him. I was destroyed. That night, I listened to the first side again, sitting on a couch in the garage withfresh ears. I listened on my little portable tape recorder that I recorded guitar riffs with. When I heardthe lyrics, "Life it seems to fade away, drifting further everyday..." I had one of those melodramaticteenage boy moments where I thought the world would never be the same again because I couldn't kissthat girl, and the sadness of our friend's death made things even worse. A lot of people say this songkept them from committing suicide, but I think they're lying. The truth is, they were all thirteen and bummed out about a girl that didn't like them back.
#14 - "Solsbury Hill" by Peter Gabriel (Other People's Songs)
This is one of the cheesy radio songs that will end up on any list like this. If "Fade to Black" wasn'tcheesy enough for you, this song surely is. There's a few memories I have associated with this song, butthe most important was the day I formed my first business. I had just come home from a road trip outEast, and my roommate was making out on the couch with his girlfriend so I split. I had spent the lasttwelve hours thinking about what I was doing with my life, and after hitting the seek button on theradio for a while, I stumbled on to this song. I had just read a bit more about Peter's departure fromGenesis, and read into the song lyrics a bit more. "Which connections I should cut." That's the key lyricin that song. There's a moment before you make a major life decision, right before the decision is made,where you have to deal with the burden of choosing which of two distinct paths you'll walk down."Solsbury Hill" was the soundtrack of me deciding to pursue writing as a reality instead of a pipedream.
#13 - "Stigmata" by Ministry (The Land of Rape and Honey)
The first time I saw Ministry was at the Orbit Room in Grand Rapids, Michigan. I have so manymemories from that night. The bass player of Hanzel Und Gretyl showing me her boobs, getting stuck in a blizzard on the way there and nearly missing the show, and screaming along to every Ministry songwith my best friend Stan. We loved that band, man. We listened to them all the time. We talked aboutthat show for weeks. It was one of the loudest shows, and one of the better shows I've ever seen. Thewhole time, though, there was this dumb kid on a million drugs screaming "PLAY STIGMATA!!!STIGMATA!!!" every two seconds. Near the end of the show, they played "Thieves," and we took thekid down in the mosh pit. Good times. Now every time I hear this song, I think of that dumb kid andthe look on his face when me and my buddy Stan screamed "Shut up!" at him and shoved him with allour might into a hyperactive circle pit.
#12 - "In my Life" by The Beatles (Rubber Soul)
I bought a crate of Beatles vinyl from my Cub Scout Master, Rodger, in 1996 for twenty five dollars.There were copies of nearly every U.S. release, with the exception of the Self-Titled. (My parentswouldn't let me have that one, it's the one that made Charlie Manson crazy, you know!) I wanted tomake sure I put a Beatles song on here. The Beatles were the first band I ever obsessed over. I listenedto them constantly, digested magazine articles, taped television specials, and wore out every single oneof those records. I still have them, but good luck listening to those smudgy, scratched, abused relics. I'dhave to say that my favorite Beatles song has always been "In my Life." It's almost like you can feel theweight of the world on John Lennon's shoulders. It's such a great song. "Lovers and friends, I still canrecall, some are dead and some are living." Death is something I've had to contend with on frequentoccasion since the very beginnings of my cognizance. "In my Life" gets played shortly after everyfuneral I go to, and that means I hear it a lot. "I know I'll often stop and think about them."
#11 - "Disappear" by Dream Theater (Six Degrees of Inner Turbulence)
The first Dream Theater album I ever bought was "Scenes from a Memory," shortly after it came out,and I was hooked from then on. I waited in line at the local music store, Music Express, for an hour