol shed consumed. I guess after my dad got injured on one of the oilrigs, he was home all the time and Mom couldnt handle it. God didnt help her get over the pain. Did your dad hurt her? Lucius shrugged. I dont know. Dads never talked to me about her. My moms parents were dead before I was ten, so I couldnt ask them. My dads mom never really got along with my mom. She couldnt tell me anything. I miss her still. Ronnie nodded. I know what you mean. At times, I miss my mom, and we werent as close as you were with yours. Did she know you were gay? No. That probably wouldve driven her to drink even more. Mom was a strict Catholic and being gay was a huge sin in her world. He hugged Ronnie closer. Shed have dragged me to church for her priest to pray over, Im sure. Dad doesnt like the fact Im gay, but I dont think his problem has to do with God. Im sorry shes dead, Lucius. Im sure it hurt a lot when she died. It did, but you know what I did the night of her funeral? He blushed slightly as he remembered. What? Ronnie stroked his hand over Lucius chest like he was trying to soothe him. I went out to the river with my iPod and played Amazing Grace. I knew it was her favorite hymn and I thought itd be the best way to send her off to heaven. I wish Id been there to sing it for you. Ronnie sat up. Before Lucius could say anything more, Ronnie had him wrapped in his arms with Lucius head resting on his shoulder, comforting him, instead of Lucius taking care of Ronnie. He closed
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his eyes, absorbing Ronnies warmth. Let me sing you to sleep, Lucius. He couldnt deny Ronnie anything, and if it helped ease his own soul, why not? Amazing Grace/how sweet the sound that saved a wretch like me Ronnies sweet voice lulled Lucius to sleep and the last thought Lucius had before he drifted off was how wonderful it was to have Ronnie sharing his bed. He didnt want to lose that again.
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The mattress behind Ronnie dipped as Lucius climbed from their bed. Ronnie rolled over and sat up, rubbing his eyes. Is it time for you to go in? Yes. Go back to sleep, honey. Ill call you later on this afternoon and we can meet for dinner before you head to work. Ronnie waited until he heard the shower running before he slipped out of bed and headed for the kitchen. By the time Lucius finished getting ready, he had a plate of eggs, bacon, and toast ready for Lucius, along with coffee. I told you to stay in bed, Ronnie. You didnt have to do this for me. He glanced over his shoulder and smiled at Lucius. I can always go back to bed after you leave. Remember how you made
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me eat breakfast? You said it was the most important meal of the day. And now if I get a beignet and a coffee in the morning, Im lucky. Lucius came over and enveloped Ronnie in a hug. Ronnie leaned back against the bigger man, silently savoring Lucius freshly showered scent. He sighed when Lucius kissed the side of his neck before going to the table. Ronnie finished washing the few pots hed used and, after grabbing his glass of juice, he joined Lucius. He sat down and curled his legs under him. Lucius happy moan made Ronnie feel better than anything else had in a while. He jumped when Lucius reached across the table and grasped his hand. Thank you for the song last night. It means a lot to me. A grin graced Ronnies face and he knew he probably looked silly, but everything about Lucius made him happy. Singing for you is my favorite thing to do. Lucius checked his watch. Shit. I have to go or Ill be late. Ronnie stood and followed Lucius to the door. He watched as Lucius took a small box out of the hall closet and unlocked it. Lucius pulled out a gun in a holster and hooked it to his belt where his badge and phone were already clipped. My off-duty piece is in the night stand next to the bed if you ever need it. I doubt Id ever be able to shoot someone, he protested. Lucius eyed him. You never thought youd be able to fight back when the Brosier twins bullied you and look how you handled them. Chuckling, Ronnie held up his hands. Okay, you have a point there. One more thing. Here are the keys to my apartment and the
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street entrance door. Also, heres the alarm code. If you leave before I get home, just set the alarm and lock up. Stunned, he accepted everything and a kiss from Lucius. Hed never been important enough to anyone to be given a key. Cindi and Percy didnt count. They were friends, not boyfriends. None of the guys he dated were very accepting of his clothing choices. Oh, theyd say they were fine with it, but they would never introduce him to their friends or family. They certainly never gave him a key to their apartment. He locked the door behind Lucius, then searched through the apartment, finding the washer and dryer. Tossing his clothes in, he started the washer before climbing back into bed. He was used to functioning on a small amount of sleep, but, given the opportunity, he would rather curl up under blankets and nap until late afternoon. A buzzing woke him and he looked at the clock next to the bed. It was noon, and the buzzing was his phone. Grabbing it off the nightstand, he sat up and answered it. Hello? So, sweetheart, did you shag all night long? He laughed. Cindi, its none of your damned business if we fucked or not. Cindis pout could be heard over the phone. But I want to live vicariously through young lovers. Cindi, dont pretend you and Percy dont have sex every day, several times in fact. Youre just nosy and a pervert. You do know me. Cindi laughed along with Ronnie. When they sobered up, his friend asked, How are you holding up, sugar? Pretty good actually. He gave me the key to his apartment, he blurted out, hugging Lucius pillow to his chest.
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No? Really? Cindi sounded surprised, for which Ronnie couldnt blame him. Cindid gone through the same experiences Ronnie had until he found Percy. How does that make you feel? Its too soon to be in love with Lucius, isnt it? He bit his lip, waiting to hear all the reasons why he shouldnt be falling in love with Lucius. Cindi chuckled. Youve been in love with that man for as long as Ive known you. I dont think theres anything soon about it. Do you know how he feels about you? He told me he still loved me, but hes afraid its too soon for us to jump right into a serious relationship. Ronnie sighed and stared out the French doors opposite the bed. Yet hes always been in my heart, ever since the first day we met. I never wanted to forget him because he made me feel safe and lovable. You are lovable, sugar. Dont let anyone tell you different. Im reserving judgment on your detective. I dont know him well, so I dont want to have an opinion on him. But if hes the reason you looked so happy last night, Im willing to give him the benefit of the doubt. A voice mumbled in the background, and Cindi snorted. Percy said you tell Lucius that if he hurts you, hell have to deal with Percy. Ronnie giggled because the image of Percy facing Lucius down was like a Chihuahua going after a Great Dane. Yet he knew Percy would stand up for him. Cindis partner had done it before when Cameron kept coming around. Ill let Lucius know. We should all meet for dinner soon. Actually, Im going to come over and pack a bag of stuff for the next couple of days. Then on the weekend, Lucius said we could move the rest of my things into his apartment. He panicked. Is it
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too soon to be moving in together? Cindi snorted. I moved in with Percy the night we met. I think waiting ten years and however many days is long enough. Did you sleep together last night? And I dont mean doing the horizontal mambo either, though if you want to tell me about that, Id suffer through it. I bet you would. He smiled and thought about how well hed slept last night in Lucius arms. Yes, we shared a bed. And he didnt force you? No, he wouldnt do that, Ronnie snapped. Then I dont think you need to worry about it being too soon. It sounds like if you decide you want to sleep in your own bed, he wouldnt fight you on it. He might not like it, but he wont make you do anything you didnt like. Cindi sighed. Sugar, go with your gut on this one. Has it ever led you wrong concerning this man? Ronnie thought about all the choices he made in his life that Lucius was a part of. No, it really hasnt. Some things have happened I wasnt expecting, but they turned out to be good for me. And it feels right to be with him, to care for him, and let him take care of you? Yes. Cindis voice was soft and understanding. Then thats all you need to know. Give up control of your heart, Ronnie, and fall. Lucius will be there to catch you. Hes already given you his heart. Dont you think you should return the favor? He loved talking to Cindi. It was how his conversations with his mother would go, if they ever talked to each other. Youre right. Ill come over before work tonight and pack a
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bag. Then Lucius and I will be over on Saturday to get the rest of my stuff. He paused. I hate doing this, but can you make sure no one knows where Im staying? I dont want Cameron showing up here. Cindi grunted. I think the senator is in for a rude awakening if he tries anything with you. Unlike most of the people here in New Orleans, Lucius doesnt seem impressed by Cameron. If something does happen, Lucius isnt going to discount you as some weird-o. Being overlooked or dismissed as weirdoes or crazies was a common occurrence for the ladies at the cabaret. They dealt with it the best they could, mostly by ignoring the snide comments and rude gestures. If someone got threatened, they banded together instead of going to the cops. Yet Ronnie did believe having Lucius around would help the rest of them. I have to go, sugar. Have to go into the club and do some paperwork. I look forward to spending some more time with your man. See you tonight. Cindi blew a kiss in the phone before hanging up. Ronnie set his phone down and got up. He switched his clothes from the washer to the dryer before starting a new pot of coffee brewing. A hot shower and another T-shirt of Lucius made him feel better, though when he looked at himself in the mirror, he burst out laughing. He looked like a little kid wearing his dads Tshirt. Tugging on some sweat pants, he wished he had his running shoes. Instead of running, he meditated and did yoga to stretch his muscles and calm his mind. By the time he finished, the coffee was done. He poured himself a cup and stepped out on the front balcony to sit outside. Settling into one of the wicker chairs, he set his heel on the edge of the seat and rested his chin on his knee.
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Ronnie loved his city. The passion and pride thrived on the streets and in the people who lived there. History was built into the very bricks of the houses and buildings. Not even a hurricane could break the spirit of the people. He and his friends had gone to New York City until the government said it was okay to come back. None of them had ever considered moving somewhere else. New Orleans was in their blood. It had been home in a way no other city could ever be for Ronnie, yet he knew if Lucius wanted to leave, Ronnie would pack up all of his belongings and follow. In the most fundamental way, Lucius was now Ronnies home and he would happily go to the moon with the man. He sipped his coffee and watched the city bustle below him. After draining the last drop, he stood and stretched, making his way toward the bedroom. He grabbed his clean clothes out of the dryer and went in to take a shower. Forty-five minutes later, he slipped into his heels and ran some lip-gloss over his lips. Thank goodness, he kept a make-up bag in his duffle with the rest of his working things. One more fluff of his hair and he headed out, making sure to set the alarm and lock the door behind him. As he headed down the stairs, he heard one of the other apartment doors open. Young lady, a shaking voice called out to him. Ronnie was used to being mistaken for a woman. He paused and turned with a smile. Yes, maam. Could you help me please? I saw you come from upstairs. I thought Lucius liked men. The little elderly lady waved him over to her apartment. He still does. Ronnie stepped into her entryway and glanced around, his eyes lighting up at the pictures on the walls. Are those
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you? She looked at them with a nostalgic smile. Yes. I used to be quite the looker in my time. Used to have dinner with Alan Ladd and Cary Grant. All the big-name stars called me when they needed a date. Ronnie met her gaze, and she winked. He laughed and set his duffle bag on the floor. What can I help you with? My name is MaeAnne Brothers. She held out her hand. Feeling the paper-thin skin beneath his fingers, Ronnie gently shook her hand. Im Ronnie Lake. You, Mr. Lake, are no girl, so Im glad to know Lucius hasnt been corrupted by those straight men at work. She shivered. Lucius is so nice, and Im always afraid hell turn into a chauvinistic jerk like my brother-in-law was. Dont worry about that, Ms. Brothers. Lucius couldnt be an ass if he tried. At least to people he cares about. MaeAnne giggled like a young girl. Thats true. Now, I wondered if you could help me get a box out of my closet. Its on the top shelf. Sure. Lead me to it. Ronnie slipped off his shoes and padded after the tiny lady down her hallway. He gawked at all the pictures gracing the walls. MaeAnne had been beautiful and while the beauty had faded slightly, she would still stand out in a crowd. Ronnie gasped and froze as he spotted one photo. You met Veronica Lake? MaeAnne came back toward him. Yes. I was an extra on So Proudly We Hail with her and Claudette Colbert. Claudette was a professional and quite generous when she wished to be. Admittedly, she didnt hang out with the extras much, but who
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would expect that? She had a little quirk of always wanting to be filmed from the left side. Guess she liked that half of her face. What about Veronica? Ah, well, she was a different story. You look like her, so I assume you work at one of the clubs that feature female impersonators. He nodded, not ashamed of his job. Oh, Id like to go and see one of those shows. I dont drive anymore and some days are better than others for me to get out of the house. She pointed at the photo of her and Veronica. Veronica could be a bit of a pain to work with, even that early in her career. Very demanding and, at times, mean. You know, they say she drank a lot and had mental issues. Ronnie stuck his hands in his pockets. Yeah, I heard that. You know, Ms. Brothers, I could arrange for you to get tickets to one of the shows. Im sure if we ask nicely, Lucius would bring you. Id like that, Ronnie. Lets get that box. Im sure you have more important things to do than hang around talking to an old woman like me. He didnt think anything would be more interesting than sitting down and chatting with MaeAnne about her time in Hollywood during the golden age of movies. Yet he didnt want to overstay his welcome either. He went into the bedroom and headed over to the closet. Its the dark blue box. MaeAnne gestured toward one of the boxes to the right on the shelf. Got it. Ronnie rose up on his tiptoes and yanked the box off. He caught the box in his arms and staggered slightly under the weight. Where do you want it?
