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K I L L B O R I NG —HA L L E NG L I S H 1A
T A B L E O F C O NT E NT S
College: Why Bother? Luis Aleman....................................................1
Corporal Education, Allysa Brickman.................................................4
Motivation , Aja Brown..........................................................................6
The Boring Truth on How I Survived School , Marvin Corro..........8
The Mark of a Teacher, Laura Dunn................................................10
Finding the Right Path, Brooke Girton............................................12
Spheres, Daniel Greene.......................................................................17
Jane Lathrop Stanford Middle School , Alex Gromov....................19
Thanks for the Great Story, Mr. Rosenburg , Brittany Heintzen..22
My Own Motivation , Ann Jarrar........................................................25
The Bookworm I Never Knew I Was, Miyou Kanda......................27
The Beginning of my Educational Journey ,Kristina Kucinskaite..29
The Big Day , Deyssy Orozco................................................................31
My Early Education, Kin Leung........................................................34
There Will Always Be Something Better to Do , Debbie Luk.....37
My Road to Success , Denise Martinez...............................................39
House of Paper Cards , Ricardo Mata...............................................42
No Help, So I Turned Away , Summer Morrow................................46
Welcome, Freaky Freshy , Ariel Nazarian........................................49
School Life , Bryan Nocito...................................................................52
Educational Influence , Danilo Noguera............................................54
Final Draft, Matthew Pray.................................................................58
My Experience at School, Jennifer Samayoa..................................60
Desegregation, Gina Simas................................................................63
My Attitude Toward Education, Ian Thomas.................................65
The Difficulties of Change, Paola Toulet........................................68
Why I Both Love and Hate School , Roxanne Tuttle......................71
What School Meant to Me , William Viklund....................................74
Smiling Ambition, Mellicia Villareal..................................................77
My Experiences with Science Field Trips, Helen Yang..............79
Untitled , Zachary Strausbaugh............................................................82
Untitled , Nick Palaszewski..................................................................85
C ollege: Why B other ?
Luis Aleman
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C or por al E ducation
Allysa Brickman
Whap! I can feel the wind behind the wooden stick they call a
“paddle”. Principal Dottie wasn’t only going to stop with one, but give me
three more. He told me not to be late to class again or it will result to this
happening again. I replied with a “yes sir” and tears rolling down my cheek
just to show how distraught I was. Which really. I was. This was the first
of many things that led me to hating my school, education and everything
in between.
Here I was a California girl stuck in the sticky muggy south of
Mississippi. I didn’t think my life could possibly get worse from their, wait,
it could. My family had a job transfer and not an easy one. Not only is
freshmen year ruff with a new routine, but starting over in a new state
turned me for a winding loop. I remember my first day clearly walking up
to that big concrete slab they called a building. When walking down the
“Green Mile” of a hallway I had butterflies with sharpen hooks just
shredding my insides. What made this place so unpleasant was the fact
that when school administration talked to me it was almost foreign. There
lingo was with a “yall, yes mam, No sir”, was just over my head. I knew this
was going to be a brutal four years.
I would pass students as they hurry with lockers clanking and shoes
scuffling. I tried to be incognito and follow the heard as they go. I sat on
the cold desk in the back of the room of course, and was ready for whatever
came my way. Our teacher was eager to start with the “Do this not that”
in my classroom or result into consequences. Now I thought at this point
you would get a warning or stay behind in class. I was way off at that point.
The result was Corporal Punishment which is infliction of pain to get a
point across in the hopes that you will change. I had my heart stop and my
stomach fall into the floor. I couldn’t believe what I just heard and how
wrong I felt it was to have that done to someone, let alone from teacher to
student.
I went home baffled and at a loss for words and my mother saw the
look in my eyes as and was very concerned. I explained to her and thought
she would be on the same page and would go to the school to discuss how
completely wrong this was. To my surprise my mother agrees with the
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school with the attitude that if you want to be responsible, do so or you will
pay the price for it. At that point I would’ve liked nothing more than drop
all I had in my hands and give up. My ears, eyes, and mind were shut off
completely from school at that point after hearing the disturbing news of “If
you don’t like what we do, will beat you till you do” anthem. I read that
every morning on the front of the building instead of “Saltillo High School”
and was bitter every day walking in.
In my mind I processed the fact if they punish you by “paddling”
you what are they trying to teach you in there classes. So I wasn’t
interested in what they had to say. The result of it turned into coming into
class late and it was on the list of “what not to do”. I was called into the
office for my first lecture on structure and respect for the school mumbo
jumbo. I had the “F U” attitude written on my forehead and could care less
at that point. I sat in the office with the blank stare you would get when
even a parent lectured you. This was the first of many office visits to Mr.
Dottie and each and every time I cared less and less. But the first one
stuck out in my mind because it was the first corporal punishment I
received since I was five. How was I going to react to this? Was I going to
laugh and say, “wow no big deal?” or was I going to be mortified at the fact
that I was getting hit. He told me to empty my pockets, hands on the wall
and lean foreword ever so slightly. At this point with my “care less
attitude” I was laughing at how stupid this all was. Until I felt the
turbulence for the first swing and it knocked the wind out of me. The hit
was so hard it smacked the tears out of my face and I was at my lowest low.
I thought i was done and had that smirk off my face from before and
somehow transferred to him. I went to get my things and he said “Mrs.
Brickman you still have to have two more before class.” I clinched my eyes
and pretended I didn’t hear what he said. I tried everything to try and
block out the next two hits I would get.
