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Breaking Dawn Chapter 4 Jacob’s Point Of ViewI couldn’t believe that I was actually here. But I decided that this wouldprobably be the last time that I would be able to see the love of my life beforeher heart stopped beating forever. I shuddered at the thought. So I stood in theshadows where no one could see me, and watched as the bloodsucker- known as EdwardCullen- danced with the reason for my existence. Even from far away, I could seehow exquisite Bella looked. Her skin was a creamy and rosey color, and her widenedeyes were framed with dark lashes. Her shimmering white dress fanned out, as thebloodsucker twirled her. It felt odd to be standing after all of those months ofjust being a wolf. So I decided that now would be the best time.'Hey Cullen', I thought loudly, knowing that Edward would be able to hear mythoughts. 'Can I cut in?'I saw Edward suddenly stiffen, and snap his head in my direction. It looked likeit took him a second to realize that it was me.“Oh!” I heard him say.“What is it?” Bella’s voice asked, confused.“A surprise wedding gift.”“Huh?”The leech didn’t respond; he just started to spin Bella my way. He didn’t stopuntil he reached the huge Cedar tree where I was standing in the dark.Edward looked straight at me. “Thank you.” He said. “This is very…kind of you.”“Kind is my middle name.” I said. It felt strange to speak after all these months.I saw Bella’s hand fly up to her throat, as she heard me speak.“Jacob!” Bella managed to choke out. “Jacob!”“Hey there, Bells.” I said. Bella started to stumble towards me. I caught her asshe got close enough to me. It had been too long. I hugged her, as she buried herface against my chest. I rested my cheek against the top of her head.'Give us some privacy?' I thought to the leech.“Rosalie won’t forgive me if she doesn’t get her official turn on the dancefloor.” Edward said.'Thanks.'“Oh. Jacob.” Bella stammered, starting to cry. “Thank you.”“Stop blubbering, Bella. You’ll ruin your dress. It’s just me.”I knew that this would make it harder for me to leave, but I wouldn’t- couldn’tbe able to stick around when the leech turned her into a filthy bloodsucker.“Just?” Bella said. “Oh Jake! Everything is perfect now.”I snorted. “Yeah- the party can start. The best man finally made it.”“Now everyone I love is here.”I decided that I should probably get the best out of this situation that I could.I brushed her hair with my lips.“Sorry I’m late, honey.” I murmured.“I’m just so happy you came!”“That was the idea.”Bella glanced back to the lively party, scanning the crowd for someone. “DoesBilly know you’re here?” She said.I remembered the silent conversation with Sam.“I’m sure Sam’s told him. I’ll go see him when…when the party’s over.”“He’ll be so glad you’re home.”I didn’t want to talk about this. So I pulled back a bit, and straightened up. Iput one hand on the small of Bella’s back, and grabbed her right hand with theother. I cradled our hands to my chest, so that Bella could hear the rhythmicpounding of my heart.“I don’t know if I get more than just this one dance.” I said, pulling Bellaaround in a small circle that matched the tempo of my heart beat, ignoring themusic pouring from the greatly lit party behind us. “I’d better make the best ofit.”We just danced for a few moments.
 
“I’m glad I came.” I said, “I didn’t think I would be. But it’s good to see you…one more time. Not as sad as I thought it would be.” I didn’t know whether I wouldstay, or run away after tonight.“I don’t want you to feel sad.” Bella said.“I know that. And I didn’t come tonight to make you feel guilty.”“No- it makes me very happy that you came. It’s the best gift you could have givenme.”I laughed. “That’s good, because I didn’t have time to stop for a real present.” Ismiled a sarcastic smile, and tried my best to look happy, and not show her whatall of this was really doing to me.“When did you decide to come back?” Bella asked.“Consciously or subconsciously?” I took a deep breath, thinking of how to bestexplain it. “I don’t really know. I guess I’ve been wondering back this directionfor a while, and maybe it’s because I was headed here. But it wasn’t until thismorning that I really started running. I didn’t know if I could make it,” Ilaughed. “You wouldn’t believe how weird this feels- walking around on two legsagain. And clothes! And then it’s more bizarre because it feels weird. I didn’texpect that. I’m out of practice with the whole human thing.”We revolved steadily.“It would have been a shame to miss seeing you like this, though. That’s worth thetrip right there, You look unbelievable, Bella. So beautiful.” I said.“Alice invested a lot of time in me today. The dark helps too.”“It’s not so dark for me you know.”“Right.” She said. I liked it when she thought of me as a human, instead of amonster.“You cut your hair.” She noted.“Yeah. Easier, you know. Thought I’d better take some advantage of the hands.”