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Would it be too much to ask you to bring it out to the living room for me? No problem. They returned to the living room and he set it on the coffee table. MaeAnne sat on the couch and ran her hand over the boxs top. He noticed how her hand shook. Can I get you anything else, Ms. Brothers? She smiled and shook her head. No, and please, call me MaeAnne. Im sure Ill be seeing more of you around here since you were leaving Lucius apartment. He doesnt let his dates spend the night. So you must be special to him. His cheeks heating, Ronnie ducked his head. We were friends back in high school, and we just reconnected last night. Im having some personal problems, so Lucius is letting me crash at his place. A knight in shining armor, MaeAnne murmured. Ronnie didnt like how pale she looked, so he looked around to find her sweater. After picking it up, he held it out to her. MaeAnne, would you like to go have lunch with me? I havent eaten yet, and Id love to talk to you some more about your days in Hollywood. I bet you know all the good gossip from back then. At first he thought she was going to refuse him, but something flashed over her face, and he realized MaeAnne was lonely. It seemed obvious she didnt get many visitors and probably didnt have any family in the city to come make sure she was okay. Id love to have lunch with such a handsome young man like yourself, but Lucius isnt expecting you or anything, is he? She stood and tugged on her sweater. No, maam. Hes at work and said hed call me later, so Im free to spend time with such an intriguing woman. He winked,
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and MaeAnne laughed, slapping his arm as he offered it to her. Ill just leave my bag here while were out and Ill pick it up later. He waited at the door while she gathered her purse and keys. After checking to make sure he had everything he needed and that she locked her door, Ronnie escorted MaeAnne downstairs and outside. They strolled slowly down to St. Charles Avenue, making idle talk and enjoying the cool weather. How long have you lived in New Orleans? Oh, I came to the city in the sixties. Quite an interesting place back then. Met so many wonderful people, though most of them are gone now. Its the pits getting old. She sighed. Well, I think you look good for whatever age you are. And all the stories you must have about people and events youve seen. Im afraid that now I know you worked in Hollywood, Ill be knocking on your door to get more insider information. Ronnie motioned to the cafe they approached. Will this be okay? Oh, yes. Its been so long since Ive gone anywhere for lunch. Ronnie held the chair for the elderly lady and swore to himself hed take her out once a week. Maybe he and Lucius could have her up for Sunday brunch or something. Have you always lived in that apartment? He settled across from her. She waited until after they gave the waitress their drink orders. Yes. Bronson was a very close friend of mine and he convinced me to come to New Orleans. He was Torys uncle. Tory was Lucius friend in the army. I was happy when Lucius inherited the building. I was afraid the city would take and sell it, and wed end up with a landowner who wouldnt understand the arrangement we
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made with Bronson before he died. How many apartments are there? Just three. One on the ground floor. Mine on the second, and Lucius on the third. The tenants on the first floor are a wonderful older gay couple. Theyve been together for at least thirty years. Bronson befriended them when they were thrown out of the place they lived before. Bronson used to own one of the big jazz clubs in the city. He knew everyone around here. He was willing to give us a break on the rent since he owned the building outright. MaeAnnes wistful smile touched Ronnies heart. You miss him, he commented. She nodded. I do miss Bronson. He was a friend when I needed one all those years ago. I was forty and pregnant with no husband in sight. He couldve turned his back on me like everyone else had, but he opened his home to me. Bronson gave me a job and took care of me when I lost the baby. Oh, MaeAnne, Im so sorry. I didnt mean to drag up bad memories. He leaned over and patted her hand. She waved away his concern. Thank you, Ronnie, but Ive come to terms with my grief. There will always be a little ache in my heart, yet Ive come to love other children. Tory, Bronsons nephew, became like a son to me, and so has Lucius. He goes out of his way to spend time with Randall, Preston and me, every weekend when he can. If he cant on the weekend, then we get together sometime during the week. Hes adopted us old people. I can understand why. The waitress returned, and they continued talking after giving her their food order. Ronnie lost track of time while he chatted with MaeAnne. Finally, when their plates were empty, and he checked his watch, he saw two hours had gone by and he still had
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to go and get his clothes from Cindis place. That was wonderful, Ronnie, but I really should be getting back home. He paid for their meal and walked MaeAnne back to her apartment, where he picked up his bag before heading out to catch a cab to Cindis place. His phone rang while he was in the taxi. After tugging it out, he checked the number and answered. I adore MaeAnne, he said. Lucius chuckled. I thought youd like her. I planned on introducing you to the others this weekend. I wanted to have them over for Sunday brunch. You just jumped ahead of me. Oh, I was hoping youd be willing to have all of them over more often. I had lunch with MaeAnne, and shes the best. Im on my way to Cindis right now to pick up some clothes and then Ill be back at the apartment. I dont have to be at the club until eight. It takes me a while to get ready for my set. Sounds good to me, honey. I should be home by six and then we can decide what to have for dinner. Ill take you to the club. I can take a cab. I dont want you to take too much of your time up by escorting me back and forth, he protested. Lucius tsked. Ronnie, you dont realize I dont see it as wasting my time. I want to be with you, and the more time I get to spend with you, the better. So dont try to talk me out of it. Im not listening. He laughed along with Lucius. The cab pulled to a stop in front of Cindis apartment building. Just a sec. I have to pay the cabbie. He tucked his phone between his ear and shoulder while handing the cabbie the money for the ride. After he let himself into Cindis, he set his bag down and flopped onto the couch. Im going to have to get a Jazzy pass.
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Itd get expensive using a cab every time I go from your place to the club. No problem. Of course, youll take a cab home when youre done working for the night or I can grab a nap and pick you up. Well work that out. Lucius paused for a second before he continued, I cant tell you how much I like being able to call you and talk about what youre doing. Ive never been able to do that before. Ronnie closed his eyes and sighed at the happiness swelling in Lucius voice. I havent had that either. Cindi and my friends dont count because Im not the most important person in their lives. God, that sounds really self-centered, doesnt it? Not really. I know what youre saying. You want to be the lover and partner to someone. Yeah. He was silly to feel embarrassed by his longings. He had every right to demand to be special to someone, and Lucius wasnt laughing at him. Are you out at work? Yep. When I transferred to the Quarter, I made sure to let my captain know when he hired me, which is one reason why he wanted me working for his unit. I spent eight years hiding myself and this time, no matter what other people think, I was going to be who I was. Howd that go? Ronnie worried the bigoted people populating the police department might harass Lucius. Captain didnt seemed thrilled by it, but he couldnt very well fire me. He deals with me and doesnt make any comments. Cant say the same about others. Therell always be people who hate me because Im different. But I also have some great guys who dont care what I do in my private life. Lucius voice softened. Dont worry, Ronnie. I wont ever deny you to anyone.
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CHAPTER 5
As Lucius entered his building, the door of the first-floor apartment popped open. He smiled at Preston, who gestured to him from the doorway. How are you doing today, Preston? He signed as he walked up to Preston. The older gentleman signed to him, Good. I saw your new man today. And I must say he is a pretty young thing. Lucius glanced over Prestons shoulder to see Randall standing there with a bright grin. Ronnie is gorgeous, isnt he? Both men snorted. Preston turned to his hearing partner and signed something. Lucius was still learning sign language to be able to communicate with Preston, so he didnt always catch what he was saying.
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Preston wanted to know if he was going to join us for Sunday brunch. Randall reached out and stroked his hand down Prestons arm without seeming to think about it. Lucius loved the relationship between the men. It encouraged him to believe love could last for years instead of the few months hed seen with many couples. Of course, he had no room to talk about that since he hadnt been able to keep a guy around for more than a few months himself. Yes, Ronniell be there. Hes having some trouble with a stalker, so I told him he could move in with me. He leaned closer to both men and winked. But Im going to convince him to stay with me after we take care of his stalker. Oh, good, Preston signed. He took MaeAnne out to lunch earlier today. She really likes him as well. Ronnies always been beautiful, inside and out. Youve known him long then? Randall slipped his arm around Preston and they leaned toward each other like magnets attracting. Lucius nodded. Since high school. We lost touch when I joined the army, but we reconnected the other day. Preston clapped and laughed silently. Marvelous. Prestons fingers and hands sped through the words. I love to hear about lovers reuniting after years apart. Did you always think about him and compare all your lovers to him? NownowPreston, it isnt any of our business. Randall admonished his partner. Preston pouted, and Lucius took pity on him. In a way, yes. I didnt have a ton of lovers. I was in the army and didnt want to chance getting caught and tossed out. Yet now that I look back, I even compared my friendships to what I had
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with Ronnie. He glanced up at the ceiling. I better get upstairs. Im hoping hell be there waiting for me and we can have dinner before he leaves for work. Have a good night, and well see both of you on Sunday. Randall shook his hand, and Preston hugged him before he left. He made his way up to his apartment, excitement teeming in him, and he couldnt figure out why. Maybe it had to do with the fact there was someone waiting for him to get home from work, just like any other couple. Maybe it was because that someone waiting was Ronnie. Lucius didnt really know or care why he was so excited. Opening the door, he sniffed and his mouth started watering. His stomach growled at the aromas filling his apartment. He shut and locked the door before he put his gun away. Ronnie, where are you? Ronnie strolled out of the kitchen, and Lucius almost dropped to his knees as the lust hit him so fast and hard, all the blood fled his head to pool in his groin. Ronnie wore a black mini skirt that hit him mid-thigh paired with a silky red tank top and a fuzzy white cardigan sweater. Lucius dropped his gaze to check Ronnies feet and a small bit of disappointment hit him when he noticed Ronnie wore a pair of red flats. He wanted to see red high heels showcasing Ronnies fabulous legs, but the flats werent bad either, though that might have more to do with the black stockings Ronnie wore. Ronnies shoulderlength hair fell in a waterfall of golden brown strands. Welcome home, cher. How was work? Ronnie walked up to him, and Lucius reached out, snagged him around the waist and pulled Ronnie tight to him. He lowered his head and kissed those red lips smiling up at him.
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A soft whimper eased from between Ronnies lips as he melted into Lucius arms. Lucius slid his hands down Ronnies back to cup the mans tight ass. They shuddered as their groins met through layers of fabric. Ronnie wrapped one of his legs around Lucius thigh, and they rocked together. Lucius teased Ronnies tongue into his mouth and he sucked on it, drawing a moan from Ronnie. Just as Lucius seriously considered picking Ronnie up and carrying him into the bedroom, the buzzer in the kitchen went off. They eased apart, panting and hard. Lucius adjusted himself in his slacks, enjoying Ronnies slightly ravaged look. Lipstick smeared and clothes skewed, Ronnie looked sexy, and Lucius almost reached for him again. Dinners ready. Afterward, maybe we can have a little dessert before I go to work. The gleam in Ronnies eyes told Lucius just what dessert would be. Sounds good to me. With his desire under control, he held out his hand. Thats the best welcome home Ive had in years. You didnt have to cook dinner, you know. I know, but I like to cook. I havent had a chance to do it very often. No fun cooking for one, and Percy likes to cook as well, so I let him do it at his place. Ronnie took Lucius hand and dragged him into the kitchen. I made lasagna, garlic bread, and a salad with a balsamic vinaigrette dressing. Sounds great. He washed his hands in the sink and dried them. When he turned around, Ronnie was there with a napkin, and Lucius stood still while Ronnie cleaned the lipstick off his face. Bet you never thought youd have to be careful about lipstick stains, Ronnie joked. True, but Im not worried. You know how to get them out of
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clothes, right? Ronnie nodded. Of course. Ill give you lessons. Good. Lets eat. Lucius spotted the bottle of wine on the counter. Ill pour the wine, while you dish out the food. They got dinner on the plates. Taking his seat at the table, Lucius glanced over at Ronnie and happiness threatened to overwhelm him again. This very occurrence had been a repeating dream of his for years. It had never been a faceless man sitting across from him. It had always been Ronnie there, smiling and dressed amazingly similar to the way he was right then. Did you have a good day at work? Ronnie asked before taking a bite of the lasagna. It was okay. Got some leads for a case Im working on, so that was good, but the lab tests arent back for one murder yet, and I can feel the time ticking. Im afraid the suspect we have in mind will get away before we can prove he did it. Isnt there a way you can hurry up the lab? Lucius shook his head. Unfortunately, its not like on TV. The labs backed up with cases and it takes longer than people think to get fingerprint hits and stuff like that. He took a bit of the pasta and moaned. Ronnie beamed at his obvious enjoyment of the food. What did you do when you got up? I assume you went back to sleep after I left. Ronnie pushed his empty plate away and grinned. MaeAnnes marvelous. Shes a wonderful woman. God, the stories shes told us about some of the actors. He chuckled. I know, and I cant wait to spend more time with her. Plus Im not sure shes taking care of herself.
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Ronnies concern for an elderly woman hed just met touched Lucius deeply. He reached across and covered Ronnies hand with his. I know. We all try to make sure she eats and gets out, but sometimes I think were not doing enough. I wonder if a nursing home might not be the best thing for her, but I dont like the thought of her being left alone with people who dont know her or care about her. Ronnie frowned. Youre right. Well, if it comes to a nursing home, well do some research and see what we can find. Right now, well all take care of her. I didnt meet Randall and Preston yet. Oh, theyre quite intrigued by you. They stopped me as I was coming in to ask about you. He laughed. Its kind of like Mutt and Jeff. Preston is really tall and skinny, but if you see him, make sure hes looking at you because hes deaf. Has been for years as far as I know. Randall is short, round, and African-American. Do you know sign language? They stood and cleaned off the table, rinsing the dishes and sticking them in the dishwasher. Yeah. Once I found out Preston was deaf, I decided I should know how to talk to him, in case Randall isnt around to translate for us. Will you teach me? Sure. He held out his hand to Ronnie. Holding hands, they wandered out to the living room, where they curled up on the couch together. Lucius tugged until Ronnie straddled his thighs. He cradled the back of Ronnies head, bringing their mouths together. He tasted the spice of the lasagna and tang of the garlic on
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Ronnies tongue as he stroked his in. Ronnie sucked on his as he tried to get closer to Lucius. Their erections rubbed against each other, and Lucius wanted to learn what Ronnie tasted like. He moved the slender man to the side and dropped to his knees in front of him. Ronnie ran his fingers through Lucius hair. What are you doing? I want to taste you. Lucius pushed up the hem of Ronnies skirt and groaned as he spotted the deep blue panties. A wet spot stained the front of the fabric. Oh, honey, you steal my breath away. Looking up, he saw a puzzled look on Ronnies face. What are you thinking? Im just used to being the one in that position. Ronnie shrugged, his expression puzzled and a little sheepish. Lucius rested his hands on Ronnies knees. Do you mean no ones ever given you a blowjob before? Ronnies cheeks flamed bright red and he shook his head. No. I guess when most guys look at me, they think Id be totally a bottom and willing to do all the work. Damn, youve known some crappy guys. Lucky for you, I like it both ways. So you can do me any time you want. Really? Ronnies eyes lit up, and Lucius laughed. Yes, really, but right now, I want my dessert. Im not going to stop you, Ronnie murmured. Lucius tugged down Ronnies panties to reveal his cock. He licked his lips at the sight of that hard flesh. Ronnies prick was shorter than Lucius, but it was thicker than his. The flared head dripped clear liquid from its slit. He bent forward to lick up a drop.