But in retrospect I deserved it my attitude did not make things any
easier; the fact that I closed everything off even my capacity for learning in
my classes. I still to this day don’t agree with it, but I did learn something
from it. Punctuation for classes, respect for others and for my education. I
believe it still shouldn’t be in the school system and should result into other
punishments. Because it scared me out of my desire to apply myself in my
education and my attitude towards anything.
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Motivation
Aja Brown
It’s happened too many times, to all of us. Walk into the classroom,
sit down, and look at the teacher. See the bags under their eyes, the glazed
over look, the venti coffee cup clutched in their hand. It’s obvious that they
don’t want to be there any more than the students do. When a teacher
doesn’t care, it makes it that much more difficult for the students to care. If
the teacher doesn’t put effort into their teaching, why should their students
bother to reciprocate by putting effort into their work? I feel that for many
students who don’t do well, it’s not a lack of motivation but a lack of people
who actually want to see them succeed.
On the other side of the spectrum, I’ve had far too many teachers
who just didn’t care. They did their jobs day by day, doing what they had
to do to get through everything and be finished. I feel like they didn’t
respect students as individuals or actually have the desire to see them
succeed. They saw teaching as a profession, instead of a passion. My British
Literature teacher senior year fit this description too well. My senior year I
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had a major motivation problem. I just stopped caring. I stopped doing
work, and I rarely went to class. After months of wasting my time not
caring about school, I changed my mind and began playing catch up, trying
salvage what I could of my grades. To do this I needed a lot of cooperation
and help from my teachers. I needed all the assignments I’d missed and
explanations on how to do them. Most of my teachers were pleased I had
had a change of heart and went out of their ways to try to help me.
However, my Brit. Lit. teacher refused for weeks to speak with me. She
claimed she was too busy, and didn’t have time during, before, or after
school to talk with me. When she finally did meet with me, she handed me
a packet of papers and simply told me to do my best. The fact that she was
so unwilling to help showed how little she cared as a teacher. It didn’t
matter to her if I passed the class or not, I was just another ID number
instead of an actual person.
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T he B or ing T r uth on How I S ur vived S chool
Marvin Corro
Since I could remember I could always recall a time in my
educational career when a student would make a mistake and the teacher
would tell the class in comforting words, “It’s okay we are all here to learn.”
I have always had an interesting relationship with education, it was neither
good nor bad but rather I struggled with the education system itself.
Learning was never a priority for me at school, instead I did what many of
my teacher referred to as “doing school” which was going along my classes
and cramming all relevant information to ace my exam, then completely
forgetting what I had learned later. My “doing school” habit gave me a bad
outlook on the educational system, I figured why learn the material when I
just need the grades to get me into a 4-year college. This habit worked
successfully for my freshmen and sophomore year in High School, I had
grown overly confident in this method and became heavily reliant on it. As
my junior year started, my classes sharply increase in difficulty; it wasn’t
helpful either that I over worked myself with 8 classes. I found it hard to
break out of a lifelong mentality of “doing school”, although it was harming
me academically, I still insisted on cramming rather then any real studying.
At this point most students would look back and reflect what is causing
their grades to fall, fix one’s study methods and maybe even talk to their
teacher to see what they could do to improve as a student in their class.
Unfortunately for me I was not most students, “doing school” had made me
lazy, seeing as little effort was put into any long term studying and rather
into late night cram sessions before a major test. In my eyes one miserable
sleepless night was well worth the pain, then multiple dull study sessions,
because of my laziness and the failure of my “doing school” technique I soon
adapted to one of my filthiest habits, cheating. I never imagined I would
resort to cheating, but I felt my classes were too rigorous and stressful that
it seemed like the easy answer.
By the end of the year I walked away from school having taken in a
lot less then most other students. I left with mediocre grades, not having
learned anything and an overall a sleepless stressful school year. These
series of events change my outlook on my personal education and the
education system as a whole. I fell into the stress of school due to “doing
school” which effectively overall lead me to an utter downfall, imbedding a
negative outlook on school. Ironically my failure gave me new found
appreciation for leaning in class. My decisions were poor but the lesion was
valuable, and because of that I don’t regret the things I did to get past that
horrid school year.
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T he M ar k of a Teacher
Laura Dunn
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F inding the R ight P ath
Brooke Girton
Senior year of high school can be a confusing time not only are you
trying to fit in with the “in” crowd but you’re trying to figure out what you
want to do with the rest of your life. Most people don’t want to flip burgers
for ever so most of the time that means a higher education. When thinking
of a higher education a four year university comes to mind for most people.
This is a great path but there are also other paths that you can follow in
getting a higher education that can be just as beneficial. Trade school is a
good alternative to a more traditional schooling. The definition of trade
school in Merriam Webster is “a secondary school teaching the skilled
trades”. Some of these trades include Culinary Arts, automotive, Fashion
and Graphic Design, Electrician, Plumbing, Cosmetology, Welding,
Heating, Air Conditioning, and many more.
When I was young and naive what would come to mind when
thinking of trade school was training for a job that was better than flipping
burgers but wasn’t as good as a job you could get if you went to a traditional
college. When I would picture the types of jobs that you could get out of
trade school I only thought of ones that where male dominated. A job site
that was full of men in hard hats, boots, jeans, and t- shirts that would
curse, spit, blow snot rockets, and a whole lot of other disgusting things.
Also thought about having to use a Porte potty, those portable bathrooms
that once you walk in your sorry that you did. Where the smell from the
fecal matter sitting basically in a big bucket would make even someone with
the strongest stomach want to run for one of those bags they have on air
planes to vomit in. Where you were afraid that if a strong gust of wind came
up the whole thing would tip over from the instability of the narrowing four
walled pathetic excuse of a bathroom.
