bN o.\u0417
\u0417 \u0416
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\u0407 \u0428
\u0406
\u0407 \u0429
\u0416 & \u0423 , b R ID A Y ,
Ji^JA R Y
1 7 ,
1 9 4 1
C h r is tm a s
C o m e s~ to
F M s h in g
\u0429
\u0426 \u0413\u041e \u041c
and Pop w ere terribly
u p s e t
^ K V w h e n w e 'v to ld t h e m
w e w e r e n 't
f e
:
.g o m g
:
to spetid
" S w ia ty
W echir"
\u0456
w ith
th e m .
I n
fa c t,
P o p
w as
s o
|- u p s e t , t h a t h e f a i l e d
t o
answer" us
\u0429
w ithS h is ; usual threat "yak
y a to b i
W -. .p o p n u ;'* w h e n w e c a l l e d h i m
" P o p ."
.Y o u
see;M ichael and I had
d e c id e d
r
to
d e s e rt.:'' th e
tra d itio n a l
fam ily
f;- .\u0439 \u0441\u0426
at its C hristm as Eve
p a rty ,
H fe T c g iW !S p S eo f
o u r
ow n
fo r
o u r
p S M ie ric a n ^ frie n d s .
N ot
o n ly
w ere
:M om
and Pop disappointed
b e c a u s e
'r -w e * e r* to b e a b s e n t o n th is h o lie s t
. o f'e v e s , b u t t h e y w e r e w h o l l y s c e p -
E tfe a f
about the
w h o le
id e a .
T h e y
Iv d id n 't th in k w e r e m e m b e r e d
e n o u g h
U of th e traditions to
m ake it a
r e a l
B U kram ian
C h ristm as,
a n d
th e y
h!;; d id n 't th in k
our A m erican
frie n d s
" w o u ld b e i n t e r e s t e d i n o u r c u s t o m s .
;,M om
said , th a tth e y * w o u ld n 't
e a t-
\u0428
\u0448
\u0432
strange "foods.
U n d a u n te d
w e
w ent ahead "w ith
out plans.
\u0456
\u201eFirst we
in v ite d
o u r
guests ...
f e 'J p h n T .
V o g e l,
fro m
th e
N .
Y .
S f i m e s ,. G jo n
M ili, w h o
d o e s
p ic -
\u2022 M u r e s fo r- L ife -, H o p e H a w t h o r n e , a
Ip ro u iig p a in te r,. A in o
V a re , F in n is h
v P o lk
Dance leader, Kathleen
H ee-
4
ney, a Duncan dancer
a n d .te a c h e r,'
E th e l B e a m , a d r a m a t i c
te a c h e r
a t
'-G reenw ich
House, Phoebe
A dam s,
~aii artist
a n d
d r e s s
d e s ig n e r,
A l
.\u00ab S o re n s g n ,^ P re s id e n t
of the
D anish
\u2022'\u2022"\u2022F o lk
D ance
S o c ie ty
a n d
h is
w ife
\u2022H elen , Chester; Junek,
p ro g re s s iv e
^ e d u c a to r
a n d
h is
w ife
N orm a,
'" 'L e o n a r d Y o d e r , a n
e n g in e e r,
M ar-
f'jo rie
H o y t, w h o
i s
ju s t
M arjorie,
\u2022 anda U k ra in ia n
c o u p le
th ro w n
i n
\u0428
$ &
good m easure.
? ~ T h e n jc a in e M o n d a y , J a n u a r y
6 th ,
J J a iid
w e b o th
s c u r r ie d
hom e
fro m
p ^ u r re s p e c tiv e rjo b s
t o
g e t
e v e ry \u00ad
t h i n g .re a d y .. O u r .p a r ty
ro o m
h a d
;2been. painted: white,
e v e n
a s
th e
\u2022 .,rw a llg " o f t h e h o m e s i n U k r a i n e w e r e
jn e w ly
W h ite w a s h e d
fo r
th e
h b li-
c d a y s.
O ur
g u e s ts
b e g a n
a rriv in g
p e a rly a n d
so- we made
th e m
h e lp
in the traditional preparations. The
S ta b le w a s s e t u p
first of
a ll.
