Consider this recent episode. Two months after I became a grandmother, we spokeover the phone. Sis. Black commented "well, I guess you can't wait to be agrandmother." Slightly exasperated, I remarked: "My grandson was born two monthsago." Three months later, we spoke again. She asked, "So when is your daughterdue to have her baby?" My reply? I said to her "My grandson's name is Isaiah,and he is now over 5 months old. You ought to be ashamed of yourself for askingme that question again. What do you think my daughter is, an elephant!!!"And what was Sister Black's response? "Well," she retorted with a high mindedsound, difficult to describe. "I am not into things these days. I am only intoworship and into God. The Lord is all that I have on my mind." However, thecenter of her conversation was not the Lord Himself but as usual, about her ownspiritual journey. Her priority in conversation is most often her pastor and hisparticular approach to leading "her" church and how the members seek her for thecounsel that her pastor is not capable of providing.Since his appointment to Sis. Black's church, she and Rev. Johnson have beenpersistently battling each other over various church projects. The warfare seemsto be centered in a battle between new members and those who have been membersprior to Rev. Johnson's appointment. Sis. Black pointed out that she has been co-chairing a project with another sister in Christ and that her pastor has beenavoiding her and communicating with the other co-chair. Now these are practicallyher exact words. "Isn't the Lord's sense of humor so wonderful? The co-chairfell and broke her ankle and can no longer function as co-chair. Now Rev. JohnsonHAS to speak to mebecause the other co-chair is out of commission. Isn't the Lord grand?"This is a clear example of neurotic spirituality or "spiritual strangeness".Sister Black sincerely believes that God broke the ankle of her co-chair to forceRev. Johnson to have to communicate with her. Sister Black has a reprobate mindand yet she affirms that she is a part of the remnant church. Admittedly, herpastor DOES have his problems. However, in a very elusive way, Sis Black uses her"spiritual experiences" as a weapon to contend with him. For example, she willlook like she is completely consumed or "caught up" in the Holy Spirit?--fallingback and wailing loudly. Others have to jump up from the pews either to restrainher or to hold her up to keep her from falling and hurting herself or those whomay be sitting near her.As out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks, Sis. Black told me of oneof her "spiritual fits" which occurred as the service was being brought to aclose. While the congregation was singing the doxology, suddenly, Sis. Blackindicated that "the anointing" came upon her and she fell backwards into aeuphoric state, a form of being slain in the spirit. Most of the congregants leftthe sanctuary, but a group of 10 or more women stood by her and ministered to herfor another 45 minutes. Sis. Black retorted, "Pastor didn't even stick around tominister to me. Well, too bad, we all got caught up in the glory cloud and hadourselves another wonderful worship service, praise the Lord! Pastor just wentinto his office, slammed the door and sulked."What diagnoses out of the DSM-IV is suggestive of Mrs. Black? I would suggest toyou that her spiritual strangeness can be compared to the diagnosis ofnarcissistic personality disorder.Yet Rev. Smithsonian is an even more serious example of neurotic spiritualitythan is Sis. Black. Rev. Smithsonian's outward demeanor is that of a compliant,pleasant and polite nature. Generally there is an artificial smile on her face.She presents a façade of goodness, persistently sharing a belief that people are"nice" and she very rarely is caught not being "nice" herself. Yet, somewhere in
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