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Lost and Found

by Tom Matlack

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The metal net snapped as the in my personal life, I had made
enough money to travel to pretty We watched for a few minutes
basketball hit it squarely with
much wherever I wanted. ORQJHU $IWHU ¿OOLQJ LWV OXQJV
plenty of backspin. Shirt off, I
the whale disappeared into
had launched the ball during a
Seamus was a head shorter the depths of the clear green
friendly early morning game of
than I was, but we shared more ocean.
horse with my 11-year-old son.
than an abundance of surfer-
His hair was surfer-blond like In the car, I couldn’t help thinking
dude blond hair. We were both
mine, only with a smattering of about the hours I’d spent as
long and lean and today we
red hues. The court had to be a boy with my own dad, an
walked with a similar casual
one of very few in the country English Professor, reading
gait, toes pointed outward,
that had such a commanding Moby Dick out loud and being
staring into space. Neither of us
YLHZ RI WKH 3DFL¿F ULJKW RQ dragged to whaling museums
was talking.
the beach. The hills of Laguna in Nantucket and New Bedford.
Beach rose directly out of the As we approached the rented I had learned about scurvy,
ocean at an almost impossibly SUV, the quiet was broken by a the monotony of being at sea
steep pitch, with homes held up loud “Pssssssst!” Water sprayed for months, and the bravery of
by stilts hanging out over the XSLQWKHDLUQRWPRUHWKDQ¿IW\ men in tiny boats attempting
cliff. yards offshore. to kill giant beasts. I could see
the spool of rope, just as my
“That’s game, brother,” I said, “Look at that, Seamus!” I said,
dad had described it, spinning
putting my sweaty arm around as I squinted to see through
as the whale ran. The rope tore
my boy. “We gotta get you the glare emanating from the
down the center of the whaling
packed up.” VXUIDFHRIWKH3DFL¿F2FHDQ
boat, men on either side rowing
“Just a little longer, dad?” to try to keep up with the beast,
and one sailor whose only job
“Nah, Seamus. We really have was to pour water on the spool
to get going.” WR NHHS LW IURP FDWFKLQJ ¿UH
We walked down to the wet In the car, if I inhaled deeply, I
sand. Big waves boomed and could almost smell the stench of
rushed at us. A couple of surfers blubber being boiled when the
paddled in the distance. The battle was over.
beach was still empty, except Beyond the mythic men of
for early morning walkers and Just as Seamus looked up,
Nikes and basketball in hand, whaling, however, seeing
a group of older women doing the whale so close reminded
martial arts in slow motion he saw the whale breach. “Cool,
dad! That thing’s HUGE!” me of my father’s fascination
silence. I looked at the ladies, with the animals themselves.
wondering why I had never seen As a child, my dad had been
this daily ritual back east.
“You’re telling me! nicknamed “Whale” for his
ability to stay under water for
My son, ex-wife, current wife,
13 year-old daughter by the What a beautiful minutes at a time. Sometimes,
¿UVW PDUULDJH DQG  \HDUROG in the car, he would listen to
son by the second—we all lived
creature!” eerie recordings of screeching
within a mile of each other back whales communicating with
in Boston. Together with Elena, one another. As a Quaker, my
“I’ve never seen one that close dad had been fascinated by the
my second wife, I had rented a to shore,” Seamus continued.
house for three weeks in order violence of whaling, just like he
to escape the thick snow, now “Neither have I. March must be KDG EHFRPH D &LYLO :DU EXII
turned to dirty slush. Whereas I some sort of migration season DV LI KLV SDFL¿VP OHG KLP WR
had been less than successful for them.” VHHWKHQREOHÀDZLQPHQZKR
killed man or beast out of fear or Boston College is going to go OHDWKHU À\LQJ LQWR P\ KDQGV
hatred or for survival. However, all the way this year!” “Thanks,” I muttered, before
it was the whales he loved most getting back into the car and
“I sure hope so,” I said, looking
GHHSO\ LW ZDV RI WKHP WKDW KH handing Seamus the lost ball.
at my watch. “We gotta get
seemed most in awe.
