19. the difference is i'm still writing poems about you i know you'll never read20. loneliness is doing the same thing over and over and no one telling you tostop 1. Let's Read Passages From The Bell Jar Back And Forth To Each Other Until It'sBetter
I was asleep in the middle of the world. You were panicking in a room in a city I have never been to. You were surrounded by people who did not know your name. In eighth grade I knew a girl was bulimicBecause behind the black bathroom stall I heard a thick chortle and constantconstantGlances down and crossed arms and black-ringed eyes And I didn’t say anything to anyone. I thought about it so many times. Why do you like me.
I was panicking in a room full of happy people.They were taking MDMA and laughing and I felt likeThey were all laughing specifically atMy apologetic lifestyle.
Take all my faults into consideration more often. I will repeat these things to you as many times as I have to:-I spend too much time alone-I get nervous when I am in a group where 3 or more people don’t know myname-I get obsessed with some people and completely neglect other people
I want to sit in a room with like five people and readPassages from
The Bell Jar
back and forth
Next time you are panicking at a museum because the boyYou are there with is trying to kiss you in front of all the romantic paintingsPlease call me I will read you the part where Esther Green isViewing the gray dead body in the basement