Reflection on Peacemaking:
Confronting the Fear of Failure
by Tandi Book
For the last few months I’ve been reflecting on how my fear of failure prevents me from pursuing my passions. As a part of Shalom House, I’m facing these fears on what seems like a regular basis. It’s hard, deeply rewarding work.Two areas that I’ve struggled with a lot are food and soap-making – things I’m both passionate and knowledgeableabout. What if I try to start a little soap-making business and no one buys my soap? Do I even have the ability and skill topull it off? These were the sorts of questions that plagued me in the fall when I was trying to decide whether or not to makesoap to sell at Art Shop, a holiday sale where artists sell their handiwork. I finally decided to deal with my fears and just gofor it. My desire to challenge myself in something profoundly satisfying won out. I ended up making close to 250 bars of soap, all of which sold. Yay! My effort was rewarded. While I was overjoyed by the success of this endeavor, I tried to remindmyself that even if my soap hadn’t sold I wouldn’t have been a failure. I’m not sure I really believe this, but I’m trying to.I am now in a similar phase with relation to food. My fellow Shalomers and close friends know that food is something I’m totally passionate about.Not only do I enjoy the obvious (eating it), but I love how it connects me to God, the earth, my creativity, and local farmers. I feel connected to myCreator and the earth when I see beauty in imperfect vegetables and feel more rooted knowing where my food comes from. Food engages mycreativity as well. I get a lot of joy from crafting a menu based on what needs to be used up in the fridge and what’s in season. Forming relationshipswith farmers is something else that is extremely rewarding – I know that my food is fresh, sustainably grown, and has a positive impact on the life of the person I’m buying it from.In short, food is a tangible area in which I can live out my peacemaking values and literally sustain life. To be totally honest, one of the reasons I’mso committed to ‘peaceful eating’ is that it is one of the easiest ways for me to try to make peace. My power as a consumer is huge and I am certainthat the way I eat makes a difference. I may not see the fruits of my labor when it comes to other forms of peacemaking, but food is an area in whichmy efforts yield tangible results, empowering and encouraging me to continue on the journey.My commitment to food forces me to slow down and spend time on the simple things in life. Cooking from scratch and eating locally reduces wasteand helps me enjoy the bounty of each season at nature’s pace, not my own. I strive to resist the human tendency to want what I want when I want it,finding freedom in the boundaries imposed by the seasons. The environment suffers less when we purchase food closer to home – less fossil fuelsare burned since it travels less miles and family farms usually employ more sustainable agricultural practices (there’s less monoculture, farmers aremore accountable to their customers, and there’s a greater interest in preserving farmland for future generations.) Environment aside, the world wouldbe a more peaceful place if we relied less heavily on oil. For me, these are the peacemaking values that I exercise in eating seasonally.My background as an Anabaptist missionary kid provided ample opportunities to learn how to economize and cook from scratch. Could myknowledge be useful to households or communities that are trying to reduce their grocery bills while living out the values outlined in the previousparagraph? As I did with soap-making, I’ve decided I’m going for it! The first step has been starting to work on a resource booklet that outlines a lot of what I know about food. The focus will be on making things from scratch, spending less, and eating seasonally. The booklet would basically documenthow I’ve helped set up the Shalom House kitchen. It will include recipes, tips on economizing, and basic info on how to cook dry beans, blanchvegetables for freezing, grow sprouts, do home canning, etc. I then hope to have a few workshops in which I can help teach/learn from others aboutthe topics I’ve written.There are many beautiful things about Shalom House. For me, one of the most striking is that it provides a supportive framework in which I (andothers) can explore my passions and fears. Had I not been a part of this peacemaking house, I probably would not have taken my interests to a higher level. Yes, I’m bound to fail in some of my pursuits, but these failures will help build character and hopefully my successes with bless others. In thissense, I try to remind myself, a failure is also a triumph.
(Concentrated) Powdered Laundry Detergent
This is the recipe I use to make Shalom House’s laundry soap. Homemade laundry soap is easy to make, effective, low-cost, & environmentally-friendly.
2 Cups 8 Cups2/3 bar Fels Naptha or
¼
bar of Zote 2/3 bars Fels Naptha or 1 bar of Zote
(this should make about 1 cup grated laundry soap
)
(this should make about 4 cups grated laundry soap)
½
cup borax 2 cups borax
½
cup washing soda 2 cups washing soda1. Grate soap (it’s preferable to do this in the food processor, but by hand is fine too)2. Combine grated soap with borax and washing soda. Optional: The laundry soap will dissolve more easily in the washing machine if youcombine the grated soap and other ingredients in a food processor and process until it’s a fine powder; process it in 2 batches for the 8 cuprecipe.3. You’re done! Since this detergent is very concentrated, you won’t have to make it often. Use 1 tablespoon per regular load and up to 2tablespoons for a large load. This is a low-suds detergent, so you can use it for a front-loading machine.
Helpful tips:
Borax and washing soda are relatively easy to find; look for them in the laundry aisle in your grocery store. While there, check if Fels Naptha or Zote are sold there also (they should be in the laundry aisle but there’s a chance they’d be with the body soaps). If you can’tfind bar laundry soap at your grocery store, try a Latino supermarket. You can also purchase Fels Naptha online, but it may end up costing abit more with shipping (it will still be a lot less than store-bough detergent though). It may take a little persistence to locate the bar soap, butit’s worth it!
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