grew easier when he appointed her to his cabinet they worked in adjacent
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buildings, then, and had every excuse in the world to stay late. They were alsocloser to her place, although she preferred to keep that space to herself and hewas practiced enough not to insist.It had been inevitable because of who she was, because of who Adar was, notconvenience but serendipity that events should bring two such like-minded people
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into such close proximity that they really couldnt avoid one another forever. And
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if Laura sometimes wondered why she needed this particular extreme in arelationship, when she was so very much in control in almost every other aspect ofher life well, to give Richard credit where it was due, she might have wondered,
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but she usually didnt care.
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He didnt overplay it, which was probably why it went on as long as it had. Near
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the end what turned out to be the end things had started to change. It was
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subtle, but it was there. Lauras guard was up too firmly, perhaps, because she
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was more concerned with the cancer (about which Richard did not know) than she waswith Richards pleasure, and he sensed that she was withholding something. It was
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he who crossed the line between personal and professional, using her obviousdistraction to slip the double-cross with the union past her; she wondered,sometimes, if she would have ended it with him then, had things not gone as theyhad.But of course, that no longer mattered. In fact, to say it no longer mattered
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was an understatement of stunning degree. Because Richard had shortly thereafterbeen blown to smithereens, and she had his job now for the second time sinceleaving Caprica for good, and she had a new and wholly unexpected set of things todistract her. The cancer, for one thing. Although the prospect that there might besome new Cylon-based cure still lurked out there, coloring her perspective andgiving her a hope she wasnt sure she wanted. Hope was itself a distraction, it
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led to inevitable what-if thinking, which she didnt have time for.
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She also didnt have time for the distraction that was Adama, who she knew to be
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very different from Adar in so many fundamental ways. He was not nearly as easy,for one thing. She would have said that he was ethical to the bone, and was nopolitician but then there was the lie about Earth, his use of the Cylons body to
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try to trick the terrorists holding Billy and Lee and the others hostage. Shewould have said he was born to command, but on the other hand he seemed to have agenuinely egalitarian view of leadership, allowing his staff more freedom inachieving their ends than micromanaging Richard would ever have dared. A freedomhe could allow them because, she knew, they had such a deep and abiding loyalty toAdama. He might have been lacking something, some key element that those at thetop needed there was a reason hed never really been made an admiral during his
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career but Laura had to wonder whether lacking that quality was such a bad
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thing. If Adar and Cain were the standards, then how could Adama be considered aninferior model?So, while she steadfastly told herself that ethical, egalitarian Adama was plainvanilla, entirely unlikely to be a provider of whatever it was, that strange thingshe knew she needed, that dynamic that she hated to call domination or submissionbecause there was more going on than that for her while she told herself that,
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she had occasionally caught something in his voice, an edge, a stoniness, and beendevastated by the what-if. She always had to slam the door shut on that line of
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thinking, stuff it back as deep into her subconscious as she could, but theperversity of her nature meant that it couldnt stay there long. She played on the
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edge, daring him to give her commands, flirting with the part of the dynamic thathad nothing to do with sex but it did, of course it did, and even as she laughed
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at his gruff orders, at his stony-faced authority, she knew there was a venue in
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