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GOING INTO SOURCES OF BARBICAN SHAME FORTRESSING
GOING INTO SOURCES OF BARBICAN SHAME FORTRESSING

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FAILURE FAILURE...SOMETHING IN EARLY CONSCIOUSNESS...A MOMENT IN TIME AS SOMETHING 'TRIGGERS' INTO 'BELIEF-BEHAVIOR'...SOMETHING 'ACTIVATES' IN DEVELOPMENT THAT BECOMESBARBICAN 'FORTRESSING' AS ONE 'SURRENDERS' VITALITY TO 'IMPOSITION' OR 'EXPECTANCY'...SOMETHING 'BEGINS TO ECHO' AND 'ALARM' IN AN 'ADAPTATION' FORM OF 'DISORDERING' OR 'REARRANGEMENT' OF SELF AS ONE 'SHIFTS' IN 'SEEKING PROTECTION' IN 'DISTANCING-SPLITTING' INTO FORTRESS-DEFENSIVENESS... IT IS 'MEDIATION IN CONTROL' AS REDIRECTION...'REACTIVITY-FORMATION' IN VULNERABILITY...'ACTING' TO GET, AVOID, ACCESS...'AVERSIONS' OF MOVING OUT OF 'NATURAL'INTO 'DRIVES' TO COMPENSATE, TO MAKE UP FOR, TO 'ALLEVIATE' OR FACILITATE HUNGERS AND NEEDS... PSYCHE' VIOLENCE IN CONSEQUENCES TO 'ORGANIC INTEGRITY' AS 'IMBALANCES' BECOME 'FALSE HOMEOSTASIS' AND 'FAILURE TO THRIVE' BECOMES A QUIET VIOLENCE IN COMPLIANCE...THE 'MEDIATION-CONTROLS' OF THE SUPPRESSION OF 'NATURAL TENDENCY'[HSING]... A DEEP ROOTED SENSE OF 'FAILURE' IN SENSES OF FEELING 'NOT GOOD ENOUGH' OR BEING'VULNERABLE' TO THREAT OF 'LOSS OF AFFECTION, LOSS OF LOVE, ABANDONMENT' AS SOMETHING 'NEEDED' IS TAKEN AWAY...IT IS 'POWER' GREATER THAN 'LOVE' AS 'COMPLIANCE' COSTS ARE BEGINNINGS OF 'SOMETHING IS MOVED FROM WHERE IT WORKS BEST'...IT ISCONTROLLING ISSUES OF SELF BEHIND A 'WALLING' AS DEFENSIVENESS SURFACES THROUGHBEHAVIORS OF 'REACTIVITY-DEFIANCE-HUMILIATION COMPLIANCES'...THE 'GOING ALONG TOGET ALONG' OF 'BEING AS' ONE IS 'SUPPOSED TO BE'...THE EFFECTS OF 'EXPECTANCY'...'MAKING THINGS FIT'...BEING AS 'CORRIDORED' AND 'COMPRESSED' IN 'TOO EARLY ACTIVATIONS' IN 'KINWEBBINGS' AND BEING 'FORCED' TO 'DO SOMETHING' THAT IS NOT 'HSING' OR 'NATURAL TENDENCY'...THE STATE OF 'NOT BEING' IN 'HSING'...THE MISSING OF ASSERTION-AFFIRMATION OF 'REALNESS-POTENTIAL' IN TRUINGS OF INSTINCTS...IT IS LOSS OF 'REAL SENSES' TO 'TOO EARLY EXCITEMENT' AS GROWTH IN NATURAL CURIOSITY IS 'ALTERED' IN COMPLIANCES OF 'THE TWIG BEING BENT' TO SERVE THE TREE... IT IS 'ONLY AS ONE CREATES ONE'S OWN TREE' THAT ONE GROWS IN 'PURPOSE' REALIZATION OF SELF IN TRUTH OF URGENCY...A PROCESS OF THE SELF 'OVERCOMING' THE SELF IN'LETTING GO OF ALL THAT IS NOT ONE'...IT IS 'THE LIFE WE LEARN WITH' EVOLVING INTO 'THE LIFE WE LIVE'...THE BEING IN 'AS IS' OUT