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Until one day, he said no more, pain will this beast take,
He stayed indoors, and never left, his heart was cold and ached,
On the floor, devoid of warmth, a stranger to this place,
His mighty body shook and shivered, tears fell from his face.
Do my looks; absolve my right, to live, my right to be,
I'm not aloud, to wonder round, to live amongst society,
Do I not cry; when I am pained, bleed when I am pricked,
You mock me with, your judging eyes; a monster is your verdict?
I write when I’m underground so that my words feel deeper when you read them. I can
feel the earth’s pulse surround me, and engulf me with the knowledge to become who,
and what ever I want to be in this life and the next. Life altering describes my words.
When I write,
You laugh, you cry, you’re hurt, you’re uplifted, you’re calm, you’re angry, and forever
changed.
When I write,
I make it so that you can feel what I feel, be what I am, and be what I am not.
When I write,
I pass wisdom to all my sisters, brothers, mothers, fathers, aunts, uncles, and grand-
parents.
When I write,
A small piece of my soul and my personality is left lingering on these pages. Every letter,
one after the other encourages me to write just another word, just another sentence, just
another paragraph, just another story and just another book. But my words are not just
another person’s words, they are my words.
When I write,
My words are in my perspective. My words give my hardships a face so that other may
identify with my life and my quest to find what everybody needs, wants and has… A
VOICE!
When I write,
I don’t just write for me, I write for the world and everybody who needs a powerful voice
to give them comfort and peace in a time of need.
Friday, February 27, 2009
20 Things to Know Before Entering the Battlefield of The Subconscious!!!
The enemy is resilient and determined; he will fight until the last breath.
The battlefield is the enemy’s home; he knows the terrain and you don’t.
The enemy employs guerrilla tactics; he will do anything to ensure his victory.
The enemy has ruled since the day you were born; he’s been building his defenses since
then.
The enemy employs spies you may think are your friends.
“The enemy is resilient and determined; he will fight until the last breath.”
The enemy is incapable of learning new tricks; understand his tactics, they will never
change.
Reinforce your weaknesses; the enemy will not see this happen.
“The enemy knows you better than you know yourself.”
The enemy will not learn as fast as you; he will only know who you were, but never who
you are.
“The battlefield is the enemy’s home; he knows the terrain and you don’t.”
You have the ability to study the battlefield from a safe distance.
“The enemy employs guerrilla tactic; he will do anything to ensure his victory.”
His soldiers are slow and dim-witted; you can outmaneuver and outsmart them.
“The enemy has ruled since the day you were born; he’s been building his defenses since
then.”
“The enemy employs spies you may think are your friends.”
His spies will give themselves away if you look hard enough.
Wisdom is the ability to understand and work with our higher selves, to be able to use
your minds powers for the better. Ignorance is not taking advantage of this warrior within
all of us. So train your minds, mold them into your own kingdom, manifest your destiny.
It can be done! It just takes motivation, and that is hard to achieve. Through believing in
yourself or having confidence in the person that you are, it is by all means achievable.
There's allot of beauty in the universe, are you really trying to just let that all pass you
by? Love one another, you are the same in many ways. Think about it, were all connected
in every way with everything under the sun and the moon, there is both positive and
negative energy floating around everywhere, the divine matrix connects all that we
conceive as matter to the eyes in this reality, affecting the way we think, the decisions we
make, the people we come across, the phone calls we receive, all manifested
subconsciously through the divine matrix. Its all real, and very powerful. So think about
your decisions before you make them, if it wasn't meant to happen, then it wont, if you
know it needs to be done, then do it, without regret, hold nothing back from yourself our
the people around you! Never take advantage of this, the dark side is much fun and you
will learn allot from the journey back, if you choose to partake in this perilous journey. Its
an unspoken subconscious battle that can and will be won! Stay true to this and you will
see the changes in your every day life, i promise you this!!! Life's way stellar, beautiful,
lets try to not take advantage of that!
Thoughts and emotions are creative, they are what create your reality, along
with your beliefs about what is real. For they are magnetic structures where
like attracts like and different repels different. Creation includes the process
of reaction and vise versa; the words themselves are just different arrangements of the
same letters. The creation of thought uses the process of
reaction as each thought responds to the previous thought.
Emotions are the strongest purest forces in the human body, and what in my
Experience have melted me down into yet another mold of nothing. The saying pain is
weakness leaving the body, refers to physical pains, not mental emotional pains. So
where do those pains come from and why? Over the past 3 years I have come to believe
that emotions derive from mental weaknesses entering slowly into the body though old,
sometimes forgotten mental scars from childhood, leaving behind emotions in these scars
as they leave the body in the form of pain, and pain is really emotion in one form or
another, built up in these mental scars, that once the emotional pressure is too much to
handle, burst open yet again, forcing out these emotions in the form of what society
portrays as weakness or pain, but in reality is emotional pain, forced out by painful
mental emotional thoughts and feelings, creating fresher deeper scars, expanding from
the brain, the mental portion, traveling through your neurological nerves, to your once
impenetrable heart, that is emotion. Thus starting over the in some cases unbearable
process of mental emotional pain, ultimately creating the eternal pendulum effects of
mental emotions, that define who you are as a person!
