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Matt LumpkinDr. John GoldingayOT WritingsFebruary 19, 2008Interpretation of "A Prayer in the ICU Family Room"
This is intended to accompany the painting of a small group of people painted in black and whiteconnected by luminous yellow and orange beams that coalesce into a pillar of fire amidst darkness.
During the two years before I came to Fuller, I was a full-time hospital chaplain in LittleRock, Arkansas. In addition to teaching me a great deal about God, myself and people, thisexperience left me with quite a few intense experiences burned into my memory. My painting isan attempt to portray one of those experiences in such a way as to elucidate how myunderstanding of the event has been clarified by my study of the Psalms.
The ICU Family Room
It was a friday night and I had been paged by the hospital to come and minister to afamily who was gathering in one of the small, "family rooms" provided for families of patients ingreat duress (often in critical care). I knocked and was invited into the room where I foundseveral women whose conservative attire and hairstyle told me they were part of a pentecostalholiness church tradition quite common in rural Arkansas. Only the women were present and Ispoke to the mother of the patient who was the eldest and most upset. Several of her other daughters and miscellaneous children were in and out of the room, but I focused my attention onthe matriarch. She informed me that their minister was on his way but, wouldn't arrive for another forty-five minutes or so since they were from out of town and he hadn't been able toleave until he had gotten off work (suggesting his bi-vocational status). Nevertheless shethanked me for my presence.I made a mental note of the coming pastor's estimated time of arrival because it wouldeffect whether or not they needed further care from me, and also because outside ministerssometimes cause more harm than good. At times it is because they are too emotionally involvedwith the family to care for them. Other times they are uncomfortable with the hospital and or death and compensate by trying to evoke some kind of preacherly persona. In addition, pentecostal pastors have been known to contradict physicians and insist that patients are notdying, will be healed miraculously or even brought back from the dead. When these things donot happen (and they
usually
don't) it can be devastating for the already fragile family. All of these reasons along with the bi-vocational status and likely lack of training pre-disposed me toregard this coming pastor as a liability rather than an asset.There was a tangible sense of dread and darkness looming in the room as they awaitedupdates from the nurses regarding the patient. I left to gather what information I could from thenurses and to let them know I was with the family. When I returned, more family and churchfamily had arrived and the room was over-stuffed with thirty or forty people. The pastor was notyet there. The sisters introduced me to the rest of the family and we waited. As their numbershad grown, so had the
unspoken
sense of darkness, fear, dread and pain. We all sat, packed onto
 
couches, crammed against walls, waiting, as the fear of this young woman's possible death creptinto our minds like a shadow.When the pastor finally arrived, he was young (maybe a few years older than I) and thin,dressed in tight wrangler jeans and a clean shirt. He walked confidently and quietly to the back of the room and got the latest update from the eldest sister, while the mother looked on in tears.He seemed to think about what he had heard for a moment, then said, "Let's pray." Handsreached out to hands and shoulders and knees as the room knit itself together into a web of connection. There was silence.
The Prayer 
In plain, country English, the pastor spoke to God. Slowly, deliberately he began to layout what was happening. Using the first person plural, "we" he articulated the fear and pain thatevery person in that room who loved the sick woman in the ICU was feeling. He put words tothe emotions that had tied them into knots and spoke out loud to God about thing they mostfeared: her death. He then spoke of how much he knew God had been active in her life. Hemade a case for God's intervention based upon the kids she would leave that needed their "momma," and the way her family all relied on her. He told God what they wanted to happen,humbly but directly. As he thanked God for His faithfulness, I felt the shadow of dread and fear  begin to lift as though he had somehow drawn out those emotions from the people in the roomand released them to God, like lancing a boil. But he wasn't finished. He raised his hand and began to speak in tongues. Slowly and calmly at first, but as others joined him the room seemedto jump as a new energy seized the gathered family. Words poured fourth in great cathartic, prayerful intensity as his prayer continued. It seemed that he somehow was focusing or channelling the emotion and prayer and longing of all those in the room through him, to God. Inthat moment I was profoundly humbled. This man who I had feared would cause harm, hadcome and led them in a prayer of lament that led into thanksgiving, that both bound themtogether as one and released them from the bondage of their great fear.
The Psalms
This experience has stuck with me because I felt it to be one of the most profoundexamples of pastoral prayer I have ever seen. And yet I wasn't sure exactly why it had worked sowell. Partly it had to do with the relationship he had with the family, and also partly it had to dowith the cathartic emotional power of prayer charismatic prayer. But it was more than that.After studying the Psalms and reflecting upon this experience I began to see the way his prayer carried some of the aspects of the lament Psalms (see especially 10; 60; 89:38-52). Hisarticulation of the pain and suffering they were experiencing, especially the torment of immanentloss for the community, was probably one of the most important things he did. As Brueggemannsuggests, the "verbalization" of the hurt, fear or pain is a crucial step in naming it and moving beyond it (Brueggemann, 1986, 58). No one among them except the pastor was willing or ableto voice these fears and when he did so on their behalf, before God, they all breathed a deep sighof relief. There. He had said it. The elephant in the middle of the room had been named. And itis that naming and describing of the pain and loss of the people, often (in the Psalms) inheartbreakingly poetic language speaks to the way the Psalms inform how I understand his prayer.Lumpkin 2
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