"Leave. NOW," you say coldly to him! Then you get up, and walk off to your next class. "That was humiliating," you mutter under yourbreath as you walk alone down the hall, your arm still bleeding, but youdon't feel the hurt or pain. All you feel is the anxiety of why your cutsdon't do what you thought they were suppose to do when you startedcutting; get rid of the pain and fear of life. They only made it a lotworse. They started new problems, and people started talking aboutyou behind your back, and before you knew it, you're called down tothe guidance counselor during English."Hello, Darrin. Please take a seat. I need to discuss a seriousdilemma about you," the guidance counselor says, and takes off hisglasses to clean them for about five minutes before finally looking in afolder with your name on it."Now, Darrin, I suppose you already know why you're here. Am Icorrect?" You just merely nodded, afraid that if you opened your mouth youwould start cursing up a storm and accusing people."Good, then we are on the same page. There are a few students whoare worried about your... your...
health problems.
" He emphasized thewords
health problems
in a strange way."I have been looking over your record. You have a clean slate, butprevious guidance counselors have had the same problem withstudents being afraid of you, too. Mostly because of the way you dress,your attitude, and those pins you like to play with," he professionallyspoke to you, which freaked you out because he chose his wordscarefully.
Very
carefully, like he was dealing with someone who wouldsnap if you said the wrong thing. And probably, he was right. You didn'thandle people too well; especially ones you didn't like or didn't knowwell, but he knew you well, very well. He was your dad's best friend. They were in the army together, so you didn't know why he talked toyou like he did to every other kid in school; professionally, carefully,scarily."I thought we had some progress, Darrin," he stares you down, "Thelast time you were here, you were better, but now... you're worse. You're cutting again, Darrin. I thought you wanted progress?""Look, Mr. Carter, you told me that everyone has their own agenda.Now, why can't everyone see that my agenda is
my
business," you sayto him, while pushing the pin in your arm at the moment even furtherin, "Why does everyone want to help me? I don't need help. What Ineed is for someone to understand me, and it seems that no one inthis school can do that for me." Then you get up, and walk out of the
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