T h e n
\u0414 \u0456\u0433 \u0435 s w e e t , b a s i l s w e
h a d
g ro w n
i n
\u044e
g a r d e n -V d u rin g* t h e
sum m er;
H po
d rie d
in
the. sun,
a n d
s a v e d
W gk\u0429
&special BcCasion w as spread
!\u00bb \u0418 \u0444 1 \u0454 \u0433 t h e
x
w S t.eJ ta b le c lo th .
S traw "
gaSfl hay
t o
r e p r e s e n t
th e
m anger
\u00a3were spread
u n d e r th e
ta b le .
A nd
then we- Sfit
;
u p
a n
h o n e s t-to -g o p d -
\u2022Sness^buncH of w heat in th e. "honor-
.:!ary"~.corner.'iW e explained
it was
.c a lle d
th e
"D id"
o r
o ld
m an
in
Ukraine. W e had picked the w heat
w ith
o u r
h a n d s ,
i n
a
lo t
som e
^ b lo c k s " a w a y
w here
w heat
h a d
g ro w n
all sum m er, until the
FH A
d e c id e d ^
s o m e 'n e w
hom es
w ere
m ore
p ra c tic a l
th a n
th e
w heat
fie ld ,
|
\u043d
'- '
:
..
; E v e ry o n e
e n jo y e d
th e
g a rlic
w e
placeds6n:";'each".corner of the table,
t o
keep ~away
th e
e v il
s p i r i t s
o f
course?* G urgdests took the cloves
of garlic xhome w ith
th e m
t o
m ake
s u r e
th e y
-w o u ld
c o n tin u e
t o
b e
p ro te c te d -fro m
the evil spirits. T he
fo o d
w as m et
w ith
e x p re s s io n s
o f
d e lig h t
a n d
aw e.
T he
aw e
w as
q u ic k ly ;' d is p e lle d
a s
e x p la n a tio n s
a b o u t
w hat
e a c h
d is h
c o n ta in e d
p o u re d ^ fo rth .
J\u00a3irst we
p la c e d
th e
b r e a d w ith ..a ',c a n d le s e t in i t s c e n t e r
o n
th e " ta b le .
T h e n
w e
e x p la in e d
th a t
th e re : w ere
t o
b e
1 2
c o u r s e s ,
th e fig u re 1 2 b e in g c h o s e n in h o n o r
o f
th e
1 2
a p o s tle s .
W e
h a d
th e
b o ile d
fish , b o rs c h t, h o lu b ts i, p y ro -
h y ,
m ushroom
soup, kapusta
a n d
.k u ty a a n d
all the
o th e r
U k ra in ia n
tra d itio n a l
C h ristm as
fo o d s .
N ow
a c c o rd in g
t o
th e
tra d itio n ,
su p p e r,-is
s ta rte d
a s
s o o n
a s
th e
f ir s t
star appears in the
s k y . W e ll>
th e
f ir s t
s t a r
h a d " lo n g
s in c e
a p ^
p e a r e d
i n
th e
F lu s h in g
s k ie s ,
a n d
had been joined by hundreds of
i t s
s h in in g -n e ig h b o rs, so w e so lv e d th e
p ro b le m ; b y
p a s tin g
a
p a p e r
s t a r
o n
o u r
c e ilin g
a n d
m a k in g
b e lie v e
it w as our first star.
Then w ith the
w a rn in g
that, no
o n e
c o u ld
d e p a r t
fro m
th e ta b le
w ith o u t
ta s tin g
a t
le a s t
a
l i t t l e
o f
e a c h
d is h
s e rv e d ,
M ichael gave the blessing and
g a v e
the w ord
t o
d ig in .
S m a ll p o rtio n s
o f
th e -food: w ere
g in g e rly
p la c e d
onp la te s , "dissected, analyzed, hes\u00ad
ita tin g ly
ta s te d
and rhen^ glory be,
e a te n
w ith
g r e a t ' g u s to :'
I n
fa c t,
I began
t o
w o rry
a b o u t
th e re
n o t
being any pyrohy
left for the
n e x t
day, and
pyrohy, especially
k a p u s -
tia n y
pyrohy,' are
m y
o n e
- g r e a t
w eakness!
