The following is a continuation of notes I composed to another while wrongfullyimprisoned recently:"Serenity, beauty, and freedom. It only took me 42 years to find all of thesethings."To do drugs here, the inmates on occasion swallow ballons containing suchdrugs, and these drugs are, well, retrieved, at a later time. To smoke pot, theinmate wraps the pot in bible paper. Cigarettes can and have been placeddirectly into the rectum- just so you know. Of course, aside from coffee, I'vedone no other drugs while in jail.Having sex with my ex wife was like trying constantly to copulate with death. Iattempted to reproduce with progressive atrophy through amplified apoptosis,so it seems.It's Thursday, and it is very rainy outside here now. It is very pretty watchingthis rain fall over the Mississippi river.I've been in jail for exactly one month today. And I'm so ready to get the fuckout of here.This is my all time nadir, I think. you are in fact the elixer of my present state-you are the panacea for removing my ego and confidence from the pergatory of their present residence in the trancendal intensive care unit. It was kismetwhen our mutual friend Ryan drove me to Marietta, where I met you for thefirst time.The inmates watch, "Jerry Springer" on TV before lunch here in jail. What adumb-ass show. Our society is clearly warped. It's quite sad.Just got your letter from Monday. I'm fighting this restraining order against meby being in jail right now. My love for Hayley continues to fuel me.With the letters I write to Hayley, I send them to Molly's parent's house. I donot have an address directly for Hayley now. Molly's parents are wonderfulpeople, and will likely insist that Hayley read what I write her. And it is alsolikely her mother is opposed to this, but fuck her, quite frankly.The words I read from Hayley here- they are great. There is energy, joy andhappiness in the words Hayley writes to me now. This bond I now haveresurrected between Hayley and I was against all odds.I fucking did it, Jacki. Not too many 11 year old children from similiarsituations would be able to express such joy generated from their father. I'mglad I created and allowed this to occur.