My thoughts about trade school started to change in 2007 the
summer before my senior year. I began to realize that not all trades are for
construction that there are trade schools for things like Cosmetology,
Culinary Arts, Fashion and Graphic Design, and others. My high school
had a program called Central County Occupational Center where you
could sign up for a trade and go to another school for half the day and
practice that trade. Right before the school year is over my school would
give everyone a form to fill out that would determine what classes they
would be taking the following year then mail it back to the school. Once I
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had received my form I took it home to go thought what my options were
and what I needed and wanted to take.
“Hey mom want to sit down with me and go over classes for next
year?”
“Sure go get everything you need and I’ll sit down with you in the
dining room and we will go over it”
“I already have everything it’s all right here. I’ve heard of some kids
at my school who have done the CCOC program and they really like it. I
think we should look into it more because they have a culinary arts
program. I really want to be a pastry chef and this could give me an idea if I
really like it or not.”
“ It looks like you will still have to take classes at Oak Grove too.”
“Yea but I don’t have to take as many and with how I’ve been doing
in school so far I could technically only have to take two classes at Oak
Grove and still meet all the credit requirements to graduate but there is a
three class minimum so I have to take three not two.”
“Ok well what classes do you want to take at Oak Grove? What do
you need to graduate?”
“Well I need an English class, U.S History, and Econ but the
history and econ are only a semester so I still need another class.”
“Ok what do you want to take an art class or an elective?
“I was thinking more like a math class I can take algebra two this
year and it will be better when I start college so we don’t have to pay for a
lower math class when I can take it now.”
“Ok sounds good I’ll send this into the school tomorrow.”
When the first day of school came around I was very excited
because this was a new experience for me, I had never done anything like
this, I had always stayed on the traditional schooling path. It was nice to
think that I would have a break from that for a while. In the morning I
went to my three classes at Oak Grove and in my home room class got
everything I needed to go to CCOC that afternoon where I would be taught
Culinary Arts.
Since I had my own car at the time I drove over to the CCOC
campus and found my classroom. The teacher introduced herself as
Christine Fahey and told us about her background as a chef and that this
was her first year teaching. She then told us about the dress code and that
we would have to wear chef coats and hats. We then took a tour of the
kitchen to get familiar with where things where and what we would be
using.
The first month or so of the class was all about safety and how to be
sanitary. I had quite a bit of knowledge about the kitchen before I had
begun this program but I learned some interesting facts in this time. We
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then moved on to learning about the different spices and being able to
name them with just looking, feeling, and tasting them. After that we
finally started cooking in the kitchen.
Every day when we would walk into class she would have a recipe
written on the board for us to copy down on a flash card. First would be all
the ingredients we needed then it would tell us all the directions on how to
cook it. An example of this is one of my favorites which is for chocolate stout
cake and it would read as follows:
Chocolate Stout Cake
2 cups stout e.g. Guinness, 2 cups unsalted butter (4 sticks), ½ cups
unsweetened cocoa powder (Dutch process), ½ teaspoon salt, 4 large eggs,
1 1/3 cups sour cream, 4 cups AP (all purpose) flower, 4 cups sugar, 1
table spoon baking soda
Pre heat oven to 350 degrees. Butter and line an 8 inch round cake pan.
Simmer butter over medium heat, add cocoa powder and whisk until
smooth and let cool slightly. Whisk flower, sugar, baking soda, and ½
teaspoon salt in mixer. Beat eggs and sour cream together then add the
stout and butter chocolate mix to the egg and sour cream mix. Beat until
combined and add flour mix and beat briefly on slow and fold until
combined. Pour into buttered and lined pan and bake about 35 minutes.
Cool for 10 minutes then turn out on a cooling rack and let cool completely.
Once we had written this down we would get into partners usually
it was just two people to each group and go into the kitchen and start doing
whatever the recipe told us to do. I loved this class, everything we made,
we made from scratch we would even make our own mayonnaise, if we were
making gravy we would first make our own chicken, beef or vegetable broth.
Every day we got to make something entirely new and the best part about
it was that when we were done we always got to eat what we had made
that day. Taking this class had me convinced that I wanted to go to
culinary school and become a chef. I loved cooking and I was really good at
it too. There was maybe two or three days out of the entire year that what I
had made didn’t turn out right. Towards the end of the year I sat down
with my teacher on one of our breaks to talk to her about school for the
future.
“I really want to be a pastry chef and I love cooking could you tell
me about what you think would be the best way for me to become a pastry
chef? What do you think about going to culinary school?”
“Sure I’ll tell you everything I know about it. First of all when it
comes to the culinary field you really don’t have to do more school, the
piece of paper doesn’t mean as much in this field. Yea it can get you a
higher starting position but someone without the paper who is a hard
worker and has a good attitude will go higher faster than someone with the
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paper who doesn’t have the drive. Your one of those people who wouldn’t
need the school it’s really expensive and doesn’t get you very far.”
“If I was to go to a culinary school what one do you think would be
the best?”
“The one I went to was in New York and it has the best ratings and
is the most accredited.”
I was one hundred percent sure that I wanted to go to culinary
school and be a pastry chef. So I went home to tell my mom.
“Hey mom can we talk?”
“Yea sure what is it?”
“I’ve decided that I want to go to culinary school. I want to be a
pastry chef.”
“Well they don’t pay well and you will have to work holidays and
weekends and never have time for a family.”
“But mom a pastry chef is different and if you’re really good you can
make a lot of money and you won’t have to work nights so I could still have
time for a family. This is what I really want to do.”
