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1/30 - Officially yours

movie was great Dinner was amazing Now we walking the beach And we hand in hand Moonlight shining right above us As we stop for a moment feeling the water as it runs over our feet And I stand holding you we both gaze off into the distance Looking beyond the ocean Loving how the moon shines And the ocean glistens Its a beautiful night tonight But not more beautiful than you God recreated heaven when He created you and I'm blessed to spend each waking moment with you Now its time I officially make you mine For I am officially yours

2/30 - Take my time

Was looking through some old photos Photos of you and me You and me in happier times Just before our first breakup And all I could wonder was What went wrong? How'd we get from there to here? Damn we were so in love Now love won't even save the day Cause we tried it again now nearly a year later were parted yet again And this time for good Yet its your name my heart calls out Can't eat, sleep or go on without you But I'm trying Just taking it day by day So far so good My heart is healing Even went out on a few dates but I'm just not ready for another relation at least not yet, I want to take my time

3/30 - Been in love

Been in love no wait I'm still in love My heart just won't let you go And sometimes I just want to say fuck love Cause I shouldn't be having these feelings whenever I see you Shouldn't be having these fantasies But still I do Damn I'm a true hopeless romantic Cause I'm so in love with you now I wonder for how much longer Cause I see its not mutual At least not anymore So will someone tell me how do I fall out of this love When I've fallen so hard And its you that have my heart, your name that it calls Youre who I want to be with But youre not even here, damn Where'd did you go?

4/30 - Beauty

Your beauty is something I've never seen Never in my life have I seen, Seen a beauty such as you Thought your type of beauty Died when Cleopatra did But like the pyramids, it lives on And I can't help but gaze from time to time Just mesmerized at what I've never seen up close Amazed at what I thought was unreal That is till I saw you And saw that real beauty It never needs the make up Or to be dolled up It shows on its own And youre proof of that So leave that vogue and vanity alone Cause you got that natural essence Youre a real ebony

5/30 - Everyday

Every day is a new day every day is special, a special occasion that is cause every day I get to spend with you is a blessing no one on this earth can replace you so every day we break out the champagne, two glasses, strawberries & cream and we toast to another day another day of our love getting stronger don't want to see a day go by without me showing my love its something I must do I'll even shout on top the highest mountain just want to show to the world who I love but frankly it only matters if you hear the world knowing is only a bonus

6/30 - Everytime

Its your scent, The way you look, Even the way you walk And I haven't spoke on your body But damn it drives me wild too gets to me every time That's every time I see you But I resist, Just biting my tongue But damn the thoughts in my head Thoughts every time I see you Gets me so anxious Make me want to take you down Show you what I'm about Show you some real loving Forget sex, I'm talking making love And not just your body But your mind as well Just gone take you to ecstasy and beyond Show you what true intimacy is And we gone be all night So shut off your iPhone Its just you and me tonight

7/30 - Cold night

It was a cold night My bed cold And I felt dead As I lay awake in my cold room And it was only 8pm Yet thoughts of you consumed my mind Thoughts of you make my brain puke Puke out memories of you And what we use to be Damn I got a serious love jones for you Make me want my cake and eat it too But all I want is you So I'm at every bakery Lookin for the perfect cake Maybe I get this one custom fitted I just don't know anymore I'm beginning to think Think love is just a fantasy Cause I've missed a few opportunities Maybe even blew one Cause she showed me love like no other And the love making was incredible But something went wrong

So we over now That's why I lay in this cold bed On this cold night As my mind has caught a case of bulimia And it pukes out thoughts of her Damn I got a cold case of love I don't think I'll ever love again Don't think I want too

8/30 - What if...

Took me days Even a few weeks And now its been months Yet you still cross my mind Can't seem to shake you Let alone the thought of you Got me wondering what if, What if you're supposed to be my wife Maybe we should of seeked counseling Maybe that could of saved us Cause we've both said I love you We've both proved it too But we let some bs come between us now I think & wonder Think & wonder about us And if we took the coward way out Perhaps we should of worked a little harder Put in a little more effort Maybe then I wouldn't have these thoughts Thoughts of what ifs and maybes Yet I steer clear Never sweating you with them But being the best I can be

As I get use to us being no more And erase these what if's and maybe's out of my psych

