And I wish to feel smaller under your hands, though you seem satisfied as you slipmine down your pants. And I'm thinkin' about how you care half as much for me,while you lift up my shirt after asking politely. And I guess it doesn't matterwhat I am or pretend to be cause it's her you'll always love and it's her I'llalways envy. I want to end this now so dreams of you won't keep me up, but I swearI'm gonna cry. I'm sick of tryin' to be tough and my blood won't stick to theconfines of my veins. And your heart is gonna tear mine away.When you're talking out loud and nobody is there, you look like hell and you justdon't care, you're drinking more than you ever drank, and sinking down lower thanyou ever sank. When you find yourself falling upon your knees, praying to god,begging him "please", that's when she's more than a memory.But I just thought that you should know, that was how I spent my autumn, wantingyou. I was just too scared to admit it.And you're so guilty it's disgusting, he's been sneaking underneath your sheets.And your hands have been in places that they probably shouldn't go. But don'tworry sweetie, because I already know. Regardless, you know that I'll still waitfor your call.Well it's getting colder and you're getting distant, and I just keep thinking thatI never meant it to be like this. You know what comes next, and so do I. Youre
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begging for a way to gracefully bow out, and say goodnight.It's shocking how many kinds of addiction exists. It would be too easy if it werejust drugs and booze and cigarettes. I think the hardest part about kicking ahabit is wanting to kick it. i mean, we all get addicted for a reason, right?Often, too often, things that start out as just a normal part of your life at somepoint cross the line to obsessive, compuosive, out of control. It's the high we'rechasing, the high that makes everything else fade away.I'm your puppet, I'll learn to love it and I'll undress if you need it, but pleasedon't need it, if you need it, I'll scream out. Weave a secret, I will sweep itbeneath the carpet, where you'll keep it, how weak is that? Wish I was worth it toyou. Review my wishes for fair weather, 'cause I know if the clouds with rains orsnows, you wont be there, how weak is that? Wish I was worth it, to you.yeah, i'm not angry and no i'm not upset it's taken me awhile, but this is whati've learned: emotional attachment is really not a threat when i'm simply notconcerned.she's just a friend, you always agree. you know i lie but you still trust me. andyou believed in so much hope. but i'm the one who let you go.we turn our music down and we whisper. "say what your thinking right now" tell mewhat you thought about when you were gone and so alone. the worst is over you canhave the best of me. we got older but we're still young. we never grew out of thisfeeling that we wont give up.fightig back the impulse turn my head and close my eyes. spending these nightsawake and cold and paralyzed. wonder how we got this far and never realized.everyday, with worthless words we get more far away. the distance between us makesit so hard to stay. nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe. it hurts but it maybe the only way.don't you say that i'm ruining what we've made. we know enough to know we're both