Lilly and DeathChapter TwoI’m not asleep and I’m not awake either. I’m becoming lighter. I’m aware of aform around me which is subtle. Impossible to touch. I’m in it’s presence which isseparate to mine and I am bathing in love. Recharging with love. I have no sensesbut I can feel the vibrations of life. I have no form yet I do have a vibration. Iam vibrating within this subtle form, which is ripening.I am full; satisfied. I am ready. There is a peeling back sensation in the subtleform around me and I realise that it is a flower. And I am the fragrance, theessence. I vibrate my thankfulness to the flower for it’s loving shelter. Thepetals are opening around me. There is much movement outside of the flower.Fragrances are mingling excitedly. I join them. It is easy to communicate andthere are so many different vibrations. It’s so much fun feeling them all. I feeltheir colours, their strengths, their emotions, their styles of energy. And now Ifeel something else. A pull. I’ve felt this before. I surrender to it and mysurroundings change immediately.I’m in a room. It is stark. It has grey walls, floor and ceiling. It has a calmingeffect on my vibration. Now a door is opening and I glide through it and there aremy old friends waiting for me. I know this scene. I’ve done this before and yet itfeels new and strange. This is my heart room. It’s vibration is red. My friendsand I vibrate our love and gladness to be here now. We mingle like this.We vibrate our joy at the life I lived. We unpack the dramatic events I took partin when I was so caught up in being human that I forgot it was a game. There is afeeling that won’t leave me alone and we all sense it. So the next game purpose isbeing revealed, we acknowledge. Hmmm, it doesn’t feel entirely comfortable and Ihave a slight yearning for my flower. My friends vibrate their love and I amlifted.The feeling that I experienced as a human before Death took me was love tainted bydoubt that stopped me expressing how I felt. So my game purpose for this life isto take risks, express how I feel and live a loving life. This means, of course,that I’m going to encounter many challenges early on in order to make the gamemore difficult. We look at openings for that kind of life and discover a birthdate and location that encompasses these parameters. I wonder about Death. Thefeeling I felt when our essences entwined drive me to want to find Death. Myfriends vibrated nervously at my wonderings. They want me to forget Death. Theyhave an uneasy feeling about it but are unable to fathom why. I remind them thatnothing is unnatural because it is happening. They agree but still feel uneasy.We tune our awareness’s to the birth date we’ve chosen and the conception momentis available to me. I hesitate. We all feel the unease. Something is differentabout this life. It is mine to travel. I vibrate slowly that part of me destinedto become matter and my friends bathe me in love because they know this ispainful, this separation. I still feel them among the bombardment of everythingelse here. It is comforting to feel them in this strange environment. They remindme of something else…something I’ve forgotten….a place where I was safe and loved.My cells divide. I feel lost. I feel heavier. My friends vibrate themselves slowerso we can retain our connection. They are my link to … what? My link to the truth…well, my version of it. I am slowly buying into the body as its cells divide andI divide with it. I feel like I’m losing something as my physical form grows. I amresisting this, I know. I am grieving for my loss. I wonder what will happen if Isurrender to it?
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