Awakening the Liquid Light
ne morning, during the Christmas of 1937, I sat cross-legged in a smallroom in a little house on the outskirts of the town of Jammu, the Winter capital ofthe Jammu and Kashmir State in northern India. I was meditating with my facetowards the window on the east through which the first grey streaks of the slowlybrightening dawn fell into the room. Long practice had accustomed me to sit inthe same posture for hours at a time without the least discomfort, and I satbreathing slowly and rhythmically, attention drawn towards the crown of my head,contemplating an imaginary lotus in bloom, radiating light.I sat steadily, unmoving and erect, my thoughts uninterruptedly cantered onthe shining lotus, intent on keeping my attention from wandering and bringing itback again and again whenever it moved in any other direction. The intensity ofconcentration interrupted my breathing; gradually it slowed down to such anextent that at times it was barely perceptible.My whole being was so engrossed in the contemplation of the lotus that forseveral minutes at a time I lost touch with my body and surroundings. Duringsuch intervals I used to feel as if I were poised in mid-air, without any feeling of abody around me. The only object of which I was aware was a lotus of brilliantcolour, emitting rays of light. This experience has happened to many people whopractice meditation in any form regularly for a sufficient length of time, but whatfollowed on that fateful morning in my case, changing the whole course of my lifeand outlook, has happened to few.During one such spell of intense concentration, I suddenly felt a strangesensation below the base of the spine, at the place touching the seat, while I satcross-legged on a folded blanket spread on the floor. The sensation was soextraordinary and so pleasing that my attention was forcibly drawn towards it.The moment my attention was thus unexpectedly withdrawn from the point onwhich it was focused, the sensation ceased. Thinking it to be a trick played bymy imagination to relax the tension, I dismissed the matter from my mind andbrought my attention back to the point from which it had wandered.Again I fixed it on the lotus, and as the image grew clear and distinct at the topof my head, again the sensation occurred. This time I tried to maintain the fixityof my attention and succeeded for a few seconds, but the sensation extendingupwards grew so intense and was so extraordinary, as compared to anything Ihad experienced before, that in spite of myself my mind went towards it, and atthat very moment it again disappeared. I was now convinced that somethingunusual had happened for which my daily practice of concentration was probablyresponsible.