W hen
i t
cam e
t o
th e
k u ty a ,
w e^fexplained"; th e
tra d itio n
o f
c a s tin g
s p o o n fu ls
o f
k u ty a
t o
th e
c e ilin g
:.a n d
-m aking";
w ishes
a b o u t
th e
n te m b e r
o f
th e
k e rn e ls
th a t
rem ained
s tic k in g
to the
c e il\u00ad
ing. (In som e^parts of Ukraine .we
.e x p la in e d ,]:th e
k u ty a
w as
c a s t
a t
th e
w a lls
in s te a d
o f
th e
c e ilin g )
\u2022'.C e ilin g -o r w a lls , it m a k e s
a o 'lffs
f e r e n c e ,"
s a id
M ic h a e l,
" th e y 'v e
just been painted, so w e'll dispense*
w ith th a t c u s to m ." B u t,;in th e n ic k
o f
tim e",- I
rem em bered
th a t
som e
fo lk s
h i U k ra in e
p a s s e d
s p o o n fu ls
o f
k u ty a
to _each
other, m aking
w ishes
a t
the" sam e- tim e.
A nd
s o
w e
o b s e rv e d
th is
tra d itio n .
Som e
of the w ishes w ere funny
and som e
w ere serious. The one in which
th e
w ish
w as
e x p r e s s e d
th a t
w e
h a v e
a s
m any
c h ild re n
a s
th e re
w ere
\u2022k e rn e ls
o f. w h e a t
i n
th e
k u ty a , so
th a t
a ll
th e
g u e s ts
c o u ld
b e
a s \u00ad
s u r e d
o f
b e in g
g o d
m o th e rs
a n d
god fathers,
d re w
th e
m ost laugh\u00ad
t e r .
B u t th e
wish that w e have
1
a s "
m any years of Peace
o n
t h i s - e a r t h
as there w ere kernels in
th e k u ty a
e x p r e s s e d
m ost
s in c e r e ly
w hat
a ll
o f
u s
re a lly
w ere
th in k in g
th a t
n ig h t.
Then; I showed them
our shears,
th e
blades of which
I had
tie d
to \u00ad
g e th e r.
It seem s
th a t in
U k ra in e ,
th is
c u s to m
w as
b e lie v e d
t o
k e e p
th e
m en
o f
th e
h o u s e
fro m
b e in g
d ra fte d
in to
th e
arm y.
N ever
d id
I th in k
th a t
I w o u ld b e u s in g
th is
c u s to m
t o
k e e p
th e
m en
fro m
o u r
h o u s e fro m
b e in g d ra fte d ,
a lth o u g h
\u0447\u0419 \u044e \u0443
th e m s e lv e s
a re
all set to
g o .
W e
to ld
o u r
frie n d s
th a t
o n
C h ristm as
E v e , a n im a ls
w ere
s u p \u00ad
posed to be endowed w ith the pow\u00ad
e r
o f
s p e e c h ,
b u t
th a t
w e
d id n 't
h a v e a b a rn - w ith a n im a ls , to
p ro v e
if I t w e r e t r u e .
A t m id n ig h t, w e d id
e a v e s d r o p
*pn
th e
d o g ,' locked
u p
i n
th e fu rn a c e
ro o m , b u t h e
d id n 't
ta lk .
I
u n d e r s ta n d
th a t
if
w e
d id
h e a r
h im
ta lk ,
w e
w o u ld n 't
h a v e
liv e d
lo n g , fo r h e
c o u ld
p ro p h e s iz e
th e
fu tu re
o f
C h ristm as
Eve, and
if
w e
h a d
h e a r d
h im ,
w hy
i t
i s
s a id
th a t
n o
o n e
w ho
know s
to o
m uch
a b o u t
th e
fu tu re
c a n
liv e
lo n g :
So it is just as w ell that our
dog decided he had nothing to say.
T h e n
w e
to ld
th e
g irls
t o
t i e
a
b u n c h
o f
s p o o n s
to g e th e r
a n d
g o
out on
th e
p o rc h
a n d
r a t t l e
th e m .
I f
a
d o g
b a rk e d ,
th a t
w o u ld
b e
th e
d ire c tio n
fro m
w h ic h
th e ir
fu \u00ad
ture husband
would arrive.
N o dog
barked, just a
n e ig h b o r's
q u e ry
a s
to 'w hat w as going on down there,"
was the
re p ly , b u t w e ju d g e d
th a t
w e 'd
ju s t
h a v e
t o
s u b s titu te
th a t
f o r t h e d o g 's b a r k .
