My Mother used to say get with the program not to me directly, but in her talking about others.
2007 a hispanic female comes into the laundrimat 0n east 109th st to tell me i was pretty and at some othertime the same curly dyed red haired female told me to "get with the program"
I had an aversion to the sight of blood when I was young and the color red.
I thought it was because when I had nosebleeds my Mother would behave as if i were going to die.
That Charlie Romas married trick of hers was visiting once when it happened because i had ben picking mynose.
He put his keys under my back as I laid down.
He told my Mother it would work to stop the bleeding.
*the nosebleed I had in spanish class
*Val's bleding out because of alcohol comsumption
I now think my aversion to the color red was because my Great Uncle Norman Swilley's basement waspainted red.
In 1982 we were there visiting our cousin Leroy and watching Simon and garfunkel's concert in Central parkand Val had gone into the basement to play some records when Norm tried to kiss her.
It was Roy's funeral we were supposed to be attending and she spurned him.
I ha a similar encounter wiyh his brother Roy.
I was threatened by Roy, Earl and Norm at the behest of Dot while she assured me they were correct.
They said with glee "men will use you and dump you because of your attitude?"
I asked what attitude and to explain, but they all just smirked and I was glad i hadn't been raped.
I had no intention on having anything to do with the opposite sex because they were all spoken for andeveryone had already rejected me from day one
They went through alot of trouble to make that seem to happen to me, but they could never get past the factthat I was being rapedbeing dumped by these sadistic, pedophile, homosexual, rapists was notat all what happened to me I was dumping married men who were forcing themselves on me
It would have been a pleasure if they had dumped me
I had not chose them in the first place
They are weak minded and heavily into paraphilia fixed fantasies
They may have fooled some people, but orchestrations are just that orchestrations
Broken hearted losers