Left Unsaid
by Matt Conniry
Everyday I woke up. I breathed another breath and blinked another blink. Everyday I toldmyself it’s the day I will tell her how I really feel, I’ll tell her that I’m more than a best friend. It’swhat I told myself everyday, but every time I saw her I was just too shy. She didn’t look at melike that and I didn’t know why.I walked out of my house, seven thirty, just as always and met Ashley at the end of her driveway. It wasn’t very far considering she was my next-door neighbor. Its been that way for seventeen years and I wouldn’t have it any other way.Before I was close enough to engage in conversation I felt weak by the mere thought of her.The way she moved, the way she played with her hair when she had nothing else to do. Theway she bit her lip and raised her eyebrows every time she saw me, it was my own personal“hello.” We talked like best friends, we played like best friends, but she didn’t know how Ireally felt. I was so reserved with my feelings for her because I knew she didn’t look at me likethat.The bus came and picked us up for school. She kissed me on the cheek and whispered in myear, “best friends forever.” Beguiled by her beauty, another day my feelings left unsaid.One night she called me up in tears. She was completely distraught because she said thelove of her life had broken her heart. Her sorrow was equitably my sorrow. I rushed to her house. She cried on my shoulder and I told her everything would be okay. I told her that anyman who has her in his life is the luckiest man alive. That any sensible man would die to keepher heart beating. A silent tear slipped down my face as I looked into her ocean deep eyes,and stroked her silky hair. I loved her with every ounce of my body, soul, and mind. But I was just too shy to tell her, because she didn’t look at me that way and I didn’t know why. Shereached her head up and kissed me on the cheek. Her weak breath in my ear muttered thewords, “best friends forever.” Her slender body fell silent as she drifted to sleep in my arms.Another day my feelings left unsaid. But each day I’ll wake up and breathe the same thoughtand blink the same idea.I was walking down the hall at school when she caught up to me at my locker. She raised her eyebrows, bit her lip and asked me for a big favor. I asked her what it was, already knowing Iwould say yes no matter what she said. She gave me a big smile and told me that her date for prom was sick and that she wanted me to go with her. We made a promise freshman year that if either one of us didn't have dates we would go with each other. As if I could deny sucha proposal, I looked deep into her eyes - swimming in her beauty - and told her that I wouldbe honored to be the date of such a ravishing woman.After prom I stood at her door looking at her with a poised confidence. The way her hair was
Leave a Comment