T h e o n ly
th in g s w e
m issed
w ere
th e
carolers coming
t o
s in g
c a ro ls
o u ts id e
o u r
d o o r.
W e
k n o w
th e y
s t i l l
d o
it in
th e
c ity
p ro p e r,
b u t
p e r h a p s
F lu s h in g
w as
c o n s id e re d
to o
fa r
aw ay
a n d
s o
w e
h a d
n o
c a r o le r s
o u ts id e
o u r
d o o r.
M aybe
th e y
w ill c o m e n e x t
y e a r .
W e
d id
p la y
a * c o u p le
o f
records of
c a ro ls
t o
g iv e
o u r
g u e s t
som e
id e a ,
;
It -w as fun
h a v in g th e
p a rty ;
I t
was the
best Christm as
w e 'v e e v e r
h a d ,
b e c a u s e
n o
tin s e l
a n d
g ifts
were necessary
to give us the
tru e
fe e lin g
o f
th e
Christm as' Spirit.
F o r in
s h a r in g
these ancient tradi\u00ad
tio n s ,
we shared
w ith
o u r
frie n d s
s o m e th in g
of the
sam e, sp irit
th a t
o u r
U k ra in ia n
a n c e s to r s
f e l t
o n
C h ristm as
E v e .
O u r frie n d s
le a rn \u00ad
e d
s o m e th in g
a b o u t th e
U k ra in ia n
YOUTH AND
T H E
U .N A
T he
G e t A c q u a in te d .C lu b
U .N .A .
m em bers
a re
in v ite d " t&
subm it
in fo rm a tio n
a b o u t
th e m \u00ad
s e lv e s fo r p u b lic a tio n in th is c o lu m n
s o
th a t
o th e r
in te re s te d
m em bers
c a n
w rite
t o
th e m
a n d
th u s
g a in
h e w
frie n d s
a n d p ro m o te th e
s p i r i t
o f
fra te rn a lis ih .
Y oung m en w ho have been
d ra fte d
in to
A rm y
s e rv ic e
s h o u ld
b e
th e
first to take advantage of this
n e w
c lu b .
A ddresses-of
c lu b
m em bers
w ill n o t b e
p u b lis h e d , b u t
w ill be"
g iv e n
t o
th e
U .N .A . m em ber-read\u00ad
ers w ho w rite in for them .
This Is
d o n e
i n
order to
r e s t r i c t
th e
c lu b
t o
U .N .A .
m em bers.
A ll
p e r s o n s
w ritin g
in
fo r
a d d r e s s e s
a n d
fo r
the publication of letters are
a s k e d
t o
m e n tio n
th e
num ber
o f
th e
b r a n c h in w h ic h th e y
are m em bers.
M ary
K ocffespf
C a rn e g ie , P a ., is
th e
2 0 th
person .to
jo in
th e
G et
A c q u a in te d
C lu b .
S h e
w rite s
th a t
sh e
is 15 years
o ld , is
5
f e e t
2 %
in c h e s ta ll, a n d h a s b ro w ir-h a ir a n d
e y e s .
M ary
is a m em b er of U .N .A .
B ranch
1 3 6 .
S h e
a tte n d s
h ig h
s c h o o l
a n d
lik e s
a ll
s p o r t s ,
h e r
fa v o rite
b e in g
b a s e b a ll.
H er
fa \u00ad
v o rite
te a m s
a re
th e
P ira te s
a n d
th e
S t. L o u is
C a rd in a ls .
B ecause
o f
h e r
a c tiv e
in te re s t
i n
th e
n a \u00ad
tio n a l
pastim e, M ary's'friends
c a ll
h e r " S lu g g e r," fro m
w hich w e
s u r \u00ad
m ise
th a t
sh e
i s
q u ite
p ro fic ie n t
w ith
th e
b a t.
M a r y 's
o th e r
p a s \u00ad
tim es are
p la y in g
th e v io lin , p a in t\u00ad
in g ,
c o lle c tin g
b a s e b a ll
p ic tu re s ,
p ic tu re s ,
a n d
re a d in g
d e te c tiv e
s to r ie s .
C o m u n ic a tio n s
s h o u ld
b e
a d \u00ad
d r e s s e d
t o
T h e o d o re
L u tw m ia fc ,
P .