OF AN 'IDEOLOGY' IMPOSITION 'BELIEF-BEHAVIOR' SERVITUDE... IT IS 'FAILURE TO THRIVE' AS REALNESS THAT IS DIFFERENT FROM 'MOMMY OR DADDY'S'PERFECT PERFORMER WHO MAY BE 'AS EXPECTANCY'...FOR 'PEOPLE ONLY LEARN WHAT THEYDISCOVER FOR THEMSELVES'...DEEP WITHIN THERE IS A 'COMPLIANCE-RESENTMENT' AS ANGER BREWS INTO HABITS, PATTERNS, AND WAYS OF PERSONALITY AS 'MEANS' OF ADAPTATION, INDIRECTION AND MANIPULATION...THE CONSEQUENCES IN THE RESISTANCES AND COMPRESSIONS OF 'BEING AS ONE IS EXPECTED' OR AS ONE IS PERSONALITY 'IDEALIZED' TO BE...IT IS A SUPPRESSION OF REALNESS IN THE COMPLIANCES OF 'RECURRENCE-EXPECTANCY' AS ONE OVERLOADS 'ANTENNAE'IN HYPERVIGILANCE 'WARINESS' GUARDEDNESS AGAINST 'THREATS' TO THE 'IDEA VERSIONOF SELF'... IT IS 'ZONING IN UNRESPONSIVENESS' OR 'CORRIDORING IN EXCESSIVENESS' AS 'BARBICAN' INSULATION IS 'ROLE-PERFORMER' MEDIATION CONTROL IN 'BELIEF-BEHAVIOR' SERVITUDE... IT IS THE 'RELIGION OF FEAR' PASSED ON IN 'UNCONSCIOUSNESS' IN HERITAGE OF ENDURANCE, COPING AND 'SHAME' CONTROL 'FORTRESSINGS'...TO COLLECT, ACCUMULATE, HIDE BEHIND AND DISPLAY IN A 'FASHIONING FASCINATION' OF POWER QUESTING TO MAKE UP FOR'LACK', 'NOT GOOD ENOUGH' OR THE 'MISSING'...TO STORE AND TO 'PAD, PACK, INSULA
 
TE' AGAINST REAL FEELINGS...TO SMOTHER AND DENY CONTRARY SENSES OF 'VANITY FEARZ'...'TO BARBICAN' IN A WAY OF 'WANTING TO BE WANTED' RESTLESSNESS AND 'AGITATION' SEEKING TO OVERCOME FEELINGS OF 'UNWORTHINESS'... 'TO BARBICAN' IS 'FALSENESS' USING A 'MEANS' OR A 'VEHICLE' TO 'GET NEEDS MET'...ARTIFICIALITY, SHALLOWNESS MOVING IN VEILINGS OF 'DESIRE' THAT 'BLIND'...THE DESIRE OF KNOWING WHAT IS SOUGHT AND BEING READY TO EXCHANGE 'FAVORS' IN POWER GREATER THAN LOVE 'RECIPROCITY'...A 'CART BEFORE HORSE EXPECTANCY CONTAINMENT' CONTROLLING AND LIMITATION...THE DEAL MAKING OF PSYCHE 'TRADE-OFFS' OF DESIRE...SEX FOR POWER...AS 'SOMETHINGIS REMOVED FROM WHERE IT WORKS BEST' AND THE 'DEADNESS IN UNRESPONSIVENESS OR DEADENING' BECOMES THE 'HAG-STATE' OF 'SOMEONE' WHO LIVES IN ANGRY 'FAILURE' OF 'BEING FILLED WITH CREATIVE ENERGIES' YET IS 'UNABLE TO SURRENDER TO THE REAL SELF' OF SEXUAL SATISFACTION IN 'TRUINGS OF REAL WILL URGENCY'... IT IS THE RELIGION OF FEAR AS MISSING 'SELF-ESTEEM'...THE 'CONTROLLINGS' IN 'FEAR OF BEING CAUGHT IN THE ACT, AGAIN' AS THE MASTER EMOTION 'SHAME' GOVERNS BARBICAN DEFENSES...IT IS PERSONALITY AS MEDIATOR 'GUARDING AGAINST' LOSS OF LEVERAGING, THE VIGILANCE CONSTANCY OF 'SHAME' MAINTAINING THE 'IDEAL' OR