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Oh, wow, Ronnie whispered. Lucius met Ronnies surprised look. Laughing, he stroked his hands up and down Ronnies smooth legs. You wax everywhere, huh? Ronnie nodded. Doesnt look good to be hairy and I like the feeling. Hmmmso do I. He hummed and placed his hand around the base of Ronnies prick. If you liked me licking you, just wait. With a wink, he rose up on his knees and leaned forward, wrapping his lips around Ronnies shaft. He took Ronnie down as far as he could, which was pretty much all the way. Lucius was proud of his ability to suck cock. The guys hed slept with had praised him for his oral talents. He wanted to make sure Ronnies first blowjob melted him. Shit! Ronnies hips arched off the couch and his hands buried themselves in Lucius hair. Lucius didnt stop him from moving. He just relaxed his throat muscles, letting Ronnie fuck his mouth. He sucked harder and played with Ronnies slit with each outward stroke. Pumping with his hand, he used every trick up his sleeve to build Ronnies pleasure. He slid his free hand up between Ronnies legs and fondled Ronnies balls, squeezing gently. Ronnie spread his thighs wider, encouraging more touching and stroking. Lucius took him up on his silent demand. Ronnie moved faster, and Lucius created stronger suction, driving Ronnie higher. Lucius, please. I need Lucius knew exactly what Ronnie needed. He pressed his fingers to the soft piece of skin right behind Ronnies balls. Lucius, Ronnie shouted as he came, flooding Lucius mouth
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and throat with hot, salty liquid. He drank Ronnies cum down like it was the most expensive wine. He sucked and pumped until he was sure he had every drop from Ronnie before he licked the softening flesh clean. Easing back, he settled on his heels and looked up at Ronnie. What a gorgeous picture. One hed keep in his mental photo album. Ronnie sprawled on the couch, thighs wide, his black skirt hiked up to his hips, his cock lying limp in a nest of dark blue silk. The lace from Ronnies black stockings brought attention to Ronnies pale skin. Not fighting the urge, Lucius leaned forward again and sucked up a mark on that smooth expanse, wanting to leave his sign of possession somewhere on Ronnie. He knew better than to put it somewhere Ronnie would need to hide it. Ronnie ran his fingers through Lucius hair and sighed. Wow. That was incredible. Why dont you let me take care of you? Lucius wrinkled his nose as he stood and pointed to his groin. Dont worry. I took care of myself while I sucked you. You came when I did? Ronnie sounded surprised and he took the hand Lucius held out to him. Yeah. Ill admit I never had that happen before, but you were so hot, I guess I couldnt control myself. He nuzzled Ronnies jaw before leading him down the hall to the bathroom. Oh. Lets take a shower. Itll be time for you to head to the club when were done. Ill drop you off, come home, and nap until you call me. Ronnie started to protest, but Lucius stopped him. No arguing with me, Ronnie. Its too far away for you to walk home, and its not safe for you to do it. Plus taking a cab every night is expensive. It wont screw up my sleeping pattern. Ill sleep
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until you call, then Ill come and pick you up. He stripped off his shirt. Youre far more important to me than my sleep, honey. Ronnie didnt say anything else while they undressed and stepped into the shower. As much as Ronnies slender body called for Lucius to inspect every lush inch of the man, Lucius kept his hands to himself for the most part. He didnt want Ronnie to be late for work. He might have made a good impression on Cindi to begin with, but he didnt want that good will to wear off by making her best performer have to scramble to get dressed or anything like that. How did Cindi take the fact that youre moving in with me? Did she think it was too soon? Reaching out, he shut off the water and grabbed a towel to dry Ronnie off. No. She thought it was about time. Lucius paused and looked at Ronnie. About time? What does that mean? Ronnie shrugged. Weve known each other for twelve years, and I admit youve never been far from my thoughts when we were apart. So she thinks weve had a long enough courtship. Laughing, Lucius toweled off quickly and gave Ronnie a gentle push toward the bedroom. I think shes right. I have to admit I hadnt planned on asking you to move in with me when I went to see you last night, but taking you on a date was in my plans. I wanted to get to know this you, not the one I loved as a teenager. Unfortunately, the senator rushed things for us. Are you worried about moving too fast? Ronnie bent over to slip on another pair of panties. Lucius clenched his hands to keep from groping the tight ass presented so perfectly to him. They didnt have time to play. Hed have to wait until Ronnie got home after work. Once Ronnies butt
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was covered, Lucius blinked and re-focused on Ronnies question. No, I dont think were moving too fast. You have the choice to sleep in the guest room. Neither one of us is forcing the other to do what he wants. And if, later on, one of us decides to slow things down, we will. I dont want to lose you again, Ronnie, but I dont want you to think you have to do things to make me happy. Just be yourself, and Ill be the happiest man in the world. He slipped on jeans and a long sleeved T-shirt. After sitting on the bed, he pulled on socks and running shoes. Then he just sat and watched Ronnie get ready. Another pair of black stockings slipped up long legs and a denim skirt hitting Ronnie just above the knees hid white lace panties. Ronnie took two shirts out of their closet, and didnt Lucius get a thrill out of knowing he shared a closet with someone. Ronnie held them up for Lucius to look at. Which one? The white blouse was sheer and would show off Ronnies toned chest, but the golden brown one matched Ronnies eyes. Lucius pointed to it. Ronnie put the white one away. A flimsy tank top came out of the dresser. Whats that? Its a camisole. Ronnie slid it over his head and wiggled to ensure the fabric settled in all the right ways. I wear it because I like the feel of the satin against my skin. I like knowing Im wearing pretty things, even when others cant see them. You do realize Im going to be hard all the time Im around you. Im never going to get the thought of all the silk and satin under your clothes out of my head. Ronnie winked at him over a slender shoulder as he put the
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blouse on. Thats the point. He laughed and stood, patting Ronnies ass as he walked past his lover. Finish getting ready. Im going to call MaeAnne and the guys to see if they need anything while Im out. Ronnie hummed his agreement and Lucius went out to call his tenants. * * *
Tomas greeted them as they walked into the club. Hey there. Ronnie kissed Lucius before taking the bag Lucius carried. He dashed toward the door leading backstage, while Lucius went to join Tomas at the bar. The cabaret wasnt open yet, so the people milling around were all employees. You want a beer? Sure. Tomas waved a hand toward one of the bartenders. This is Jackson. He works most nights. Jackson, this is Ms. Lakes boyfriend, Lucius. Nice to meet you. The enormous African-American man held out his hand to Lucius. Ms. Lakes a great lady. Yes, he is. Lucius shook hands. Have you worked here long? Jackson washed some glasses after handing Lucius his beer. Yeah. Been serving drinks for twelve years. Starting working here when I turned twenty-one. Ms. Cindi was an old marine buddy of my dads and when I got into trouble up North, Dad sent me down here for Ms. Cindi to straighten out. Your dad know what kind of club Cindi runs? The big man laughed. My dad didnt care. All he wanted was
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for me get back on the right side of the law instead of dealing drugs. When I told him, he about bust a gut laughing. He wasnt overly surprised Ms. Cindi would like to dress like a woman. Lucius frowned. I just cant picture Cindi as a marine. Not that he wouldnt be a good soldier. Its just He makes a better woman. A voice peppered with a slight British accent spoke from behind Lucius. Turning, he grinned at the average looking man standing there. Yep, Cindi makes a far better woman than a man, not that she couldnt take care of herself if she needed to. You must be Lucius. The man stuck out his hand, a thin gold band sparkling on his ring finger. And Im going to guess youre Percy, Cindis partner, or spouse? What do you consider yourself? Were married, Lucius. In every way thats possible except legally. They shook, and Percy took the stool next to Lucius. The Englishman smiled his thanks as Jackson set a martini in front of him. Well, I want to thank you and your wife for keeping Ronnie safe. It makes me happy that he had friends here to watch over him when I wasnt around. We take care of our own around here. Percy sipped his martini. We did our best to keep Cameron away from him, but like most politicians, he tends to be a little slippery. Jackson grunted, his expression conveying his disgust at the senator. Lucius fiddled with his bottle. Im doing my best to get a restraining order against him. Its hard because no one wants to think the beloved senator would do something like that. Yet three women have reported him doing it
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up in D.C. Lucius met Percys shrewd blue eyes. Be careful and keep an eye on all of the performers here. There were two women along with Ronnie who Cameron stalked here in New Orleans, and one of those women disappeared. Shit, Jackson muttered. Nodding, Lucius agreed with the bartender. My sentiments exactly. My superiors think she left town because she didnt get what she wanted, which, according to them, was to smear the senator. I think something else happened, and it makes me nervous he wont leave Ronnie alone, even though he has to know Ronnies male. Percy hummed softly while playing with his glass. We have enough bouncers to keep an eye out here. Also, our bartenders are charged with making sure things dont get out of hand while people are here. Most of the performers feel they can take care of themselves. Lucius took a swallow of his beer and watched some of the other performers wander in. They waved to Percy before scurrying backstage. They were of all sizes and ethnicities. Some wore guy clothes, and Lucius could tell they were the ones who dressed in drag for their job. Others strolled in dressed much like Ronnie, and Lucius eyed them objectively. None of them were as beautiful as his lover, but he was willing to admit to himself he was probably biased. We all like to think were able to deal with all our problems by ourselves. It takes a man to admit he needs help from someone. Percy finished his drink and stood. Are you staying for Ronnies set? Ill stay for his first one, then I need to head home and grab some sleep. Just so you know, I told him to call me when he was
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done for the night. I dont want him walking to my place or taking a cab home that late at night. Percy slapped Lucius on the shoulder. Dont worry, my dear man. Cindi or I will make sure he calls you. Weve been looking out for him this long, so were not going to give up our responsibilities. Thank you. He appreciated the way Cindi and Percy had welcomed Ronnie into their family. He assumed they did the same thing with all the men who worked at the club. He finished his beer and waved Jackson over. How much for the beer? Its on the house. All the performers and their guests drink free. The corner of Jacksons mouth lifted. Ronnie doesnt drink much and shes never had any guests in to watch her since she started working here. What was Ronnie like when he first started? Jackson rested his hands on the edge of the bar and chuckled. It was like she was born to play Veronica Lake. Her voice is angelic and shes great on stage. Ms. Lake can work a crowd like no ones business, but I always got the feeling she was waiting for someone to walk through the door. Maybe she was just looking for you. The bartender walked away, and Lucius stood to wander toward the stage. He claimed a table and sat with his back to the wall. He watched as the crowd began to enter, and his pulse raced as Senator Cameron strolled in like he owned the place. The senator claimed one of the biggest booths and settled into it with a blonde on either side of him. Part of the problem they were facing in convincing anyone
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Cameron was stalking Ronnie was the man was known as a staunch supporter of gay rights, but the man never identified as gay. He dated women and was even married until his wife died tragically. All those things conspired to make Cameron a sympathetic character instead of the slightly unstable man he seemed to be. With the senators presence, Lucius decided he would stay for the entire night. Hed call his boss in the morning and go in late. All the employees of the club would do their best to keep Ronnie safe, but Lucius wanted to keep an eye on things himself.
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CHAPTER 6
Ronnie scrubbed off his make-up while trying to kick off his shoes. Lucius had stayed for the whole night. He couldnt wait to talk to his boyfriend and find out what he thought of all of Ronnies songs. The wipe hed used to remove his eye make-up went in the trash and his blonde wig went on the foam head. He hung the blue dress in the dressing room closet and settled the shoes on the floor. Ronnie tried to keep the place neat for the most part. He slipped on his denim skirt and shirt. After shoving his feet into his favorite red heels, he rushed around, stuffing clothes and shoes into his bag. He slung the bag over his shoulder before he headed out to the front of the club where Lucius waited for him. As he walked through the door, he spotted Lucius surrounded by some of the
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other performers. Andrews light giggle drifted over the various chatter, and Ronnie stopped when he saw Andrew trail his fingers over Lucius shoulder. The nerve, he muttered, dropping his bag by the bar and getting ready to storm over to rip Andrew away from his man. Take a deep breath, sugar. Your man isnt interested in Andrew or any of the other guys. Cindi slipped his hand into the crook of Ronnies elbow. He only has eyes for you. Ronnie paused and took Cindis advice. Breathing, he noticed how Lucius laughed at something Andrew said, but moved away when the skinny blond reached out to touch him again. The other performers were honoring Lucius personal space, so he wouldnt have to bitch them out. Besides, I dont think Andys doing that to tick you off or even see if Lucius is interested. Hes doing it to make Tomas jealous. Cindi nodded in the direction of the bouncer. Really? Ronnie shook his head. I didnt even know Tomas was interested in guys, especially guys like Andrew and me. What? Like girly guys? Cindi wrinkled his nose for a moment. Ronnie rolled his eyes and nodded. Yeah. We arent the most masculine of men, Cindi. Hell, when were dressed up, you can barely tell us apart from women. While Im sure Tomas appreciates how we look when we perform, he never struck me as the type of guy whod be comfortable taking a cross-dresser out on a date. Then you havent watched the way he looks at Andy. His gaze never leaves our little blond whenever Andys near him. Like now. Tomass gaze narrowed, and Ronnie could see him clench his
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hands as Andrew giggled again before draping himself over Lucius shoulder. It looked like it took all of Tomass control not to stalk across the dance floor and jerk Andrew away from Lucius. Cindi laughed at Lucius rather amused look as he peeled Andrew off him. I do believe your boyfriend has figured out what Andy is trying to do. Well, I always said Lucius was smart. Ronnie met Lucius gaze over Andrews head and winked. Smiling back, Lucius started to stand up, but Ronnie shook his head. Two can play at that game. Be careful, sugar. I dont want a cat fight in my club. Cindi shook his head before stepping over to where Percy stood at the end of the bar, counting the till. Dont worry, Cindi. As long as Lucius and Tomas dont get into it, you shouldnt have any damage to your club. Andrew and I arent really heavyweights here. Ronnie strolled over to Tomas and slipped his hand into the crook of Tomass elbow. He rested his chin on Tomass shoulder and leaned in, making it look like he kissed the bouncers cheek. I think hes trying to make you jealous, he whispered against Tomass skin. Tomas relaxed and turned slightly toward Ronnie. He tilted his head before winking at Ronnie. Thats a good sign, huh? Sure it is. Of course, Id prefer he didnt use my boyfriend to try to piss you off. Lucius doesnt go anywhere unarmed, and you look like you could do some damage in a fistfight. The big guy threw his head back, laughing. Ronnie peeked over to where Andrew and Lucius sat. Lucius gave him a small shake of his head, but didnt look upset about what he was doing. Andrew looked pissed.