O . B ox
88, Jersey
C ity , N . J .
w ay
o f
o b s e rv in g
C h ristm as,
a n d
s o m e th in g
a b o u t
U k ra in ia n , fo o d ,
which we think will help them
u n \u00ad
d e r s ta n d
U k ra in ia n
m uch
b e tte r.
W e pen these few
w o rd s a s a
s u g \u00ad
g e s tio n
t o
o th e r
y o u n g
U k ra in ia n
A m e ric a n s . W e d o n 't th in k th e id e a
o f
h a v in g
p e o p le
com e
a n d
w a tc h
u s
o b s e rv e
o u r
c u s to m s :, in
som e
h alL o r m e e tin g ro o m
as if we w ere
som e strange and perhaps
in te re s t\u00ad
in g b u g 'u n d e r a m ic ro s c o p e ,.is s u c h
a g o o d -id e a .
G etting them" td-share
i n
th e
a c tu a l
p re p a ra tio n s
i n
th e
hom e
-
a n d
th e re b y
m a k in g - th e m
feel the sam e w ay you do w ill m ake
th e m
rem em ber
U k ra in ia n
C h rist\u00ad
m as m uch longer and w ith a better
s p i r i t .
T h a t's
a ll
fo r
to d a y .
M ARY
H
E n o u g h !!
I
a m
n o w
" e x p e r tu s
ro b e rtu s."
- I n v a in
a re
y o u r
e f f o r ts
t o
p la y
a
ro le
b e fo re
-m e n o w ,\u2014 I h a v e
le a r n e d
its v a lu e a n d
p ric e .
I
5 a m
s tro n g ly
s h ie ld e d
a g a in s t
y o u r
arro w s.
I
Jwear a
v is o r w h ic h
re p e ls
a ll
b u lle ts
o r
f a ls e
sw ords, te a rs , a n d la u g h te r
lik e c u t s te e l. S p e a k
S and w rite w h a t y o u m a y !
I lo o k
a t e v e ry th in g
.w ith t h e e y e o f a n a e s t h e t , w h o s e e s
e v e ry th in g
fa ls e
in -a ? p la y :
A nd
w hen
y o u
w ill
la u g h
I
-shall indiSerently shrug m y shoulders; w hen you
w ill w e e p ,I s h a l l l a u g h a n d s a y : - " N o , m y
c h ild !
You miss, such
a n d
s u c h
p o in ts
t o
m ake
th e
illu s io n
look like reality."
A n d if y o u
shall fall
:in to p a t h o s , I s h a l l
fro w n
a n d
s a y :
" I t
is b a d
- jta s ta ! "
.-
H ow ever, .1 shall
r e a d
fu rth e r.
"D o
not be angry
w ith
m e, m y M assino!
D o
iy o u
rem em ber ;how
I
c h a n g e d
y o u r
U k ra in ia n
T ia m e
Tom a jn to
th e
Ita lia n
T O m asso,
th e n
tran sfo rm ed
it in to T o m a s s in o , w h ic h I s h o r te n e d
" in to
M assinoScbh,
h o w
y o u
s c o ld e d
m e
th e n ,
when am ong
three series
o f
k is s e s
I
c h r is te n e d
:.y o u t h r i c e .
You w ere
always angry
w ith
m e.
Y our
lo v e
always found
o u tc o m e in
anger, as
th o u g h
th is
"lo v e\u2022-.'.;w as
a n ; u n w a n te d ,
fo rc e d
c o n c e s s io n
fo r
iy o u r p ro p h e tic / a p o s to lic d ig n ity . H a h a , h a:! D o"
\u2022\u2022y o p:re m e m b ^ \u00a3 ,w h a t
a n
a p o s to le
a n d
p ro p h e t-
;:y p u- h a v e
b e e n ?
Y ou
d id
n o t
speak, \u2014
y o u
preached; ybirdid not bow ,\u2014 you condescend^.
I t
-provoked, in e, a n d \u0413 decided to drag you off
y o u r
^ p e d e s ta l" w itb r'iro n y , la u g h te r,
a n d
je s t.
I t
d id
~Hpt work, for
y o u r
s o u l
w as
s h ie ld e d
b y :- p a -
-tie h c e .
The'rrT em ployed
o th e r
m ethods: heard-.
riess.:and "generosity: and
fin a lly
th e
s tr o n g e s t,
irth e "lasfv-T m y
::
lo v e .
