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Crash & Learn

Crash & Learn

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Crash
by Thoms Mtlck 
 and 
Learn
 
I
woke to te ound of metl cping gintpvement. spk bigtened tt otewie gywinte dy in 1991. I w nging upide down inidemy gilfiend’ bby blue Fod Ecot, upended by et belt  te c utled t ity mile pe oulong te wetenmot ection of te McuettTunpike.I w twenty-i t te time. I d been in New YokCity wit my gilfiend te nigt befoe, tking  bekfom my gd tudie t Yle nd dinking until dwn.Wile e took  tin ome to albny, I d gone tocl in New hven, till dunk, nd ten et out fo albny myelf. On te tity-mile tetc of te M.
Pike between Eit 3 in Westel an Eit 2 in Lee you
ee noting but pine tee nd te occionl wite-tiled dee. somewee long tt pn I difted into peceful leep.I emined clm  te c lid long on it oof.Tee w noting to do but wit nd ee wt wouldppen net. Te ention w fmili. I d longbeen  umn miile wit no guidnce ytem.One umme evening, jut fo fun, I’d lifted  love
seat oe my hea an tosse it out an eihth-oowinow of a UCLA omitoy; one New Yea’s Ee,
 jut befoe midnigt, I w town toug te pltegl window of  midtown Mnttn etunt, to
the hoo of the fousome whose inne I lane on;
I’d been ccepted t te Tuck scool of Buine tDtmout nd ten w town out, befoe ttending
my st class, fo lyin on my application; an I ha
developed  bit of blcking out fom dinking.I felt  eing pin  te oof of te c, lmminggint te tunpike n inc fom my ed, cimpedound  clump of my i nd ynked it fom myclp. Te et belt dug into my cet, dwing bloodtt tined my it. at lt, te c topped, leving wke of cpe in te pvement. I unbuckled, fellon my ed, nd cemed, “Fuck!” afte focing tedoo open wit my oulde, I pinted wy fom tec, fid te g tnk w going to blow.We ve  emkble bility to epond intinctivelyto life-tetening dnge. Te poblem come ftett initil, intinctive epone: Te body utdown. a tte policemn found me king violentlyon te ide of te igwy. I till cn’t emembe wtppened fte I got out of te c. I could ve beentnding on te ide of te igwy fo tity econdo fo tity minute.“son, you’e one lucky on of  bitc!” te toopecemed wile king i ed in digut. “I’ve
seen plenty of Escots ip, but I’e nee seen anyone
uvive. I don’t like ving to pull ded bodie out ofweck, o ow bout being moe ceful?”hi wod didn’t egite. I d beten det gin.In my budding buine cee,  te tke gewbigge, I bougt te me ene of invincibility ndclm tt I d felt utling long upide down in te
Escot. At twenty-nine, I became chief nancial ofce
of te Povidence Jounl Compny,  uge nd
ecely piate meia conlomeate. The company’s
ote eecutive, mot of tem twice my ge, tougtI ould be getting tem cup of coffee. I pokeonly wen poken to. I t ttentively wit my bo,te cimn of te bod,  e dnk cotc ndmoked cig, ely ying  wod ecept to nodmy ed in geement. and yet, once I d becomei mot tuted dvie, I needed jut ninety dy totke te oldet newppe compny in te countypublic nd ten negotite te le of te buinein n atlnt otel oom fo billion to  bunc ofcowboy fom Dll. Te cimn d inititedte contct but neve tougt I could negotite uc good pice. Wen I did, e d no coice but to
pocee, espite the estom it woul cause amon
eolde, employee, nd te community. I toodto mke evel million doll nd be cedited witpulling off te impoible.
My calculus at wok ha been awless. Afte the sale,
I ppeed on te cove of te Wll steet Jounl, blond-ied wundekind. Wt I d filed toclculte wee te ik I w tking t ome nd owmuc I d to loe. I d two bby cilden, nd I wbout to len ow peciou my eltionip wittem elly w. It w  if te c c d putte emotionl pt of me into upended nimtion. Iw fele in my pofeionl life but unble to feelnyting in my peonl life.Citm tt ye w gonizing. My oon-to-be-e wife d kicked me out of te oue fo good.My nine-mont-old on, semu, nd two-ye-olddugte, Key, went to albny wit tei mom. I
was not inite. I packe a hue e e enine in my
compny c, got on I-95, nd dove to my pent’oue in Wington, D.C. On Citm moning I
ae my bothe’s olest son the e tuck an tie to
ok up i entuim. It didn’t wok. all I could tinkbout w my own cilden wking up witout me, on
Seamus’s st Chistmas. My bothe an siste an
pent ll wee undetnding nd ovely fiendly,but I couldn’t top tinking bout ow I would neveve te cnce to live wit my kid.Te net dy, on my wy bck to Povidence, I toppedin Mnttn to moke cig wit ome collegebuddie. I d been tying to top dinking witoutmuc ucce. Tt nigt my fiend nd I ended upin  soho etunt wit  mioed b tt let llte beutiful people enjoy good view of temelve.
It wasn’t my wost niht of inkin—I in’t ip anycas o y thouh any plate lass winows—but I
w ude nd moe tn  little leceou.I woke up te following dy wit  pounding edce,te mell of cigette in my i, nd te tte of cigon my tongue. I pent te moning contemplting owI could kill myelf quickly nd pinlely. But lte inte dy,  I dove bck to Povidence, I convincedmyelf tt neite semu no Key deeved teitty fte I d been. Tey cetinly didn’t deeve ded fte wo didn’t ve te gut to fce idemon.Tt w te lt time I d  dink, but obeg up w jut te tt. I d to len ow to tke ce of mytwo bbie by myelf. Wen tei mote moved bckto Boton, I knew I d to follow. But I d touble
nin a place that felt iht to me, because moin
out of my week-to-week ovel in Povidence wouldmen tt ti w to be  pemnent condition: Ielly wn’t going to live wit my kid.I eventully found  pentoue on te cone ofCommonwelt nd Mcuett venue,  killebcelo pd to be ue, but not te dem I d inmind, o it took quite  wile fo me to ettle in. Tebtoom d  kyligt ove te tub, nd often, wen
sON,
 youre
 
