I was born in a Muslim family in Pakistan, when I was a teenager I experienced the presence of the LORD and
learned that HE is very loving and friendly, but as I grew and learned quran, I got very frustrated and mad because
in the quran there is so much lust and hatred. I thought GOD speaking in quran as Muslims believe and preach, and
I closed the doors on my childhood friend thinking HE is talking in the quran.

I married at the age of 25 and had 2 kids but marriage didn\u2019t last for long and ended in 1999. My husband was from very fanatic Muslim family of Multan. They don\u2019t allow their girls to go to school. Girls died in the same house where they were born, Tomb of my husband\u2019s father is main point of worship in their area. When I came back I lived with my mom and my two step brothers. I tried to find truth in the quran again.

While I was living with my mother, she and my stepbrothers felt I might claim part of their house because they
built it with money that I inherited from my father. He was personal physician of King Fahad in Saudi Arabia, and
died when I was a teenager. I was questioning Islam too, so my mother with the help of my stepbrothers tried to
kill me. My mother strangled me with a rope and while she was holding me she called my step brothers to pull it
from both sides. All this happened in front of my children. When neighbors heard our screaming and crying they
called police.
My mother told every one that because I was talking against the Islam she tried to kill me although I think money
was the reason.

In those days my brother joined the Taleban and went to Afghanistan for Jihad (Islamic holy war). When the USA attacked Afghanistan after 911 he was already in Afghanistan leading more than 50 men in Jihad and killed many men there including USA soldiers I believe. He got wounded and had to come back, hiding with Arabs, since then he is hiding here and has changed his appearance too.

I told an online friend of mine, "I was so ashamed of Mohammad\u2019s words and deeds, that all my life I tried to
justify him\u037e now I have run out of excuses for him." He responded to me: "Follow JESUS, because what HE did
and said you will never be ashamed of." Then he suggested: that if I like I should read the Bible. I started reading
the Bible online from Genesis and got bored after few chapters, so I asked my online friend, and he said, "You
should read from the Gospel of John."

And my old childhood friend was talking boldly, truthfully and so beautifully in gospel of John. In chapter six I
gave my heart to LORD, and it is the best thing ever happened to me. I was like Mary Magdalene who was looking
for dead body of LORD JESUS and met resurrected CHRIST