“I don’t have that kind of money for culinary school so you can’t go if
you want to go to school you can go to a community college then transfer to
a 4 year university like your sister.”
“But that’s not what I want to do I want to cook.”
“If you get your degree in business first then I’ll send you to culinary
school.”
“Fine but it’s not what I really want to do but I guess I don’t have
any other choice.”
That fall I started school at Evergreen community college with my
major in business. I was unmotivated and hated taking general education
classes when I knew it wasn’t going towards something I really wanted to
do. I was keeping up my grades but I still hated doing it so when I got the
opportunity to go move in with my boyfriend and not have to go to school
anymore I took it.
I stayed with him for a year until he decided that the relationship
wasn’t working out for him anymore. So I came back home to my parents.
They offered for me to go back to school but not have to keep my major as
business. I thought about all the different things I could do and decided
culinary arts wasn’t for me anymore. With the amount of hours you would
have to put into the job you would get paid very little. I also knew that I
wouldn’t be able to support myself on a paycheck like that.
I then decided that I wanted to become a dietitian. I liked the looks
of this career because it still was dealing with food, had good hours, good
pay, and there are a couple different jobs that you could do with getting
your degree and being a dietitian. I could work in a hospital or schools
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making healthy well balanced meal plans. I could also work in an office
where patients would come see me and I could help them with their diet
and let them know what foods are good for them and which ones they
should stay away from. I also like the thought of this job because I would be
helping people and making their lives better and healthier.
I still think that trade school is a good thing and it works for many
people but it just didn’t happen for me. It wasn’t the right path for me to
follow and I’m very happy with where my life is going and what I will be
doing in the future. In a way I feel like this job will allow me to help and
touch many lives and make things better for people. I also really like the
fact that I can be involved in the lives of the youth because if you’re going to
change something that needs correcting, like the way most Americans eat,
you need to start with the youth. As for cooking I still love it but I just do it
in my free time now, who knows maybe I’ll have a little side business and
bake for all of my close friends and family.
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S pher es
Daniel Greene
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class I didn’t get. This dedication to clarity was a constant trait, and
eventually I found out why.
Mr. Magee was a nutrition freak. As a result, after our AP tests
were done he began his own nutrition unit. Not because he had to, but
because he wanted to. I probably learned more in those two weeks than I
had learned the entire year. Everything you didn’t want to know about
what you were putting in your mouth came out in all its ugly truth. One
day, after watching one of the various films on the food industry, a student
in the back of the class asked a question. “How can I, one person, hope to
change the eating habits of the whole world?” The ensuing response was
one I’d hold on to forever.
“I only worry about what I can fix. If a thousand people in Africa
die, yes, that’s tragic, but I don’t give a crap about them because I can’t fix
that, and I don’t know them. It’s a simple truth of the human condition
that we only truly care for those we know personally. But we all have
spheres - spheres of influence. If you can take the knowledge you’ve learned
here, and spread it throughout your sphere, you’ve made a difference. And
if they spread that same knowledge to their spheres, then the message gets
spread everywhere. You can’t take care of the world. But you can take care
of those around you - and if everyone did that, the world would be fine.”
That was the perspective I needed. Mr. Magee had managed to
mix cynical thinking with mushy, world peace idealism, something that
seemed impossible to me. That’s why this quote hit me in such a unique
way. I’ve always had an inner struggle between realism and optimism. I
could never seem to find a way to reconcile them, until this. I found that
fascinating. Along with that, it also answered my question. The whole time,
I had found knowledge pointless because there was no way that knowing
random facts could change the world. This, however, broke it down into a
much more manageable chunk. If something I know could help a friend
someday, be it something simple or complex, the ripples from that could do
something amazing. And even if they didn’t, the satisfaction from knowing I
helped would be more than enough. So now I try my hardest to take care of
those around me, by being as informed as possible. I struggle to focus in
class and absorb every detail I can. Maybe some topics will never amount to
anything, but if they do I’ll always have Mr. Magee’s words ringing in my
head.
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T hanks for the G r eat S tor y, M r . R os enbur g-
Y ou'r e F inally G ood for S omething
Brittany Heintzen
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together…”With my answer came the loudest silence I had experienced to
date, his mouth agape and eyes glassy, he collected himself, and then acted
if I hadn’t spoken a word and continued on with his lecture. I suppose by
not acknowledging my answer he could pretend I wasn’t there, at least for
the time being, until he could figure out what to do with me. The year
unfolded into something that can be summed up into the events of that day
although sometimes he’d grace with me with the invitation of a duel that
would carry on for a few moments.
It forged on similarly until the month of April arrived, the month of
writers’ week and parent teacher conferences, where he thoughtfully
divulged his insightful prophecies of my life with my mother. Basically
summing up to her that my “ideas are outlandish, and unless I learned to
take direction I wouldn’t be successful at anything I tried to accomplish.”
His tactics were working, and I was actually starting to believe it might
have just been me. Why am I the only that has problems with Mr.
Rosenburg? I started questioning my very experience, and had the thought
of my wrong-doing at least once or twice. I had the argument with myself at
least a dozen times, until that fateful Monday we started Writer’s Week. A
week where the English Department hosts journalists, writers, and anyone
who makes a living off of their writing to come and speak to the students.
