Bibi had to come out three times from behind the screen before they would stop. Somelatecomers entered the hall and moved about looking for seats. Then the concertcontinued. Bibi’s Rêverie murmured its number, consisting almost entirely of arpeggios,above which a bar of melody rose now and then, weak-winged. Then came Le Hibou etles moineaux. This piece was brilliantly successful, it made a strong impression; it was aneffective childhood fantasy, remarkably well envisaged. The bass represented the owl,sitting morosely rolling his filmy eyes; while in the treble the impudent, half-frightenedsparrows chirped. Bibi received an ovation when he finished, he was ca1led out four times. A hotel page with shiny buttons carried up three great laurel wreaths onto the stageand proffered them from one side while Bibi nodded and expressed his thanks. Even the princess shared in the applause, daintily and noiselessly pressing her palms together.Ah, the knowing little creature understood how to make people clap! He stopped behindthe screen, they had to wait for him; lingered a little on the steps of the platform, admiredthe long streamers on the wreaths—although actually such things bored him stiff by now.He bowed with the utmost charm, he gave the audience plenty of time to rave itself out, because applause is valuable and must not be cut short. “Le Hibou is my drawing card,”he thought—this expression he had learned from the impresario. “Now I will play thefantasy, it is a lot better than Le Hibou, of course, especially the C-sharp passage. But youidiots dote on the Hibou, though it is the first and the silliest thing I wrote.” He continuedto bow and smile. Next came a Méditation and then an Étude—the programme was quite comprehensive.The Méditation was very like the Rêverie—which was nothing against it—and the Étudedisplayed all of Bibi’s virtuosity, which naturally fell a little short of his inventiveness.And then the Fantaisie. This was his favourite; he varied it a little each time, givinghimself free rein and sometimes surprising even himself, on good evenings, by his owninventiveness.He sat and played, so little, so white and shining, against the great black grand piano,elect and alone, above that confused sea of faces, above the heavy, insensitive mass soul,upon which he was labouring to work with his individual, differentiated soul. His lock of soft black hair with the white silk bow had fallen over his forehead, his trained and bonylittle wrists pounded away, the muscles stood out visibly on his brown childish cheeks.Sitting there he sometimes had moments of oblivion and solitude, when the gaze of hisstrange little mouselike eyes with the big rings beneath them would lose itself and starethrough the painted stage into space that was peopled with strange vague life. Then out of the corner of his eye he would give a quick look back into the hall and be once more withhis audience.“Joy and pain, the heights and the depths—that is my Fantaisie,” he thought lovingly.“Listen, here is the C-sharp passage.” He lingered over the approach, wondering if theywould notice anything. But no, of course not, how should they? And he cast his eyes up prettily at the ceiling so that at least they might have something to look at.All these people sat there in their regular rows, looking at the prodigy and thinking allsorts of things in their regular brains. An old gentleman with a white beard, a seal ring onhis finger and a bulbous swelling on his bald spot, a growth if you like, was thinking tohimself: “Really, one ought to be ashamed.” He had never got any further than “Ah, thoudearest Augustin” on the piano, and here he sat now, a grey old man, looking on whilethis little hop-o’-my-thumb performed miracles. Yes, yes, it is a gift of God, we mustremember that. God grants His gifts, or He withholds them, and there is no shame in being an ordinary man. Like with the Christ Child.—Before a child one may kneelwithout feeling ashamed. Strange that thoughts like these should be so satisfying—hewould even say so sweet, if it was not too silly for a tough old man like him to use theword. That was how he felt, anyhow.
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