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I love Andrew like he was my brother, but I dont take kindly to him flirting with Lucius because he doesnt have the balls to tell you hes interested in you. Ronnie placed his hand on Tomass chest and fluttered his eyelashes at him. Well, I havent exactly made my interest known either. Tomas cupped Ronnies face with a gentle hand. Maybe you should man up and tell him youre crushing on him, cher. Hes a good kid, just needs a firm hand to keep him from getting into trouble. Andrews had a hard life, but deep inside hes just looking for someone to see the real him and love him for it. Ronnie didnt have time to move on to the next flirtation. Andrew jerked him away from Tomas and glared at him. Your boyfriends over there. I didnt think you were a slut, Ronnie. He didnt take offense at Andrews insult. Hed succeeded in his goal. Andrew was jealous, and maybe now the pair could talk about their feelings instead of dancing around each other. Reaching out, he patted Andrew on the shoulder and smiled. I think Tomas is more interested in your inner slut than mine, Andrew. But maybe you should think about not flirting with Lucius. I trust my boyfriend not to do anything, but still, hes mine and Im pretty possessive about his body. Andrew ducked his head and nodded. Sorry, Ronnie. I didnt really mean anything by it. I know, honey, but you need to pluck up your courage and say out loud how you feel about Tomas. Hes a guy, and were not the best guessers in the world. Ronnie kissed Andrew on the cheek before pinching his ass as he walked past. Squeaking, his friend glared over his shoulder at him. Ronnie winked and headed to where Lucius stood, waiting for him. Lucius wrapped his arms around Ronnie, pulling him close and kissing
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him. It was dramatic and over the top, but Ronnie thought it was perfect in every way. When they finally broke apart, everyone in the club was hooting and clapping. Ronnie blushed, but bowed along with Lucius. Glad we could entertain you perverts, he yelled as Lucius dragged him toward the front door. Guess someones getting lucky tonight, Cindi shouted right before the door shut behind Ronnie. I think were both getting lucky tonight, Lucius murmured as he tucked Ronnie tight against him with his arm around Ronnies shoulders. How fast can you get us home? Ronnie slipped his hand in Lucius back pocket and bumped their hips together. Fast enough. I dont want to break any speed limits, love, or get into an accident. That wouldnt be a good way to end the evening, would it? Ronnie shook his head. No. So did you like the show tonight? I always love your show. Lucius grinned at him. How can you say that? This is only the second one youve seen. Lucius shrugged. True, but since youre the one singing, I know Ill love it no matter what. No, youre not biased at all. Ronnie rolled his eyes as they arrived at the car. Lucius held the door for him and waited until he was all the way in before shutting the door. He tugged on the hem of his skirt, nervous now he had a moment to think. Having Lucius suck him off had blown his mind. The men he usually ended up with
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expected him to do the blowing and to be the bottom. Ronnie happily admitted he liked getting fucked, but once in a while, he liked being asked whether he wanted to get fucked or to top. He glanced at Lucius as the man slid behind the steering wheel. Hed address that issue later on, after they made love. For their reunion lovemaking, he wanted to feel Lucius inside him. They fell silent as Lucius drove them to their home. Ronnie angled his body so he could rest his head against the seat and watch Lucius. He didnt think hed ever get tired of looking at the man he loved. After getting up to their apartment without making too much noise, Lucius shut and locked the door behind them. He turned and cradled Ronnies face. Lifting it to the moonlight beaming through the windows, he stared at Ronnie. What did Lucius see when he looked at Ronnie? Did he see the scared young boy who disappeared in the hallways at school? The same young boy who hid at home because his mother never acknowledged his existence half the time? Did Lucius see the same ugly, frightened boy Ronnie saw every time he looked in a mirror? What are you looking at? he whispered, trying his best to hold still and not turn away. Im looking at the most beautiful person Ive ever seen. You outshine all the models and actresses in the world. I want to ask you a question, and I dont mean anything negative by it. Ronnie fought the need to tense or run away. It was Lucius asking, the man who would cut off his right arm for Ronnie if he needed it. He swallowed and murmured, What do you want to know? Why do you dress in womens clothes? I know you like being a guy, but what about womens clothing makes you happy?
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Taking a deep breath, he told himself he could do it. He could tell Lucius the darkest secret in his life. Ronnie opened his mouth to spill it, when Lucius pressed a finger to his lips. Tell you what? Why dont you go take a shower and get ready for bed? Ill do the same in the guest bathroom. Well meet in the bedroom and you can tell me. But I want you to know you dont have to explain to me why you dress this way. Knowing or not knowing wont make a difference to how much I care about you. Ronnie had heard those words before from various friends and lovers. Yet none of them stuck around after finding out the truth. He met Lucius dark gaze and in those dark brown eyes, he saw the truth in Lucius words. Inside Lucius lurked the same teenage boy who held Ronnie after bad memories woke him up at night. That same boy who showed Ronnie what making love really felt like, even though Ronnie woke up alone the next morning. He never once thought Lucius would stay, not because Ronnie believed everyone would leave him eventually. No, he knew Lucius wouldnt stay because there wasnt any life for them in their small Louisiana town unless they wanted to work on the oilrigs, and Lucius swore never to do that. After all those years apart, Ronnie could look at Lucius and see the boy he used to be under the layers of maturity traveling the world in the army had given him. There was hope and a belief in the future in Lucius smile that wouldnt have been there if hed stayed. Ronnie thanked God for those ten years. All right. Ill meet you in the bedroom in fifteen minutes. That would give him time to get ready. He went into the bedroom and grabbed his pajamas. After turning on the water in the bathroom, he stripped and faced his
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reflection in the full-length mirror on the back of the door. Naked, he couldnt deny the fact he was ugly. Not even hundreds of therapy hours could get him over the fact that, more often than not, he thought he was ugly. Maybe hearing it since the time he could understand words had damaged something inside him. He still saw only the ugliness, even though everyone told him he was beautiful in whatever he wore. Dressing as a guy or a girl didnt make any difference to how others saw him, though, because they saw the outside as gorgeous. Yet inside him, he never got beyond being the pitiful child his father had tormented for years. During the last two years of high school, hed finally started to believe he wasnt a hideous monster. Each time he saw the way Lucius looked at him, he felt sexy and stunning. Remembering those looks and the way Lucius held him that night ten years ago was what gave him the courage to recognize the need inside himself. He climbed into the shower and washed quickly. After taking one of the shortest showers of his life, he got out and dried off. He blew dry his hair, added a little eyeliner and mascara to his hazel eyes before reaching for the clothes hed brought into the bathroom with him. Ronnie shook out the pink negligee and stared at it. Would Lucius remember? He bit his lip as he slipped it on and checked it out in the mirror. The sheer pink material clung to his slender hips before stopping mid-thigh. The lace trim decorated the neckline and hem. He tugged the lace panties up and adjusted his cock in them. Even dressed this way, there was no mistaking Ronnie for anything other than a guy. Taking a deep breath, he slid his feet
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into a pair of pink kitten heeled shoes and slid on the matching robe. A final touch of lip gloss and a quick fluff of his hair, and he was ready to face his lover. He turned off the light and opened the bathroom door. The bedroom lights were off; only one single lamp glowed next to the bed and he spotted Lucius sitting on the mattress, back propped on the headboard. The sudden indrawn breath alerted him when Lucius first spotted him. He held up his hand when he saw Lucius start to climb out of bed. His lover stopped and settled back, covered up to his waist with the blankets. Ronnie walked to the bed and shrugged the silky robe off, letting it pool on the floor at his feet. He kicked off the shoes and knelt on the bed, crawling across what felt like an endless expanse of mattress before stopping right next to Lucius body. I cant believe you still have this. With a shaking hand, Lucius reached out to run his finger over the strap gracing Ronnies shoulder. Its not the same one. You ripped the other one, but I found a replacement. I didnt know if you would still remember it, he admitted in a trembling voice. Remember it? Honey, its been etched in my mind for ten years. I started to fall in love with you when I first saw you in high school. I fell all the way in love when you stepped from the bathroom in that hotel room dressed like this. I knew you were finally willing to trust me with your virginity and your secrets. Ronnie shivered at Lucius touch, feeling like a virgin all over again. But I didnt tell you why I liked to dress like this. No, you didnt, but I also didnt ask. I was so overwhelmed
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with desire for you all I could think of was getting inside you. How tight you would be and how hot. I hurt you, and Ive never forgiven myself. Lucius trailed his hand up Ronnies neck to cup the back of his head. The fact you dont hate me is a miracle in my eyes. Oh, cher, it wasnt as bad as you think it was. For my first time, it was the most amazing thing Id ever felt. It was like we were one person. I could feel your heart beat in rhythm with mine. No other man Ive slept with since then has affected me the same way. He paused and smiled slightly. There havent been a lot of them since then. There havent been that many for me either, Lucius confessed. I still feel guilty because not only was I rough with you, but I left you the next morning. What kind of man does that to the person he loves? Ronnie yanked the blankets out of the way, happy to see Lucius naked underneath. He straddled Lucius hips and settled down, rubbing his ass against Lucius erection. I knew you were leaving, Lucius, but I chose to give myself to you anyway. Theres always been a part of my heart bound and determined to believe you would come back. No matter how long it took, youd be back for me. Ronnie grinned, proud of himself. And I was right. Here you are. I hurt you when we had sex. Yes, you did, but you know what? I didnt care because I knew you loved me. The roughness came from our inexperience, nothing more. You wanted me so badly, and I loved it. No one has ever wanted me like that before or after. And you wanted me, even dressed like this. Lucius looked surprised. Why wouldnt I want you dressed
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like this? Christ, its taking all the strength I have not to roll you over and shove my cock up your ass right now. His lovers crude words stiffened Ronnies cock and he could feel dampness on the front of his panties from his pre-cum. He needed to tell Lucius why he chose the clothes he did soon because he wanted Lucius to take him. Some people believe a man dressing like a woman is deviant or insane. Lucius rolled his eyes. Those same people think gays are crazy or deviants. I dont pay any attention to them. I started to dress like a girl because I thought it would make my father happy. Lucius tensed, and Ronnie shook his head, rubbing his hands over Lucius lightly furred chest. He never touched me in any inappropriate way. Its just he always told me I was ugly. He said I was a hideous monster and shouldve been killed at birth. He bit his lip as the hurt welled inside him at the memory of his fathers words. What kind of asshole would tell any child that? The anger in Lucius voice eased some of Ronnies turmoil. A mean, sadistic one. He mentally and emotionally abused all of us for years until he died of exposure one night. Hed gotten too drunk to drive home, so he slept out in his truck. Well, it got below freezing and he froze to death. After his funeral, Mom packed us up and moved us down here. I was twelve and my sister was sixteen. Your sister? I didnt know you had one. She ran away shortly after we moved here. I have no idea where she is or if shes still alive. But she was the one I compared myself to every minute of my life before she left. My dad would
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say how pretty she was and everything. So I started out thinking if I dressed like her, he might like me more. Ronnie glanced down at the pink sheer negligee he wore. It wasnt too long before I discovered I actually liked wearing pretty clothes. I like high heels because they make my legs look a mile long. Lucius ran one hand over Ronnies calf, up over his knee to rest it high on his thigh under the hem of Ronnies nightgown. I have to agree with you there. Ronnie rolled onto his back and stripped off his panties. He reached for Lucius hand and yanked him over on top of him. He sighed as Lucius warm hard body pressed him into the mattress. He spread his legs and welcomed Lucius between them like he was welcoming him home. They rocked together for a little while, relearning how each of them felt against the other. It still took me a few years and a couple hundred therapy sessions to realize I had every right to want to feel beautiful and desirable. If wearing lace and silk does it for me, then why should I suffer in clothes that make me feel hideous? Im an adult and I have the right to chose to do what I want, as long as it doesnt hurt anyone else. Ronnie stroked his hands up Lucius chest and gripped his shoulders. I still have a hard time believing Im beautiful, Lucius. When I look in a mirror, I dont see what you see. I see an ugly little bug. Yet at my worst, the way you look at me tells me, to you, Im gorgeous and perfect. Thats all I need. He pulled Lucius down to him, and their lips crashed together hard enough Ronnie tasted blood. He didnt care. They devoured each other like the sweetest candy. He arched his hips and spread his thighs wider, encouraging Lucius to take him. Lucius broke away and braced himself by his hands on either side of Ronnies
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head. Wait. Are you sure you want me to take you? Would you rather take me? I dont want to assume anything about you, Ronnie. God, what more could Lucius do to make Ronnie fall even deeper in love with him? He slid his hands down to Lucius ass and flexed his fingers into those tight cheeks. Thank you for asking, and not just assuming Im a bottom. Maybe next time, Ill take you, but tonight, I want you inside me. I want to relive the best night of my life up until now. He arched his back, bringing their groins together. I got myself ready while I took a shower. Please take me, Lucius. Let me feel you. Lucius groaned. I need a condom. Ronnie kept contact as Lucius scrambled across the bed to the nightstand and dug around in the drawer. He laughed softly as Lucius swore. Are you telling me you dont have any rubbers by your bed? Do you not bring men home with you? Not usually. If I pick them up, its for a quick fuck at their place and I leave. Lucius looked over his shoulder at Ronnie. Youre the only one I ever wanted to bring home. And I cant believe this. Now I have you here, I dont have any condoms. Waving a hand in the general direction of his bag that Lucius must have carried in while Ronnie showered, Ronnie said, I should have a condom in there. He never saw a man move so fast. Lucius was off the bed and crouched next to Ronnies bag in a blink of an eye. Digging through the clothes and shoes, Lucius crowed in triumph as he held the foil packet overhead. Then suit up, big boy, and come back here.
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Lucius gave him an incredulous stare, and Ronnie burst out laughing. Sorry. I cant believe I just said that. While the words were rather cheesy, the sentiment is still the same. Get the hell back here and fuck me. Ive been waiting for ten years to feel you inside me again. His lover practically launched onto the bed. They bounced and chuckled. Lucius tore open the packet and rolled the rubber on. Ronnie lay back and pulled his knees up to his chest, offering himself to Lucius. After settling between his legs again, Lucius positioned the head of his cock at Ronnies hole and pressed in. Ronnie closed his eyes, braced his hands against the headboard, and pushed back. They froze when Lucius was buried deep inside Ronnie. Lucius looked down at Ronnie. Ill try to make this better than the last time, Ronnie. It already is, he whispered as Lucius started moving. Each thrust nailed his gland and he groaned, undulating as they moved together. The way Lucius leaned over him, his stomach rubbed over Ronnies cock. The hard ridges of Lucius abs stroked his shaft, drawing moans and shudders from Ronnie. Harder, Lucius. Please, do me faster. Lucius complied, thrusting until the sound of their bodies slamming together filled the bedroom. Pleasure pooled at the base of Ronnies spine and tingled along his nerves. He tightened his inner muscles, and Lucius grunted. Before Ronnie could do any more, Lucius rolled and Ronnie ended up on top with his hands gripping the sheets on either side of Lucius head. He blinked, hoping his head would stop spinning. What was that?