Our first guest was a local news reporter, who had worked
numerous years as a premier journalist in Washington along with others,
but had settled down and was working out of the bay area. By the time she
had finished summarizing her experience and showing some samples of her
work with our class, Mr. Rosenburg had organized his mumblings into some
comment he decided to share with us. “Wouldn’t you say that newspapers
and even some journals are more relevant and factual about current events
than an over-sensationalized news bit on our local news station?” I knew he
had an inflated sense of self enough to talk to his lowly subjects that way,
but an outsider? WOW. For the first time all year I felt a member of my
class, sitting in astonishment, frozen in time, you could have cut the tension
with a knife. “Well…” she collected herself, “I’ll agree with you Mr.
Rosenburg, that there are bad reporters but I’ll have to go on to say there
are at least an equal amount of bad teachers.” Following more screaming
silence, she stormed out of the room. I had spent the remainder of the
school day in a daze, not really sure what I had witnessed that morning.
How could someone just put someone else to the guillotine that way? He
really had no sense of humility or guilt. This man was actually instructing
students on creative writing, but he didn’t have one ounce of emotion in his
body, he was a cold robot made of the harshest of metals.
The air of the classroom hadn’t changed much since the day before,
you could feel the weight at the doorway, but still I journeyed on to my
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desk only to find a curious scrap of scratch paper. After little explanation,
all I could retain was that it was a ballot, a ballot? Mr. Rosenburg was
polling his disciples, polling the class about who was right from the day
before. The results of such poll were undoubtedly in his favor with the
exception of one or two, which went unaddressed.
Needless to say, any internal debate I had been having in regards to
him was put to rest with these series of events. He was exactly what I
originally thought he was, but I had to remind myself of something my dad
had always said about putting up with teachers you don’t like, to make the
ones you love all that more special. My high school career summed itself up
come June; and I couldn’t have missed a man less in my life. As I look back
to this day memories of that class still make me shake with anger, but then
I started taking English classes again. With the teacher-assigning gods on
my side once more, I finally was able to hit the refresh button on creative
writing. Hilariously enough, I see my path at this point in becoming a high
school history teacher-and I can only hope I can make up for some of the
damage done.
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M y O wn M otivation
Ann Jarrar
Until I got into college, I absolutely hated school. It was a waste of
time and a bore to me. High school felt like an utter joke. Each year they
talked about preparing you for the next and how you’re going to need this,
this and that to be in middle school and high school and college- a bunch of
crap! I never used half the stuff they said we would need. I felt as though
they were just pushing up along. Like Gerald Graff said in “Hidden
Intellectualism” it seems like we were never learning anything that we
could apply to our everyday life. Or even recent issues that we could debate
on. We never learned just common sense things. I found a quote that
sparked a lot of this essay. “The funny thing about common sense is, it isn’t
so common.”
One thing that still angers me is that when I was in elementary
school they made us learn cursive and told us that we would never make it
if we didn’t, as a 5 th grader, that’s very stressful to hear. So I would stay up
late and practice cursive and make sure I had it down perfectly, I’ve haven’t
used cursive since 5 th grade and I’m a junior in college now. This is just one
example of the many things they did to almost stall us. I feel like a lot of the
things we studied and learned in middle school and high school were just
space fillers. Most of it was just busy work that they never even graded!
College has been great; I choose my classes, the times and even the
teachers, granted there is enough space. I feel like I can learn what I want
to when I want to and I’m not just being shoved along in the system. I’m
learning so much more about myself and my way of learning. The things I’m
learning in my classes are also way more beneficial than what I was learning
in high school. I feel much more educated on relatable topics. Being able to
choose what classes to take and what times to take them makes it so much
easier to continue doing the other things life demands. Since high school
I’ve always had a job, not because I needed to have one, I just felt like I
should have one. So with all that, I now have 3 jobs so finding the right
times for school and study time gets tricky but I’m able to maneuver my
schedule around and do what’s best for me!
I didn’t try as hard in middle school and high school, because I just
didn’t care. Io felt like they didn’t care to see us actually succeed so I didn’t
see a point. It was its own little bubble and I hated it. Most people were
there because they had to be there, I was. In college it’s very different
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because the people here want to be here, they even pay to be here! Peoples
attitudes have a big impact on what the outcome will be, so being in college
now and having a better perspective on school, I’ve been doing much better
in all my classes. I apply myself more and want to do the assignments
because I know they will better me in many ways.
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T he B ookwor m I Never K new I Was
Miyou Kanda
I have always been a hands-on student, and until about third grade,
this was not so apparent. If you think about it, it makes sense that no one
caught on to this little fact until third grade. I mean in preschool, you play
a lot, and learn a letter a day. Kindergarten is four hours of Sesame Street-
learning as you play. First grade is a transition into grade school. By second
grade, you start to get a hang of school. And by third grade, you should be
ready for some loads of work- you learn cursive, how to read time, how to
spell five-letter words, and math. So really, school does not start until third
grade.
I guess both my first and second grade teachers just thought I was
energetic and figured it just takes me a while to get used to school. I was
somewhat annoying, but it was not super disrupting compared to some
pretty A.D.D.-bouncing-off-the-wall classmates I had. But once I got to
third grade, it was clear that I had not gotten the hang of school.
Your parents drop you off at school. You run to class and chatter
with your friends while waiting for the teacher to open the door. The bell
rings, and the whole class walks in together. All around you, classmates
chatter with excitement for school. The whole class waddles to their
cubbies like birds in a flock, and returns to the desks. The teacher calls roll.
I am a good student until maybe thirty minuets after the national anthem is
sung and we recite the pledge of allegiance with the lady over the intercom.
I start to fidget and look around like a dog brought into a new environment.
I yearn to go outside, but recess is not for another 40 minutes. I decide to
turn to my neighbor and chat about anything to take my eyes off of the
clock (which now looks as if it is ticking backwards). Turns out my neighbor
is equally bored of just sitting as I am, so we chat for a while.
