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T
he final line in the file the thief read over and over
again.
T
hey’d sent him here to save his life.
At least that was the line his grandparents laid on
him to explain why they’d decided to take him out of
public school and send him instead to an all-boys Jesuit board-
ing school nestled in some of the most godforsaken terrain on
the Maine-Canadian border.
They should have let him die.
Hoisting his duffel bag onto his shoulder, he picked up his
battered brown leather suitcase and headed toward what ap-
peared to be the main building on the isolated campus. Ev-
erywhere he looked he saw churches, or at least buildings with
pretensions of being one. A cross adorned every roof. Gothic
iron bars grated every window. He’d been wrenched from
civilization and dropped without apology in the middle of a
medieval monk’s wet dream.
He entered the building through a set of iron-and-wood
doors, the ancient hinges of which screamed as if being tor-
tured. He could sympathize. He rather felt like screaming
himself. A fireplace piled high with logs cast light and warmth
place seeped through his clothes, through his chilled skin and
into the core of him. He wanted to sleep for days, for years
even. Maybe when he woke up he would be a grown man
and no one could send him away again. The day would come
when he would take orders from no one, and that would be
the best day of his life.
A soft knock on the door jarred him from his musings.
A boy about twelve years old, with dark red hair, entered,
wearing the school uniform of black trousers, black vest, black
jacket and tie, with a crisp white shirt underneath.
All his life he had taken great pride in his clothes, every
detail of them, down to the shoes he wore. Now he, too,
would be forced into the same dull attire as every other boy
in this miserable place. He’d read a little Dante his last year at
his lycée in Paris. If he remembered correctly, the centermost
circle of hell was all ice. He glanced out the window in Fa-
ther Henry’s office. New snow had started to fall on the ice-
packed ground. Perhaps his grandfather had been right about
him. Perhaps he was a sinner. That would explain why, still
alive and only sixteen years old, he’d been sent to hell on earth.
“Matthew, thank you. Come in, please.” Father Henry mo-
tioned the boy into the office. The boy, Matthew, cast curious
glances at him while standing at near attention in front of the
priest’s desk. “How much French did you have with Father
Pierre before he passed?”
Matthew shifted his weight nervously from foot to foot.
“Un année?”
Father Henry smiled kindly. “It’s not a quiz, Matthew. Just
a question. You can speak English.”
The boy sighed audibly with relief.
“One year, Father. And I wasn’t very good at it.”
“Matthew, this is Kingsley…” Father Henry paused and
glanced down at a file in front of him “…Boissonneault?”
foyer they paused as the boy wrapped a scarf around his neck
and shoved his hands into gloves. Then, glancing around, he
curled up his nose in concentration.
“I don’t know the French word for foyer.”
Kingsley repressed a smile. The French for “foyer” was
foyer.
Outside in the snow, Matthew turned and faced the build-
ing they’d just left. “This is where all the Fathers have their
offices. Le pères…bureau?”
“Bureaux, oui,” Kingsley repeated, and Matthew beamed,
clearly pleased to have elicited any kind of encouragement or
understanding from him.
Kingsley followed the younger boy into the library, where
Matthew desperately sought out the French word for the place,
apparently not realizing that the rows upon rows of bookcases
spoke for themselves.
“Library…” Matthew said. “Trois…” Clearly, he wanted to
explain that the building stood three stories high. He didn’t
know the word for stories any more than he knew library, so
instead he stacked his hands on top of each other. Kingsley
nodded as if he understood, although it actually appeared as if
Matthew was describing a particularly large sandwich.
A few students in armchairs studied Kingsley with uncon-
cealed interest. His grandfather had said only forty or fifty stu-
dents resided at Saint Ignatius. Some were the sons of wealthy
Catholic families who wanted a traditional Jesuit education,
while the rest were troubled young men the court ordered
here to undergo reformation. In their school uniforms, with
their similar shaggy haircuts, Kingsley couldn’t tell the for-
tunate sons from the wards of the court.
Matthew led him from the library. The next building over
was the church, and the boy paused on the threshold before
reaching out for the door handle. Raising his fingers to his
Kingsley had ever seen in all his sixteen years. Vain as he was,
Kingsley couldn’t deny he’d for once met his match there. But
more than handsome, the pianist was also, in a way, as beauti-
ful as the music he played. He wore the school uniform, but
had abandoned the jacket, no doubt needing the freedom of
unencumbered arm movement. And although he was dressed
like all the other boys, he looked nothing like them. To King-
sley he appeared like a sculpture some magician had turned to
life. His pale skin was smooth and f lawless, his nose aquiline
and elegant, his face perfectly composed even as he wrung
glorious noise out of the black box in front of him.
If only…if only Kingsley’s father could be with him now
to hear this music. If only his sister, Marie-Laure, were here
to dance to it. For a moment, Kingsley allowed himself to
mourn his father and miss his sister. The music smoothed the
rough edges of his grief, however, and Kingsley caught him-
self smiling.
