aching I felt would go away. I would know that I did something to keep her safe. I knew the idea of me tracking in thsi 'condition' would not be easy, but I needed to do this. As a farewell to my Bella.October November December JanuaryTime passes. Even when it seems impossible. Even if every tick of the second hands makes myinvisible heart ache. It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls, but pass it does.Even for me. (AN : Sound familiar?).I wasn't tracking at this point, I hadn't caught a clue in which way Victoria was. I scoured all of theU.S. except for one state. I was going to try to search there too but once I was too close to Forks,(aka: thousands of miles away), I could smell her. Distinctly. I ran south immediately.After that mishap I decided to go see my family. I hadn't talked to anyone since I left and I'm sureEsme is worried sick. I was heading to Rio. I figured they had all went there, their favorite place inSouth America.Once I got there I was surprised to find none of them. But what I did find surprised me. Their scent was going north. I could detect evry one of them. I followed the scent for a few hours notreally thinking of my suroundings. I was VERY surprised and shocked when I found myslef inCalifornia. I knew they were'nt here. This place was far to sunny. I kept on their path. It led northand north untill I relized it. They went back to Forks! Oh No! The one promise I made to her broken. They could not interifer or I would have to collect them. I was actually scared. IO knew if Isaw Bella now I would never leave again. I ran straight north. Hopefully i could retrieve thembefore this got out of hand.I had just entered Portland and I couldn’t run as fast as I wanted tobecause of the people watching. Once I got to the cover of the forest I ran a full speed again, stillfollowing my families path. I ran through the Olympic Forest and then I was only 30 miles or soaway from Forks. I had seven scents I could follow, and did, Carlisle, Esme, Emmett, Alice,Jasper, Rosalie, and Bella. I kept on running.Her scent was so powerful in me. I was in the forests surrounding Forks. My families scent wasbehind me a few miles but I couldn’t help but look at her house. I wanted to run there so badly, Iinstantly knew it was a very bad decision to come here, even if my family had interfered, whichthey hadn’t of course. That moment Charlie walked out of the front door and into his car. The frontdoor started to open again, but I ran before I saw her.I felt like all I was doing these days was running. It seemed to calm me.I caught Carlisle’s scent again just as I was out of the forest. It went north and towards Alaskaagain. What was that? Why had they gone right outside Forks and then back up again?I stopped questioning when I realized they must have gone to the Delani clan. I followed Carlisle’sscent back to the large house. I felt slightly guilty once I got there. I had run out on Tanya andIrina when they were worried about me, but that wasn’t my fault they were talking about her. Ican’t really stand that just yet. Or just ever.I knocked on the door politely. Esme answered and ran to give me a hug before I could talk. Her thoughts centered on how worried she was about me. She let go after about5 minutes. She ledme into the house not saying a word.