IMAGE OF IDENTITY... IT IS 'SHAME' IN 'DENIAL, LAUGHTER AND FORGETTING' AS 'BEHAVIORS' INSTEAD OF 'NATURAL' TRUINGS OF VITALITY...IT IS 'SHAME' IN THREAT OF EXPOSURE UNLESS ONE 'PERFORMS' AND 'SHARES' IN COMMISERATIONS AND ORBITAL 'LIKE-MINDEDNESS'...THE 'MIND-SETS' OF A 'LIFE BOATING' OF THE RELIGION OF FEAR... IT IS 'SHAME' IN SERVITUDE TO THE 'BARBICAN' FORTRESSING OF THE HUNGRY GHOSTS WITHIN IN APPETITES OF 'CRAZE AND CRAVE' THAT MAINTAIN THE CASTLE OF ILLUSIONS...IT IS GENERATION OF 'CHAOS, CONFUSION, MISDIRECTION, OBSTACLES' AS THE 'RELIGIONOF FEAR' CONSUMES TRUINGS OF IDENTITY...IT IS 'INSULATION AS UNRESPONSIVENESS' IT IS VANITY FEARZ IN THE BARRIER WALLINGS OF 'NEVER UNDERESTIMATE THE CONTROLS'OF AN 'IDEA VERSION' OF SELF IN MASKINGS, VEILINGS, DECEPTIONS, ILLUSIONS AND DENIAL...THE 'SELFISH FEARFULNESS' OF ONE WHO NEVER SUCCEEDS IN THE 'CHILD'S PLAY' OF 'HIDE AND SEEK' INTEGRATION OF 'FEAR IN ABANDONMENT' SENSES...WHO ONLY KNOWS 'BARBICAN' INSULATIONS AND FORTRESSINGS... IT IS SEEING 'BARBICAN' IN THE 'CONTEMPT' IN POSTURAL DISTORTIONS OF ONE WHO FEARS FREEDOM OF 'ABANDON' AND SIMULTANEOUSLY VIEWS THE THWARTED AND THEREBY DIMINISHED 'ATTEMPTS' OF A 'LOVER' WITH DISDAIN...THE CONTEMPT IN MAKING 'OBSTACLES' OF 'CONSUMPTION' AS 'PATHINGS' OF 'PROOF OF REAL LOVE'...THE 'BARBICAN' ILLNESS OF HYSTERIA SENSUALIZATION AS 'SHE SLEEPS' BEHIND A 'WALLING' THAT PRECLUDES HERREAL SEXUALITY PRESZENCE...THE 'INSULATION' OF 'UNRESPONSIVENESS'... IT IS 'WILFULLNESS', 'DEFIANCE' AND 'RESENTMENT-COMPLIANCES' THAT SUSTAIN 'BARBICAN' FORTRESS BELIEF-BEHAVIORS AS ANGER DOES NOT BECOME A TRANSFORMATIVE MEANS...IT IS 'SHOCK' AFFECTS IN METABOLIC DERANGEMENT GENERATING EXCESSES OF 'SUGARS'IN 'FIGHT-FLIGHT' ADRENALINES AND 'ADRENAL OVERLOADS'...SOMETHING IS MOVED FROMWHERE IT WORKS BEST IN MORE THAN 'TEMPORARY' ADAPTATION...A PROLONGED 'DISTORTION' THAT COMPELS SERVITUDE TO THE HUNGRY GHOSTS OF APPETITE... HIP WARS...THE 'VIS-A-VIS' BARBICAN FORTRESS 'COLLISIONISM' OF HYPERVIGILANCE INENCOUNTERS...POSTURES, IMBALANCES, 'IMAGE' AND 'MIMESIS', ACTING IN 'ROLE-PERFORMER' ZONINGS...BEING AS 'EXPECTANCY' OR 'WANTING TO BE WANTED' SEDUCTION, MANIPULATION OR 'SUBMISSION'...THE 'POWER QUESTS' OF SERVITUDE IN 'SHAME' LEVERAGE CONTROL OF 'SAMSKARA' IN ACCUMULATION OF MORE AND MORE 'ATTACHMENTS'... HIP WARS...INERTIA OF MEDIATION OF OPPRESSION...HIP WARS OF DOMINANCE AND SUBMISSIVENESS FOSTERING 'HOUDINI ESCAPISM INTO 'ANAESTHESIZED' MEANS OF 'NUMBINGS'...
