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It was dark, and I was lying on the floor. At least, that’s how it felt. Iwas isolated; everybody was gone, and I was the last one alive. I kept thinking, ‘If only at least one other person had survived, I wouldn’t have toresort to this.’ Resort to what? I couldn’t take care of myself all alone in theentire world. I had to do something. Ouch, what was hurting my arm somuch? A bright light suddenly arrived in the distance. The sun, I reminded myself. How could something so brilliant and hopeful still rise after all of this?I could see it all now—the true isolation, the thing hurting my arm, and what Iwould have to do. Something so powerful had almost completely wiped out the entire human race; I was the one exception to that. I was just barely theexception, though. My arm was severed, blood dripping slowly from it, ontothe ground, pooling around me. It wouldn’t be enough to completely kill me,however, and the pain was now too much to withstand. A knife was plunged into the ground a few mere feet away from my body. I edged myself over toit, grasped it in my hands, and knew that this was truly the end. I raised it into the air, barely whispering, “Goodbye.” 
I woke up to an alarm clock, quickly finding the snooze button. I hadbeen dreaming again. Dreams such as that always happened, and I hadgrown used to them, even starting to enjoy the idea of what alwayshappened; my own death. As a child, my mother—after hearing about thosedreams—had always told me that I had visions, and that I could see the endof the world. Nobody ever believed my mother about things like that, though,so I didn’t pay much thought to it at the time. I didn’t have my mother’sguidance now, as a teenager, and I didn’t have my father’s. My mother,Rosalind Dahlia Stevens, had been murdered when I was only about sevenyears old. I had witnessed it before my very own eyes, and nothing wouldever make me forget about it. Things like death can’t just be erased fromsomeone’s memory. My father, on the other hand, had left us only a fewmonths after I was born, leaving my mother and my older sister, Arobella, totake care of me. Arobella was about 17 years old when our mother had beenmurdered, and she took care of me for about 5 years before she committedsuicide. I suppose that she had just decided she had been put throughenough for one lifetime, and she hung herself. I had witnessed that as well. Ihad seen death much too frequently for myself, but I had been stronger thanmy sister. I had been able to survive on my own ever since then.I arose from my bed, carefully tiptoeing across my room, trying not tobreak the silence, even though there was no need to worry of that. It wasSaturday, and the time was 7:45 AM. I always woke up somewhat early; it justfelt like there was finally enough time when I awakened earlier. Walkingthrough the hallway, I looked over to briefly study an old family photo of mymother, sister, and myself. I sighed, wishing it could be that way now. “I can’thang on to that any longer,” I said, obviously talking to myself, which I didquite frequently in all of the loneliness. “It can never be the same way as itwas when I was a child, and that’s not going to change any time soon.”Dropping the matter for the time being, I continued through the hallway, anddown the stairwell to the kitchen. Opening the refrigerator, I looked over thepossible breakfast choices before deciding to have cereal instead. I took outthe milk carton, now halfway empty, got a bowl, and prepared my breakfast. I
 
finished quickly, setting the empty bowl in the sink. I walked back upstairs tomy room, absentmindedly thinking of what I would wear for the day. Lookingthrough my closet, I chose to wear my favorite black shirt that read, “Come tothe Dark Side, we have cookies!” What was the weather supposed to be liketoday? Rain. It has been raining so much lately. Rain didn’t bother me,though, I actually found it comforting. A pair of my black jeans would be finefor today, not that I cared who saw my outfit. I brushed through my longblack hair, carefully letting a portion of it fall in front of my left eye. Finding apair of my neon green converse high-tops, I pulled them on quickly withoutthinking about it. Where was my mind this morning? Wandering through old,painful memories? As I had mentioned earlier, I couldn’t hold on forever.Some things are just better to let go of.I wasn’t sure what I was going to do today; I went grocery shoppingyesterday, so maybe I could just relax for a while today. I laughed aloud inspite of myself; relax all day? As if that would ever be possible for someonelike me. That was at least one feature I hated of myself—I could never relax,for ever since losing my entire family, I had always had a strong feeling of paranoia. Hopefully I could somehow find a way to change that, though. Thephone rang, startling me in the break of silence that I had managed to keepfor a while, at least. I answered the phone by the third ring. “Hello? This isCalyx Stevens speaking.” There was a brief pause, and then a somewhatrelieved voice. “Oh, hello Cay-lee,” it was my psychiatrist. She never calledme by my full name—she had always insisted on a nickname, and Cay-leewas all that I would agree to. “Hey, Jaymee. I know I haven’t been checking inwith you lately, I’m sorry, ok?” I never had time for this woman who thoughtshe could solve all of my problems. After both my mother and sister died, andI was left alone, Jaymee Cutler had been assigned to try to prevent me fromchoosing the path my older sister did. She replied, “It’s okay, I know you’re abusy girl, I just like to know how you’re doing is all.”
Yeah, right.
 Jaymee really just didn’t want me to kill myself; after that goal was accomplished, shewould have no need to check in with me. I didn’t want to talk to her at themoment, so I quickly thought of an excuse. “You know what Jaymee? Ipromised a friend I would come to visit her today. Looks like I’ll have to be onmy way!” She seemed satisfied enough, probably happy that I had some“friends.” “Oh, well, alright. Goodbye!” she said quickly, hanging up before Iresponded.Deciding to watch a movie to ‘relax’ for the morning, I headed into myliving room downstairs, sitting in front of the DVD rack to find something. Iquickly decided on watching my favorite musical, “The Phantom of theOpera.” It was the 2004 version, and I loved it so much! I knew almost everyword of every song by heart. My favorite part was easily the ending scene, forit was sad and romantic, and the music was beautiful. I always cried watchingthat part, though. The Phantom, Erik, was such an amazing character, and Iwished that Christine had chosen him over Rauol. I watched the musical,singing along with anything I knew the words too, and not worrying whether Isounded terrible or not. (Although, a few people had said that I had thesinging voice of an angel.) It came to the beautiful ending scene—which Isang along with, feeling the Phantom’s pain—and I tears silently filled my
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