Hey Alex.Okay, so I've been thinking a lot since the night of Hoodwink when you told methat I was always mean to you and whatnot, and I think this is probably the best way for me to lay things out for you, considering the next time I see you is July and that's toolong to wait. Alright, so here goes nothing. I mean absolutely nothing by anything I havesaid to you or to any of the other guys. I really did think that you knew that and that yougot that it was just a joke. I would never say anything to really be mean to any of you.I'm not like that and I really do care about you guys too much to do that. I honestlythought it was taken just as much as it was meant.Lets lay it down even more, shall we? A year and a half ago (November 2007), Iput on I'll Run for the first time. Yes, a year and a half ago. I was sitting in the car withmy mom and it came on shuffle on my ipod, and we both sat and listened. When thesong ended, I turned to my mom and said "One day this band is going to be something."From November 2007, you had my support and I had no idea what it was going to turninto. Seeing you live was a totally different thing. January 18th, 2008 at Highline Ball-room was the first time I ever saw you play, and it was an experience I will never forget.I was captivated by your set. I went home so happy that night, knowing that I'd be see-ing you again many, many times. And that's really where it started. I formally met youand the rest of the boys in March, and since then, it's been history. I missed one NewYork show after all this time because I was away, but I refuse to miss any others in thefuture. When Whisper War leaked last year, I was looking at colleges upstate. I had mycd preordered, but I refused to leave my hotel room to go on a campus tour until I hadthe cd downloaded so that I could listen. Honestly, one of the most defining moments,however, was when I saw you on Rock Band Live. That huge stage was breath-taking,and I was so incredibly proud of how far you had come at that point. And really, that'sstill just the beginning. I am so lucky to have you guys in my life; to be able to go to ashow and have you all know who I am and want to take time out to catch up. I'm so in-credibly lucky for that.I've traveled through states, by car, by train. I've stood outside venues in mon-soons, freezing wind, and intense heat. I've stayed at the venue until all hours of thenight and slept in random hotels with some of my best friends. I watched TRL on May5th, 2008 because you were on it. I promoted and voted for you until my fingers hurt.I've argued with my parents over getting to shows. But I've done it all for you guys. Iwould never take back a moment spent or a dollar used on all of this. To me, watchingyou grow and become who you are now has been one of the most rewarding experi-ences of my life. Standing at your Bamboozle stage this was such an intense momentfor me. The crowd was wild, I haven't seen anything like it for you ever before. And hon-estly, I got teary-eyed, because you are my boys, who I have been watching since be-fore you opened up for Cobra over a year ago.That Friday night at Hoodwink was my 10th Cab show and I was so excited to hitdouble digits. I stood at the set, watching you do Queen, and I was so proud - of bothyou guys and myself. Myself for being able to stick around for so long and not get tiredof it and not losing hope. But then when you said that to me, about always being mean,I realized that I don't think I let you see how I really feel nearly enough. I tried to find youSaturday so that I could say this in person, but any time I saw you guys, it was only for a
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