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I didnt want it to be over too soon. Weve both waited a long time for this. Lucius ran his hands up Ronnies thighs to his hips. Besides maybe youd like to drive for a little while. Ronnie looked at his lover, so used to being the submissive one that Lucius allowing him to control their lovemaking shocked him. As he pushed up on his knees, Lucius cock slid out until just the head stayed inside. Ronnie eased back down, a sigh pushing out as Lucius buried deep. God, he loved the feeling of being filled and being able to look down to see it was Lucius who claimed him made it even more special. Ronnie tightened his inner muscles and massaged the length of Lucius prick. He steadied himself on Lucius chest, impaling himself faster and harder with each down stroke. Lucius grabbed Ronnies hips and thrust up, meeting each downward shove by Ronnie. Ronnie tilted his hips and the new angle insured Lucius cock would nail his gland with each inward push. Im coming, Lucius warned Ronnie. Ronnie couldnt answer as his own climax exploded through him and his cum landed on his negligee, soaking through. He yelled and trembled as Lucius sank into him one more time and stilled, flooding the condom. He held Lucius close to him as the aftershocks rippled through them. Humming softly, he ran his fingers through Lucius sweaty curls. His lover rolled to one side and Ronnie hissed slightly as the soft cock slipped from him. I think we need another shower, Lucius murmured. Nodding, Ronnie accepted Lucius help up and out of bed. He stripped off the sheer fabric, drawing a laugh from Lucius. We managed to ruin another one of your pretty nightgowns,
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Lucius commented as Ronnie walked by. Dont worry. Ive got more. He winked over his shoulder and sashayed into the bathroom. Youre going to kill me, Lucius grumbled. The water steamed as the shower ran. Lucius took care of the condom while Ronnie waited. They stepped into the stall, and Lucius adjusted the showerhead so the water hit around the middle of Ronnies back. Taking their time, they washed each other, learning the ticklish spots and the places that made them moan. It was gentle and passionate, but exhaustion danced along their muscles, reminding them of the lateness of the night. They dried off and headed back to bed. After climbing in, Ronnie rolled to his side, and Lucius cuddled behind him, spooning close. Sighing, Ronnie closed his eyes, savoring Lucius warmth. This was how their first night together ended as well, but Ronnie had the feeling that the next morning would be different. Lucius would be there when he woke up.
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CHAPTER 7
Lucius stretched as he opened his eyes. Frowning, he patted the mattress beside him. It was empty and felt cold, like Ronnie hadnt been lying there for a while. He sniffed as the smell of chicory coffee drifted into the room. Since he hadnt set the coffee maker last night, he assumed Ronnie had made it. Wake up. Youre going to be late for work. As Lucius glanced at the doorway, Ronnie strolled in, wearing jeans and a dark blue blouse. His hair was pulled back in a ponytail and black eyeliner made his hazel eyes stand out. He smiled at his lover before focusing on the tray Ronnie carried. You brought me breakfast in bed? He sat up and stuffed some pillows behind his back. Of course. Im not sure you really eat enough.
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Ronnie set the tray over his lap and sat cross-legged on the bed next to him. Lucius eyed Ronnies slender body. Im the one who doesnt eat enough? With a roll of his eyes, Ronnie snatched a beignet from Lucius tray and took a big bite. There, are you happy? Powered sugar flew everywhere as Ronnie spoke. Lucius nodded. Now I am. After taking a bite of his beignet and a sip of his coffee, he leaned back. This is a better way to wake up than after our first time, huh? Much better, but Im not going to dwell on the past anymore. Lets just look forward from now on. Ronnie bent forward and brushed a powdery kiss over Lucius cheek. I can do that. They ate the rest of their breakfast in companionable silence. After they finished, Ronnie took the tray, while Lucius cleaned up and got dressed. Curled up on the couch, Ronnie waited, ready to leave. Where are you going? Lucius asked as he clipped his gun and badge to his belt. He grabbed his keys and held open the door for Ronnie as the slender man walked by him. I have some shopping to do, after which I thought Id grab Cindi for a late lunch. Well probably head over to the club after that. Will you be picking me up from there tonight? Lucius locked the door behind him and caught up to Ronnie, taking his bag from him and offering him his arm. Yes. If I cant, Ill call and have Tomas escort you home. Im a big boy, Lucius. The senator hasnt bothered me in a couple days. Maybe he hasnt found out where Im staying. Maybe, but Id feel better if you have someone with you on
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your way home at night. Its not just the senator Im worried about, Ronnie. A lot of predators out there will to try their luck with a single person walking the streets at night. Lucius pushed open the front door and stepped out. How did I ever survive without you here to protect me? Ronnie teased. Lucius laughed along with his lover as they strolled down the walk to the gate. He noticed Ronnies giggle had died away and he looked up to see Ronnie glaring at a man blocking his way on the sidewalk. Did you spend the night with this man, Veronica? What the fuck? Anger surged through Lucius when he realized it was Senator Cameron standing there, not just any random crazy man. He took a hold of Ronnies arm to push him behind him, but Ronnie stood his ground. I told you my name is Ronnie and Im a guy. Why wont you leave me the hell alone? Ronnie gestured toward Lucius. I have a boyfriend and hes a cop. Im sure if I asked him, hed shoot you. Cameron didnt even glance in Lucius direction. You keep running away. I love you, and I have so many plans for us, if youd just come with me. Lucius knocked the senators hand away as the man reached for Ronnie. Oh, hell, no. Ronnie isnt going anywhere with you, now or ever. You need to stay away from him, Senator, or youll find yourself slapped with a restraining order. Thatll never stick. The smug arrogance in Camerons voice annoyed Lucius. It will now, when I report it to my fellow officers. Lucius pushed back the corner of his jacket, revealing his badge and gun. I think you should get the fuck out of here, Cameron, before I
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forget Im an officer of the law and youre an elected official. The crazed look in Camerons gaze gave Lucius a bad feeling, but the senator backed off. Ill convince you at some point, Veronica. You cant hold out against me forever. Cameron stalked off. Lucius hustled Ronnie to their car, not taking a chance the senator might come back. After they settled, Lucius pulled away from the curb. Im going to take you to my precinct and have you fill out a stalking report. Well get a restraining order slapped on his ass. Ronnie rested his hand on Lucius arm. Thank you. If you hadnt been there, he probably wouldve pushed it further. Lucius covered Ronnies hand and promised, Ill always be there for you, Ronnie. Protecting you is vital to me now since you have my heart. Leaning over the center console, Ronnie kissed his check. My hero. They laughed and Lucius relaxed slightly. A restraining order was just a piece of paper, but it was another step in building a safety net around Ronnie. * * *
Ronnie glanced up as the door to his dressing room burst open. Damn! Hed forgotten to lock it. He was about to yell about being rude because he figured it was one of the guys needing something from him. He didnt have time to deal with it since he had to change and get ready for his third set. I told you I had something for you, Veronica. Cameron stood there inside the doorway, hair standing up and suit wrinkled like
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the man had slept in it. The door slammed shut behind him. Get the fuck out of here. Ronnie backed up to his make-up table, reaching behind him to grab whatever his hand found. When Lucius taught him to fight all those years ago, hed informed Ronnie to use whatever he could find to get away. Luckily, there was a lot of crap in his dressing room that he could use. Veronica, you have to know I love you, Cameron said as he stepped closer to Ronnie. Im not Veronica. Im a guy, and you have some serious issues, man. Ronnie threw his pot of powder at Cameron, aiming for his eyes. It hit the senator in the face, but didnt stop the man from grabbing Ronnies arm and dragging him toward the door. Ronnies heels didnt make it easy to get purchase on the floor, so Ronnie caught a hold of one of the directors chairs set up in front of the table. He yanked the senator to a stop and managed to swing the chair. A satisfying crash sounded as it broke over Camerons back. Son of a bitch. What the hell are you doing? Why are you fighting me? You want to come with me. You know it. Blood trickled from Camerons forehead where the chair struck him. I dont want to go anywhere with you, asshole. Why cant you get that through your crazy head? Ronnie shoved the senator away from him and dashed toward the door, but right before he got there, Cameron swept him up and threw him back onto the couch. Ronnie gasped as he rebounded off the cushions and onto the coffee table in the middle of the room. Something in his side gave, warning Ronnie hed probably broken a rib or two. He gritted his teeth and shoved to his feet.
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Turning, he braced himself to fight until someone came. The noise they were making should alert someone soon. Cameron wasnt facing him. The door swung open, and Ronnie closed his eyes in fear as Andrew strolled in. Before he could warn the younger man, Cameron slammed a fist into Andrews face, dropping the man where he stood. Ronnie only had time to wince as Andrews head bounced off the floor. You bastard, what the hell did he ever do to you? Ronnie sprang at Cameron and punched his fist at the back of Camerons head. The senator whirled around, slapping Ronnie hard enough to draw blood and fling him to his knees. Cameron bent down and picked Ronnie up in his arms. Ronnie couldnt get his mouth to work. No sound came out and he tried to scream for help, but nothing happened. As they slipped onto the street behind Cindis, Ronnie saw a couple spot them. Help me, Ronnie asked. The man started forward, but Cameron shook his head. Its okay. Just a lovers spat. We tend to be a little rough when we fight. There wasnt any time to contradict what Cameron said. The couple disappeared back into the building as Cameron tossed Ronnie into the trunk of a car and slammed it shut. Ronnie pounded on the metal, yelling. The car started and he felt it pull away from the curb. Where the hell were they going? He thought about Andrew. God, Ronnie hoped he was okay because Ronnie was going to be pissed if Cameron had hurt the younger man. As much as he wanted to continue to beat his hands against the trunk, he knew better. There wasnt any way out until Cameron stopped and opened it.
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Ronnie closed his eyes and thought about Lucius. Christ, his boyfriend was going to have a conniption when he found out about Cameron taking Ronnie. He just had to hold out until Lucius showed up. Ronnie trusted Lucius would find him. He didnt plan to let Cameron do anything to him before they were found. He closed his eyes and thought about last night when Lucius held him close. Ronnie savored the feel of Lucius warmth breath bathing the back of his nape and his arms wrapped tight around Ronnies waist. The car drove on for a while until it turned and hit some bumpy road or something. He braced his hands against the sides so he didnt hit his head again. Please stop, he pleaded silently as his stomach started to roil as he bounced. His side burned, and his head throbbed. By the time the vehicle stopped, Ronnie was pissed. Hed had enough. Footsteps crunched along toward the back of the car and the trunk popped open. Ronnie shot out of the trunk, ignoring the ripping sounds of his dress as he tackled Cameron. He got in three good punches before Cameron snagged his wrists and rolled him over, pinning him to the ground. I dont understand why youre fighting me, Cameron panted out. Im just trying to show you how much I love you. You dont love me, you fucking ass. Im not sure what you see when you look at me, but Im not some blonde woman youve fallen in love with. Ronnie struggled, wiggling one way and another to get away from Cameron, but the senator outweighed him. Cameron stood, jerking Ronnie to his feet, and dragged him toward the house a few feet away from them. Up the front steps and inside the house, Ronnie stumbled
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behind Cameron, jerking and tugging to free his hands. Nothing worked, but Ronnie wasnt giving up. Cameron slung him into a back room and left, locking the door behind him. The room was empty except for a single bed. He eyed it in disgust. No way was he going to let Cameron get him near that mattress. He paced and tried to think of some way he could get away. He didnt know how long hed been locked in the room before Cameron returned. The door opened, and Ronnie kicked, nailing Cameron in the nuts. The one thing Lucius told him would always work against another guy was to hit the man in the groin. Ronnie winced internally as Cameron yelled and cupped his wounded privates, sinking to the floor, writhing. Ronnie kicked him again as Cameron managed to make his way to his knees. The senator crashed to the floor and Ronnie whirled, racing out the door. Lucius stood in the hallway, gun drawn, and two other men stood with him. Ronnie threw himself into Lucius arms.
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CHAPTER 8
Lucius Cindis voice had caught Lucius attention earlier that night. Ronnies third and last set of the night was supposed to start soon, and Lucius couldnt wait to see it. Hed enjoyed the first two and could see why Ronnie was considered the top performer at Cindis. Turning to look at Cindi, Lucius noticed the fear and panic in the club owners eyes. Whats wrong? Has something happened to Ronnie? We dont know. Hes gone. Lucius shot to his feet and shoved through the crowd to the door leading backstage. As he arrived at Ronnies dressing room, so did Tomas and Andrew. The latter sported a split lip and a huge
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bruise on his cheek, along with a ripped dress. The senator took Ronnie, Tomas yelled. Fuck. Lucius wanted to punch something, but he managed to keep his anger under control. I shouldve known something like that would happen. He accosted Ronnie outside our apartment this morning. He wasnt happy Ronnied moved in with me. What do we do? Cindi rested his hands on his hips, rage barely contained. First, Tomas, check Andrew over. Make sure he doesnt need to go to the hospital. Secondly, Ms. Cindi, I need you, Percy, and your wait staff to circulate through the crowd. Ask the audience if they saw anything. Also, check with the other performers. I have to call my boss. This time, Camerons gone too far. Everyone raced to do as Lucius ordered. Lucius stepped into Ronnies dressing room. He stared at the disaster. Clothes and shoes were scattered all over the space. The chairs were broken and make-up covered the surface of everything, like Ronnie had thrown it at his abductor. The senator might have gotten him in the end, but Ronnie put a fight. He pulled out his phone and dialed his boss. Johnson. Captain, its Lucius Montagne. I want to inform you Senator Cameron kidnapped Ronald Lake, a performer at Cindis Cabaret. Damn. Are you sure? Yes, sir. I have one eyewitness and he was roughed up as well. There might be more who saw the abduction. Johnson swore loudly and violently. Lucius waited until the outburst ended, understanding how his boss felt. Okay. Im calling the local FBI. You make sure no one leaves that club. We need to talk to everyone.
