gmc63 9 months ago

My Son, My only Son-and I, are being kept apart from each other by a bitter father that I no longer wanted a relationship with. This is the 2nd time he has done this-no communication for no apparent reason-and it's just killing me inside. I am so overwhelmed and feel so riddled with anxiety that I no longer know where to go or who to turn to. It's a fact that victims of this CRIME-and it is a CRIME, FOLKS-have to undergo such lengthy hours of therapy-and hopefully the child doesn't become pre-disposed to becoming a victim of the Judicial System. I already see the signs, and so do the mediators, and yet no one, NOBODY-does ANYTHING ABOUT IT. TOO MANY PEOPLE TELL ME TO MY FACE THEY CAN'T IMAGINE HOW I CONTINUE TO GO ON-THAT THEY'D HAVE KILLED THEMSELVES BY NOW, WITH ALL THE DEFAMATION, ACCUSATIONS, INSULTS ADDING TO INJURY, INTIMIDATION, ALIENATION; REDUCED TO NOTHING BUT THAT OF A NON-HUMAN EXISTANCE WHEN IN FACT IT'S A FACTUAL TRUTH MY CHILD WAS TO BE WITH HIS FATHER TEMPORARILY AND ALL HE DID WAS PERJUR HIMSELF, HURT AND CONTINUE TO HURT MY SON AND I, AND GOD ABOVE ONLY KNOWS WHERE I AM TO FIND ANYMORE STRENGTH BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN OSTRIZED TO NOTHING-STRIPPED OF EVERYTHING-JUST GOING THROUGH THE MOTIONS SO NO HARM COMES TO MY SON THAN WHAT'S ALREADY BEING DONE. IF ANYONE COULD JUST TAKE THE TIME TO LOOK AAT EVERYTHING THAT'S BEEN FILED AGAINST ME-WHILE I CAN'T EVEN GET A WORD IN, LET ALONE THE STRENGTH OR COURAGE ANY LONGER TO JUST FILE MY PAPERS-THAT IT'S OBVIOUS THIS MAN COULD CARE LESS ABOUT THE WELL BEING OF OUR SON JUST TO AVOID PAYING CHILD SUPPORT, AVOID HAVING TO COMPETE FOR LOVE WHEN I NEVER HAVE EVER INTIMADATED HIM IN ANY MANNER OF SUCH EVER!! MY FAMILY HAS BEEN TORN APART DUE TO GREED, SELFISHNESS, SELFLESSNESS, PRESSURE, AND THE COURTS-LEAVING ME ALONE ALONE ALONE. I DIDN'T HAVE CHILDREN JUST TO GIVE THEM AWAY. I LOOK FORWARD TO THE DAY MY SON KNOWS I HAVE HALF A HEART BECAUSE HE OWNS THE OTHER. HIS OWN SISTER LEFT THE STATE WITHOUT EVEN MAKING AN EFFORT TO SEE HIM-LET ALONE CONTACT HIM, AND IT'S JUST GOING TO KILLE ME AS IT IS, SLOWLY-LIKE DECAY ON A TOOTH. I WANT MY SON HOME WITH ME WHERE HE BELONGS-I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN BETTER THAN TO LISTEN TO MY OWN MOTHER-IT WAS A RECIPE FOR DISASTER-AND IT STILL SITS ON THE STOVE ROTTING AWAY WHILE NOBODY ACKNOWLEDGES THE MERE FACT THAT I NEED HELP-PHYSICALLY, LEGALLY, AND EMOTIONALLY, BEFORE I BECOME THE BURNT GUISE OF DESTITUTION.