“It looks good.” She said. And I saw right through the lie.I snorted. “Right. I did it myself, with rusty kitchen shears.” I grinned widely,thinking of when I almost chopped my own head off. But my smile faded, as Ithought of something. “Are you happy, Bella?”“Yes.”“Okay.” I said, shrugging. “That’s the main thing, I guess.”“How are you Jacob? Really?” Bella asked. I didn’t want to ruin her night, byworrying about me. “I’m fine, Bella, really. You don’t need to worry about meanymore. You can stop bugging Seth.”“I’m not just bugging him because of you. I like Seth.”“He’s a good kid. Better company than most. I tell you, if I could get rid of thevoices in my head, being a wolf would be about perfect.”Bella laughed. “Yeah, I can’t get mine to shut up, either.”“In your case, that would mean you’re insane. Of course, I already knew that youwere insane.” I teased her.“Thanks.”“Insanity is probably easier than sharing a pack mind. Crazy people’s voices don’tsend babysitters to watch them.”“Huh?”“Sam’s out there. And some of the others. Just in case, you know.” I was a bitirritated that Sam didn’t trust me enough to leave me on my own for one night.“In case what?” Bella asked, confused.“In case I can’t keep it together, something like that. In case I decide to crashthe party.” I grinned at the thought of the bloodsuckers face if I decided tocrash the wedding. “But I’m not here to ruin your wedding, Bella. I’m here to…” Icouldn’t finish the sentence. I’m here to say goodbye? To see you one last time asMy Bella? But I didn’t speak that aloud.“To make it perfect.” Bella added.“That’s a tall order.”“Good thing you’re so tall.”I groaned at her bad joke, then sighed. “I’m just here to be your friend. Your
 
best friend, one last time.” I couldn’t tell her that I was leaving after tonight.I wanted to make Bella’s last night a happy one.“Sam should give you more credit.” Bella said.“Well, maybe I’m being oversensitive. Maybe they’d be here anyway, to keep an eyeon Seth. There are a lot of vampires here. Seth doesn’t take that as seriously ashe should.” I said.“Seth knows that he’s not in any danger. He understands the Cullen’s better thanSam does.”“Sure, sure.” I said, trying not to start a fight with Bella.“Sorry about those voices.” Bella said. “Wish I could make it better.”“It’s not that bad. I’m just whining a little.”“You’re…happy?”“Close enough. But enough about me. You’re the star today.” I chuckled. “I betyou’re just loving that. Center of attention.”“Yeah. Can’t get enough attention.”I laughed, and then stared over Bella’s head. I pursed my lips as I studiedthe reception party in the distance. Dancers were whirling everywhere, as thepetals from the dozens of garlands sprinkled down on them. “I’ll give them thismuch.” I said. “They know how to throw a party.”“Alice is an unstoppable force of nature.” Bella joked.I sighed as I heard the music end. Would she want me to go now? “Song’s over. Doyou think I get another one? Or is that asking too much?”Bella tightened her hand around mine. “You can have as many dances as you want.”I laughed at the thought of what the bloodsucker would do if I hogged Bella allnight. “That would be interesting. I think that I’d better stick with two, though.Don’t want to start talk.”We turned in another circle.“You’d think I’d be used to telling you goodbye now.” I murmured, thinking aboutall of the times that I had had to tell Bella goodbye. I looked down at Bella, andfrowned. I wiped my fingers across her cheek; wiping away the tears.“You’re not supposed to be the one crying, Bella.” I said.“Everyone cries at weddings.”“This is what you want, right?” I asked.“Right.”“Then smile.”Bella tried to smile, but it turned out as a grimace. I laughed.“I’m going to remember you like this. Pretend that…” I didn’t want to upset Bella,so I didn’t finish my sentence.“That what? That I died?”I clenched my teeth together, trying to decide on whether to tell Bella what Itruly thought, or what would make her happy. “No.” I finally said. “But I’ll seeyou like this in my head. Pink cheeks. Heartbeat. Two left feet. All of that.”Bella suddenly stomped on my foot as hard as she could. I smiled. “That’s mygirl.” I wondered how much longer that Bella was going to be My Girl. I started toask her, but decided against it.“What is it, Jake? Just tell me. You can tell me anything.”“I-I…I don’t have anything to tell you.” I should have known that she would havenoticed. She knows me too well.“Oh please. Spit it out.”“It’s true. It’s not…it’s- it’s a question. It’s something I want you to tell me.”“Ask me.”I struggled, wondering if I should voice my question. Mind as well. I sighed. “Ishouldn’t. It doesn’t matter. I’m just morbidly curious.” I saw her eyes shinewith realization.“It’s not tonight.” Bella whispered.“Oh.” I said, trying not to show my relief. “Oh.” I was glad that she got to havea little bit more heartbeats. But I wasn’t fully satisfied.“When?” I whispered.
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