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Epiphany
By
Alexander
Ruggie
All
at
once,
Eli
felt
a
great
surge
take
over
his
entire
being.
It
felt
as
though
the
whole
of
his
essence
achieved
a
sort
of
perfection,
however
fleeting
it
may
have
been.
As
he
took
his
last
breath
he
realized
it
was
so,
and
he
savored
the
faint,
diminishing
qualities
of
the
air.
He
noted
there
was
a
certain
metallic
flavor
to
it
as
he
slipped
effortlessly
into
death.
And
then
almost
as
suddenly
as
he
knew
he
was
dead
as
a
mortal
body,
he
realized
as
well
that
he
was
no
longer
attached
to
that
body,
and
yet,
he
was
still
not
dead.
Being
an
agnostic
leaning
towards
atheism
in
his
mortal
life,
he
imagined
this
phlogiston-like
medium
that
bound
him,
as
somewhat
of
a
philosophical
pickle.
He
wanted
to
laugh
at
the
idea,
but
just
as
soon
as
he
envisioned
the
issue
he
imagined
its
solution
set
as
well.
It
was
almost
as
though
his
questions
and
the
answers
came
simultaneously,
which
was
even
stranger.
Then
as
soon
as
it
was
strange
it
was
also
immediately
normal.
Eli
could
not
determine
the
meaning
behind
the
new
fractal
nature
of
knowledge,
and
the
paradoxical
realization
that
he
was
without
realization
was
what
allowed
him
to
commune
with
the
Light.
He
could
not
see
the
Light.
Nor
could
any
of
his
other
senses
determine
that
it
was
the
Light.
But
this
did
not
matter,
because
he
no
longer
had
senses
in
the
conventional
realm.
Nevertheless,
Eli
knew
that
he
was
speaking
to
the
Light.
You
have
found
me
much
faster
than
usual,
the
Light
said
without
speaking,
and
without
being,
actually.
It
simply
was.
What
have
I
found?
Eli
asked
immediately.
I
am
what
I
am.
For
you,
that
will
be
a
gateway
to
the
answers
you
cannot
immediately
know.
Why
dont
I
know
them?
Because
you
are
what
you
are.
And
that
is
a
small
reflection
of
what
there
ultimately
is.
Consider
yourself
a
focal
point.
From
your
surge,
you
know
all
that
you
can
know
with
what
you
know.
After
that,
there
is
only
me,
the
Light
explained.
Strangely,
while
Eli
heard
what
the
Light
was
saying,
he
knew
it
as
it
was
being
said,
and
not
after.
It
was
as
if
his
own
thoughts
were
being
verbalized
as
he
thought
them.
But
not
by
him.
Either
this
is
all
in
my
head,
or
youre
what
could
only
be
described
as
God.
Eli
thought
and
said,
without
needing
to
think
or
say.
It
is
your
choice
to
see
me
in
whatever
light
you
imagine.
Thats
not
an
answer.
I
could
think
that
to
myself.
How
can
you
prove
that
you
are
not
only
me
and
I
am
not
only
you?
How
can
you
prove
Im
not
alive
and
in
a
coma
and
all
this
is
in
my
head?
Eli
asked
not
knowing
the
answer,
and
feeling
a
strange
pride
over
his
ignorance.
Millennia
have
passed
since
your
surge.
Your
existence
as
a
mortal
body
served
its
purpose
during
the
time
that
it
was
designed
for,
and
now
your
essence
has
found
me,
the
Light
calmly
explained.
Prove
it,
Eli
retorted,
knowing
immediately
that
it
could
not
be
proven.
You
know
that
I
cannot,
and
that
is
why
you
are
here
with
me
now.
I
could
show
you
what
you
would
consider
the
future
of
your
time,
and
you
would
call
it
a
manifestation.
I
could
show
you
your
own
life
from
a
single
cell
to
the
moment
your
essence
separated
from
those
cells,
and
you
would
diminish
it
as
only
a
dream.
You
are
here
with
me
now,
because
it
is
your
purpose
to
find
your
purpose.
As
it
is
the
purpose
of
all
those
whose
essences
I
render
unto
mine.
Then
you
are
no
God.
Only
a
God
could
prove
I
am
not
me,
and
only
I
can
prove
I
am,
Eli
argued.
Are
there
others
like
you?
You
are
you.
I
am
me,
and
you,
and
everything
else,
the
Light
explained
solemnly.
I
could
be
that
too.
Even
when
I
was
alive,
if
I
ever
was,
I
might
have
been
you
and
me
and
everything
else.
Who
is
to
say
I
wasnt?
Maybe
I
created
them
to
say
I
wasnt,
just
as
I
created
you
to
argue
with
me
now.
We
are
not
arguing.
You
are
trying
to
explain
something
to
yourself
that
you
do
not
have
the
power
to
explain.
Even
if
you
are
everything,
you
cannot
explain
everything
to
yourself
because
it
is
infinite.
And
in
this
infinity,
you
will
find
your
purpose.
The
thought
alone
exhausted
Eli
unendingly.
My
purpose
for
all
of
eternity
will
be
to
find
my
purpose?
Precisely.
If
you
are
a
God,
dont
you
already
know
my
purpose?
Eli
asked
half
begging
for
relief.
Of
course
I
know
it.
That
is
why
I
saved
your
essence.
But
providing
it
to
you
would
negate
it.
It
must
be
realized.
By
you,
the
Light
replied.
What
happens
if
I
discover
my
purpose?
