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the anguish of abandonment that begins as an intimate and personaldespair expands to become public and dogmatic a-gnosticism thatdescends naturally into nihilism.To be unconscious in this way is to be unbalanced in the absence
of the gure of the Heavenly Twin, the Angel Holy Spirit who is the
Orient of the soul and the foundation of all community. Bereft of
any consciousness of this gure I am abandoned. My anguish and
despair are mine, and I am alone. But because I am plunged intounconsciousness there appears no boundary to my soul and my pas-
sions seem to ll all the cosmos. If I let them consume me, my private
terrors become absolute, and I am undone. Then I cannot sense the bounds of the doubts and fears that belong to me as a limited, fallibleand ignorant creature, and boundless, they eclipse the Angels andeven God, and so I perish in confusion and misery. Released fromthe bonds of communion, my solitary despair knows no limits and I plunge into the abyss.
This extraordinary ination, the tormented arrogance with which
the human soul becomes the measure of all things, is a form of
philautia,
self-love. The love which is properly turned towards theAngel and to others through whom the Angel’s beauty shines is turnedentirely inward. The energies of the soul are blocked from naturalexpression and release. The result is a chaos of emotion. MaximusConfessor, the great 7
th
century mystic and martyr, says “Whoever has
philautia
has all the passions.”
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Passion, as the term is used bythe ascetics of the early Christian church, covers all the forms of compulsion to which we are prey, and corresponds very closely towhat C.G. Jung called a complex. Maximus tells us that
philautia
isa form of idolatry, that we are idolators of ourselves, and that this isthe root of all the passions.And so it seems we cannot turn away from the Angel, for to do
so invites only inevitable madness and death. But here we nd a great
paradox. We cannot turn away, and yet we must. For to come into being at all as creatures distinct from the Creator, we must exist atsome remove from the source of our being. Otherwise we would haveno independent being whatever, and there would be no creatures, noCreation. Our eternal individualities would be impossible. For us to
be
at all there must be an original separation, a fall or a rupture giving
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Olivier Clément,
The Roots of Christian Mysticism: Texts From the Patristic Era with Commentary
(London: New City Press, 1993), 134.
The Test of the Veil
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