JRLQJ QRZ :H PLVV WKLV ÀLJKW As we drove to the airport,
That’s what I was thinking about we’re both in big trouble. And I spoke brightly about the
as I drove Seamus up the hill. I ZHJRWWD¿QGWKDWORVWEDOOGRZQ tournament and about Seamus’s
tried to remember the last time on the beach.” sixth-grade team, attempting in
I had talked to my dad about YDLQ WR ¿OO WKH YRLG MXVW DKHDG
We had both become
anything of real importance. , ZDV LQ IDFW XQDEOH WR ¿JKW
accustomed to goodbyes. As
And I couldn’t remember. off the impending storm cloud.
father and son, we had long ago , ZDV VLQNLQJ PLVVLQJ P\ VRQ
“Dad, I forgot my ball down on reached a male understanding before he had even left.
the beach,” Seamus mumbled, that a certain amount of emotion
as we pulled into the driveway. was a good thing. Too much I checked Seamus in at First
“I’m really sorry.” was bad—very bad, in fact. The Class. By now, I knew the
ease of being together could questions on the unaccompanied
I fought off the impulse to snap. easily turn ugly if the pain of our minor form by heart. I carefully
“It’s okay. We’ll go looking for it situation was spoken out loud. placed Seamus’s ticket into a
on the way out of town,” I said. We didn’t live together and clear plastic pouch held in place
“Hopefully, the neighborhood never would. This was as good by a string around his neck.
kids didn’t take it. That was a as it was going to get. We both
really nice leather ball.” knew this, but never wanted to

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say it out loud—as if the silence
would somehow diminish the
“How come I always
packed, it was time to head to hurt. feel like a jackass
LAX. He wasn’t looking forward
to going home, back to school “There it is!” Seamus shouted with this thing on,
and the cold, but at least he when we pulled into the lot on
the beach. “Those guys are
dad? How am I
could focus on and look forward
to the NCAA tournament. Just playing with my ball.” A full-court supposed to pick
before leaving, Seamus and I game was in progress, shirts
and skins, with high school aged
up chicks on the
sat down at the computer one
last time and logged into my NLGVUXQQLQJKDUGRQHEHQWRYHU plane?”
Yahoo account. I had agreed to catching his breath while a foul
let him enter one set of brackets call was hotly disputed. Rubber
into a pool run by an investment basketballs had been strewn at Seamus asked with a wry smile.
banking buddy. The entry fee half court in favor of the leather
Spalding ball. “If the loser badge keeps the
was $100, with the winner
girls away for a few more years,
taking home a few thousand “Stay here,” I told Seamus, WKDW¶GEHMXVW¿QHE\PH´,VDLG
bucks. I had agreed to front him wanting to make sure that the with a smile.
the money on the condition that extraction was quick and easy.
half of any winnings would go to At the gate, I looked into my
charity. Seamus pulled up the “Guys,” I said, as I approached son’s eyes. We had waited until
pool. The sweet sixteen would the court, my 6’3” frame puffed everyone else got on the plane
start today and his entry was out just slightly to make sure my before Seamus boarded. But
FXUUHQWO\LQ¿IWKSODFH words were not ignored. “The the time had come.
ball is mine. Sorry.”
“That’s it, dad. That’s the “I love you Seamus,” I said,
winning bracket right there! The reaction was immediate— giving him a bear hug. I felt how
my little baby boy had become time with my kids would be a
DOPRVW D PDQ VXEVWDQWLDO QRZ bad idea for Seamus and his Elena, Cole, and I went to the
where before he had been so tiny VLVWHU .HUU\ ZK\ DW WKLV SRLQW , playground. I climbed a huge
and fragile. I noticed Seamus’s ZRXOGORVHDQGZK\MXVWORYLQJ rocket ship with my son and sat
stuffed dog, Pal, sticking out of my kids, despite the heartache him on my lap to blast down a
his backpack. Maybe he’s not of long periods of separation, long slide, landing in the sand at
all grown up just yet, I thought. was the best thing I could do. the bottom, both of us laughing.
)RU D PRPHQW , ÀDVKHG EDFN I had been kicked out of the Elena and I held hands on the
to all the times I’d scoured my house when Seamus was less ZD\ KRPH ZH ZHUH ERWK WDOO
apartment to make sure that Pal than a year old and Kerry was and slender with blond hair.
had not been lost. I held onto just two. Despite taking a large Cole urged us on from the
those memories, and to Pal, as company public, then selling it stroller as we pushed him up the
tightly as I held my son at this for billions, I had been a drunk hill. “Faster daddy, faster!” Like
point. and in no position to demand Seamus, he had his dad’s hair.
joint physical custody. But he had his mom’s bright
blue eyes.
