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ELISSA ALTMAN
ELISSA ALTMAN
Pr o lo g u e
There is poetry in food, kindness in the act of preparing it, and peace in
sharing it.
There are gray areas: years ago, Id heard about a restaurant where
hundreds of samurai swords hang, point down, from the ceiling, directly
over the heads of the diners while they eat.
This is not kind; this is sociopathic.
But in the act of preparing the most mundane grilled cheese
choosing the cheese, buttering the bread, warming the pan, pressing
down the sandwich with the flat of your grandmothers spatula so the
cheese melts and the bread tightens and crackles and smooths like solid
silklies an inherent and basic subconscious attention to detail that
exists almost nowhere else in our lives, except in the small daily rituals
that we all have. You squeeze your toothpaste onto your toothbrush in
exactly the same manner every single morning and every single night.
When you step out of the shower, you towel dry your hair before putting your makeup on. You shave one side of your face before the other,
and thats the way youve done it since you were in college. Mundane
though they may be, these are the rituals that make us who we are. But
they dont necessarily make us kind. The act of preparing food for ourselves, and for others, does. And the act of conviviality, of sharing it with
othersMarion Cunningham called it modern tribal fireis what makes
us human, whether it is tarted up and tortured into vertical excess, or
nothing more than butter spread on a piece of bread.
I did not grow up in a home that valued conviviality; my mother
and grandmother cooked our mealsplain but hearty, filling, sometimes
delicious and sometimes immolated, they were not experimental or contrived until the mid-seventies, when my mother went on a fondue binge
like the rest of middle-class America. Generally, we ate in silence drowned
out by the presence of a small Zenith black-and-white television that sat,
like a dinner guest, at the end of our table. While eating, we would watch
Name That Tune!, my mother calling out between bites of limp, canned
asparagus, I can name it in three notes! while my father sipped his
Scotch and I picked at the flecks of onion in my meat loaf. After I was
done, I climbed down from my chair and went into my bedroom, where I
turned on my own television set and watched as reality and make-believe
converged. There were fake families sitting around their own fake tables,
eating fake dinners: there was the Brady Bunch, with its gay father and
wing-nut maid and libidinous eldest son. There was the Partridge Family,
with its catatonic little sister who played the tambourine like a methadone addict, and a lead singer who looked more like a lady than his sister.
There were the simpering, unsmiling Waltons, with their fake farmhouse
that always looked filthy, and a commie grandfather living upstairs in the
attic.
See him, my grandmother, Gaga, once said to me, tapping her long
Cherries in the Snowshellacked fingernail on the round glass television screen after barging into my room with the last potato latke. The
man was a commie, blacklisted by McCarthy. And then she slammed the
door behind her.
They were all convivial, casserole-passing people, even though they
didnt actually exist; for me, the line between television family dinners
and reality was blurred like a picture taken from a shaky camera, and
when I saw in the news that Ellen Corby had had a stroke, all I could think
of was whos going to make biscuits for John-Boy now that Grandma cant
move her arms?
One night, after a silent dinner of what was marketed as chicken
rollchicken pieces that were deboned and then mechanically compressed into a loaf shape for easy slicingI left the table where my parents were watching Lets Make a Deal!, went into my room, and turned
on a local television station. A Southern Prayer-a-Thon had interrupted
regular broadcasting, so instead of seeing The Brady Bunch, there was a
greasy, black-haired, slick-suited man marching across a stage, sobbing
like a baby, and telling me that if only Id call and offer money, that Jesus
PR O LO G U E
Pr o lo g u e
There is poetry in food, kindness in the act of preparing it, and peace in
sharing it.
There are gray areas: years ago, Id heard about a restaurant where
hundreds of samurai swords hang, point down, from the ceiling, directly
over the heads of the diners while they eat.
This is not kind; this is sociopathic.
But in the act of preparing the most mundane grilled cheese
choosing the cheese, buttering the bread, warming the pan, pressing
down the sandwich with the flat of your grandmothers spatula so the
cheese melts and the bread tightens and crackles and smooths like solid
silklies an inherent and basic subconscious attention to detail that
exists almost nowhere else in our lives, except in the small daily rituals
that we all have. You squeeze your toothpaste onto your toothbrush in
exactly the same manner every single morning and every single night.
When you step out of the shower, you towel dry your hair before putting your makeup on. You shave one side of your face before the other,
and thats the way youve done it since you were in college. Mundane
though they may be, these are the rituals that make us who we are. But
they dont necessarily make us kind. The act of preparing food for ourselves, and for others, does. And the act of conviviality, of sharing it with
othersMarion Cunningham called it modern tribal fireis what makes
us human, whether it is tarted up and tortured into vertical excess, or
nothing more than butter spread on a piece of bread.
I did not grow up in a home that valued conviviality; my mother
and grandmother cooked our mealsplain but hearty, filling, sometimes
delicious and sometimes immolated, they were not experimental or contrived until the mid-seventies, when my mother went on a fondue binge
like the rest of middle-class America. Generally, we ate in silence drowned
out by the presence of a small Zenith black-and-white television that sat,
like a dinner guest, at the end of our table. While eating, we would watch
Name That Tune!, my mother calling out between bites of limp, canned
asparagus, I can name it in three notes! while my father sipped his
Scotch and I picked at the flecks of onion in my meat loaf. After I was
done, I climbed down from my chair and went into my bedroom, where I
turned on my own television set and watched as reality and make-believe
converged. There were fake families sitting around their own fake tables,
eating fake dinners: there was the Brady Bunch, with its gay father and
wing-nut maid and libidinous eldest son. There was the Partridge Family,
with its catatonic little sister who played the tambourine like a methadone addict, and a lead singer who looked more like a lady than his sister.
There were the simpering, unsmiling Waltons, with their fake farmhouse
that always looked filthy, and a commie grandfather living upstairs in the
attic.
See him, my grandmother, Gaga, once said to me, tapping her long
Cherries in the Snowshellacked fingernail on the round glass television screen after barging into my room with the last potato latke. The
man was a commie, blacklisted by McCarthy. And then she slammed the
door behind her.
They were all convivial, casserole-passing people, even though they
didnt actually exist; for me, the line between television family dinners
and reality was blurred like a picture taken from a shaky camera, and
when I saw in the news that Ellen Corby had had a stroke, all I could think
of was whos going to make biscuits for John-Boy now that Grandma cant
move her arms?
One night, after a silent dinner of what was marketed as chicken
rollchicken pieces that were deboned and then mechanically compressed into a loaf shape for easy slicingI left the table where my parents were watching Lets Make a Deal!, went into my room, and turned
on a local television station. A Southern Prayer-a-Thon had interrupted
regular broadcasting, so instead of seeing The Brady Bunch, there was a
greasy, black-haired, slick-suited man marching across a stage, sobbing
like a baby, and telling me that if only Id call and offer money, that Jesus
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