Contradictions Swami Anubhavananda
What is important is not the length of time but the intensity with which everyday is lived.Gurudev always said, "it does not matter how many years you live, but how you live every year."Keeping this in mind, I am sure if somebody can't get sufficient strength to walk the spiritual pathindependently in two-and-a-half years, then he can never get it in this life.
Q: What do you think is the most important quality a student should have?
Unquestionable surrender to the Self who expresses as the Lord, the Scriptures, the Guru andself-confidence.
Q: What should be the attitude as a Pracharak?
He should drop his individuality and work as a disciplined solider of Gurudev. Then a studentwill be able to attain fulfilment in a short time. What happens normally is that we want to exist asisolated entities from the total institutional set up. This leads to strengthening of the individualityand distancing from the goal. Hence to be successful, self-accepted discipline that is notcontradictory to the discipline of the institution is a must.
Q: Should we behave differently as Pracharaks and as Sadhakas? I mean how do webalance the two roles?
We should have the same set of teeth always. We must be seekers at every moment in andout. It is obvious that the world will expect a lot from the Pracharaks, but will not in anyway liveup to his expectations. The only thought that can keep us going is that in spite of the worldly problems in our work, spreading Gurudev's message itself is a great sadhana.
Q: Okay, now let us come to how a spiritual teacher should be?
The teacher must have infinite love for the student, yet should not become a weakling becauseof his very love. I mean he shouldn't allow the student to hang around him and grow as creepers.Poojya Gurudev has this attitude when he dealt with his beloved disciples. He always wanted hisdisciples to be a support to the society and not a load on the society. While so moulding thestudents, the teacher has to play a very difficult role of being a mother within and a discipliningfather without. Hence the prayer Twameva Mataa Cha Pitaa Twameva...
Q: Can a devotee become a disciple?
No. A devotee is not a disciple and a disciple should not be a devotee because the way thesetwo species are handled by the master is totally different.
Q: You have come across so many masters while travelling. How are they all different orsame?
All of them have the same depth of love for every seeker. A master is best defined as "whenthe Lord wanted to love by being a teacher, he manifests as a saint, a sage".
Q: How do you manage to be an instant hit with the young and the old alike?
When you do not have your individuality you become like water. Poured into any pot. Butwhen you are hard like a steel cube, the result is you create scratches and dents.
Q: Why are you so touchy about your past?
No. I am not. If I were, I would have touched my past so lovingly and so often that I wouldhave forgotten to live in the present. As regards the poorvashram, while Gurudev gave usdeeksha, the Lord himself inspired a sankalpa in my mind wherein I took a vow not to speak aword about my past. But people do not stop asking about the dead rat; hence I go on bluffing to befit the occasion.