I decided I needed to get in touch with the deeperhuman values; literature looked like the realm to in- vestigate. I changed my major and threw mysel intoinvestigating the great themes o literature: lie anddeath, love and hate.By now, I had stopped going to church, and I nolonger was looking in the direction o Christianity.It wasn’t very long beore I realized that studying literature wasn’t getting me to the essence o things. Lit-erature addressed some helpul questions, but it didn’treally tackle the ultimate questions: What is truth? How can you come to a sure knowledge o it? How can youknow that you know? How can you know that youknow that you know? o really get to the bottom o things, I thought, I needed to study philosophy. Andso I changed my major yet again and immersed mysel in the writings o the great philosophers. wo o my special avorites were Plato and Nietzsche.
“Why Should I?”
I was driting away rom Christianity, but since I wasattending a Catholic school I would ask people “Why are you a Christian?”I was given a number o answers. People wouldsay, “You should be a Christian because it helps yoube good.” o this I could only reply, “Why be good? And what is ‘goodness’ anyway?” (Philosophy majorsare always asking maddening questions like that.) Even