It is all good until the teacher asks me what she had just said. I
smile nervously, hoping my dimples would get me out of this one- it does
not. I apologize and promise to zip my lips, fold my hands on my lap like a
bronze statue, and listen carefully. Only, I was a pretty curious child. I
quickly forgot what I had promised to do minuets ago as my mind wonders
around; I am back to where I was five minuets ago. I was not opposed to
learning (in fact I liked to learn); it was just that I could not sit and listen
without getting bored.
A week into school and I get smarter. I did not like detention
during recess, so I played pretend. I pretended to listen and I act quiet. But
my mind is set on overdrive; thinking about the wonderful world of “what
ifs” and make believe. Meanwhile, my hands are busy drawing. Now, how
does a girl like me with habits like mine learn? Well I do, barely but I do. I
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listen to see what the teacher is teaching to the class. Once I got what she
was teaching, I move on to doodling and day dreaming to kill the void.
Likewise, I finish enough work so that I get the concept of the subject and
stop. I figure why waste my time doing the same math problems if I already
understand the concept the first time around? Yup- I was a hellish student
who did not do things if it made no sense to do them to begin with.
As ten years pass, I learn to be a better student- I do my homework
and assignments on time (even though I thought it was dumb). I still talked
in class while doodling. I still looked at the clock every now in then. And I
also could not help but get bored in a classroom. Then, high school was over
all of a sudden; I had to pick a major. Any major would have done. I just
needed an easy degree. Math was boring. Grammar was more confusing
than a going through a labyrinth. I disliked science because it involves
math. I did enjoy art, but art school seemed too intense. I came to the
realization that all I can do was theater. In high school, all I did was stage
manage the shows my school did, so naturally a theater major would be a
great fit for me (plus it was an easy major as well). But a theater major
required no thinking. I learned nothing new. I went to UCSC for a year
where the classes there helped me sit and learn. However, I dropped out
because I was not sure what I was doing there; for a year I work while
contemplating what to major in.
While I was contemplating what to major in, I decided to read to
keep my brain alive. The literature I picked out consisted of writers like
Vonnegut, Camus, and Murakamai. Not only did I love to read, I loved to
analyze the books I read. In high school, I was a natural at writing
analytical papers. I reached the conclusion that maybe I could do well as a
literature major. Out of all the things I could have been, a bookworm was
the last thing I thought I would become.
I never wanted to go to college because my major was something I
did not take seriously. I was never content with paying thirty grand a year
so I can get a degree in theater. I only considered college because without a
degree nowadays, you can not get anywhere in life. So here I was thinking
college was mindless, just like high school. Here I was thinking I was not
good at school. I may have been somewhat artistic, but the artsy people are
way more skilled than I. So I settled or a theater major. But I realized going
through college and paying lots of money for a schooling that I can go
through with half a mind filled me with discontent. Now that I realized
that a literature major may be the major for me, it changes the way I saw
college. It made me think that spending a significant amount of money on
my schooling was not such a dumb idea. I might learn a thing or two. And
who knows, maybe I might enjoy sitting in a two hour class and not even
look at the clock once!
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T he B eginning of my E ducational Jour ney
Kristina Kucinskaite
My journey toward education began a long time ago. I believe it
started in my parents minds before I even came into this world. I used to
wonder: can importance of education be inborn? Can it be transmitted
with other genes that you get from your parents? Now, I strongly believe
that my parents experience and hard work toward education goals in their
lives brought me a strong and powerful opinion about education and its
importance in people’s lives. Now I see education as a key that widely
opens the door to better, wiser, and more successful tomorrow. Moreover,
I am very thankful to my Mom and Dad for opening me those powerful
doors of education, for letting me start my big and endless journey toward
education, and for walking me through the first heavy steps of educational
road. What can I tell now? I love my journey!
The first and the most influential part of my educational journey
took place at my home in Lithuania.
I was seven and a half year old girl. I still believed in Santa Clause
and his promises to come every single Christmas with a bag full of gifts to
those kids who were good all year long. I was still wondering why Santa
Clause always brought what I wanted. Did he know me so well? Did he
really fit through the little window in my room? I kept asking my parents
for the answers to all those questions I had in my little silly head.
Unfortunately, I didn’t hear what I expected and wanted to hear at that
time. My Mom kept telling me that I have to be older in order to
understand about Santa Clause. If anybody only knew how bad I wanted to
be older and smarter, how bad I wanted to learn more about Santa Clause!
At that time my little brain, of course influenced by parents, understood
one thing: I have to go to school to learn about Santa Clause.
Winter, seven in the morning, dark, my Mom slowly opened my
room door, and I heard that lovely morning message: “Kristina, time to get
up, get ready for school. What do you want for breakfast?” I hardly moved
my head, looked at Mom with one eye open and told her my favorite
morning words: “Five more minutes, Mom, please.” She closed the door,
went to the kitchen, and made my favorite scramble egg breakfast. I heard
her slow steps coming toward my room again. She opened the door a
second time: “Kristina, breakfast is ready, get up, you will be late.” It took
another five minutes for me to get up. I kept telling myself: get up, get up,
get up! I finally got bored of those words and got up. Breakfast smelled so
good! It was my favorite part of the morning. I looked through the kitchen
window. White, cold but cozy, monotonous but fascinating. It was
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snowing! I was so excited! My Mom interrupted my thoughts with her
warm smile and curious look at me: “Do you see the man cleaning snow
from the street?” I looked through the window again and saw that man
trying so hard to clean the snow from the street over and over. It seemed
endless. He looked tired. His clothes were covered with snow and he made
the same bored movement over and over again. The man looked unhappy
and exhausted of his white enemy – the snow. My Mom interrupted that
sad picture: “Do you see how hard that man is working? Can you imagine
getting up at three in the morning every day and working outside when it’s
freezing, cold, windy, and snow is dripping on you all over?” I woke up
completely. My eyes probably had never been so widely open. I felt
scarred. My Mom kept looking through the window and suddenly she
looked at me: “Kristina, you have to study hard and learn a lot of things at
school. Otherwise, you will end up like this man cleaning streets from the
snow all day long.” It sounded so scary and sad. I had never felt so good and
happy about school then that morning. I took my books, looked at the
mirror and told myself: no, I don’t want that kind of life, I better go to
school and do my homework than get up every morning to clean streets
from the snow.