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Lucius knew he should do his job, but he couldnt stay quiet when it was Ronnies safety at hand. I know where he took Ronnie, he blurted out. How do you know? Johnson sounded skeptical, and Lucius didnt blame the man. A week ago, I had a friend of mine do a little research on property owned by the senator. Seems a big oil corporation who has contributed an insane amount of money to Camerons campaign purchased a house about an hour from here. Johnson grunted. What makes you so sure Cameron would take Lake there? Lucius paced in a small circle, not wanting to disturb the scene, but not able to stand still. He knows someone saw him kidnap Ronnie, so going to his own place is out of the question. He doesnt realize anyone else knows about the new property since it isnt in his name yet. The papers havent been finalized. Theres a small house on the land. He willed his captain to believe him. God damn it. Why did the bastard have to do this in my parish? The captain took a deep breath. Okay, Ill be enroute in five minutes. Ill have the feds meet up with us at the club. But, sir Lucius started to protest. I know Mr. Lake is in danger, but I dont think the senator is looking to kill him. If that was all he wanted, hed have done it at the club. Lucius bit his tongue. Arguing with his boss wasnt going to help his cause. All right, sir. Captain Johnson exhaled loudly. I know Mr. Lake means something to you, Montagne, and I also know my men dismissed his concerns when he first complained about the senator. An
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internal investigation will see if there should be any disciplinary action against them. Ronnies my boyfriend, Captain Johnson. You might not want to hear that, but Im not ashamed to say it out loud. Its a little too late to yell at the men who ignored Ronnie the first time, but maybe there should be some training classes on how to deal with the public. We do live in New Orleans, sir. Point taken. Now I have to call the Feds, and you have to find me more witnesses. Johnson hung up, and Lucius gripped his phone so tightly, he heard the plastic casing creak. Whatd your boss say? He looked up to see Tomas and Andrew standing close by. Andrew had changed into jeans and a T-shirt. His make-up had been washed off, along with the blood from his lip. The bruise still looked vicious. Did Cameron do that to you? Andrew nodded. It was during Lizas big number. All the other guys were out watching her, and Id come back to change since Im the first one on in the third set. Andrew paused, and Tomas reached out, patting the mans back. I noticed Ronnie hadnt come out to talk to you, so I went to his room. I was just going to joke about someone trying to steal you away. Tomas wrapped his arm around Andrews waist, drawing the smaller man closer. The tears in Andrews eyes spoke of his fear. Its all right, Andrew. The senator wont hurt you again, Lucius reassured him. Im worried about Ronnie. What if Cameron does something
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awful to him? Lucius closed his eyes and calmed his breathing because Andrew hit on Lucius own fear. Ronnie didnt go willingly. He obviously did all he could to get away from the senator. What if he angered Cameron to the point the man did something terrible and hurt Ronnie even worse? Ms. Lakes tough, Andy. Shell do what she must to survive. She has to know Lucius will come find her. Tomas comforted Andrew, his dark eyes meeting Lucius over Andrews head. Tomas is right, Andrew. I taught Ronnie how to take care of himself in high school. Im sure hell use those moves to keep himself safe. He could lie when he needed to. Andrew shuddered and continued, When I got to his room, I heard a crash and I rushed in because I worried Ronnie had fallen or something. I opened the door and Cameron hit me. He was dragging Ronnie behind him. I tried to stop him, Lucius, I really did, but high heels arent the easiest to fight in. Dont beat yourself up about it, Andrew, Lucius said. You told us who has Ronnie, and thats just as important as stopping Cameron. Plus wed all prefer you alive and slightly bruised than severely injured or even dead. Cindi and Percy returned, dragging two people behind them. One was a tall, muscle-bound man in jeans and a white tank top. The other was a petite red-headed woman. They looked rumpled and slightly embarrassed. Gina and Marcus were outside the back door when they saw Cameron carry Ronnie from the club, Cindi announced. Yeah, we wouldnt have thought anything about it if the little guy hadnt been struggling. Marcus grimaced.
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The guy in the suit told us it was a lovers quarrel, but I didnt really believe that. Gina snapped her gum and shook her head. And youre sure it was Cameron and Ronnie they saw? Lucius checked with Cindi. The club owner nodded, and Percy held up his phone. I found a picture of Cameron and they identified him. A thrill washed over Lucius. He had three eyewitnesses who all picked Cameron out as the guy whod kidnapped Ronnie. Hopefully, when Johnson arrived, his captain would give him the okay to go after Ronnie. Tell what youve got, Montagne. Captain Johnson strolled in, wrinkled suit attesting to the speed with which hed dressed. Two men in impeccable three-piece suits walked with him. Lucius assumed they were from the Bureau. * * *
Twenty minutes after arriving, Captain Johnson turned to Lucius and met his gaze. Weve got enough. Take however many men you want and go arrest the asshole. Ill ask the witnesses to come down to the station and give their statements. Johnson shook his head. Why do some people obsess like that? And why do powerful men believe theyre above the law? Lucius shrugged. He couldnt answer either question. He gestured to the two agents, one of whom was his friend, Special Agent Dante Deshone. Id like some agents with us as well. Fine by me. Now get your ass out of here. Johnson gestured toward the front of the club. Yes, sir. Lucius headed out to the dance floor of the club with four
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agents and four NOPD officers following him. He spoke to Cindi before he left. Were going to get Ronnie, Ms. Cindi. I promise Ill bring him back. Cindi swept him into a bone-crushing hug. I know you will, sugar. Ronnies going to be pissed it took you so long. Yeah, but I cant be a lone wolf on this. Too much is at stake. I want Cameron to be punished for his crimes, and if I go rushing in without solid evidence, it could ruin the case. True, lad. Now go and rescue your love. Percy clapped Lucius on the shoulder. Ill have Ronnie call you as soon as he can, Lucius promised before racing from the building. Dante jumped into Lucius car with two of the NOPD officers and the other men got in their car. This Ronnie the one you talked about in the army all the time? The one you let get away? Dante didnt look over at Lucius. Lucius checked the mirror to make sure the others followed him and nodded. Yes. Ronnie and I were best friends in high school, and I left him behind when I joined the military. Seems he did pretty good for himself, aside from being stalked by the crazy senator. Ive already put a call in to my superiors in Washington, giving them a heads-up about whats happening down here. Dante paused for a second before continuing, Why didnt you ever tell me that Ronnie was a guy? Dont Ask, Dont Tell, man. As long as you didnt know, you werent in danger of getting in trouble for not ratting me out. I wouldnt have done that. Dante sounded affronted. I know. Lucius shot a quick grin in Dantes direction. My silence was safer for both of us. Dante didnt look convinced, but Lucius would do the same
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thing if he went back to that time. He wouldnt risk any mans career to save his own ass. Is that why you didnt re-enlist? Yeah, plus I was ready to come home. I planned on finding Ronnie and seeing if hed forgive me. Of course, it took me two years after returning to New Orleans before I worked up the courage to look for him. Lucius shook his head. Maybe if Id found him sooner, he wouldnt have this problem with Cameron. Dante punched Lucius bicep lightly. Dont beat yourself up over this, Luc. Its not your fault the senator has a screw loose somewhere. I still havent quite figured out why hes focused on your boyfriend. Hes never given any indication he likes guys. Thats what weve been trying to figure out as well. When Ronnies dressed to perform, he fits the type Cameron stalks. Aside from that, Ronnies a brunette and, even when hes dressed like a woman, he doesnt fit any type Camerons established. Dont get people most of the time. Dante shook his head. You know where youre going, right? Yeah. I got the directions to the property in my GPS. Itll get us there without a problem. They fell silent as Lucius concentrated on traffic and getting them out to Ronnie without causing any accidents. Within an hour, they hit the North Shore where the wooded areas around the roads hid houses. He turned onto an overgrown two-track road. He stopped the car about a half-mile away from the house. He didnt want to alert Cameron that they were coming. Everyone climbed out and, after putting on their vests and windbreakers identifying them, they gathered around Lucius. He had the plans for the house and property spread out over the hood of his car.
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Okay. The house is in the middle of this clearing. The trees practically surround it. As far as I can tell, there isnt a clear line of sight from anywhere in the house. Thank God it doesnt have a second floor. Lucius pointed to Dante and one of the NOPD officers. Dante and Will are coming with me. Well go in the front door. I want the rest of you spread out around the house. I want to make sure Cameron doesnt run when he realizes hes caught. Yes, sir. He folded up the plans and tossed them back in the car. Everyone checked his or her weapon. I know you know this, but no firing unless youre fired on. I dont want anything going wrong and the victim getting shot or one of us getting injured. Ill take care of Mr. Lake as soon as we know where he is. Agent Deshone will take care of Cameron. Every officer nodded and they headed down the rough trail, trying their best not to make any more noise than necessary. Lucius didnt want Cameron to know they were coming for him. He didnt plan to let the senator get away with kidnapping Ronnie, plus he believed the one accuser of Camerons who disappeared didnt do so voluntarily. After rescuing Ronnie, he was going to get a warrant to search the property. He wouldnt be surprised to find the woman buried somewhere around there. Dante, Will, and Lucius stopped just inside the tree line. A car was parked outside the house, and Lucius had one of the men call in the license plate to make sure it was the senators. At the confirmation, Lucius waved the others to go around either side of the house. He waited five minutes, hoping it was long enough to get everyone in position. Meeting Dantes gaze, he nodded. They crouched and moved
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as fast as they could over the ground, up the porch steps to the front door. Luck was with them when they discovered the front door open a few inches. Beats having to break it down, Dante whispered in Lucius ear. Lucius nodded and motioned for Will to go to the left. Dante would go to the right as they entered. Lucius would focus his attention straight ahead. They would take their time and clear each room before moving on. Lucius didnt want to miss a person who might come up and get them in the back. They slipped into the house without incident and slowly made their way down the hall. They checked each room they passed. It seemed like the senator was alone with Ronnie, which was good for the law enforcement guys. At least they didnt have to worry about any other people getting hurt. Now they just had to make sure Ronnie didnt get hurt. Lucius gripped his gun and refused to think about all the things that could have happened to Ronnie while Lucius was getting permission to come after him. He had to believe Ronnie fought back and if there were bruises, it was because Ronnie didnt roll over and give in to Cameron. A crash came from the back of the house. Lucius tensed and glanced over at Dante and Will. Both men nodded and they snuck toward the noise. They stopped right outside a partially opened door and another crash sounded. A shout echoed as well, but it didnt sound like Ronnie to Lucius. Lucius reached out to grab the door knob. Before he could touch the handle, it shot open. He looked up to see Ronnie standing there, hazel eyes wild with anger and fear. Lucius tucked his gun away just in time as Ronnie launched himself into Lucius arms.
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Are you okay, baby? He embraced his lover tight, waving Dante and Will into the room. Yeah, Im fine, though he ruined this dress and I paid a lot of money for it. Ronnies voice shook as he complained. What the hell took you so long? I thought youd be out here looking for me minutes after we arrived. Lucius eased Ronnie back and cradled Ronnies face. Ill buy you a hundred dresses just like that one as long as youre okay. I had to wait until my captain had enough evidence Cameron took you. I wanted to come after you as soon as Cindi told me you were gone. Hows Andrew? The rat bastard hit him really hard. Ronnie bit his lip and winced as his teeth hit the cut marring his mouth. Lucius stepped even farther away from Ronnie and trailed his gaze over Ronnies form. Ronnies dress was torn into shreds, his black satin underwear and corset peeking out from what strips were there. Lucius took off his windbreaker and vest, setting them on the floor before removing his own shirt. Here, honey. You probably want to cover up. Ronnie frowned and looked down at his clothes. A blush crept up Ronnies cheeks. Im a little cold. He helped Ronnie slip the shirt on. Lucius smiled slightly as the sight of Ronnie swimming in his clothes. You dont want your work colleagues to see me in a dress and womens underthings? Tension colored Ronnies words, but Lucius didnt take offense at Ronnies questions. His lover had had a rough night and was entitled to be bitchy about things. No, Ronnie. It has nothing to do with you dressing in womens clothes. To be honest, most of the men with me have
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seen you perform at Cindis. It has more to with me not wanting any of them to see you almost naked. Youre mine, and I dont want to share you, even just letting guys look at you. Lucius stroked his fingers over Ronnies bruised cheek. Youll be cold, and you didnt strike me as the type of guy who likes to parade around in his underwear, no matter what kind they are. Only in front of you, Ronnie muttered. He closed his eyes and breathed deeply, like he was calming himself down. And I appreciate that. Lucius looked up as Dante and Will dragged Cameron out of the room. The senator looked like hed gone four rounds with a heavyweight boxer. His nose looked broken and one eye was swollen almost shut. His usually carefully coiffed hair stood up in spikes and his suit was streaked with blood, dirt, and spit. The man sort of looked like hed been tarred and feathered with tracks of powder and bright red feathers stuck to him. What the fuck happened to him? Lucius gave Ronnie an incredulous glance. Did you beat the shit out of him? Ronnie wrapped his arms around his waist and glared at Cameron. Id have done worse if I could have. That bastard kidnapped me and dragged me out here against my will. He seemed to believe there was something between the two of us when, in reality, I cant stand the sight of him. There was no way I was going to let him touch me any more than he already had. When Ronnie shuddered and curled his lip in disgust, Lucius almost went after the senator himself. No one touched Ronnie, not even Lucius, without the mans permission. He was thrilled Ronnie got some punches in on the senator. But you said you loved me, Cameron whined. At what point? I have never talked to you, except to tell you to
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leave me the hell alone. I dont even know why youre stalking me. Im not a girl, dude. Im a man. I have a penis, not a vagina. You arent gay. I love you. That must mean Im gay for you. The senator struggled against Dantes hold. No, that just means youre crazy. Ronnie shook his head, pushing his hair out of his face. Get him out of here, Dante. Call Captain Johnson and let him know we got Cameron. Right. Dante nodded toward Ronnie. Its nice to finally meet you, Mr. Lake. Lucius chuckled at Ronnies puzzled frown. Dont worry. Ill explain later. We need to get you to the hospital and a crime scene group out here. What about Andrew? You didnt answer my question. God, nothing bad happened to him, did it? Ronnie laid his hand on Lucius arm. Lucius patted Ronnies hand. Nothing happened to him. Hes a little bruised, but nothing that needed medical attention. Tomas will take care of him and maybe itll help their relationship move beyond the flirting stage. Thank you, Lucius. Ronnie flung himself into Lucius arms and their lips met in a fierce kiss. Lucius put all of his love for Ronnie in it, happiness that his lover was okay swelling in his heart. He tasted salt on Ronnies skin and pulled back to see Ronnie crying. Whats wrong, love? Youre okay. Im sorry I let him get a hold of you and hurt you. Ill try to do better from now on. No, its not your fault, cher. All the blame goes to Cameron. Hes going to jail for this. Im just so happy youre here and you