T h is
y o u
c o u ld
n o t
w ittf-
v'\u00a3 h m d ,-~ a iid l; c o n q u e re d !
Y ou
f e l t
y o u r
w eak-
jhess against m e, and
all that w as
m a s c u lin e
m
IJour nature revolted,
a n d
y o u
w ere
v e x e d
a n d
;: p e e v e d . Y o u s c o l d e d m e , b u t d r i f t e d
on w ith
th e
'tid e ..^\u00a3
.-\u042f
- ; - . ;~ g
i "
;
:b -D 'o y o u
rem em ber all th is, m y M assino?
-
.'
But do not be angry w ith m e now , after three.
y e a rs o fis g p a ra tio n .
Do not accuse m e of falsity,
d o :n o t
blam e m e
fo r
p la y in g
a
p a rt.
C o u ld
I
have done
o th e rw is e ?
Y ou
lo v e
flo w ers,
d o n 't
y o u ?
B ut
d id
y o u
ever try
conceive their psychology?
Y ou
a re
a n
in te llig e n t th o u g h tfu l
m an, and
y o u
should have
d o n e
so .
D o
y o u
not know
th a t
blossom s
a re
th e
c o n q u e try
o f
v e g e ta tio n ?
T h a t
a ll
r o s e s ,
chrysanthem um s,
a n d
tu b e r o s e s ,
s h o w
o ff
a n d
play a part w ith
j u s t o n e a im ,\u2014 y o u
k n o w
i t . . .
T h e y
a ttra c t
o u r
v is io n
w ith
th e ir
r ic h
c o lo r s :
th e ir
te n d e r
p e ta ls
a re
c a r e s s in g ,
th e ir
fra g \u00ad
rance, which
is a b o v e d e s c rip tio n
a n d
c la s s ific a \u00ad
tio n , p ro d u c e s a p le a s in g
e ffe c t.
T h e y
p e n e tra te
t o
our very
s o u ls
a n d
to u c h
o u r a e s th e tic
fe e l\u00ad
in g s w ith
th e
ric h e s t
a n d
v a rie ty
o f
c o n to u r,
g r a c e
a n d
m ysteriousness
o f
th e ir
m ovem ents.
H e lio tro p e s
always turn
i n
th e
d ire c tio n
o f
th e
s u n .
O ther flow ers tim idly
close in the day-tim e,
le s t
th e
su n
s h o u ld
d rin k
o f
th e ir
f r a g r a n c e .
S tu d y
th e ir
p s y c h o lo g y ,
M assino,
a n d
a c c u s e
th e m
o f
p la y in g
a
ro le , s h o w in g
o ff
i n
a
f a ls e
lig h t.
C an
th e y
b e
o th e rw is e ?
C an
a w o m a n a c t d iffe re n tly ?
W h a t to m e n ,
w ho
are. harder
a n d
le s s
k e e n ,
s e e m
m ere
c o \u00ad
q u e try ,
d is p la y ,
th a t
fo rm s
th e
m ost
in tim ate
m a n ife s ta tio n
o f w o m a n 's n a t u r e .
It is to
th e m .
a s
sim p le
,a n d
in e v ita b le
a s
b re a th in g
w ith
th e ir lu n g s a n d w a lk in g w ith
their legs.
D o
n o t
b e
a n g r y
w ith
m e
m y
M assino! | It
is n o t m y fa u lt
th a t
y o u
cam e into m y life
lik e
th e
h o t
s u n ,
w h ic h
fo rc e s
the' flow ers
t o
o p e n
in to
fu ll'.b lo o m
a n d
p o u r
fo rth
th e ir
p re c io u s
f r a g r a n c e .
C onfess
t o
yourself,\u2014 w ere
y o u
n o t
h a p p y th e n?
W as I not a colorful oasis in
y o u r
l i f e ?
W as
n o t
th e
sum m er
i n
th e
w oods
th e
m o s t b e a u tifu l
tim e
in y o u r life?
Y ou
to ld
m e
s o
th e n .
B u t, n o w
a fte r
th re e
years of
s e p a r a \u00ad
tio n ,\u2014 w h a t d o y o u
s a y ?
Do you
have courage to resent that
sum m er,
m erely
because it has passed?