In the years since, I had devoted
myself to becoming a decent I thought about another day at
father but had repeatedly sought the playground. It was Father’s
legal advice regarding the way Day, when Seamus had been
my time with my kids was doled just three months old—one
RXW E\ P\ H[ZLIH &ROOHHQ of the last times we had been
only to be told that changing together before the end. That
a custody arrangement after day, I had a plane to catch—a
years of precedents would private jet actually—as I was
“I love you too, dad,” Seamus require proving that it was in the taking my company public and
said, holding on a few moments best interests of the children. needed to be in London that
longer than usual. “I’ll text you I had never had the courage night for a presentation. A black
as soon as I hit the ground at to call Colleen on her bluff limousine awaited us outside
Logan.” Then he turned and that I was a bad father and the front of the house that
walked down the jetway with not worthy of equal custody. Colleen and I had just built on a
RQH RI WKH ÀLJKW DWWHQGDQWV The arrangement ate away at cul-de-sac in Barrington, Rhode
+HZRUHOHDWKHU5HHIÀLSÀRSV me, but I hadn’t been willing Island. As I left, a bag containing
baggy black cord shorts that to reopen the wound. Whether my blue suit, white shirt, and a
reached down to his shins, and that was to protect the kids or to red tie slung over my shoulder,
a mustard Volcom sweatshirt. protect myself, I wasn’t sure. Colleen had ripped into me for
Except for the basketball under being a shitty father. I had not
his arm, he was pure surfer In the car on the way back to responded. I’d just kept my head
dude. I hadn’t had the heart to Laguna Beach, I felt, along with down as her words made their
force him to change into clothes a growing sense of loss, at least ZD\LQWRP\KHDUWGDJJHUVZLWK
for the snowy weather predicted a tiny sense of relief. The visit WUXWK VHUXP LQWHQGHG WR LQÀLFW
back east. He turned one last had gone well. I always worried pain.
time to pound his chest and that Seamus would be bored or
ÀDVK D SHDFH VLJQ DW PH KLV would decide he was too old to %DFN DW WKH KRXVH , ¿QDOO\
GDG VWLFNLQJ WZR ¿QJHUV LQ WKH be hanging around with his dad sat down at the computer and
air with a weak smile. I did the on vacation. We had hit some pulled up the American Airlines
same. Then my son was gone. amusement parks, shot hoops, ZHEVLWH )OLJKW QXPEHU 
eaten great food, sat in the sun, had just taken off for Boston.
Driving home from LAX, I had and talked. It had been fun and Seamus was in the air. I noticed
to again remind myself why relaxed. I was happy to have that, at the top of the website,
going back to court to get equal the mission accomplished. the airline was reporting delays
in New York and Philadelphia, popped up: “Estimated time would ever leave this for snow,
but didn’t think much of it. I RI DUULYDO /RJDQ $LUSRUW  ice, and bitter cold wind was
went back to the TV room to p.m.” I looked at my watch. It beyond me. I tried to remain
watch The Backyardigans with was just past six, west coast calm as I picked up the landline
Cole, who snuggled into my time, so he should be landing to call the after-hours service
neck and quickly fell asleep. I LQ IRUW\¿YH PLQXWHV , GHFLGHG at American Express Travel. I
WKRXJKW DERXW WKH ¿UVW WLPH ,¶G against returning Colleen’s call. knew that trying to get through
had Seamus overnight at my Email was always better when to American Airlines directly
DSDUWPHQW KRZ LQ D FHUWDLQ dealing with an angry or scared would be useless. The website
sense, I had been lost myself ex-wife, even in a crisis. I typed was the best I was going to do
until I’d held my son in my arms, a message on my Blackberry, as far as communicating with
fed him a bottle, and inhaled saying that American Airlines the airline.
the smell of him. That’s when I had Seamus landing shortly,
“This is Jeremy at American
knew that being a dad was the HYHQWKRXJKKLVÀLJKWZDVQRZ
Express emergency services.
WKLQJ,PRVWZDQWHGLQWKHZRUOG over an hour delayed.
How can I help you tonight?”
the thing that I had missed for
Thirty seconds later, Colleen
all the deal making. By the time
replied, “Look, I have a problem,” I
Elena came to check on us, we
said, trying to sound calm. “My
were both snoring.
son, Seamus Matlack, is on
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I awoke with a start. The sunlight
outside was already beginning
“ He has been He’s a minor. I am really worried
to fade. My Blackberry buzzed circling Logan about him. I’m wondering if
with a new voice message. It they’re going to land.”
was Colleen. I hit the voicemail
for the last hour.
button and listened. The plane is near “That’s no fun. What a way to
end spring break, huh? Let’s
“It’s snowing really hard here,” Buffalo to avoid the VHHZKDW,FDQ¿QGRXWIRU\RX´
VKH VWDUWHG ³, NQRZ WKH ÀLJKW
took off so they must have
storm until they can “I’m sure he’ll be okay. He’s my
thought it was going to be okay. clear the runway. oldest son.”
