Addiction as Self-Torture
By Carlo Ami
As with my books, I use here the heart pause icon to offer a signal for you to stop and pause tocontemplate before moving on with the next segment. In a world that seems to want more and morecontent and stimulation, we honor and gift ourselves when we slow down and sometimes slowly digestinspirational content with our hearts.
Any addiction is variety of self-torture. It may be a self-torturing of the body. It may be a self-torturing of the soul and heart, along with what some people call the mind.How have I tortured myself?The day addiction is dropped is the day that one decides with certainty that the time come toend self-torture.As this decision is made, then the need to torture or harm any other creature begins toevaporate.This is the gateway to the integration of Love.Addiction is the copping to do, ingest or think something repeatedly that you know is harmfulto your body or to your capacity to function well emotionally.Some call it a perverted form of self-medication: we want to feel better and we want that now.The problem is that in the quest for temporary satisfaction, we engage in actions andthoughts that weaken us, sapping physical or emotional strength.An addict prioritizes immediate gratification over self-respect and self-preservation. The high,the escape, the numbing dissipates quickly and you live with it until you get your next fix.It goes way beyond just drugs and alcohol. You might be addicted to belittling your spousewhen you come home from a day’s work where your boss has belittled you. You may beaddicted to laziness as a meek response to the fact that your efforts have not been seen asrewarding.We are a world of addicts, often being most addicted to avoiding what life is trying to showus, to teach us.What am I willing to drop from my life as a way of loving and respecting myself?I ask my heart how fast or slow it serves me to move on this. My heart knows what my mindcannot. My heart knows what my mind tends to avoid or veil. I listen to my heart now.
Addiction as Self-Torture by Carlo Ami Page 16/15/2010