My Reincarnation Story or writing about Austin Spare.
Finding out about my past life was both exhilarating and disturbingexperience. I was never intended of seeking to find out about my past life,thinking that I most likely was a person like million other cases, an unknown,undocumented personality, whose life is hidden behind the veils of history.I was drawn to mysticism and magic since my late education and initiationinto an obscure type of Yoga, called Agni Yoga. After my fall-out with myteacher I begun my solitary journey that eventually had lead me to Hermetic philosophy and later Chaos magic.It must also be told that while I was born and raised in Budapest, Hungary, Iwas an anglophile as early as I remember. My reading and education bothlead me to the English culture and literature. I have attempted to immigrate toEngland first and only after I was refused, I looked into emigrating to Canadaor the United States.Austin Spare died in the Spring of 1956 and I was born in December 1956.Spare died of a burst appendix and while I've never overly concerned myself with my health, the concept of appendicitis, inexplicably has always gave mealarms. I would guess our dying leaves an imprint, a memory that sometimesstays around and can get carried over into the next incarnation.My life and childhood was non-typical for a Hungarian youth. I was veryself-conscious and inhibited with women but I was drawn to older women for comfort and sex. This pattern is a prepetition of Spare's sex life. I never hadany homosexual experience nor the inclination or curiosity but I had certaineffeminate characteristics that gave out false signals and I was approached bygay men throughout my life. This is also a very Spare-like attribute.I loved doodling and drawing of pictures of animals and persons. My mother encouraged my artistic persuasion while my father told me that I needed tolearn something I could support myself with. In addition to drawing and painting I loved cats and other animals as well. I was frequent visitor in theZoo.After discovering my past life I begun reading and studying the life andworks of Austin Spare and wanted to go deeper. I wanted to know what was before Austin Spare. Who was he/us, before that time? This overactivecuriosity eventually got the better of me. I stated imagining things and started