The subject of this ethnography is 'Claire', a 26 year graduate who has for the last two andhalf years pitted her being (self and body) against the autoimmune disease referred to mostwidely today as Chronic Fatigue Syndrome or Myalgic Encephalomyelitis (ME). During thecourse of Claire
's illness she has dwelt in the ‗wild horizons of the body‘ (Connolly and Craig
2002: 451), in which her lived experience has manifested as a desperate struggle for controlover her 'wild body' and the resultant threat of the dissolution of self it has brought with it.The so-called 'wild body', at this stage, can be glossed the uncontrollable body, which, because it is uncontrollable, is therefore part of 'nature' in so far as it is uncontrollable. This'nature' is juxtaposed, in modern society, to the productive body or 'social' body, which ischaracterized primarily as a stable, healthy, productive entity in the world. I have thereforeset out in the ethnography to uncover th
e emic perspective (i.e. the insider‘s view) of thelived experience of ―dys
-integrated sensory perception, where waking up every day might present a different array of bodily variables, decisions, and survival choices which playthemselves out in paradoxical complexities in the politics of lived body, space, time, and
(Ibid [emphasis added]).Being ill means not being able to conform to what society expects, in the sense of being a
productive body. Emic studies (i.e. the insider‘s view) of illn
ess expose the common senselifeworlds which belong to so called productive bodies as sufferers struggle to conform tothese normative standards. Hence when we juxtapose the 'wild body' with the 'productive body', we expose how these 'bodies' are connected normatively (i.e. by prescribed standards),in the context that there are social norms for being in the world that are taken for granted.