W h a t w o u ld
y o u
h a v e ?
T h a t
your happiness should
be the
o n ly
e x c e p tio n a n
th is
life, w here
n o th in g
la s ts
fo r\u00ad
e v e r ?
Do you have the courage to throw
s to n e s
at m e because
I le ft y o u ?
M y d e a r M a s s in o , in
\u201e th a t
case those
s to n e s
w o u ld
s t r i k e
o n ly
y o u .
I d id n o t le a v e y o u ,\u2014 y o u
d id
not know
h o w
t o
h o ld
m e.
Y ou
h a d
s ix
m o n th s
d u rin g
w h ic h
y o u
d id
n o th in g
to ' b in d
m e
t o
y o u .
I s
i t
m y
fault that som ebody else becam e m aster over m e
i n
le s s
th a n
s ix
w eeks?
R e a lly ,
M assino, you
are to blam e.
A dm it it toy o u rse lf.
Y o u d id n o t
t r u s t
m e, you
h a d
n o
f a i t h
i n
th e
s in c e rity
o f
m y
lo v e .
Y ou
a c c e p te d
m y
c a r e s s e s ,
a ll
th e
tokens of m y
young, awakened
feeling w ith
th e
p a s s iv ity
o f
a
s y b a rite ,\u2014 te n d e rly ,
a p p re c ia tiv e \u00ad
ly , b u t re m a in in g w ith in
th e lim its of y o u r e g o \u00ad
ism .
I
f e l t
i t .
N o
o n e
know s
h o w
th a t
h u rt
m e.
Y ou
d id
not know
it either, nor
shall you
ever know
and understand.
B u t I to o k
r e v e n g e !
A n d if y o u h a v e a f r a g m e n t o f h u m a n h e a r t
l e f t ,
you m ust
h a v e
felt that revenge, and
y o u
s h a ll
feel it m ore acutely!
B ut w ith all that, M assino,
d o
not scorn
m e!
H a y in g
p u n is h e d
you, I
su f\u00ad
fe re d
m uch-m ore,
a
th o u s a n d
tim es
m ore
th a n
you, and
fo r
s u ffe rin g ..."
T he
e n d
o f
this sentence
is b lu rre d .
W as
i t
w a te r
o r
t e a r s ?
P e r h a p s
fo rc e d
b y
h e r
tem \u00ad
peram ent,
h e r b lo o d , s h e a c te d , a s s h e
d id , a n d
c o u ld
not do
o th e rw is e ?
H a,
h a ,
h a !
I
a
c iv iliz e d
m an,
m aterialist
and dete'rm inist^ask
s u c h
a q u e s tio n !
I b e lie v e
that every
a to m
is moved by
an eternal
pow er.
Then how
1
can I doubt that
a
hum an
b e in g
c a n
act not as
it is forced
to ?
W e
a re
to o
fo o lis h
;
and stupid to understand this com plicated
p a ra l\u00ad
le lo g ra m ; to o b lin d
to see its pow er.
H e n c e ,\u2014 o u r
idle talk
a b o u t
f r e e
w ill a n d
selfw ill of
th e
in \u00ad
d iv id u a l:
S h e
claim s
t o
h a v e
s u f f e r e d
m uch
. . .
S h e b la m e s
m e
fo r
n o t
b e in g
a b le
t o
b in d
h e r
t o
m e.
She says I
w rapped
h e r
i n
a .cradle
o f
s y b a r i t i s m
a n d
egoism ,
w h ile
sh e
show ered
u p o n
m e
th e
p r ic e le s s
f r a g r a n c e
o f
h e r
f ir s t
lo v e ...
T his,\u2014 h-m ,
th is
is . . . s o m e th in g ,
I
s h o u ld
n o t th in k
of today.
T h is
c o u ld
p o is o n
n o t o n ly
a
c e le b ra tio n
of N ew
Y ears
Eve, but
e v e n
th e
h e a v e n ly
lu x u rie s of P a ra d is e .
N o, I
s h a ll
n o t
th in k
of it anym ore.
Let us
r e a d
fu rth e r,
p e r \u00ad
h a p s ,w e s h a ll n o t th in k
of it anym ore.
L et
u s
r e a d
fu rth e r,
perhaps, we
s h a ll fin d
s o m e th in g
m ore
c h e e rfu l.
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