9/30 - Celebrate

Tonights the night The night I'm gone do you right But I do you right 24/7, 365 But tonight a special night Tonight we celebrating celebrating our time together And what we about to do next Wedding rings, house in the hills, Couple kids and whatever else you like Toasting every night to this life we live And the love we share

10/30 - Wide Awake

It was a quarter pass eight Was just getting in Was tired and feeling overworked But that all changed when I saw you Damn you were looking, And smelling so good too Told me to have a seat, Dinner was almost finished So I sat down at the bar Was right across from you As you wore them secrets that I like And you prepped a dinner that I still dream about And as you finished up I was no longer tired My senses now wide awake

11/30 - Just because

Thought love was a joke Was just a fasaude Something for the birds That is till I met you And you let me into your world Now I day dream about you when we apart Write your name on everything I own Brag about you to my friends Now you know that's a step for me Cause I use downplay love But now I can't fight it Want to share with the world Share just how much I love you treat you right in every way Send you a daily poem Along with some red roses Just to let you know That youre on my mind

12/30 - Guilty

If he's guilty Then I must be too Cause I wear a hoodie too Sometimes a beanie Or even backward hat So you gone shoot me too Cause I'm marching with an army And we marching for justice Justice for Trayvon And all the other Trayvon's out there That coward shot with intent to kill He knew what the fuck he was doing He didn't have to shoot him in the chest Could of shot him in the leg Or even wrestled him down Then you could of questioned him Asked him which town home he lived in But you stood behind that coward law shooting first, as we ask questions now

13/30 - Brainwashed

Been hearing a lot of bullshit The media saying this and that And frankly the media has exhausted its voice Now its time it got gone You only fueling the problem Only fueling racism And I'm talking about you fox Murdoch we've seen your bias ways They're spewed on that so-called news channel Along with the lies Cause if someone doesn't side with you You attack them Well I got news for you Not everyone has the same hateful, bias ways as you That's between you and your cult following Yeah I said it Cause that's what they are, a cult as you parade around as the lead joker Saturating this world with wickedness & lies As they eat it up and be "satisfied" But not all are fools Not all are brainwashed You even got them believing the Black Panther Party is a hate group

Naw that's the kkk And don't you EVER get that shit twisted

14/30 - Real Love

Been looking for love But now I realize I've been looking in all the wrong places Been looking at all the wrong women but I no longer chase em Just look the other way Don't want em taking my breath away Or stealing my heart They not worth it But the one that is She has yet to show herself But quite frankly I aint even looking no more Gotta work on me Get me, my mind and my money right Then I'll look for my love Till then I'm stacking my paper Just enjoying my fam & closest friends That other love can wait I'll just enjoy loving God, my fam and friends Its the best love anyway It'll never do me wrong Never make me cry Treat me just right Its that real true love

15/30 - Run the Night

Tonight we gone run the night Gone make love till the sun come up But first let's chow at Mr. Chows, Then take a walk along the beach, Hand holding and caressing As I move to hold you And we stare out over the ocean No words just me, you and the ocean Your all I need and want Don't even have to make love Your company & conversation is good enough

16/30 - Music

Love my music Need it in every aspect of my life Need it when I feel down, Need it when I'm happy Need it for those in between moments Got music for every emotion And event in life So yes I need my music So I blast it in the morning Its my only alarm clock Then again at noon and 2:15 Need that MJ or CB track Or maybe some Whitney or Jay-Z Whatever my mood may be then when evening hits I'm blasting some Nicki, Linkin Park, Eminem or Ice Cube Or maybe I might go indie Putting on some Tamika Denise, Karlos, Siya or Sedrew Price Or if my baby with me put some Babyface or Avant on Making the mood just right But its really what the mood of the moment is So I keep my iPod updated with the hottest With the Dre beats always ready to go

17/30 - This one is for you

Been having a hard time Been contemplating the past 3 months Really got me wondering Wondering if this is love or just lust Don't want to react too soon Don't want to make a fool of myself But I do want to see where this can lead What are these feelings? Are they real or not? I need answers Cause I got a ton of questions So now I'm looking at myself through the mirror Not even sober just a bit buzzed And my stomach ready to show me what I just ate But I'm holding mom's lasagna down As I stand up straight and begin rehearing this piece And here comes Jay Tellin me its almost time to go on so I splash my face, Wipe it with a towel and head out Time to rock this stage And this one's for you