A human mind absorbs and emits energy. I'm using this term because even though this is
obviously not the 'correct' term, there is no term in the dictionary to explain this
phenomenon. I'm using this term to mean mental energy/effort, etc. The mind is full of
effort/energy. People are categorized by the amount of energy their minds are able to give
and receive. Unfortunately, most people fall into the lower category, allowing themselves
only a small amount of energy, thought, and effort to flow in and out. This results in those
who appear to be stubborn, (little energy capabilities because unknowingly to themselves
and others around them, they are simply not able to grasp certain views and ideas) and
those who simply are much more able to adapt and adopt various views.
In addition to this note, I firmly believe that one can change the amount of energy his or
her mind can perceive with the intention of truly wanting to do so. Much like other goals
in life, determination ultimately prevails-even with the human mind. This, obviously,
means that energy capabilities are not something I believe we were pre-disposed with.
Various things factor into the reason for our energy capabilities including childhood
upbringing, environment, current life situations, friends, family, spouse, education, and
physical health, to name a few.
Thursday, July 24, 2008
Mist in the Universe of Mind!!!
I have seen the top of the mountain, and it is good. The mist that rises there is cold and
thick, leaving one to wonder why the top of the mountain is so good, Mist, that is the
blockade of the mind, leaves the body to suffer, and this is not good, Freedom of this, is
created by freeing the mind of desires, or the past, which appears all too often clouded in
this mist, thick and cold, at highest peak, there is light, gleaming radiantly, white, This
light penetrates the mist, and is glorious, potentially this light can be seen by all, What
then would be the point of seeing the top of the mountain? Why put forth such effort in
climbing up and later focusing through the mist of the mountains if all could see this
light? Personal clarity, of course, to seek out your own path through the powers of the
universe, to maybe bring those around you to a new understanding, The mist restricts the
chi, yes, but the mind sees the light, and is drawn to or fro, depending on intent, Think
rationally about the process. The top of the mountain is above you, yet you are below the
top. To see the top of the mountain requires not that you climb up physically, but that you
allow the top to be at the same elevation in life as you are, once this is achieved you will
have found your balance, once you have mastered your balance, you will achieve
enlightenment, never take advantage of this, there is a dark side in all light, don't let it
deceive you!
I wasn't born a marine; I was melted down into a mold of nothing, a recruit
if you will, then through 13 weeks of reconstruction was reconstructed into the
Militaries version of a crocodile, a united states marine! there is no one else
as fierce or having more pride in who we are, although we do not have the
Impenetrable hide of a crocodile, we have an impenetrable heart that has been
reinforced with steel, our flesh is hard and firm, not soft and brittle like
that of our enemies, the iron that runs through our blood seems to be tempered
working in a way like mercury does a thermometer, when the environment around us
is cold our core temperature rises, when the environment is too hot our core
temperature lowers, giving us the motivation needed to keep calm in times of
war, our bodies are trained to withstand anything the enemy has to offer, gases,
physical and mental harm, to keep calm when the rest are freaking out around
you, to be able to make decisions during these harsh times, we still eat sleep and die just
like everybody else we just do it with a bigger sense of pride. like everything under
the sun and the moon, steel although impenetrable by human flesh and iron which
is in all blood, can both be melted down yet again at certain temperatures,
which is what I cold heartedly believe is going on within me at this point,
Emotions are the strongest purest forces in the human body, and what in my
Experience have melted me down into yet another mold of nothing. The saying pain is
weakness leaving the body, refers to physical pains, not mental emotional pains. So
where do those pains come from and why? Over the past 3 years I have come to believe
that emotions derive from mental weakness entering slowly into the body though old,
sometimes forgotten mental scars from childhood, leaving behind emotions in these scars
as they leave the body in the form of pain, and pain is really emotion in one form or
another, built up in these mental scars, that once the emotional pressure is too much to
handle, burst open yet again, forcing out these emotions in the form of what society
portrays as weakness, but in reality is emotional pain, forced out by painful mental
emotional thoughts and feelings, creating fresher deeper scars, expanding from the brain,
the mental portion, through to your neurological nerves, to your once impenetrable heart,
that is emotion, thus starting over the in some cases unbearable process of mental
emotional pain, ultimately creating the eternal pendulum effects of mental emotions, that
define who you are as a person, your mentality and in my case, my motivation to perform
my civil duties as an enlisted member of the united states marine corps. I became weak
minded in this very way and for awhile, had lost all motivation, even to be alive. I had
begun to do the exact opposite of what had been instilled in me during Marine Corps boot
camp during 13-week transformation from a mere 17-year-old boy, to a grown ass man, a
marine. I let it take over my mentality and it took 6 months spent behind bars in federal
military confinement facility for me to begin to realize that it was my decisions that led
me here, and only I could help myself get out.