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Suicide Attempts Reported by Readers. These are shown as sent to me, after removing some irrelevant and/or identifyinginformation, and fixing a few grammatical ambiguities. I obviously can’t vouchfor their accuracy. "I didn't intend to drown myself but to swim until I wore out." Except, that Itook three bottles of pills first to make the journey more comfortable because ifyou've ever experienced air deprivation (contrary to some opinions) it is very,very distressful and I didn't want to suffer through the suffocation. The problemwas I passed out before I reached the water (I'm normally an adequate swimmer) andwas finally checked on by the lifeguards hours later who were locking up thebeach.The rest of the story is pretty ordinary from there. If I had had a bit of clear-headedness when I woke up, chances are I wouldn't have been locked up as long as Iwas because they couldn't find anything in my blood (I guess I chose a goodcombination of prescription medicines) and it was all a mystery to them what wasthe matter with me. The day I left the hospital, they were still trying to figureout why I'd done it because I never did explain that. It was just while I wassemi-conscious that I admitted to what I'd done because I'm just too honest for myown good. Had I feigned ignorance, I would have gone down as someone with somemysterious syncopic and comatose episode -- maybe a seizure or something else.Doctors really don't know a great deal that goes on with human bodies and of whatthey do know, most of it is guess work. Here is an example of what drugs do: I took 150 valium, 50 beta blocker (Obsidan),some French prescription sleeping pills, 12 Sominex, 10 Codein, and a glass oflight alcohol (20%) -- much alcohol could cause me to throw up the pills. Iplanned to take the boric acid after loosing sensitivity. However, I lostconsciouseness about 20 minutes past taking the pills while still outside of myapartment (I went to put a letter to the mailbox), so I couldn't get to the acid(I expected to have no less than 30 minutes). I never made it back to theapartment; apparently I was able to move while being uncouscious. …In hospital I was on the respirator, tubes, etc. and my first understanding cameabout 5-6 days after I was found. I had 50 scull fractures, contusion, bleedingfrom the ear, CSF leak, and, the worst, facial paralysis on one side w/t eyeclosure/tearing. I don't have memory of 7 days completely. Doctors tried to commit me but I went out after the judge hearing (I have nomemory of it). I had to have the head surgery later to repair the cranial nerve atbrainstem -- the doctor said he don't understand why I stayed alive after the headtrauma. I tried with a plastic bag and I removed it semi-conscious even while severelysedated, I mean ...60 tabs of trazolone [sic: may be trazodone].... All my contactwith pharmacy drugs and other stuff left some scars though, namingly a 3 monthlong amnesia.... I recently tried to exit using the helium method. I couldn't stand it and
 
yanked the bag off. The gas was NOT 'innocuous and odorless' as theHumphrys/Final Exit crowd had led me to believe. It felt like inhalingpoison gas. Made me nauseous, headachey, and there was a terrifying feelingof falling through space. Now I am suffering, not from fear of death, butfrom fear of the ways of getting there. I talked for several days with someone who had seen this movie Final Exit. Heexplained to me a method which sounded very convincing, as I had never consideredoverdosing from hearing all the horror stories. To me a method of sleeping pills,a bag, and rubber bands was described. I went about gathering all my necessarymaterials over the course of a few days and then found my secluded location whereI would not be found for at least a day or two (more than enough time) I wasinstructed to take sleeping pills that I could crush/slip powder into a drink,something that I could gulp down quickly. Also I was recommended using a juice ofsome kind as the acidity would aid in the speed of the process. I followedinstructions, and this is where things went wrong. I wasn't given a specific dosethat I should take, so in purchasing one package it wasn't enough. It resulted ina high of sorts, with hallucinations and everything. I went home in thisdisoriented state unaware that I was under any influence. Several hours later Iwas confronted, threatened to be taken to a hospital, but instead put to bed (verylucky for me). I woke up the next morning, with the inside skin of my mouth deadand peeling, and the worst dawning of what I had just woken up to. The next weekof my life is one that I almost do not remember, and just the though of drinkingorange juice literally makes me gag. i have previoustly tried to kill myself using asphyxiation. I failed because iwent unconciouse before i got the bag on. I used Lorezepam as my sedetive. I tookalcohol, but not a very large amount. I once attempted to take my life by swallowing 4 bottles of sleeping pills with abottle of vodka, helped with a half bottle of Niquil [sic: Nyquil]. Unless youtake something such as Dramamine to keep you from vomiting everything will come upand as in my experience land you in the hospital for 3 days. Unless you think itout and take Dramamine with your dose you are just wasting your time!! ...I heard of a lady running her car in her garage & dieing from it, but when Itried, I picked a fairley small garage, sat there for three to four hours, butonly ended up light-headed & nautious.... Mixing alcohol with drugs didn't workeither. I took a bottle of tylenol ( i think about 60) and about 10 800mgIbuprofen with about 7 anti-depresants(seritonon reuptake inhibitors) I thoughtthe SRI's would make me pass out, the regular dose put me to sleep. The ibuprofenis a bad choice. When you thow it up, it is foamy and chalky and you know it isthe ibuprofen. The anti-depressants are also a bad choice. I ended up with somesort of a withdrawl from them one time (Effexor) . I don't think the alcohol ortylenol do anything. I've attempted about 6 overdoses on medicine on hand and allmy combinations were wrong, with or without alcohol. I'm done with the overdosesand wouldn't recommend them to anyone else. I have contemplated crashes, but amtoo afraid I will come out fine and owe the city money to repair anything Idamage. 
 
 one attempt: Insulin overdose failed due to the fact that I am insulin resistant second attempt: colonopin overdose failed because colonopin [sic: Klonopin] or colonazepam [sic: clonazepam] causesseazures that attracted attention and the police were called. Third attempt: Drove car off cliff into big tree. failed, spend 16 years in a wheelchair as a result. thats all Today i sat in my 95 [car] for over 2 hours in my garage until my dad came home,and discovered me in the garage. I was dissapointed not to even fall unconscious.i was drinking rum and coke as well. The garage was sealed. i don't think i willever try suicide again. ...I slit my left wrist. I hadn't had a plan to kill myself, but sometimes Ithought about crashing my car, or running in front of a speeding car....Thisparticular morning we had gotten in a big fight and I thought, it's this life orno life because I don't have the strength to leave him. As I screamed to him Iwish I was dead I wish I was dead! I had a knife and smacked in against my arm.It wasn't cutting me, but the last time I hit myself I swooped the knife across mywrist. Blood squirted and even when I grabbed my wrist with my right hand theblood was flowing like crazy....I ended up slicing 6 tendons and my median nerveand even now as I type this I can't feel half of my hand. When you touch it, itfeels of that awful pain when your leg falls asleep. I can't use my thumb pointeror middle finger normal ever again. When I straighten my fingers it feels likerubberbands that are about to rip apart. I wish I would have never done it, or ifI did do it, I wish I would have died. ...The most notable attempt, which may or may not interest you, is a dramamineoverdose. Ninety pills (4,500 mgs) ingested. Supposedly 5,000mgs is enough toinduce cardiac arrest. You likely know about antihistamine overdose, and thepsychotic/sedated state that results. Almost immediately after ingestion, I wasout cold. I slept for about eighteen hours. Instead of my heart failing, I faceda condition called rhabdomyelosis, in which my muscle tissue began to dissolve.This flooded my bloodstream with proteins and ultimitaley caused my kidneys tofail. At some point in the night I woke up to go to the restroom, and immediatelyafter getting on my feet my right leg gave in. My parents found me lying in fetalposition next to my bed. The way I had slept on my hip cut off one of my nerves,
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