o lucky
son of a...
- Stt Polic Offic
 
I couldn’t leep, I would tke  bt nd gze up tte t. Te ptment fced et, towd te city
coe. Fom the seenth-oo bay winow the iews
of Boton’ bowntone nd pk looked poitivelyEuopen. Ec moning I meditted in te bywindow until te un it te stte houe’ gold domein te ditnce nd eventully mde it wy to wmmy fce. Ti pec becme my montey.My e-wife nd I geed tt te kid would cometo my ptment evey Fidy nigt. I put bunk bednd  mtcing wooden toy cet in wt wouldbecome tei oom. Ec week I’d pick up semund Key, nd ll tei ge, nd dive ound my cityneigboood looking fo  pking pot. Te kid wee
usually umpy an huny by the time I nally pake
te c nd loded tem into tei double tolle. I’dput tei bg on top nd tt puing. I w divenby denline, tying to mke ti ll OK fo tem. Byte time I d eced my building, unloded te kid,nd got tem toug te doo nd into te lobby, Iwould feel  toug I d climbed Mount Eveet.I’d tell Key to old semu’ nd, nd ten I wouldgo bck outide, collpe te tolle, nd lug it upte ti nd into te lobby befoe colling te kidinto te elevto. Fom te elevto, te kid wouldun ed down te ll. I’d ctc tem jut in timeto open te doo to my ptment nd led tem up
a nal iht of stais insie. Then it was time fo me
to mke dinne.
The st niht I ha the kis on my own I ae the them
bt, lipped tem into mtcing footie pjm,tucked Key into e bunk, nd ten wmed  bottlefo semu. In my bedoom, I tuned off te ligt ndocked im gently wile e dnk. I inled deeply. Itw te cent of my on tt cnged eveyting—i cent nd te ound of im uckling i bottle, teoftne of i kin nd te ention of olding im i body gdully went limp wit leep. I lookeddown nd elized tt ti—being  fte—w mydeepet tifction. Cing Key ound te oue
at e the net monin, catchin he, an ticklin heas she sceame with joy conme it.In the ays that followe my kis’ st oeniht isit,
I elized jut ow muc wok I d to do   dd.I feed I would neve be  decent pent no mtteow d I tied. Wen tey wee t my ptment,my cildood fe of eigt etuned. I often dnigtme of te kid flling out te by window.Key didn’t elp mtte. Even t ge tee, eloved to tunt me by tnding on te ledge inidett window wit e noe peed gint te gl,looking out t te city nd giggling t my dicomfot.To et my mind t ee, I niled two-by-fou cote bottom of te window.I didn’t wnt to ee my kid jut on weekend. Duingte week I took tem to  plygoup in one of tebuilding on Newbuy steet. I t in  cicle witte mom nd tei kid, inging, wetling, nd
eneally actin oofy. As I olle aoun on the oo,
te mom didn’t know wt to mke of me. But teygdully ccepted me, nd I got to be wit my kid.On study I took tem to te top of te Pudentilbuilding, only  few block fom my ptment. Te
capete oos an lae, soft funitue wee ieal fo
