Waking up.Searching for the answer. Where? When? Why? How? Looking through my dreams.Check, check, check. Not there. Searching my memories. Check, check. Nothing. I feelIt. I know It’s there waiting to be found. I know I see It every day. I know that I am It.But I can’t find It. I search for years. For my life. Where is It and why isn’t It easier tofeel? Look deeper. Think basic. The basic connection. It whispers to my soul daily.“Move forward. Don’t look back. IT was so this would be. Don’t worry I’m here, I promise. I’m essential in progress. I AM existence. You hear me every day and cannotcomprehend my message. Listen. Stop asking so many questions and Listen. I’m righthere”. Thinking back on childhood, nothing and everything made sense. As the years passand knowledge builds we become more confused. The levels twist and turn and tangle. Iwonder do most wish for these years when it all seemed to make sense in the mostillogical manner? When relationships and self images reflected something natural,something expected rather than something contrived. How do we re-trace these steps?How do we go back to that time when our lack of awareness led to our peacefulexistence? How do we get back to the fundamentals of existence?We must start at the basics. Basically, existence is layered in compact, entangled, detailedand confusing levels. So confusing that we spend most of our life just navigating theselayers and yet so few of us understand the basics. This is the 1
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step in the “real” 12 step program. The beginning. The basics are brought to us through our senses – through our souls. It is our central, definitive cause for existence. It is the 1
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lesson of experience.
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