From Confusion to Clarity
Overcoming Obstacles on the Path
When we make an attempt to cross thethreshold of where we are right now and moveinto other dimensions of experience, a few thingsget mixed up. If you do not develop the necessarydiscrimination and balance within yourself,handling this mix-up can lead to lots of confusion.You step into a spiritual process and suddenly youdon’t know where you belong. You don’t knowwhether you are this or that. People who don’t knowany kind of spirituality, who just live theirmundane life, seem to be dead sure of what theyare doing. Spiritual people are always confused.
It is good if you are confused. It meansyou are constantly stepping into newterritory – that is why you are confused, and it is okay. If you live with the familiar forever, there will becertainty, but there will be no progress. If you are stepping into unfamiliar territory on a daily basis, you willalways be confused. This confusion needs to be handled properly, productively, rather than becoming aselfdefeating process.It is like doing trapeze – when you are swinging on your own trapeze, it is fine. But when you let go andtry to catch the other, that in-between space is terrible, because you are neither here nor there. This is thepredicament of people who want to explore, know, and experience other dimensions of life. They want toknow the other side, but they are unwilling to release themselves from the familiar even for a moment, sothe struggle becomes unnecessarily long. If you let go of your trapeze anyway and jump, the trapeze onthe other side is always in place. You could catch it, but instead you just swing and swing, you loosen thegrip, or you hold it with your little finger. This is torturous.When I talk about leaving the familiar to explore the other, it does not mean leaving physically. It doesnot mean you have to leave your home or office and go somewhere. It is not an external thing. It is aninternal process – internally leaving things that you have been attached to, things that you have beenidentified with. Only because you have felt that you are not sufficient, you took this step of turning spiri-tual. Suppose you were just happy, absolutely fulfilled, just by eating your morning breakfast and drinkingcoffee, you would not have tried anything else. Somewhere, a realization came that this is not enough. Youwant to know something else; you want to experience something else. You want to be much bigger thanwho you are right now.