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Layers of Separation Dissolving - Toni as Exemplar

Layers of Separation Dissolving - Toni as Exemplar

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Published by Theresa-Ann
2013-03-27 1st journal, Mayan day 9 Cib/Wisdom, Owl or Vulture

Believing in Myself Outside of Time – 8:58

Video Journal http://youtu.be/AEKL83h5VIY


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It's time to root out and explore into yet another layer of separation. It's amazing how one can go along so well – seemingly so – for so long carrying these things, all unaware. Then, one day, one moment, the awareness comes – one just suddenly knows or sees something – and we're off to the next level of union.

This time it's as if I was told – told by an invisible one – and maybe I was. While listening to Toni's first reading for me – which was only half an hour – I pondered how it was that, if I were to order it today I'd order the longer one, the hour reading. These things are simply divine.
2013-03-27 1st journal, Mayan day 9 Cib/Wisdom, Owl or Vulture

Believing in Myself Outside of Time – 8:58

Video Journal http://youtu.be/AEKL83h5VIY


Intro:
It's time to root out and explore into yet another layer of separation. It's amazing how one can go along so well – seemingly so – for so long carrying these things, all unaware. Then, one day, one moment, the awareness comes – one just suddenly knows or sees something – and we're off to the next level of union.

This time it's as if I was told – told by an invisible one – and maybe I was. While listening to Toni's first reading for me – which was only half an hour – I pondered how it was that, if I were to order it today I'd order the longer one, the hour reading. These things are simply divine.

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12:45 pm, Wednesday, 3/27/2013 1
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,Mayan day 9 Cib/Wisdom, Owl or Vulture
Layers of Separation Dissolving –Toni as Exemplar
It's time to root out and explore into yet another layer of 
separation
. It's amazing how one can go along so well –seemingly so – for so long carrying these things, all unaware. Then, one day, one moment, the awareness comes – one justsuddenly knows or sees something – and we're off to the nextlevel of union. This time it's as if I was told – told by an invisible one – and maybeI was. While listening to Toni's first reading for me – which wasonly half an hour – I pondered how it was that, if I were to order ittoday I'd order the longer one, the hour reading. These things aresimply divine.So it went from there to wondering how it was that one could justturn the divine on and off like that – limiting it to 30 minutes orgoing on for an hour. How can that be, I wondered? Is that notSource speaking? I know that it is. Yet she is able to decide thelength of it. My journals are certainly not that way – or not seenthat way, at any rate.And thus I saw into yet a further layer of the separation I havesomehow crafted between self and Source. Now, there really is nosuch thing as separation – that comes first. It must be known tobe a mirage, it seems to me. That's an important foundation, forwe love truth, here. It must come first.But – and here I simply admit my true, honest state – my state of 
 
unknowing – there's true, and then there's 3D. Yeah, 3D is largelya mystery to me I admit it. So I'm just open to it. I'm justwatching, just observing it. I know there's truth at the heart of it but meanwhile, there's precious little of it that's understood.Ah – and thus comes another one, another small gem of understanding. This is also the seeming separation of mind andspirit. Right now spirit in “me” is doing fine – is conscious andaware. I can't really say that for mind – for Higher Mind. I find itparticipates either less or simply silently.I just don't have much understanding of – well, of anything – andthat's quite okay. That's the neat part. At first it was just strange,but now it is neat – even wonderful. To be and to find suchcontentment in not knowing – well, who'd a thunk it, right? Fromthe outside – from the 3D mind perspective – that's simply crazy.But it's not – and from the inside, the spirit or soul or divine side,we find that it's as far from crazy as one can get. It's really quitewonderful, this ability to contentedly dwell in “I don't know” (IDK).So, back to the original thing that was shown to me just a bit ago –about how Toni (or anyone) can seemingly turn on and turn off theflow of the divine. Due to my current-fast-becoming-previousunderstanding the self and the flow are not wholly one. There'sthe self – then there's the flow that comes when it will – does whatit will – and of course goes when it will. Hmm. Yet – and this is key, is critical – the flow through Toni is certainlythe divine. There is no question in me about that. So it isinescapable – she can turn it off and turn it on – and do so as partof her livelihood, for the reading are not free. How veryinteresting. I just love this :)So, okay – this totally reminds me of the years I spent where I wasunwilling to alter so much as a word of the journals. For so long Itruly felt the flow of the divine in them. To me they were simplysacred. Somehow I knew that. As an aspect of my respect for thatI would alter nothing beyond misplaced punctuation or amisspelling.One day I suddenly realized that I'd begun to make smallalterations in them – to replace a word with a better word –something like that. As I was observing self at this – well, I was just watching, knowing it was different, it was unusual, but still
 
 just watching.What I noticed was that I was very much in the divine flow as thiswas happening. I could feel it – feel the “rightness” of it, sensethe sacredness – and I respected that. Had I not sensed thepresence of the divine acting I would likely have stopped myself from making these edits. Things that make you go hmm.So I just continued to watch. Was it a period of weeks or months?I don't know. I just know that, as I continued watching self doingthis I came to know it was right – to have confidence in it. Thishelped or caused me to internally adjust my understandingsaround reality. What had been verboten, before, was suddenlyquite okay. Some more hmm.It just flowed on like that. Pretty soon I was watching the self adding to the written journals as I read them into the web cam –inserting little ad-libs here and there – more and more.Sometimes one would go just as it was written, but not that often.It was something to adjust to – yet what “part” of me wasadjusting?Obviously the main part, the important part – the spirit being I Am– needed no adjustment. It was already, even instantly, socontent with the “new” way of freely editing the journals. Yes, itappears clear, now, that it was mind that required an adjustmentin its perception – or definition – of reality. Mind had to catch up.Well, the life-saver, if you will, to this was that I knew and coulddistinguish Heart from head – the voice of mind from that of theinner Being. And mind already knew of its secondary place,subject to Heart. It didn't always cooperate willingly or instantly,but at least we were beyond its instant and positive rebellion atanything Heart did that it didn't understand. Initially, all there waswas this constant rebellion. Mind didn't take kindly to beingousted from the seat of authority in my life.So, okay, I see now it was mind doing the adjusting. Sorting andseparating out – will we always be doing this? Seems like a ratherendless process, at times. Still, it's so wonderful as each newvista is seen – each new distinction between head and spirit orHeart gives that much more breathing room – more space to justBe – and I like it!

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