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By Tom Matlack
plane ride home from Florida to Boston, people look at me like I’m
some kind of pirate and wonder where the patch is for my battered
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painted them black, and sank one end in industrial-sized tomato soup
cans which we had salvaged from the dining hall and filled with
cement. Once it had set properly, we turned it over and sank the other
end into another soup can filled with cement to create a device we
pile into a dormitory lounge, move the couches out of the way, get out
established two simple rules: “The bar never touches the ground” and
“It ain’t over till I say so.” We did a rotation of exercises, fifty seconds
on and then ten seconds off—just enough time to prepare for the next
set. A deep squat to a military press was followed by a triceps curl with
the bar behind the head, a lat pull to the eyeballs, and a jumping lunge
with the bar overhead, getting up high enough in the air to switch legs
sideways.
Fifteen minutes in, steam would start to rise off our bodies. A half
an hour and some guys would begin to falter. Will encouraged us to get
in pairs, staring into each other’s eyes for strength. During particularly
grueling workouts, he’d get a bar himself and start doing lunges in his
blue jeans, his piercing blue eyes jumping out of his head as if he were
possessed. When he’d finally call practice, bodies would drop to the
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ground like they’d been shot.
On Saturdays we’d escape the bear bar and head for the
its steepest section just before we reached the top. Will would sit at
the top of the hill, perched on the back of his pickup truck with a
teammate. Snow from a recent storm was piled high on either side of
the road. The day was crisp and clear and the sun shone brightly. The
bitter cold had turned patches of damp pavement into glare ice,
and oxygen debt locked our muscles in place, requiring keen mental
I knew that Jon had been out late the night before, but I still
expected him to excel at the hills since he was the best runner on the
battled out the first couple of hills, snorting on the way up and
swearing at the searing pain upon reaching the top, only to blow off
steam and mentally reset for the next one. Then I noticed that he
would stay with me for one hill and even as I sprinted up the next
other piece; taking a break while the rest of us pushed through the
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lactic acid build-up. As the captain of the team, I was trying to
each repetition and he should have been too. On the next hill I finished
first. As I came down, I saw him bringing up the rear of our group.
“What the hell are you doing?” I barked in his face, pushing him
us.
Up on the top of the hill, Will smiled from the back of his pickup
truck. He later told me about the Olympic gold medal crew that had
reached the dock after their victory, and had broken out in a brawl.
your guts along the way, even showing raw emotion. He had made
clear from the very beginning that the whole process upon which we
had embarked was certainly about rowing, but was really about a lot
more.
Will liked to say that he was really an educator and an artist who
happened to choose boats, oars, and men as his medium. The measure
of his success was how well our crew rowed; but he firmly believed
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necessary part of it—but to condition our minds. The payoff was that
later on, whether on or off the water. To Will’s way of thinking, the
fight on the hill was a sign of progress—a sign of growing faith in one
another.
More than two decades later, there was something in the baboon
out how I ended up with a welt on my face and a nearly broken thumb.
Then it comes back to me. I had jammed my thumb badly diving for a
loose ball. Then I had gone up hard for a rebound and had gotten an
playing tennis nearby ran over to see what had happened. The vision
in my left eye remained blurry even after I got back up. Seamus had
offered to call the game off. I was determined to continue. But the
country for years. In Laguna Beach a whale had breached just a few
feet off the shore during one of our first battles. We’d played in Boston,
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Maine, New Jersey, and New York. I think we had even played
somewhere near Yellowstone just after seeing our first moose. But the
games in Florida had taken on a whole new color and texture; this
wasn’t just for fun anymore. This was somehow more important, more
Halfway through the first game in Key Biscayne, I felt sure that I
more points than I care to think about); shots made from behind the
arc are worth three if you are down by six, otherwise they are worth
two; I get one time-out per game (which I spend generally lying on my
back with a shirt over my eyes). I still have four inches and 50 pounds
the-back move to my left. I still can't shoot lefty but if I get a good
enough position going left, I can get the ball to the rack. I've been
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working on a pull-up jumper and reverse layup to the left as well. I
have him worried enough about it that once in a while I can glance left
had to win in two or it was lights out for the old man; so I’d always
work hard to win the first game and then settle in for a slugfest in
game two. Those second game scores had typically been 21–19, 18–
16, 24–22. If the score was tied late, I’d launch balls from behind the
arc. More often than not, pure desperation provided the motivation to
The end came after I had won the first game 15–13 on a couple
of hard drives right. I was actually ahead in the second game, moving
to the hoop with relative ease. Seamus pushed me in the back once,
new development like the unfamiliar deep sound of his voice in our
back hall when he yelled to announce his arrival home from school.
The next time I got the ball, I set up sideways with my left
recognize, at his peak. I glanced left and went right, finding a clear
path ahead.
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Another push in the back.
I waited until Seamus had the ball. He has a better shot than I,
with ten times the energy—but he still seemed afraid of his old man.
He still doesn't quite know what it means to play hard. Really hard.
When it counts.
his layup, I pushed him. Hard. Maybe a little too hard. He landed on his
back and I heard the crunch of shorts and sneakers hitting the ground
down and muttered to himself, then called the foul and took the ball.
to score another basket in game two, despite all those bear bars and
years of running up and down courts. My son had realized that he was
Game three was closer. I got a little run going with two short-
that prevented me from getting a decent shot off. My guile had lost its
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and pulled up to shoot. I didn’t have the legs to get out and contest his
shot. The net snapped with authority. My run was over. I sat by the
edge of the court with my shirt over my eyes, sucking down the last
expect to get older and fatter every day for the rest of my life while he
I heard him tell people that he had not only beat his dad but had
beat him up. It made me smile, even though it made my face hurt, to
wouldn’t even make the local paper—and how my friend Jon, the one
with whom I had done battle on Cemetery Hill, had become my most
loyal supporter. Jon knew what winning had cost us both. And now so
too did Seamus. That night, I fell asleep with renewed love for my