higher studies, buy him a moped or bookeda ticket or my sis, whenever she wants to gohome. I was also happy I could buy gits orall the kids back home. At times though, itdeters me to think that I havelived twenty-six good yearsand done nothing eectual. John Keats was hardly 22or 23 when he composedhis eternal odes; and JimiHendrix and Kurt Cobainhad travelled hal the world,entertaining humanity withtheir music at my age. And me... I hadalmost hit rock bottom in my addiction tosubstances and people used to ignore me asanother tramp on the street. I got recoveredand am trying to get the kick rom the ideathat it's also kind o great achievement Ihave reached here where I'm right now.
Suddenly I got down to the amiliarsurroundings where I could express mysel uninhibited. But I was surprised when someo my riends could not recognise me. I'd say identities, in a region like ours, are under aperiod o rapid evolutionin matters o rights,articulations and solidarity movements. But it was adierent ball game whenthe olks could not identiy me by sight. They saw inme a dierent person withmy beard, moustaches andrecently-changed plumpbody. It was unny. Forthe next ew days, I seek or shelters to save mysel rom the rants against my beard and moustaches.Ultimately, I succeeded inconvincing them that I'm a real.Is it really necessary that we always obey the elders? I'm in doubt or majority o thepeople, who criticise my Osama-bin-Laden-type bearded ace, were those who are wellpast their prime. Tell me to say no to drugs,I would accept; but I can't help i I look likea akir. Pabungcha advised me to be careul,in case there is any Hindu-Muslim riot, while Teingam teased I could be mistakenor a UFO activist i he saw me on the road. There's also a story here: I came back to Delhi ater my frst vacation on Aug 14,2007 and since then I had shaved just onceon Aug 20. On that ateul day, I resolvedto have a goatee until I go home next time. These olks didn't know I had passed thetest. Anyway, I don't have any reason why Iam keeping my beard and moustaches now –I have simply stopped shaving them. Or youcould say the heart has reasons that reasondon't understand. Nevertheless, I've got animpulsive attitude and could cut them o any other day. Or maybe not.
Keeping beard and moustaches is no bigdeal. In the two weeks that I spent there, Isaw the plodding way o liestyle. Even i we wants to go ast, it usually takes us, at least,one hour any day to draw out money romthe ATM. Lie begins so early around 6 inthe morning and ends even earlier beoredusk. There is a ear psychosis among theolks to travel in the dark or littlearther into the godorsakenplaces. It hurts because there areprospects and plenty o hot spots,though which are unortunately orbidden owing to the quandary in our land. We are caught in atime warp, where we can observehuman progression yet aretrapped in a cocoon.Nobody wants cruising or abruising. For a person like me, who simply prize roaming androving, the present situation is acurse. Anyway, leave alone thoseun, whose community wouldtolerate i their children are deprived o theirright to education? Some unruly policemenhad murdered a ormer militant and apregnant woman last July in a ake encounterand people had been up in arms against theestablishment. We call ourselves modern when schools and colleges are shut down