He had to thank the young man, the beautiful blond pia-
nist, for giving him this music and the chance to remember
his father for once without pain. Kingsley started to step into
the sanctuary, but Matthew grabbed his arm and shook his
head in a warning to go no farther.
The music ceased. The blond pianist lowered his arms and
stared at the keys as if in prayer before shutting the fallboard
and standing up. For the first time Kingsley noted his height—
he was six feet tall if he was an inch. Maybe even more.
Kingsley glanced at Matthew, who seemed to be paralyzed
with fear. The blond young man pulled on his black suit jacket
and strode down the center of the sanctuary toward them. Up
close, he appeared not only more handsome than before, but
strangely inscrutable. He seemed like a book, shut tight and
locked in a glass box, and Kingsley would have done anything
for the key. He met the young man’s eyes and saw no kind-
T
he fear had been his favorite part. The fear that fol-
lowed him like the footsteps through the woods where
he’d f led for sanctuary and found something better than
safety. The footsteps…how his heart had raced as they grew
louder, drew nearer. He’d been too afraid to run anymore,
afraid that if he ran he would get away. He ran to be caught.
That was the only reason.
Kingsley remembered his sudden intake of air as a viciously
strong hand clamped down onto his neck…the bark of the tree
trunk burning his back…the smell of the evergreens around
him, so potent that even thirty years later he still grew aroused
whenever he inhaled the scent of pine. And after, when he
woke up on the forest f loor, a new scent graced his skin—
blood, his own…and winter.
Three decades later he could never uncouple sex from fear.
The two were linked inextricably, eternally and unrepen-
tantly in his heart. He’d learned the potency of fear that day,
the power of it, even the pleasure, and now thirty years later,
fear had become Kingsley’s forte.
to find him in bed, waiting for her. When his hand shot out
and captured her by the arm, she gasped in fear.
Parfait.
His hand over her mouth killed her scream as Kingsley
shoved her into the wall. He kicked the door closed even as
Juliette attempted to wrest herself from his grasp. And al-
though at five-ten, his willowy Juliette could not match his
strength—no woman could—that didn’t stop her from try-
ing, from digging her heels into the hardwood f loor as he
dragged her toward the bed. Twisting in his arms, she cried
out against his hand. My God, she was as good at this game
as he was. Even racked with desire as potent as his, she could
still put up the most impressive fight, even when he knew she
wanted him as much or more than he needed her.
He loosened his grip on her wrists long enough to turn
her. He wanted her facedown tonight, bent over the bed,
impotent in her struggles. The spreader bars, cuffs, shackles
and ropes hung unwanted, unneeded on the walls all about
them. He’d rather hold her down with his own body than
employ any tools.
“Monsieur…” she panted, her eyes wide with fear as he
shoved her forward and she fell across the bed. The scent of
fear and sweat graced her skin like the most drugging of per-
fumes. “Non…s’il vous plaît…”
Her voice broke at the end of her plea and Kingsley almost
laughed. Anyone who’d ever chanted “no means no” had
never met his Juliette. This wasn’t only his favorite of their
games. It was hers.
Kingsley gripped her by the back of the neck and pressed
her face into the sheets to silence her. With his free hand, he
wrenched the back of her dress up, tearing it in the process.
She did look so lovely in white. How it glowed against her
dark skin. He’d found her on a beach in Haiti years ago…when
she’d been eighteen, barely more than a child. But she’d suf-
fered the miseries of a thousand lifetimes in those years. He’d
brought her back with him, made her his property. And in
the unlikely event she ever forgot who owned her now, this
was how he refreshed her memory.
With his knees he pried her thighs apart as he opened his
pants. When he shoved himself inside her, she let out a scream
that anyone in the hall would have heard. But it didn’t mat-
ter. No one would come to her aid.
He rode her hard with brutal thrusts. Breathing deeply,
Kingsley willed his pounding heart to slow. He wished to
savor this moment, savor her fear. He never imbibed her fear
right away. He’d always let it breathe first, decanted it, before
pouring it out and drinking it deep.
At times Juliette forgot it was him, her Kingsley, and got
lost in the memory of the man who’d done this to her out of
hatred and not love. Kingsley knew when her body went stiff
underneath him, when she stopped struggling, that her fear
had reached its peak.
He lived for those moments.
Her grunts and cries of pain and fear were the sweetest
sounds he could imagine. Only they could silence the music
in his ears that he heard from the time he woke until he fell
asleep and into blissful oblivion again. One piano concerto
thirty years ago…and still he couldn’t unhear it.
Juliette’s breathing quickened. She made a last valiant at-
tempt at escape, but Kingsley merely dragged her arms behind
her back and held her immobile. He thrust again, thrust hard,
and with a shudder he came inside her, as her inner muscles
clenched around him with the orgasm she’d fought against
until finally surrendering to him.
He lingered inside her and simply enjoyed the bliss of the
moment, the emptiness of it. His people were so right to call