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came to rescue me, even if it was a little later than I thought. Ronnie turned, wiped the tears off his cheeks, and straightened his shoulders. The sooner we get to the hospital, the sooner we can go home. Youll probably end up spending the night in the hospital. Theyll want to keep an eye on you. Unfortunately, once I make sure youre okay, Im going to have to work this case. Get statements and things like that. Im going to have to testify, arent I? Ronnie didnt look excited about that. Lucius offered Ronnie his arm and escorted him down the hallway. He kept his pace slow, not wanting Ronnie to hurt his bare feet on anything. Yes, unless the senator pleads guilty, which I dont think he will. Hes crazy enough not to think he did anything wrong. I have a feeling, though, theres a woman buried here and hes responsible for her death. They stopped at the bottom of the porch steps and stood there, staring out over the rough ground. Lucius faced Ronnie. Do you want to walk or would you be willing to let me carry you? I dont want you to injure your feet on rocks or sticks, but I also know you might feel the need to get to the vehicles on your own. Ronnie touched his cheek for a second before sighing. You can carry me. I dont need to prove anything to anyone, and Im tired of being strong. Without saying a word, Lucius swept Ronnie into his arms and headed back down the trail to where hed parked his car. The rest of the officers and agents were standing around, waiting for them. The senator sat in the backseat of one car. Dante approached
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Lucius and Ronnie. Ill ride with one of the other guys. Lucius shook his head. Would you drive us to the hospital? Dante met his gaze and nodded, understanding shining in his eyes. Yes. His friend opened the back door of Lucius car and held it while Lucius set Ronnie inside. I have to talk to them, then well head out. Ronnie didnt answer, just curled up on the seat and rested his head against the back. Lucius shut the door and turned to look at all the guys. Thank you for helping out. Now, you can head to the precinct. Youll have to write up your reports. If you could deliver the senator to my boss, Captain Johnson, Id appreciate it. I need a few of you to stay here and start processing the scene, plus call the parish sheriff to let them know were out here. Sure. I hope your boyfriends okay, Lucius, Will said before he headed toward one of the cars. The other officers murmured their own well wishes as they walked off. Lucius climbed into the back seat with Ronnie, while Dante slid behind the steering wheel. Ronnie snuggled close to him, and Lucius brushed a kiss over the top of Ronnies head. How are you doing, Mr. Lake? Lucius had always known Dante was a good guy, but by talking to Ronnie instead of around him, Dante proved just how nice a guy he was. Ive had better days thats for sure. Ronnie tilted his head. Have you and Lucius been friends long? We met in the army while serving at Fort Bragg. Both of us were military police. Did a tour in Iraq. When it came time to re115
enlist, Lucius decided not to, and I thought he might have a good idea about that. I went into the FBI. He came back home. Ronnie laid his head on Lucius shoulder, tracing random designs on his lovers chest. Lucius talked about me? At times you were all he talked about. Of course, I didnt realize until tonight that the Ronnie he told me about was a guy. Dante held up his hand. Dont get upset. Dont Ask, Dont Tell precludes any man talking about his boyfriend. Not very fair, but thats how it goes. Im glad I finally get to put a face to the name. Its nice to meet you, though Lucius hasnt really mentioned you a lot. Ronnie laughed. It could be that we havent had a lot of time to catch up on whats gone on while we were apart. Its been kind of crazy. Dante turned onto the asphalt highway, heading toward New Orleans and the hospital. They fell silent, and Lucius rubbed Ronnies back, soothing them both with his touch. You should probably call Ms. Cindi, Ronnie. Hes going to be worried about you. Lucius wiggled around and managed to pull his phone out of his pocket without letting go of Ronnie. All right. Ronnie dialed Cindis number. Lucius tipped his head back and closed his eyes, adrenaline seeping from him, leaving him shaking and tired. He must have dozed because he didnt hear any of the conversation Ronnie had with Cindi. He started as Ronnie snuggled closer to him and stuck his phone back in his pocket. Cindi and Percy are going to come to the hospital and bring me some clothes. Lucius smoothed his hand over Ronnies hair. You told them to bring you a pair of pajamas, right? I dont think youll be going
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home tonight. Ronnie nodded. Cindi said shed bring everything and not to worry about it. I hope there arent any ignorant assholes working as nurses or doctors tonight. I dont think I can put up with any insults or bigoted narrow-mindedness. Dont worry, honey. Ill be there to ensure you dont bitch out some nurse. Or I might just encourage you to do so. Lucius shook his head. No one has the right to judge you because of the way you look or how you dress. I love the fact you feel that way, Ronnie murmured. Lucius eased back slightly to look down into Ronnies hazel eyes. I love you, Ronnie Lake, and Ill never turn my back on you. It doesnt matter to me if you like to wear womens clothes or even if you decide you want to be a woman. None of it matters because I love you, not just for the gorgeous, sexy outside, but the beautiful soul housed in your hot body. Tears shone in Ronnies eyes, and Lucius bent his head, pressing their lips together. Unfortunately, it was a short kiss because the car stopped and Dante cleared his throat. Were here. Rubbing his thumb over Ronnies glistening lips, Lucius smiled. Well get back to that after youre less bruised. I dont want to hurt you, even accidentally. Fine. Ronnie pouted for a moment before sighing and climbing out of the car as Dante opened the door for him. There was a group of nurses waiting with a wheelchair and they whisked Ronnie off. Lucius promised to join them as soon as he finished talking to Dante. Thanks, man. I owe you for helping out. They hugged. Dante shook his head as he stepped back. Nah, bro. Youd do
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the same for me, if I needed it. I have to admit your boyfriend is damn sexy. I thought you were straight, Lucius joked. I am, but Im secure enough to be able to say I think another guys hot. You got a good one there. Dante flagged down a cab and tossed Lucius keys at him. I have to get back to the precinct to write up my report. Ill call you tomorrow to check up on Ronnie. Lucius waved to his friend and headed into the hospital. He would have to take Ronnies statement, but that could wait until after the doctor had a chance to see his lover. The case against the senator wasnt going to come to trial any time soon, so they had time.
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The senator burst into my dressing room, grabbed my arm and started to drag me with him. I fought him, using every trick of selfdefense my boyfriend taught me. I wasnt going to let him take me. Ronnie stopped and drew a breath. His heart raced as he glanced over to where Cameron sat, perfectly dressed and coifed like he wasnt some psychotic stalker. What happened then? The prosecutor, U.S. Attorney Jegens, asked. Ronnie shrugged. I threw everything in the room at him. Shoes, make-up, clothes. Anything that might hurt or possibly stop him. He punched me, and I fell against the sofa, then the coffee table, breaking my ribs in the process. He caught hold of my arm again and forced me to my feet.
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He went through what happened to Andrew, who had testified a day earlier, trying not to get bogged down in the details, but not missing anything that might be important. Jegens had role-played Ronnies testimony, trying to get him comfortable with talking in front of a jury. Hell, it wasnt that hard. He performed in front of hundreds every night. After he knocked Andrew down, he yanked me along the hall of the club to the back alley where there was a car waiting. Hed hit me a couple times around the head, so I was a little dizzy and couldnt really fight back at that time. Ronnie paused and reached for the glass of water the bailiff had poured for him earlier. It had taken six months to get the senator to trial. Ronnie resented the amount of time it took, which was foolish he knew. He wasnt the only victim whose chance to be heard took so long to come to court. After taking a sip and putting the glass back, Ronnie smoothed his sweaty palms over his skirt. The attorney trying the case had told Ronnie he should wear a suit to the courtroom. Ronnie did, but not the type Jegens meant. Ronnie understood most of the case hung on how the jury perceived him. Yet he wasnt willing to compromise who he was to make others comfortable. As long as Lucius didnt care what Ronnie wore, then Ronnie would continue to dress like he did, even in court. His charcoal suit, consisting of a fitted jacket and matching skirt, fit him like itd been tailored for his slender body. His sedate dark blue silk blouse spoke of understated taste and elegance. His subtle make-up highlighted his eyes and lips. Ronnie wore a pair of dark blue heels to complete the outfit. Itd taken Lucius, Cindi, Percy, and him two days to find just the right outfit and when he put it on for the first time, hed felt
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powerful and confident. Those feelings told him it was the right combination to wear to court. Hed seen some of the looks hed gotten from the jury members and people sitting in the courtroom. Some were of appreciation, until the person looking realized Ronnie was a man, then they became looks of disgust or derision. The women liked his clothes, but not necessarily that a man looked better in them than they did. He was being petty and unkind, he knew, because there were quite a few people who didnt seem to mind at all. And after he put you in the car? Jegens prompted. He threw me in the trunk and drove somewhere. I was dazed from the fight and my side was killing me. He brushed his hair back over his shoulder. What did you think the senator was going to do when you got wherever you were going? I wasnt sure, but it couldnt have been good, right? No one attacks a person and kidnaps them from their place of business for fun or to be nice to them. At least no one I know does that. He glanced over at the senator, who wouldnt meet his eyes. It annoyed him that the man just sat there with a smug, irritated expression on his face like this whole procedure interrupted something far more important he could be doing. All of the sound bites his team of high-powered lawyers gave to the press were about Ronnie. They were determined to make Ronnie out to be some obsessed stalker himself, who didnt like the idea the senator didnt want him. He stopped watching TV and reading the newspapers because hed get so angry about it. Lucius way of getting him to forget about what they said was to love him. He didnt know how many times theyd made love during the ensuing months while waiting for the trial to start. Not
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that Ronnie was complaining or anything. He loved making love to Lucius. What happened next? Jegens paced in front of the jury, intently listening to Ronnie like he hadnt heard the story a million times before. He took me to a room in the back of this house. I still didnt know where we were or anything. I continued to fight back. It was the only way I knew how to stall him. I needed to keep him from doing whatever he planned. Also, I knew if I held out long enough, Lucius would find me. Who is Lucius? Everyone in the room knew who Lucius was. Hed testified earlier in the week about his part in the whole case. Ronnie met Lucius gaze where the man sat out in the gallery. Lucius smiled, not ashamed in the least by what Ronnie was about to say. New Orleans police detective Lucius Montagne is my boyfriend. We dated in high school, if you call caring for each other, but not being able to show it for fear of being beaten up by bullies dating. He mentally shoved away the bad memories. There werent many after Lucius came to Ronnies high school. We hadnt seen each other since we graduated. One night, seven months ago, Lucius showed up at Cindis Cabaret where I work. He wanted to talk about the compliant I filed against the senator a few months earlier. Ronnie took another drink. Only coughs and the click of the court reporters keys broke the silence. United States Senator Camerons trial was headline news, not only in the tabloids, but in mainstream media as well. Ronnie had become very popular, but he declined interviews. He wanted his life to go back to how it was
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before Cameron became a terrible part of it, with one huge exception; he wanted Lucius to be there still. So let me get this straight. You filed a harassment compliant against the senator, but the officers you went to did nothing. Ronnie nodded. Yes, they dismissed my concerns. Why would they do that? Did they give you a reason why theyd chose to ignore your concerns about the senator? Jegens had told Ronnie he knew he had an airtight case against Cameron. Hed praised Lucius, Dante, and the others for getting him the evidence he needed to put Cameron in jail for a long time. The only thing that worried him, and hed expressed his doubts to Ronnie, was how the jury would deal with Ronnie being a gay cross-dresser. As willing as the people of New Orleans seemed to be to accept alternative lifestyles and the more eccentric people who called New Orleans home, there were still many whose upbringing taught them that the way Ronnie lived was wrong. He refocused on the questions. They looked at me and saw the same thing most of you see when you look at me. A fag trying to be a woman. It was bad enough I was queer, but I was even more deviant than that because I liked to wear womens clothing. A few people shifted in their seats. Ronnie lifted the corner of his mouth in a small smile. I guess I kind of understand why youd think that. Were taught at such a young age about gender roles and stereotypes that when someone steps outside what we perceive as the norm, were uncomfortable and at times, unwilling to see past the outside to the person inside. Ronnie took a deep breath. The cops thought all those things about me. They talked to the senator, and he told them I was some crazy fag whod been stalking him for months. That he
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should file a stalking charge against me. He wasnt gay, but for some reason, Id become fixated on him. Ronnie rolled his eyes. Like that situation would ever have happened. Jegens gave him an encouraging smile when his back was to the jury box. Testifying was as difficult as Ronnie thought it would be, but hed get through it. Had you fixated on Senator Cameron? I mean, he is a handsome man. Jegens nodded in the mans direction. He might be, but hes not my type. What type is he? Aside from crazy? Ronnie swallowed his own laughter as some people in the gallery chuckled. As far as I knew, Senator Cameron was straight. I dont go for straight guys. Nothing but heartache there. And not worth my time when I couldve found someone else who was gay and not crazy. One of Camerons lawyers objected to Ronnies use of the word crazy. The judge upheld the objection and Ronnie was told to refrain from calling the senator that. He agreed, even though everyone knew he was right. Im simply saying Senator Cameron doesnt appeal to me in any way. There was no way he couldnt have known I was a guy. I work at one of the premiere female impersonator clubs. Usually it means all of the performers are male. So any argument he might have that he didnt know I was a guy wont fly. He continued to follow and harass me outside of work, even after he knew Veronica Lake was really Ronald Lake. Ronnie gestured toward Lucius. The senator accosted me outside Detective Montagnes house when I left it the afternoon of the day he kidnapped me. Im not sure why he chose me to obsess over, though from what I understand, this is a pattern with him.
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One I believe the prosecution has already brought up. A few members of the jury nodded. I fought as best I could. I had just kicked the senator in the groin and was trying to make my way out of the room when Detective Montagne arrived to get the situation under control. What kind of injuries did you receive during the kidnapping? Jegens waved for one of his assistants to bring in some visual aidsenlarged photographs of Ronnies injuries. Ronnie touched his left cheek where a small scar marred his skin. The senator cracked my cheekbone and broke my nose. He split open my lip and broke two of my ribs. I sprained my knee as well. Being yanked along by the elbow while in heels is murder on your legs. Light laughter filtered through the court as the females in the room sympathized with him. Ronnie relaxed even more. He knew the senators lawyers were going to try to make him look like some crazy fag, but he could handle them. Hell, hed been dealing with men like them all his life. They didnt mean anything anymore. Looking straight at Lucius, Ronnie smiled. Yeah, no one mattered anymore except the man he loved. And it didnt matter what anyone else thought of him. Lucius loved him because of who he was on the inside. Ronnies outside wrapping only enhanced how Lucius felt about him. Thats all the questions I have for this witness, Your Honor. Jegens sat. Ronnie straightened his shoulders and got ready. Now it was time for the fight. He was going to prove to everyone, like he did to the senator that night, that just because he wore dresses didnt mean he was weak or would break under pressure.