But I just got off the phone with
Logan and they are already This airport is shut “I understand. Says here that
down to one runway and his down completely. his plane is headed for Hartford.
ÀLJKW GRHVQ¶W JHW LQ IRU DQRWKHU The storm has passed through
hour and a half. I’m really worried Even the security there already. Logan won’t be
about Seamus. Call me or email guys have gone open until the morning.”
me.” Click. She had hung up
abruptly, as always. But the home.” “Shit!” I said, forgetting
message was troubling, even momentarily—or perhaps no
with a hefty Colleen-hysteria longer caring—that I was
That didn’t sound good. I looked speaking to the customer service
discount factored in.
out at the beautiful sunset over rep and not an old school friend
At the computer, I pulled up the WKH 3DFL¿F 2FHDQ 2XU UHQWDO in a bar, “Do ya think his mom
map of the United States on the with its expansive view, sat up can pick him up there?”
American Airlines site. Flight high on the hill, just behind the
 ZDV D OLWWOH GRW KRYHULQJ 3DFL¿F &RDVW +LJKZD\ )URP “If she can get through.
around Buffalo in western New our bed, Elena and I watched 2WKHUZLVH WKH DLUOLQH ZLOO
York. When I moved the cursor the lights of tankers passing VXSHUYLVH KLP RYHUQLJKW JHW
to the dot and right-clicked the miles offshore from one horizon KLPEDFNWR%RVWRQ¿UVWWKLQJLQ
PRXVH WKH ÀLJKW LQIRUPDWLRQ to the other. Why anyone the morning.”
“His mother isn’t going to let him ³6($086<285020,621 too. They must know what it’s
stay by himself with strangers,” HER WAY. CALL ME. DAD.” like to have your kid stranded
I said. somewhere you can’t reach
I went back inside to watch him.
“Happens all the time, Mr. the basketball tournament and
Matlack. Your son’s going to be to try to take my mind off my I went back inside and hit redial
¿QH´ son. Twenty minutes later, my again. “This is Seamus…”
Blackberry was beeping again. I
“He’s probably scared shitless, My Blackberry rang. It was
was hoping it was Seamus, but
but let’s hope you’re right. Colleen. I had to pick it up
it was Colleen. “Shit!” I muttered
Thanks,” I said, before hanging now. “What do you know?” she
to myself. Her message read,
up. blurted out.
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I emailed Colleen, “FLIGHT 0( 21 0$66 3,.( 52$'
“Nothing. I haven’t been able to
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talk to him yet. His plane’s on
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the ground but he is probably
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just getting his luggage. This
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He’ll be home in no time,” I said,
hit ‘send’ and waited for the shit trying desperately to maintain
I hit redial on my Blackberry
storm to hit. an even tone.
and again got voicemail, “This
The response was terse and, is Seamus…”
“I can barely see the road. Call
WKDQNIXOO\ EULHI ³,1 &$5 21 me when you hear anything,”
:$<72+$57)25'´ “FUCK!” I shouted, slamming the
SKRQHGRZQ)RUWKH¿UVWWLPH Colleen said before hanging
I went back to the computer to panic set in. How could I let this up.
refresh the American Airlines happen? Why the fuck hadn’t I went back outside on the
screen. The dot came up over I checked the weather before GHFN DQG SDFHG WKHQ ZHQW
Albany. When I clicked, it putting my son on that plane? back inside and tried to watch
showed arrival in Hartford in half He had to be scared by now. a tournament game that had
an hour. I went out on the deck Why wasn’t he answering his gone into overtime. I tried to get
to look at the ocean, trying to damn phone? involved in the game. I actually
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I went back to the computer and went back to the computer to
do 3,000 miles away from my
clicked ‘refresh.’ The dot settled check who Seamus had in his
son. I took out my Blackberry
on Hartford. I clicked again. bracket. The phone rang.
and decided to leave him a
message so that he would call The computer blinked at me, I ran to the kitchen to pick it up.
as soon as he landed. “LANDED.” ³+H\SRSV\RXVHHWKDW¿QLVK"´
I furiously typed yet another Seamus asked.
I got his voicemail. “This is
Seamus. Please leave me a message on my Blackberry,
“Man, am I glad to hear your
message.” “CALL ME!” I went back outside
voice, Seamus!” I said, letting
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go of the pocket of air that had
“Seamus, it’s dad. I know your and to try to talk myself down.
been buried deep in my chest
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all afternoon.
