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English Essay 2 Revision

English Essay 2 Revision

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Running head: CONQUERING FEAR 1Conquering Fear In Academia:A RevisionMichael A. NosalProfessor JacksonEnglish 1January 28, 2010
 
Running head: CONQUERING FEAR 2Conquering Fear In AcademiaEveryone experiences some sort of anxiety upon entering college. We all have fallenvictim to the sweaty palms, nervous cough, facial ticks and uncontrollable vomiting that seems toaccompany our entry into the hallowed halls of higher education. No one is immune to this.Show me one person who says they have no fear about college, and I will show you a personwho is in complete denial.Fear can be a real problem for some people. It can become quite debilitating. Fear can paralyze a person both physically and mentally. The fear to succeed is strong amongst first year students. We are all afraid that we won’t “make it” and that can tend to cripple our resolve. Iknow from personal experience that this fear has been on the front burner since my enrollment.There must be some way in which I can conquer the fear in my scholastic life. Just when I think Ihave control of one fear, others begin to bubble to the surface of my own little phobic swamp.Old fears rear their ugly little heads at me, the kind I thought, at forty, I would never see again.As these fears stare me down, I feel as if I have been transported back to the seventeen-year-old boy from McMurray, Pennsylvania.The fear of acceptance was something I felt I would not have to go through all over again. The desire to “fit in” is a very primal instinct in our society. This need becomes intensifiedin an academic environment. There always seems to be some kind of cosmic pecking order.Granted, in high school I’m sure we all experienced some kind of alienation, but being giftedcreatively had set me apart from everyone. Now, as other creative people surround me, the fear of acceptance begins to intensify. In high school, my acceptance was achieved by being an artist.There was no one quite like me in that aspect. Thusly, my fear was avoided. Avoidance is not
 
Running head: CONQUERING FEAR 3dealing with the issue. As I look around at the other talented minds around me, a new fear develops. I am afraid that my sense of individuality will disappear.Most of my fear seems to stem from the simple fact that I am old enough to be the father of many of my fellow students. This alone can tweak the anxiety levels to the limit. That theseyoung minds are fresh from the academic world and mine is not can be a bit disconcerting. Allthe years I have been “out of the loop” increases the worry that I might have lost that specialquality that set me apart from my age-mates two decades ago. How do I look this fear in the eyeand stare it down? The answer would be with the wisdom culled from experience.Strangely, it is with one fear that I carried with me for most of my life and overcame thatgives me the courage to handle other fears. I lost this major fear the day I told my mother I wasgay. She accepted this fact and continues to love me for being me to this day. I held on to this phobia for years, scared I would lose her. When I told her, the strangest thing happened. Myworld did not fall apart, as I feared it would. It is odd, but as I step back and look at the twentyyears that I have been “out”, I realize that all the other fears that might enter my life will pale inthe fear I had of losing my mother’s love. I found the courage to face it and made myself stronger in the process. Could the result have gone the other way? Absolutely, but if I don’t havethe resolve to confront what scares me, regardless of the outcome, then I should just lock myself up in the tallest tower on the tallest mountain and leave the world behind.Conquering your fears is very liberating and I highly recommend it. With every possiblefear that comes along in my life and in school, I remind myself every day that my mother lovesme, supports me and encourages me to move on.

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