 
HIP WARS IN EXCESSES OF DENIAL AND CONTROL EVEN IN GREAT COST TO PERSONAL ORGANIC VITALITY...'FAILURE'...A 'TYRANNY' OF THE WEAK IN FORCE OF DOMINANCE, IMPOSITION AND EGOISTIC 'NARCISSISM'...A 'CONTROLLING' IN 'REWARD-PUNISHMENT' TO 'MAKE THINGS FIT' AN'EXPECTANCY'...THE 'CONTROL OF OUTCOME'...CERTAINTY IN 'DRIVES' OF 'IMPRESSIONMANAGEMENT'...'BULLYING' AND 'BAIT AND SWITCH' AS 'ILLUSIONS' OF 'DESIRE' COMPELAND 'CONTROL'... TO ACCESS TRUE WILL, TRUTH OF URGENCY, TRUINGS IN INTEGRITY OF PATHINGS OF HEARTMEAN ONE MUST LEAVE THE ZONING 'STATUS QUO' OF THE 'CASTLE' OF THE HUNGRY GHOSTS...ONE LEARNS TO BREATHE IN A SELF RESPECT, SELF ESTEEM IN 'PRESZENCE' AND OUTOF THE 'ADDICTIONS WITHHOLDINGS OF COPING' TO EVOLVE INTO A 'RESOLVE' OF INDEPENDENCE...TO LET GO OF ALL THAT IS NOT ONE... FAILURE... FAILURE TO MAINTAIN THE 'FALSE HOMEOSTASIS' OF A MANUFACTURED-CONSTRUCTED' SELF...FAILURE IN STATES OF 'APPROACH-AVOIDANCE' AS 'SUCCESSFUL ORGASM' MAY NOT BE WHAT IS DESIRED...FAILURE IN ORDER TO SUSTAIN THE 'ZONED-OUT' WAY OF THE 'RELIGIONOF FEAR'... FAILURE... 'O, SO YOU WANT ME TO BE RESPONSIBLE FOR YOUR UNCONSCIOUS'...NO, IT IS MY RESPONSIBILITY FOR MY OWN SEXUALITY, BELIEFS AND BEHAVIORS...IT IS MY BARBICAN SHAME CASTLE...I WILL BE IN MY OWN CONSCIOUSNESS IN 'OVERCOMING FAILURE'... CONSCIOUSNESS IS LEARNING TO BE 'PRESENT' 'TO SOURCE' THE EDGES OF 'DEEP-SEATED''ANGER', FEAR AND 'DANGER' AS ONE LOOKS INTO THREAT, 'VIOLENCE ACTIONS' AND 'CONTEMPT' MEANS OF 'DISTANCINGS' ONE USES TO ALLEVIATE 'FRUSTRATIONS' AS ONE ADAPTS AND WRESTLES WITH AN 'IDEA VERSION OF SELF'...IT IS GOING INTO ECHOES OF 'D'ANGER, THE CONFUSION OF DESIRE IN 'THWARTINGS' AND 'SPLITTING-OFF' THAT 'WALLS' COMPELLING 'FAILURE' OR 'FORCE' INSTEAD OF 'NATURAL TENDENCY'...TO MOVE TO 'INNERNECESSITY' IN 'AS IS' IS 'LETTING GO OF AN 'INSULATION' STRUCTURE THAT IS BUILTON 'FALSE HOMEOSTASIS' OR 'UNHEALTHY GROUNDING'... IT IS SEEING INTO THE CLOSED CIRCULARITY INSULATION 'SPACE-PLACE' OF HUNGERS, ACCUMULATIONS, IMBALANCES, DISTORTIONS, ADDICTIVE BEHAVIORS AND PERSONALITY MASKINGS...THE SHAME TERROR FEARFULNESS OF THREAT OF EXPOSURE GUARDING THE PATTERNS OFTHE INNER THREATS' AS SEEN IN REACTIONS AGAINST THE SHADOWS ON INNER CAVE WALLS...TO SEE THE AFFECTS OF 'SAMSKARA' AS ONE SEEKS 'ATTACHMENTS' OF MORE OF THE SAME 'IMPRESSIONS' IN ORDER TO 'FEEL SAFE AND SOUND' IN A FAMILIARITY THAT MAINTAINS 'BARRIER WALLING'...INERTIA IN 'INSULATIONS' OF A BARBICAN 'FORTRESS' TO MAINTAIN THE 'IDEA VERSION OF SELF' ORDERING... IT IS A SENSE OF 'INADEQUACY' DIRECTED INTO ROLE OR PERFORMANCE 'WAYS' AS A 'MEANS' TO 'COMPENSATE' FOR THE 'GNAWINGS' OR INNER 'DEADENING' OF SENSES...'SOMETHING IS MOVED FROM WHERE IT WORKS BEST'...IT IS LEVERAGE IN 'IMAGE MAKING' AND 'SAVANT-LIKE' CORRIDORING TO 'PROJECT' AND 'BRACE' AGAINST 'EXPOSURE' OF REALNESS... IT IS THE 'ESSENCE' ACCESSING OF 'REACTIVITY TO 'SPELLBINDINGS' AND 'SPELL-CASTINGS'...THE EARLY HARM RESONANCE OF THE 'SPELLS OF CHILDHOOD' AS ONE 'SPLITS-OFF'INTO 'CONTROLLINGS' IN 'IMAGINE' AND 'FANTASY' ENDURANCE-COPING...IT IS THE 'ROYAL' PATHING OF CHESSBOARD POKER '8X8' IN 'WILL YOU STILL LOVE ME AS '64' AS FORTRESS 'EXCHANGES' BECOMES A WAY OF 'YOU CANNOT REPAIR CONTROL'... IT IS AN 'INTENSITY-DENSITY' WAY OR 'GAME' IN GAMBLE, RISK, ACCUMULATION, 'NUMBI

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