Next morning my Mom opened the door with the same morning
message, however, this time it affected me differently: “Kristina, time to
get up. Breakfast is ready.” I jumped from the bed, and I didn’t even think
about five more minutes in my warm and cozy bed. That morning I felt
even happier and more motivated about going to school then day before,
when I saw the man cleaning snow from the streets.
Today I am 27 years old, and I reached my educational goal. I
graduated from University of Medicine and obtained my dentist
qualification in Lithuania. Now I am continuing my educational journey at
Foothill College in order to reach a new goal – to become a dentist in the
U.S. What can I tell now? I still love my journey!
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T he B ig D ay
Deyssy Orozco
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M y E ar ly E ducation
Kin Leung
I was tearing an admission letter apart and throwing the debris out
of window from the eighteenth floor where my home was located. An
excellent all girls’ Catholic school didn’t accept me as their new junior high
student. I was upset and frustrated. Then my elder sister stepped in and
said that she could handle it. I trusted her because she was an alumni. But
I didn’t hear back from her since then. She might be too busy at work as
she’s a successful businesswoman (she’s 14 years older than me) or she
forgot, or she kept the bad news away from me. She always wears black to
go to work. The suits make her smileless face looks more serious. I once
asked her about her career choice and she replied as long as her boss earns
money, she’s satisfied. Therefore, I learned that there’s no short cut in life.
So I started my junior high at another all girls’ Catholic school for 3
years. Finally, I received a high school admission from that excellent all
girls’ Catholic school. I not only studied hard for 3 years in junior high in
order to get into that high school I always wanted, I also prayed. I prayed a
lot. I prayed before I went to sleep. I prayed about the test I was going to
take the next day. I prayed to get into the high school that I always wanted
to go to. And it worked. it really did work. At least I thought so.
My father insisted in providing good quality education to my sisters
and me. He was a salesperson and worked very hard to become a partner of
the firm that he worked for, for many years. He always reminded us about
the positive relationship between success and learning. He hired an after-
school instructor to overlook our homework and to prepare us for tests. He
purchased the best stationeries that were made in Japan for us. He required
us to practice Chinese calligraphy 4 pages a day during summer holidays.
He wanted us to go to an all girls’ school to concentrate on studying to avoid
the distraction from boys. He tried to shape a path for us to succeed.
One day, I was reading an authority regional newspaper, Ming Pao
News in the dining room. My father was drinking his favorite Woo Long
Tea and said to me “I want you to become a Margaret Thatcher.” He
pointed his finger at an article about the transfer of the sovereignty of Hong
Kong to China from United Kingdom. Everyday my father picked up his
subscription and started reading it in the dining room and I later joined
him. I enjoyed reading the daily columns, editorials, and world news. I was
amazed by some cultures and the differences we had. I liked to cut out
some interesting articles and put them in a box. But I just wanted to be a
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journalist at that time, I guess. I like the idea how knowledge can change
one’s fate and this is a popular Chinese idiom.
In fifth grade, I stopped seeing my after-school instructor when I
found myself managing my studies pretty well. I thanked my mother for
trusting in me. My grades were even better without an after-school
instructor’s companionship. My mother was a homemaker. She woke up
early to cook breakfast for our family every morning. When I locked up
myself in a room to study, she prepared snacks for me in case I was hungry.
When dinner was ready, she knocked on my door. I knew I was a baby girl
in her eyes forever. I always told her my dreams, my future plans and she
only showed support, no objections. I was a self-motivated person who
wanted to finish things but I still needed her spiritual support. Especially
when you are young, study is probably the most common thing for people to
judge you by.
I was glad and excited when I was selected and elected by high
school classmates to participate in the debate team. People always say that
school is a miniature society. If you look good and act smart, you’ll definitely
become popular. I loved school life and this didn’t mean that I was a kind of
student to stand out. Quite contrary, I was usually an observer, quieter in
high school. Occasionally I gave a surprise answer because I thought
differently than the majority. Life couldn’t be any better than having a
chance to speak to the public, to express yourself loudly, to influence
someone’s thinking and sharpen your original thought.
At my first debate, I was nervous on the stage and spoke too fast.
Sometimes they couldn’t understand what I was saying. It was bad but I
didn’t think it was a failure. I should have improvements. However, we
couldn’t have an opportunity to continue our debate activity. It was our
senior year and we had to take the review courses in order to pass the
university entrance exam. The principal, a nun, prohibited all the senior
year’s extra curricular activities, including athletics. One of our classmates,
an Olympic candidate had no choice but to transfer to another high school
to continue her athletic career and to keep up her schoolwork at the same
time. Education should adapt to individuals, not be confinement.
The first time I cheated on a geography test was in junior high. I
was a “good girl” until our teacher assigned me to sit beside a “bad girl.” It
was supposed to help produce some positive effects on the bad girl’s study.
