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Don't hold strong opinions about things you don't understand.My time has come, and so I'm gone. To a better place, far beyond. Ilove you all as you can see. But it's better now, because I'm free.Sometimes you need to run away just to see who will follow you.It's hard to answer the question "what's wrong" when nothings right.I'm tired of trying, sick of crying, I know I've been smiling, but insideI'm dying.Maybe one day it will be ok again. That's all I want. I don't care what ittakes. I just want to be ok again.When I was younger crying always seemed to be the answer. Now thatI'm older crying seems to be the only option.I guess there comes a point where you just have to stop trying becauseit hurts to much to hold on anymore. You say I'm always happy, and that I'm good at what I do, but whatyou'll never realize is, I'm a damn good actress too. Just because I'm smiling doesn't mean I'm happy. Tired of living and scared of dying.I don't necessarily want to be happy; I just want to stop feelingmiserable.Don't fall into the trap of pretending everything's fine when you know itisn't. The hardest years in life are those between ten and seventy.I'm just learning how to smile, and that's not easy to do.Sometimes it hurts more to smile in front of everyone, then to cry allalone.I want to be remembered as the girl who always smiled the one whocould brighten up your day, even if she couldn't brighten her own. Just when I thought my life was coming together, I realized it was juststarting to fall apart.
 
Stop the world I wanna get off.I bleed for you that's why I cut those simple scars are just deepthoughts. You bleed just to know your alive.Death is God's way of saying you're fired. Suicide is humans way of saying you can't fire me, I quit.I don't know what I want in life. I don't know what I want right now. All Iknow is that I'm hurting so much inside that it's eating me, and oneday, there won't be any of me left.Everything that ever caused a tear to trickle down my cheek, I runaway and hide from it. But now, everything is unwinding and finding itsway back towards me. And I don't know what to do. I just know thatpain I felt so long ago, it's hurting ten time more.It's the loneliest feeling in the world - to find yourself standing up wheneveryone else is sitting down. To have everybody look at you and say"what's the matter with her?" I know what it feels like. Walking downan empty street, listening to the sound of your own footsteps. Shuttersclosed, blinds drawn, doors locked against you. And you aren't surewhether you're walking toward something, or if you're just walkingaway. You start life with a clean slate. Then you begin to make your mark. Youface decisions, make choices. You keep moving forward. But sooner orlater there comes a time where you look back over where you havebeen and wonder who you really are.I don't know if I'm getting better or just used to the pain.I know it seems like I'm this strong person who can get thoughanything, but inside I'm fragile. I've had so many things thrown at me,and each one has only made a crack. What I'm afraid of is shattering.Maybe I am crazy but laughing makes the pain pass by.I love sleep. My life has this tendency to fall apart when I'm awake.I know what its like to want to die; how it hurts to smile; how you try tofit in but you can't; how you hurt yourself on the outside; to try to killthe thing that's in the inside.
 
Even the people who never frown eventually breakdown.How can you understand me when I can't understand myself?I hate what I have become to escape what I hated being.It's like I realized that way down inside, I've always been lonely forsomething. But I don't know what for. It's like everybody in the worldwant's something. Only they never really know exactly what it is - they just keep finding out what it's not. You know how, when you turn off the TV or you come out of some concert, and everything just feels empty?Like you thought that would be what you wanted, and then it wasn't? You look at me and think, 'she's so happy' but there's so much behindthis little smile that you will never know.Do you ever have those times you cry and you don't know why?People are always telling me to smile, like smiling is going to just takeaway all the hurt and pain. Well I've tried that I've tried hiding mysorrows and covering the sadness in smiles and what I've learned isthat when it hurts this much inside your heart always has a way of showing it no matter how many masks you wear.Let no one think I gave in. The pain is there to remind me that I'm still alive.It seems to me that the harder I try the harder I fall.Refuse to feel anything at all, refuse to slip, refuse to fall, can't beweak, can't stand still, watch your back because no one else will. There's no excuse for the need to take your own life away, everyonepasses through some rough obstacles if life, just face them as theycome along, there's always a way to overcome those obstacles, andlearn from your experiences.If you can't solve it, it isn't a problem - it's reality. And sometimesreality is the hardest thing to understand and the thing that takes thelongest to realize. But once it hits you in the face you'll never forget it.It will always be there in your memories and sometimes that is the bestway to look at it.It's funny the way you can get use to the tears and the pain.
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Jena Yanagihashi

These quotes inspire me..

reply10 / 10 / 2011
Megan Watada

these are the words i wish i could say to people... i just wish someone could understand..

reply03 / 16 / 2011
05 / 26 / 2010This doucment made it onto the Rising List!
Macaela Parmely

They don't just seem like quotes.. they seem like a story... my story

reply05 / 03 / 2010
ChelCharles

they're true....

reply04 / 12 / 2010
hellokitty96

thy aree very trueee!! <3 them

04 / 14 / 2010
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