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Deconstructing Dolores
“ I have scrubs, a lab coat ,surgical gloves, and a surgical mask,” I said
to Neville as soon as I walked into the room I dont even think I introduced
myself.
As soon as I walked in anatomy class that afternoon , I found out I wasn’t the
only one who had thought of changing ahead of time .
In fact ,about fifty other people had the same Idea.
As I looked across the sea of green and blue scurbs,I wondered to myself if we
would ever be the same after this afternoon.
Probably not ,but then again medical school was supposed to change us.
Dissecting human cadavers is a rite of passage. SATs , MCATs, and the grueling
medical school application process were also allegedly rites of passage,and we all
know how fun they were.
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The first sensation I experienced When I opend the lab door was sheer
coldness.
The air conditioning must have been on full-blast,because I could see wisps of
my hair flying across my face.
Then came the smell-a mixture of noxious chemicals and rotting meat.
I spotted my lab partners and trying not to look at anything around the room ,
darted straight to our dissection table .
we had been assigned a female body. I was pleased because I thought it would
be easier to bond with a female cadaver .
jasad e yek zan be ma dade shodeh bood
We pulled away the white sheet that covered her body. She was lying face down.
We all breathed a sigh of relief. This is not that bad ,I said to myself, as
long as you dont look her face.
Before I could comprehend what was happening , Lara,another medical
student,said, ”she looks like a rubber doll - she doesn’t even look human .”
“Yeah,like one of those mannequins we used in CPR class last week -pink,with
her mouth always open,ready to be kissed,and a twisted look of pain on her face
,”Sari added.
I scrubbed my hands with pine –scented lysol cleaner,but my hands only smelled
like an evergreen forest tinged with formaldehyde. After that,I did’nt even
bother Scrubbing my hands to eliminatethe scent .I had to accept that part of who
I had become.
Dolores’ life story was inscribed all over her body ,which had become
our storyteller.
Her pacemaker told us of her weak heart;her dammeged patella indicated knee
surgery ;her bloody cerebrum told us of the hemorrhage that finally ended her
life.
She was eighty- three years old at the time of her death and was from upstate New
York .She suffered from Alzheimer’s disease.Her stomach and intestines were empty.
Did your illness prevent you from eating Dolores? Were Your last days spent on
İntravenous feeding? The scars on your body were caused by doctors,yet you gave
your body for us to dissect,even after death.You have heard our innermost
secrets,our complains,our jokes.What do you think of us?
In the bright fluorescent light of the lab ,everything is harshly obvious.our eyes
,tired from all -night cramming ,have greeted you far too many times .
Your name means”sorrow” in spanish. Do you feel any of the sorrow that we have
felt tearing your body apart?
Would you have donated your body if you had known what it was going to
look like after we had finished ?
You will never be able to answer any of my questions,but Dolores ,you and I have
something in common that no one else will ever be able to take away from us .
You and I were both “first years.” I in medical school,and you in death.We both
began our journeys together.