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When the jury foreman read the guilty verdict, tears welled in Ronnies eyes. He bit his lip to keep from crying. He couldnt show weakness now. Not after holding strong under the enormous pressure the defense lawyers put on him. Lucius took Ronnies hand in his and squeezed. After court was adjourned, Jegens turned to look at Ronnie. I shouldve known youd be convincing enough without worrying about how you dressed. Ronnie blushed slightly and dipped his head in acknowledgement. I had the truth on my side, and no matter what they personally might think of me, the jury realized Cameron is a dangerous man to have on the streets. Jegens had to talk to the defense lawyers, so Ronnie and Lucius made their way out of the room, waiting for Jegens to join them. When he joined them in the corridor, Lucius looked at Jegens. Were having a party at Cindis Cabaret tonight. Not necessarily a celebration party, but more of a thank God, its over party. Ronnie and Id like you to join us. Jegens glanced at Ronnie. Will you be performing? Ronnie winked. Of course, I will. Then Ill be more than happy to join you. I cant stay too late because I drive back to Baton Rouge in the morning, but Id like to buy you a drink. Id be thrilled to accept. Everyone else is going to start arriving at nine, but Lucius and I will be there earlier. It takes me a while to get ready, and Lucius doesnt like me going to the club alone. Ronnie hugged Lucius arm tight. That was because of Cameron, though I will admit Im still
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leery about you going there on your own. Youve proven you can handle yourself, so maybe Ill let you go alone once in a while. Lucius brushed a kiss over Ronnies cheek. Lets go, everyone. Were escorting you out back because the media sharks have the front of the courthouse covered. Dante strolled up to them, gesturing behind him toward the back of the building. You go out the back, and Ill take care of the sharks circling out front. Now youll have to continue to deal with reporters because it is big news and youre a beautiful man. They like that sort of combination. Jegens shook Lucius hand and kissed Ronnie on the cheek before he walked off, briefcase in hand and assistants scurrying along beside him. Ronnie glanced over at Lucius, but his lover didnt look jealous because of the kiss. He slipped his hand down to entwine their fingers together and inhaled. Lets go. I still have to grab my stuff from our place and get to the club. How many people are coming? As they moved to the exit, Lucius said, I invited all the guys who worked with me on the case. A lot of them are bringing their wives because they say their wives love the show at Cindis. I think some of them secretly like it as well. They laughed, and Dante pushed open the door for them. Lucius car was parked at the curb. Dante gave them both hugs. Ill see you tonight as well. Most of the agents will be there. Theyre looking forward to it. Dante chuckled as he stepped back from the car. I never thought youd be dating a cross-dresser, Lucius, but Ronnie and you fit together perfectly. I know. Lucius squeezed Ronnies hand before letting him go to get in the car. Well see you later.
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Ronnie climbed in, while Lucius got in on his side. A relieved silence filled the air. Ronnie reached over to rest his hand on Lucius knee. Im glad its over, he murmured. Lucius nodded. So am I, honey. Now lets get back home and tell MaeAnne, Randall, and Preston about it. Oh, and theyre going to come tonight as well. Randall said hed drive them all over around nine. Of course, they wont be staying long, but still I thought it would be nice to ask them to join in. Ronnie leaned over and gave Lucius cheek a quick peck. Where else would they be when were celebrating? Theyre our family as much as any of the guys at the cabaret. I told them the same thing. They didnt think wed want a bunch of old people hanging out with us. Lucius snorted. Old? Hell, Randall and Preston have more energy than I do most days. And MaeAnne is sharp as a whip. I want to be like Randall and Preston when we get older, Ronnie admitted, squeezing Lucius thigh. Lucius smiled at him. I think it can be arranged. They parked down from their building and climbed out of the car. Ronnie waited on the sidewalk for Lucius to join him, then he slipped his hand in the crook of Lucius elbow and they strolled to the gate leading into the small front courtyard. Ronnie was determined to convince Lucius to put a fountain there and do some more landscaping. It wasnt a huge space, but still more could be done with it than Lucius had done. As soon as they stepped inside the building, Randalls door was yanked open and Preston rushed out. He swooped in and wrapped his thin arms around Ronnies shoulders, hugging him tight. Be careful, darling. Dont break the poor boy. Randall
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stepped out and grinned at them. Cindi called and let us know how the verdict went. Preston stepped back and signed, Were thrilled the senator was found guilty. He deserves to rot in prison for what he did to you. Ronnie had been studying sign language so he could better communicate with Preston, but the mans fingers were flying through the words so fast Ronnie couldnt keep up with him. Thank God, Randall interpreted for him. Yeah, but he has one more trial to go throughthe senator, not Ronnie. The U.S. Attorneys office is bringing him up on murder charges. They found the body of the woman who disappeared last year on the property where he took Ronnie. Lucius looked grim. Ill have to go back and testify again, but this part of the ordeal is over for Ronnie. Ronnie closed his eyes and said a prayer for the dead woman. He knew how close hed come to the same fate, if not for Lucius coming to find him and his own fighting back. Lucius cupped the back of Ronnies neck under his hair, giving him the silent support he needed. The last six months had been hard, but with help from a therapist, his friends, and Lucius, Ronnie had gotten over most of the trauma of that night. There were times when hed have a nightmare or freak a little, but for the most part, hed moved on. Performing at Cindis kept him focused as well. We made dinner, if youd like to join us, Randall offered. I know you dont have much time before you have to go to the club. Ronnie met Lucius gaze with a question in his. Lucius nodded, and Ronnie turned to Randall. Wed love to join you. Were
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going to run upstairs and change. Also, I need to grab my bag to take to the club. Great. Ill open the wine while Randall serves the dinner. Prestons fingers flashed as he retreated to their apartment. Starting up the stairs, he stopped when Randall called out to him. Would you check and see if MaeAnne would like to join us as well? We made more than enough for all of us. Ill do that, Lucius offered, waving Ronnie on. Why dont you go and put something more comfortable on? Ill talk to MaeAnne. After making his way to the top floor, Ronnie opened the apartment door and walked in. He stopped dead in his tracks. Flowers covered every surface in the living room, dining area, and the kitchen. Tears tracked down his face as he spotted the white envelope propped up against the largest bouquet of roses. Hed never seen such a combination of flowers. Red, white, yellow, pink, and burgundy ones graced the glass vase. Pulling a red one out, he smelled it and noticed it was thorn-less. He put the flower back and picked up the envelope. After opening it, he tugged the sheet of paper out. Ronnie unfolded it to see Lucius handwriting scrawled across it. Every flower in the room means love in some way. The thornless roses mean love at first sight, which is what happened to me the first time I looked at you. I took one look at you and fell, not caring where I landed or how. All I knew was you were the air I breathed and the sunshine I needed to live. I love you, Ronnie Lake, and I will love you until the universe dies away. Possibly longer than that. Sobbing, he clutched the note to his chest. Each day, Lucius
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showed him how much he loved him. Each day, Ronnie fell deeper and deeper in love with the man who stole his heart all those years ago. He dropped to his knees, crying and not caring about his make-up running. Honey. Oh, sweetheart, whats wrong? Lucius knelt beside him and encircled him with his strong arms. If Id known you didnt like flowers this much, I wouldnt have bought them. He shook his head, trying to catch his breath long enough to speak the words welling in his heart. Hush, love. Its okay. Lets get you undressed and in the shower. Ill call the guys and let them know well be a little late. No, he gasped, grabbing Lucius arm as his lover tried to move away from him. Im fine and I adore the flowers. No ones ever done something like this for me. I wanted you to know I admire and love you so much, Ronnie. Everything youve achieved in your life proves how strong you are. I want to stay in your life. I want to grow old with you and watch you perform every night at Cindis. Ronnie rose up on his knees, cradled Lucius face in his hands, and kissed him. He poured all of his love, trust, and every promise he could imagine making into that kiss. Their lips and bodies fit together like God had made them each for the other. They finally broke apart when Ronnies lungs burned for air, but he kept his hands on Lucius face, studying his lovers dark eyes. I love you. At times, Im afraid how much you mean to me. I think Id be utterly destroyed if you ever left me. Thats not going to happen. Never again. Ronnie could see how leaving him the first time still affected Lucius. He brushed his thumb over Lucius lower lip. Ive told you a hundred times, and Ill keep saying it, your
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leaving was the best thing for both of us. As much as we knew we loved each other, we were too young for it to work. Each of us wouldve had to give up something and wed have resented doing it. Im glad I had to learn how to survive without you. Somehow, deep inside, I knew youd be back. I knew our separation wasnt forever. He surged to his feet, bringing Lucius up with him. Waving his hand in a wild gesture around them, he grinned. Now we have the chance to make our world more beautiful than it was before. Together, we can do anything and be anything we want. Well keep our friends and family close, loving all of them with almost as much emotion as we love each other. Sounds marvelous to me, Lucius agreed and kissed him again. Ronnie inched back, and Lucius followed him. Step by step, stilling kissing and slowly removing their clothes, they made their way down the hall to their bedroom. He didnt stop until the back of his knees hit the edge of the mattress. Sitting, he reached for the waistband of Lucius boxer briefs. He glanced up at his lover and grinned as he slid the underwear down to reveal Lucius cock. The hard flesh sprang from its confinement, almost hitting Ronnie in the face. Not that he would have minded. He licked his lips and bent, taking the spongy head into his mouth. Lucius entwined his fingers in Ronnies hair, but didnt pull, just held on. Ronnie flicked the slit with the tip of his tongue, and Lucius jumped slightly. Ronnie chuckled as Lucius moaned. A soft tug at his hair drew his gaze up to Lucius. Have a little fun, Ronnie, but dont make me come. I want to be inside you when I do.
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Ronnie nodded and sucked Lucius shaft down until his nose was buried in the dark curls at the base. He got lost in the taste and texture of the flesh he played with; salt and bitterness danced on his tongue, while he savored the velvet-covered steel filling his mouth. He didnt know how long he enjoyed Lucius cock. Suddenly, Lucius tapped his cheek and started to pull out. He whimpered, and Lucius laughed. Id love to let you blow me until I come, Ronnie, but I want in that tight ass of yours. His entire body shuddered and his ass clenched at the thought of Lucius pounding into him. They took turns with who bottomed, but Ronnie admitted he liked getting fucked the best of all. Yet he liked the fact Lucius didnt just assume he would bottom all the time. Usually, his lover would ask first, but something in the gleam of Lucius gaze told Ronnie he would feel their love-making for a couple days this time. After kicking off his heels, he scrabbled up on the bed and reached for his stockings. Hed gotten the rest of his clothes off before he started sucking Lucius, but taking off his stockings meant being farther away from Lucius than hed wanted to be earlier. Lucius reached out and stopped him. Leave those on. I love the feel of them against my skin as I fuck you. Its almost as good as having your skin against me. Ronnies cock stiffened even more and pre-cum leaked from it. Lucius swiped the fluid with his thumb, bringing it to his lips and licking it off. Ronnie pouted when Lucius moved away from the bed. Dont worry. I just need to get the lube. We took it into the
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shower with us this morning, remember? Well have to pick up more next time we go shopping. Closing his eyes, Ronnie fisted his cock and stroked. He jumped when hard plastic landed on his stomach. Looking down, he saw the bottle of lube lying there. Lucius knelt on the bed between Ronnies legs, staring at him. Get yourself ready. Theyd discovered Lucius liked to watch Ronnie stretch and get himself ready for Lucius cock. Ronnie was the opposite. When he was topping, he wanted to be the one turning Lucius on by touching and fingering him. Yet knowing Lucius devoured him with his eyes while he did it made Ronnie hard enough to ache. He coated his fingers with the lube and brought his leg up to his chest. He sank the digits in without any foreplay or teasing. He wanted Lucius inside him as soon as possible. Within a minute or two, he relaxed enough to gesture to Lucius. Please, I want you now. Lucius moved forward and slung Ronnies legs over his shoulders. Positioning the head of his cock at Ronnies opening, he glanced down at him. Their eyes met and Ronnie tried to pour all of his love into that look. Neither of them broke the contact as Lucius sank deep into Ronnies ass. God, he loved the feel of Lucius prick filling him. They had been tested two months ago in order to stop using condoms and being able to feel Lucius without latex increased the sensations a hundredfold. He moaned as Lucius paused, buried as far as he could go inside Ronnie. I love you, Ronnie. Ronnie blinked away the tears at Lucius earnest declaration. I love you, too, Lucius. Its always been you.
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Lucius leaned down, bending Ronnie almost in half to kiss him. After that, they began moving together in a rhythm so familiar and yet so new each time they made love. He clenched his muscles, encasing Lucius cock in a tight vise-like grip. Soon the sounds and scents of sex filled the bedroom. Ronnie yelled as Lucius nailed his gland with each stroke in. His balls drew tight and he knew it wouldnt be long. He reached down and pumped his cock to Lucius thrusts. Thats it, love. Get yourself off. I want to feel you come on my cock. Lucius moved faster and, as impossible as it was, seemed to push deeper. Ronnies climax crashed over him and he threw back his head, yelling as cum shot from his cock to coat his stomach. Lucius grunted once and slammed into Ronnie, flooding his inner passage with hot liquid. As the last drop shot from both of them, Lucius collapsed on top of Ronnie, their breath mingling as they panted. The phone beside the bed rang, and Ronnie debated just letting it ring. He managed to muster the energy to answer it. Hello? Ronnie, its Randall. We were just wondering when you and Lucius would be coming back down? The smug tone of Randalls voice told Ronnie the man knew exactly what theyd been doing. Ummmgive us ten minutes and well be down. He could feel his skin heat. Ronnie had no idea why he felt embarrassed. All right. Well keep dinner warm. MaeAnne is already here with us, so you dont have to worry about picking her up on the way. He hung up, and Ronnie set the phone back in the cradle. Lucius body shook with laughter. Ronnie smacked his ass. Why do I feel like I just got caught by my parents? Lucius rolled off the bed and landed on his feet. He held out his
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hand for Ronnie to take. Technically, I think Randalls old enough to be our grandfather. Youre not helping, Ronnie grumbled as they raced to the bathroom. They took the fastest shower theyd ever taken together, then dressed. Ronnie checked the pink sundress he wore, making sure it wasnt bunched anywhere. Lucius came up behind him and slid his favorite white cardigan over his shoulders. He smiled at their reflection as Lucius slipped his arms around Ronnies waist and met his gaze in the mirror. His heels brought him close to Lucius height. Ronnie leaned back into Lucius solid body and sighed. At this moment, life is perfect, he murmured. And I am beautiful.
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T. A. CHASE
T. A. Chase lives a life without boundaries. Being fascinated by life and how different we all are, she writes about the things that make us unique. She finds beauty in all kinds of love and enjoys sharing those insights. She lives in the Midwest with his partner of fourteen years. When she isnt writing, shes watching movies, reading and living life to the fullest.
Dont miss Shades Of Dreams by T. A. Chase, available at AmberAllure.com! Stephan Colby is on top of the world. Hes the lead singer of one of the hottest new rock bands, and his best friend is in the band to share the success as well. In addition, Stephans madly in love. Yet Fate has a cruel way of kicking a man in the teeth, and when Stephans world crashes down around him, he turns to his Rock, his bandmate, the one man who has always been there for him. Rocky Sanicily has always had Stephans back, and theyve been through a lot together. Rocky has also been in love with Stephan for many years, but has never found the courage to admit it. When Stephan suddenly loses the most important thing in his life,
however, Rocky must do everything in his power to keep Stephan from giving up. If he succeeds, will he be able to finally tell Stephan how he feels? And if so, will it bring the friends closer together, or tear apart their relationship forever?
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