9/14/07Let not your heart be troubled: ye believe in God, believe also in me. In my Father'shouse are many mansions: if it were not so, I would have told you. I go to prepare a placefor you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again, and receive you untomyself; that where I am, there ye may be also. (John 14:1-3)Thursday the doctor’s orders were that we could take our girlie home either Friday or Sabbath. Thursday night I was to “room in” with my baby in a separate room down thehall so I could gain some experience at the 24/7 care before we were home on our own.Fortunately Mom R was planning already to stop in that afternoon so she could help memove out of Ronald McDonald house and back to the hospital. Couldn’t have possiblydone it without her and we managed to be back in time for the next feed!I phoned GR to get the car seat that we had been given out of the basement, clean it upand be ready for Friday. Yes! We get to be home before Sabbath!Thursday evening when I landed in the room alone with baby and everyone else hadgone, I suddenly got the overwhelming feeling that baby was now solely myresponsibility and I still didn’t know what I was doing! We’d only experimented with breastfeeding three times and I was still awkward with the burping. She wanted to eatevery 2 hours that night and was bright eyed and bushy tailed when she was supposed to be sleeping at midnight!
Did I get all the burps out before I lay her down? Why isn’t she going back to sleep?
The first couple feeds she didn’t want to latch on. Wouldn’t evenopen her mouth. I had to pry it open to get the bottle in.
Will I ever get her off the bottleand onto breastfeeding? Isn’t this hindering the process? Is she eating too much?
So many questions. But baby’s nurse asked me to phone her to come in at each feedingtime to check her vital signs as usual. She very patiently answered my questions andeased my worries. By morning things were going better. I discovered that when baby wassufficiently awake she would latch on just fine. But when she was too sleepy, at leastwith the bottle she would still eat. And when she had enough she would refuse to suck the bottle. I even got the burping thing figured out. Feeling more confident and relaxed Iassured the nurses that we would like to go home on Friday and wouldn’t need another supervised all-nighter.We dressed her in the outfit that GR’s cousin, TJ, had gotten for her and wrapped her inthe blanket her Great Grandma R had crocheted. Fortunately the old car seat that had bumped across the wheat fields through four kids still passed the hospital’s inspection!Amazing! With assistance GR managed to adjust it to the smallest size. A couple towel pads secured her in and we were out the door by 3:30 pm.She slept hard all the way home except for when I made her drink half a bottle. I’d rather she save her long sleeps for night! It may take a few days for her to figure out which isnight and which is day since again last night she wanted to eat every two hours.We stopped at Wal-mart and fortunately they did have preemie size pampers of which Ionly got one small package. I wasn’t sure what else she even had to wear at home or what