Hartford. Your mom’s on her not even sick. The airline is
way. She will get there as soon responsible for his safety and “No big deal, dad. They set
as she can. Call me when you even though they can’t get most us up at a Holiday Inn. This
can. Sorry for the hassle, but ÀLJKWV WR DUULYH RQ WLPH WKLV LV stewardess Annie is in the
WKLVZLOOEH¿QH/RYH\D3HDFH different. They take this shit next room. She just bought me
out, dude.” I clicked the phone seriously. The crew members a cheeseburger, fries, and a
off, then texted him as well, on that plane must be parents chocolate milkshake. Getting
ready for the Boston College tip- College game. We can watch it 7ZHQW\¿YH\HDUVODWHUVKHKDG
off. They’re going to dominate,” together on text. Let me know convinced me to come back to
Seamus said. what you think along the way. rent. All her childhood friends
2ND\"´ were still there. It had become
“You’re too much, kid. Is this
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Annie treating you okay?” ³2ND\ 3HDFH RXW /RYH \D
and a respite from the stormy
son.”
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her?” Seamus replied.
Seamus and I swam out to
“Please.” “Love ya too, dad.” a massive rock shaped like
an elephant, a few hundred
“Here she is,” Seamus said. yards out in the ocean. For
7KHUH ZDV VKXIÀLQJ RQ WKH generations, kids had jumped
phone. A woman’s voice I then went into the TV room, off the head, shoulder, and rump
eventually came on. turned the television off, and sat of the elephant, then pulled
in the dark. After a few moments, themselves up and across
“This is Annie. You have one
,HPDLOHG&ROOHHQ³7$/.('72 barnacles to lay on the rock and
special boy here, Mr. Matlack.
6($086$2.´ warm up.
He kept the whole crew
entertained at baggage claim The next morning, Cole woke “Dad, I can’t believe we won four
with his Harlem Globetrotters us up early but Elena let me hundred bucks for our bracket.
routine.” sleep. Boston College had won That was cool.” Seamus had
“Annie, I don’t know how to in a blowout. Seamus had called ¿QLVKHG VHFRQG RQO\ D ORVV LQ
thank you enough for taking midway through the second half WKH ¿QDO VHSDUDWLQJ KLP IURP
such good care of my son,” I WRDQQRXQFHWKHJDPHRI¿FLDOO\ the grand prize. At Elena’s
said. over. At 10:30 in the morning, my suggestion we had all gone to
Blackberry was buzzing again. Boston Medical Center and
“Don’t mention it. I’m a divorced It was an email from Colleen: used half the money to buy car
parent too. I would want the ³6($086+20(´ seats for homeless moms.
same for my little girl if she got
stuck somewhere. Besides, “There’s one!” Seamus shouted, “Yeah, next year we’re going all
your son never panicked. He pointing into the pool of salt the way,” I said, getting up. I ran
kept telling us all what a great water under the rock he had just off the rock and plunged thirty
adventure this was, when we ÀLSSHGRYHU&ROH¶VOLWWOH¿QJHUV feet into the cold, green water,
were getting ready to poke our grasped for the tiny hermit crab coming back to the surface just
own eyes out with the delays.” as it scurried across the sand. in time to see my son follow my
He caught it and placed it gently lead.
“Well, thanks. Can I talk to him in a yellow plastic bucket, joining
again?” a dozen others.
Seamus came back on the Elena and I lounged on the
phone and spoke in a whisper. beach nearby, watching the boys
“Dad, Annie is kind of hot.” and holding hands. Sailboats
“Son, she sounds about twenty GRWWHGWKH$WODQWLF2FHDQ'RZQ
years older than you. Be the beach, we could see the
thankful she’s takin’ such good house that we had built sitting
care of you and don’t get fresh high up on a bluff just over the
with her!” I said, in mock anger. Massachusetts and Rhode
Island border. As a girl, Elena
“I was just kidding, dad. I’ll had come to Westport Harbor
give you a call after the Boston IRUWKH¿UVWWLPHZLWKKHUIDPLO\
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appeared in Fogged Clarity, The Philadelphia Inquirer, Rowing News, Penthouse, Boston
Common, Boston Magazine, Boston Globe Magazine, Wesleyan, Tango, Pop Matters, and
PenSpark, and he is a frequent contributor to 7KH+XI¿QJWRQ3RVt.

,Q0DWODFNIRXQGHG7+(*22'0(1352-(&T with his venture capital partner James


Houghton. He has appeared on national and local television and radio as well as in print
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inside the Sing Sing Correctional Facility and ended in Hollywood with a screening of THE
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and Shepard Fairey. All proceeds from the Project go to helping at-risk boys.

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