ome fe ougouing, nd te obevtion deckw  lge que tck, wee te kid could wetemelve out by unning ound nd ound. Teewee iny dy wen we couldn’t ee  dmn ting,but we till went up tee, jut to ve ometing todo togete.Ce object wee vey impotnt to te kid  teilittle mind tied to mnge ll te moving ound.Key d  blnket e lept wit evey nigt. semubecme ttced to  tuffed Pl dog fom te PBsow atu. Pl took on identifying tetue nd wemk  e w beten, bfed on, nd lundeed.he w one of  kind nd not eplceble. I becmeobeed wit knowing wee Pl nd “Blnkie” weet ll time. at te time, I kept  bg full of te kid’ting in my oom nd doled out clote nd toy likegold bullion. a te end of ec viit ppoced, Ituned te ptment upide down wit dill-egentpeciion to inue ll te kid’ tuff w ccountedfo.by denline, tying to mke ti ll OK fo tem. Byte time I d eced my building, unloded te kid,nd got tem toug te doo nd into te lobby, Iwould feel  toug I d climbed Mount Eveet.I’d tell Key to old semu’ nd, nd ten I wouldgo bck outide, collpe te tolle, nd lug it upte ti nd into te lobby befoe colling te kidinto te elevto. Fom te elevto, te kid wouldun ed down te ll. I’d ctc tem jut in timeto open te doo to my ptment nd led tem up
a nal iht of stais insie. Then it was time fo me
to mke dinne.
The st niht I ha the kis on my own I ae the them
bt, lipped tem into mtcing footie pjm,tucked Key into e bunk, nd ten wmed  bottlefo semu. In my bedoom, I tuned off te ligt ndocked im gently wile e dnk. I inled deeply. Itw te cent of my on tt cnged eveyting—i cent nd te ound of im uckling i bottle, teoftne of i kin nd te ention of olding im i body gdully went limp wit leep. I lookeddown nd elized tt ti—being  fte—w mydeepet tifction. Cing Key ound te oue
at e the net monin, catchin he, an ticklin heas she sceame with joy conme it.In the ays that followe my kis’ st oeniht isit,
I elized jut ow muc wok I d to do   dd.I feed I would neve be  decent pent no mtteow d I tied. Wen tey wee t my ptment,my cildood fe of eigt etuned. I often dnigtme of te kid flling out te by window.Key didn’t elp mtte. Even t ge tee, eloved to tunt me by tnding on te ledge inidett window wit e noe peed gint te gl,looking out t te city nd giggling t my dicomfot.To et my mind t ee, I niled two-by-fou cote bottom of te window.I didn’t wnt to ee my kid jut on weekend. Duingte week I took tem to  plygoup in one of tebuilding on Newbuy steet. I t in  cicle witte mom nd tei kid, inging, wetling, nd
eneally actin oofy. As I olle aoun on the oo,
te mom didn’t know wt to mke of me. But teygdully ccepted me, nd I got to be wit my kid.On study I took tem to te top of te Pudentilbuilding, only  few block fom my ptment. Te
capete oos an lae, soft funitue wee ieal fo
ome fe ougouing, nd te obevtion deckw  lge que tck, wee te kid could wetemelve out by unning ound nd ound. Teewee iny dy wen we couldn’t ee  dmn ting,

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