18/30 - Speechless

Been looking at you Contemplating in my head What I want to say to you But all I get is mumble jumble, Brain freeze then no words So I wind up right next to you In this silent moment You thinking I'm weird When I'm really into you Just get lost for words when I'm around you But would you forgive me And give me a chance A chance to take you out on a date Show you a good time Something you haven't had in awhile Make you smile And I'm talking even bigger smile then you showing right now Got you even blushing now Just wait till our date

19/30 - Fine Art

Feels like I'm in an art museum Just surrounded by fine art And I better not touch cause these pieces here are forbidden But the temptation grows every day Yet I try my best to ignore it Don't want to get burned I'll just wait patiently for my love Where ever she may be And these fine art pieces are just that, fine art Only good for looking Touching is out the question

20/30 - My Lady

I know we've been through a lot But I do appreciate you standing by me, And loving me like you do Your love is what I need and want Aint no other love out there for me Now I'm proving myself to you Cause its you I love And I know it took some time But I see so clearly now Its you I love, you who I want to spend eternity with Damn babe you show me love I never knew existed Stand by me in my turmoil And when its time to celebrate That's why I write these lines Sharing with the world that youre my lady Aint no woman like you And I'm proud to call you my lady, my love I love you babe!

21/30 - Got Me

Been thinking about you Been wondering what these thoughts could mean Is it lust or could it be love Got me seriously wondering But I'm not ready for a relationship At least not right now But if you give me some time just build up a friendship I promise I can be the one you need And want to love forever

22/30 - Twenty-7

Its a number that's brought stress Brought nothing but bad news But I'm thankful to Him that I'm still breathing And haven't overdosed Making me a member of that infamous club But still I breathe Still I put my faith in Him He has brought me through a lot Man He's brought me through a lot and I'm doing much better now still got the occasional stress and strain But that's life And I've accepted the consequences for my actions Now I'm watching what I watch, say and do Don't want to end up in the trap yet again So I'm baring my cross And walking side by side with my King

23/30 - Till I Die

Do this till I die And aint a damn thing gone stop me This is me, this is Kelz So fuck what you say & think It means shit to me You just a hater Shit you wish you was me Wish you was getting the paper I get Wish you had the deals I had But you just stuck in that 9 to 5 And I'm about to quit So quit looking and asking about me Aint no love over here for you

24/30 - Let it Grow

With time all things grow Just gotta be willing to put in that time and yes its time consuming But true love is worth the wait Worth letting grow Cause it grows stronger with each day And you may not say 'I Love You' immediately Your partner may even say first But give it some time Don't take the coward way out Just stay and work it out Cause you don't want to be older saying what if So you best try all options Make it work See if its love Or just lust Or maybe youre better off as friends Or friends with benefits But its up to you two to decide that Not your fam or nosey ass friends But you and your partner Nobody else can decide for you Or you might find yourself older wondering what if

25/30 Alone

Sometimes I feel so alone Like no one understands me Or what I've been through Cause this shit got my pysch all fucked up Got me not wanting to trust anyone Just going crazy mentally So it seems I'm anti social A bit conceited and cocky But really I'm the most humble person u know Just got some trust issues And being cautious as to who I let in my life Who I let my guard down for So to anyone who I might of seem mean too I'm sorry, I was just going through some shit But I'm back and better than ever

26/30 - Lookin for love 2

Seems like every girl I'm into Is either taken or straight Why love gotta be so hard to find Why can't I find one for me One that isn't into the boys but played for my team and I aint talkin bi either Cause I tried that But the thought of her kissin a dude Or something else Makes me sick to my stomach So I'll pass on the bi Just want a woman that strictly for the ladies Strictly team lesbian And haven't been around the block and some But made just for me

27/30 - Talk to me

Come and talk to me Tell me all your desires I want to hear about your dreams, As well as your aspirations Don't be shy girl I won't bite, just want to be the one for you Treat you like the queen you resemble And I'm not talking Elizabeth But Cleopatra, she the most beautiful queen to ever walk this earth But you can give her a run for her riches Cause you that damn beautiful Got everyone from Essence to Ebony Even vogue and vanity wanting you to grace their pages Cause you turn heads more than a Barry Bonds homer They love you babe And I do too

Now want you come on over here Let me talk to you, Tell me how your day went And don't worry about boring me You can never do that I'm in tuned with you babe

Now tell me how you feeling and it can be good or bad news that you came home with Maybe I should break out the Moscato Or better yet how about some Dom So just sit and chill babe Tonight is your night And I'm gone see to it that it stays that way That even after a bad day your refreshed in the morning