It
was
almost
as
though
the
Light
paused
for
thought,
but
it
only
seemed
this
way
to
Eli.
I
do
not
know,
the
Light
said.
Then
you
are
no
God.
God
would
know
everything.
If
youd
consider
that
everything
is
infinite,
and
even
if
you
can
infinitely
know
everything,
you
can
only
know
the
permutations
of
that
which
have
been
revealed.
Thus
there
is
a
constantly
evolving
everything
to
know
infinitely.
Imagine
it
as
though
you
were
trying
to
find
the
edge
of
a
sphere.
You
will
look
forever.
Then
you
do
not
control
entropy.
Everything
must
start
and
then
end.
You
cannot
un-burn
a
match,
just
as
I
cannot,
Eli
stated,
proud
of
himself
again.
I
created
entropy,
as
I
have
created
you,
and
all
other
essences
I
have
brought
to
discover
their
purpose,
the
Light
replied.
How
many
of
your
other
essences
have
found
their
purpose?
Eli
asked.
Many
have
found
it.
But,
in
all
of
time,
in
all
of
my
universes,
in
all
of
existence,
none
have
ever
achieved
it.
What
makes
you
think
I
will
be
any
different?
Eli
asked
pleading
again.
I
do
not.
But
that
is
a
permutation
yet
to
be
revealed,
the
Light
explained.
And
with
that,
the
Light
was
no
more.
It
was
not
gone,
just
not
there.
For
a
seemingly
endless
interval,
Eli
was
with
only
himself.
Eventually
he
no
longer
questioned
if
he
and
the
Light
were
separate
because
to
him
it
did
not
matter
now.
Eli
spent
what
actually
was
forever
stuck
in
a
limbo
that
did
not
feel
like
time.
It
did
not
feel
like
anything.
In
eternity,
time
itself
loses
its
meaning
and
there
is
only
ones
self.
And
it
was
here
that
Eli
began
to
discover
his
purpose.
There
was
nothing
left
to
eternity
but
the
constant
pursuit
of
discovery
that
led
to
only
one
continuous,
ever-growing
thread
of
thought:
that
there
was
no
purpose.
And
this
thought
alone
made
Eli
immeasurably
low.
He
knew
now
that
he
didnt
want
to
exist
any
longer,
for
what
was
discovery
without
someone
to
share
it
with?
As
ephemeral
and
fleeting
as
it
may
be,
to
share
ones
essence
with
someone
else
was
the
only
thing
truly
real.
Eli
realized
that
if
he
knew
this,
then
the
Light
knew
this.
Eli
also
realized
that
his
essence
was
saved
by
the
Light,
to
realize
this.
Finally
Eli
concluded
that
there
was
no
other
answer.
The
Light
had
saved
him
so
that
Eli
might
unmake
existence.
You
want
to
die,
Eli
said,
hearing
himself
as
well
as
thinking
it
at
the
same
time
in
what
could
only
be
described
as
a
shout.
It
was
so
long
since
Eli
actually
heard
himself
that
he
forgot
what
he
sounded
like
and
his
own
voice
startled
him.
It
startled
him
nearly
as
much
as
the
Light
did
when
the
nature
of
its
being
quickened
Elis
presence
with
its
own.
Very
good.
Now
how
will
you
achieve
this?
Eli
knew
that
he
could
not
think
of
a
way,
for
if
he
did
then
it
would
be
immediately
known
by
the
Light
and
hence
cease
to
exist
as
the
answer.
It
was
a
paradox
to
be
sure,
but
Eli
loved
puzzles.
And
this
one
was
too
good
to
pass
up.
Not
that
he
had
a
choice
anyway.
How
do
you
find
the
answer
before
the
question
Eli
wondered
without
audibly
asking
the
Light.
Exactly,
the
Light
thought
back
unto
Eli.
Eli
could
feel
the
Lights
presence
fading
once
again
as
he
happened
upon
the
solution.
Its
entropy!
Eli
said.
When
we
talked
about
it
the
first
time
you
didnt
admit
that
you
can
un-burn
the
match.
And
what
of
it?
The
Light
asked
showing
for
the
first
time
a
hint
of
hope
in
tonality.
I
need
you
to
eliminate
it
from
the
equation.
If
you
created
entropy,
you
can
undo
it.
I
need
to
be
able
to
un-burn
the
match
too.
I
need
to
find
the
end
before
the
beginning,
the
answer
before
the
question.
It
is
only
then
that
I
will
be
able
to
achieve
my
purpose.
Very
well,
the
Light
said.
Entropy
ceased
to
exist,
and
in
the
wake
of
the
ensuing
chaos,
Eli
was
set
adrift
in
a
heterogeneous
sea
of
his
own
thoughts.
Time
was
no
more.
Existence
was
a
broken
reflection
of
a
shadows
dream.
And
in
the
random
maelstrom
of
warped
wonder,
Eli
discovered
the
answer
before
the
question.
It
was
at
the
edge
of
all
that
ever
was
the
Light
appeared
before
Eli
one
final
time
only
to
say,
Thank
you.
And
with
that,
it
was
gone.
A
period
of
darkness
followed
and
Eli
was
between
it
and
the
end
of
the
Light.
Everything
had
been
wrapped
inside
him.
It
had
all
become
him.
Everything.
Nothing.
And
now
in
the
abyssal
darkness,
he
was
the
only
illumination.
Eli
had
one
final
realization
as
his
essence
surged.
Let
there
be
Light.
And
there
was
light.
And
it
was
good.
The
End