Walking The Abyss

Knotty Chakra’sFears and unwanted thinking patterns create knots in your chakras. Once your Chakra knots are exposed,and you know what sort of problem you are working on, you can begin untying them. If you begin unravelingknots, (when they take up too much of your head space) don't hesitate to perform this exercise.Set aside several hours where you can be undisturbed in temple space. Light your favorite incense andcandles to remind yourself this is a magickal act. Cast a circle around the entire room, so that you have as muchfreedom of movement as possible.Imbibing sacraments, if you want to include this, should be done as soon as you are comfortable. Alcoholworks very well, but I don't recommend hallucinogens for this purpose.Now, just sit back and think about your past. Think about your parents, siblings, and friends growing up.Start thinking about the knot you are working on, and what may have caused that block. You may know thisright off the top of your head; if this is the case, it is probably something you have avoided thinking about for along time. Now, you MUST think about it. This is the purpose of this ritual.If the memory isn't apparent, think about your knot. Put the impact of your greatest fear into motion byimagining a scenario that would invoke it. (For example, if you're greatest fear is being left alone, imagineyourself stranded in a strange place.)Name that emotion. Put a handle on it. Now, ask yourself "When was the first time I felt this emotion?" If you can't remember the first time, try to find the earliest occurrence of this emotion in your life. Somewhere inyour past you made an emotion-based decision that "The world works this way." This decision is wrong foryou because it is contrary to your True Will. However, it is ingrained in your makeup, confusing your entirebeing, and causing knots in your psyche.Not only do you have to go back and fix that decision, you have to unload years of emotion/energy build-upthat it caused. Traditional therapy methods ignore the energy part; that is why it takes so long. Untying theknot with the help of magick will clear the energy all at once, and allow the decision to be seen without anyemotional cover-up immediately.Once you remember the very first time you felt this emotion, replay the scene in your head with as muchdetail as you can remember. Think about the location, the people present, the furniture or weather that day.Figure out all the details and relive the scene in your mind as vividly as possible. Put yourself firmly in thatreality.As soon as you can feel the emotion-laden energy begin to rise in yourself (tears, anger, shame) begindrawing it out of your system and grounding it. You can visualize all of the energy going into the grounddirectly from your aura, or visualize a conduit of some sort or this purpose. (Make sure any conduit is invacuum mode!) You can also sink the energy into a crystal, a pillow, a chair, or any other inanimate object.Don't worry if the object isn't set up for absorbing energy - the idea is to get it out of you, not necessarily tocharge an item. Spit out that energy as you relive the scene in retrospect. Some questions to think about are:How old were you?Where were you? Describe the room and any objects you see.Who else is there?What is happening?What is being said?What are you feeling?

What would you like to say or do?Sometimes, at this point, you need is to say what it was you didn't say. Scream it if necessary. Get it outthere! Imagine the person who needs to hear it in the room with you. Pour it out anyway it wants to come.Don't stop it just because it is uncomfortable. Remember, you are in a safe, secure, sacred space you createdyourself. There's no sense in you stuffing that emotion again. Cry, yell, or fall apart emotionally. This cantake anywhere from 10 minutes to several hours.You may find it helpful to use a mirror to speak to, or write it in your journal as it comes out. As theemotional energy comes out, ground as much as possible. You may find memories that were previously hidden.You may remember abuse that was repressed for years. Do not back down from these memories! You must dothis with perfect love and perfect trust in yourself. This moment is a very volatile one for you. You may needto rely on you own intuitions to know exactly what to do. Use your instinct and feelings to get through it.When the bulk of emotional energy has been emptied (you'll never get it all) ask yourself what conclusionsthe "younger you" came to at that time. You must find the fault in this thinking yourself. Is the "younger you"correct in making decisions for the "now you" body? Re-think that decision, and come up with one that appliesto your current reality.Relive the scene again, this time without needing the emotional purging. Walk into the scene again as anobserver in your "now you" body. Talk to the "younger you" and all the people involved. Correct the situationin your memory as only a wiser person could. Whether you picture yourself striking your oppressors, or merelyspeaking to them, you may need to purge more emotional energy at this point as your life lessons flash in yourhead. You may remember all the times you reacted badly to the same sort of situation. You may find anotherproblem life-lesson now. If so, repeat the process of purging and re-evaluating it. Ground the energy as before,until it is all out. You may still find "bubbles" of this energy in the coming days; ground it out whenever youfind it.Know that the scene will never happen again, and no one will ever be able to push those buttons in youagain. Ground out any residual energy and take down the circle.A classic case of untying knots occurred with Sam as I was writing this chapter. He wasn't motivated to geta job and support himself. Except for what fit into his backpack, he didn't have any belongings. I checked hisenergy, and his problem was in his survival (3rd) chakra. I asked him what scared him about making money.His answer was "None of the money I make will ever mean anything. It's just a physical object, and it isn'timportant. Besides, it doesn't last." I asked him to recall the last time he was pressured by other people to get a job, (which always angered him) and the emotion present in him at that time. Then I asked him to find the firsttime he felt that particular emotion.The earliest scene that he connected this emotion to was when Sam was 7. He recalled sitting on his bed,crying in a room he shared with two older brothers. At first he couldn't remember why he was crying. I toldhim to take the memory back to when he walked into the room. That's when he remembered his eldest brotheryelling at him to get out of the room. When this little Sam didn't obey his eldest brother, he was punched hardseveral times and left crying on his bed. The decision he made was that "I don't have a right to live here,nothing here belongs to me." This was the decision that was wrong for him, and caused him trouble bydiscouraging him to own anything.The final step for Sam was to imagine himself as an adult coming into the room and punishing his olderbrother for the violence inflicted. This couldn't happen in the original scene, but when he ran it through hisimagination, it made him feel vindicated. He knows now that he has the freedom to have possessions andmoney of his own, and that no one will take it from him again. He landed a job the following week.