28/30 - Rising to the Top

Rising to the top Working on making my name a brand and one to remember for generations So I take writing and review jobs Writing what I love Doing what I love Making Kelly J Newson and Kelz famous But only for the write reasons Oops I mean right reasons But for now I'm just building up my following, As I collect these checks just doing what I love That's writing about politics and entertainment With the occasional tweet about sports But still keeping my poetry and fiction game going Cause this what I love This what keep me sane in this insane world Now watch me rise to the top

29/30 - Beautiful

love it when you all natural no need to cake up the makeup Or even flair out the hair But if u must I do love them curls But in all honesty boo you look good just as is So just throw on some sweats & a tee Even tie up your hair Cause babe when we chilling, Watching the game Or even strolling the beach Don't worry bout the lipstick & all that foundation Cause I love you as is no need to get all dolled up Cause baby you already beautiful So just throw on a Pastry sweat suit With some Pastry's to match And you can wear your hair long or short doesn't matter to me Cause baby you are the most beautiful And if Da Vinci could see you He'll trash the Mona Lisa & paint you instead So screw what vogue say is beautiful

Them models anorexia anyway But baby you nicely figured From your breasts to your thighs With the most beautiful eyes With them lips I want to kiss Damn baby you the most beautiful Even Cleopatra would hate So please leave the makeup You don't need it You already beautiful You got that natural beauty that most women would die for You are what Dr Angelou describes as Phenomenal You are that phenomenal woman

30/30 - Street stories 4

As I coast on the 105 'Rickey' by Game comes on And this one thought crosses my mind The thought of who's brother, uncle or son Is laying dead in these streets All cause of some non sense Non sense they couldn't escape Cause unlike the kids in orange county Or in the valley There is no intervention Cause them fuckers making laws Just don't give a shit bout the reality of these streets So everyday, every hour and every second Another life is taken As lawmakers don't do shit to provide any intervention They more like enablers Its their fault these drugs and guns are in these streets Just look at the movie 'Panther' Black panthers tried to keep that shit out But through snitches, drug dealers and wanna be gangsters That shit made it in anyway Now we got brothers killing one another Crack addicts on every block

Fatherless homes and some without either parent Yet the gop wanna strip away the little help these grandparents, single mom & dads are getting As if welfare a curse word Well I say fuck the gop Ur whole life is nothing but a handout On the backs of cheap labor And fuck u all who oppose Come live a day in my hood I bet even u couldn't survive So before u judge people on welfare Go walk a day in their shoes You'll see shit aint so easy Cause I've seen it And not all got a bunch of kids either This struggle is hard for many And thanks to j edgar punk ass He practically destroyed the Black Panthers and their ability to help their own When he should of went after the fucking kkk They the real terrorists in this country They should be on the top of the wanted list right along with al queda They are the biggest threat to progress Just look at the bullshit tea party movement Shit the tea party is the kkk just go by a new name So I started giving to the Black Panthers & UNICEF

I want to see a rise in the Black Panthers & the motherland Want to see a Black power movement I want to see my Blacks & latinos pull them selves up As we have in the past President Obama is only the beginning I wanna see some Black Wallstreet's rising And some memeorials for Huey, and Malcolm Right along Martin And Its time America learned cleopatra was black And quit white washing everything to make themselves look good Stop tryin to erase history But learn from it and do better for the future Stop trying to divide cultures But be one American culture That's what makes us great We are great when w*e work together And help each other out And I aint talkin that trickle down bullshit That's just another gop lie Cause we all know the gop hates to see minorities doing good So they throw hurdle after hurdle And when we do pull our shelf up They wanna claim we got by cause of affirmation action or some other 'welfare' As if we aren't smart enough ourshelves Yet its the rich kids who have the biggest welfare

Some of which only get in cause mommy & daddy atteneded and/or gave the university a substantial amount So u tell me which isn't fair And as long as the racists are runnin shit in congress Creating these bullshit myths Shit gone still be the same Gone need more than Obama as president Gone need a sweeping change in congress, the senate, supreme court, state and local governments as well

First I want to give THANKS to my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, I am truly thankful! Thank you to everyone who have ever supported me rather you bought one of my books, retweeted a tweet or showed love on your blog, THANK YOU and this ones for you! Kelly J Newson aka Kelz Encarnacion