The bad girl and I became friends. I followed her to go to the printing store
to copy the past paper questions and answers in a minimize size in order to
read them during the test. It was fun at the beginning until the teacher
caught a student cheating. Luckily, the teacher did not notice us. I knew
immediately that it would be my last time cheating. It’s simply not worth
the risk. I still had to spend the same amount of time to study the test
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content for the final exam. So I learned how to make less wrong decisions in
future.
I visited the bad girl’s home and met her elder sister who was a
drop out. She was only 2 years older than us and had a daughter in a baby
walker. I was stunned and pitied her situation because I already knew the
power of education. Before you are scheduled for an interview, the potential
employer can only know you from reading your résumé. And because she
had to take care her baby, she could not go to school to continue her
education. Real life experiences make you tougher and stronger. Education
prepares you for the future.
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T her e Will A lways B e S omething B etter T o D o
Debbie Luk
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M y R oad to S ucces s
Denise Martinez
“If I had to select one quality, one personal characteristic that I regard as
being most highly correlated with success, whatever the field, I would pick
the trait of persistence. Determination. The will to endure to the end, to
get knocked down seventy times and get up off the floor saying. “Here
comes number seventy-one!” Richard M. Devos
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Hous e of P aper C ar ds
Ricardo Mata
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heard my parent’s voice in the driveway, and I ran to my room and
pretended to be asleep.
“Ricky! Estas Despierto?” my mom yelled from the kitchen. Her
calm and sensitive voice flew through the house and left my ears in a buzz.
“Esta Dormido!” my dad answered as he walked to his bedroom.
“Siempre se paasa leyendo sus libros. Nunca quiere hacer nada!” he added
with a sour tone as he closed his door. It was typical for my dad to get angry
about my preferences. When I didn’t bother him, he supported me in
whatever I did. However, when I refused to do something he wanted, he
judged me and criticized my actions.
“Si, pero el no quiere haer nada mas. No lo podemos forcar que haga
algo que no quiere!” my mom responded as she walked over to my room.
The strong and valiant echo of her voice soothed the strong thud of my
heart that never seemed to stop.
I lay very still and I closed my eyes hoping to fool my mom. I
cringed my feet, locked my hands and turned my neck sideways to face the
small white cracks that ran from the bottom of the ceiling to the bottom of
the floor.
“I know you’re not asleep,” she said as she walked over to my bed.
She sat on the corner of my bed and waited for me to turn around. “Que
pasa?” she asked as she grabbed my hand. Her voice echoed kindness and
sincerity, but my heart refused to believe what she was saying.
“Nothing mom!” I said. As I stood up, I pulled my hand away with
anger and walked to other side of the room where a small black chair sat on
the corner. Sitting there, I began to realize I was tired of always being
judged as the weird one, the over achiever, the one that didn’t belong.
“Why didn’t you want to go with us?” she asked fiddling with her
keys. The small but strong dingle of the keys echoed in my eyes. I looked at
her and shrugged. I knew my reasons for not going, but they were my
reasons and I didn’t have to explain myself. She never explained why she
left me so why should I? I shrugged my shoulders nonchalantly and looked
deep into her eyes. There was one thing my mom hated and right now, I
was doing it perfectly. “No! Tu sabe porque. Que te pasa?” she said with a
harsh tone. Immediately, those sensitive brown eyes turned into harsh and
fiery brown holes that threatened to destroy a soul. As I stood there
waiting, I looked down at the ground and realized how separated I had
become from my mom. Every day in Mexico brought the same longing for
the absent mother I never had, but now that I had her, small stupid fights
tore the bond I had long wished for.
“Nothing! I just don’t want to go do something I don’t want to do!” I
proclaimed as I kept walking in circles hoping that all the reading I had
done would help me come up with even a better excuse. “I like reading
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okay! Is there something bad in that? I mean, you made me this way! You
wanted me to be a bookworm well here I am!” I screamed. This time, I
knew I had gone too far. My mom said nothing but her face spoke for her.
Up to this point, I was so tired of always keeping everything in that I could
no longer keep acting like nothing was wrong. I could no longer live this lie
and it was about time that everything I felt, everything I needed to say
finally came out into the open. Always being alone brought anger over me
that I never knew I had inside me. My parents always thought something
was wrong with me but they never wanted to admit it. They thought that
by ignoring the problem, the “beast” would kill itself and everything would
be all right. However, what they did not expect was for this whole situation
to get out of trouble and that’s exactly what happened. For so long, they
had tried to shape me and mold me into what they thought was appropriate
for their eyes. They thought that by giving me the opportunity they never
had, I would forget everything they had done. However, they failed to see
their error and forgot to put into consideration my feelings and how I would
react to this new situation. For so long, I wanted to hurt my parents for
everything they caused, but undoubtedly I got lost on the road to getting
there. Instead of hurting them, I found myself being isolated, lonely and
unaware of what was happening. I thought that by separating myself from
their company, I would hurt their feelings and make them suffer the same
pain I had experienced for so many years. Unfortunately, my anger blinded
me into an absolute isolation that left me more lost than before unaware of
what I had and what I was losing. The only thing that I found close to me
and promised to not hurt me was books and that’s why I buried myself in
them. Life was hard but being given the opportunity to escape all the
troubles and live a better life gave me the happiness I was never able to
fully grasp in real life.
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No Help S o I T ur ned A way
Summer Morrow
Teachers should teach according to how their students learn, or should
students learn based on how their teacher instructs? We all have learning
styles and as well, teachers have their way of teaching. However,
somewhere the two should clash, in sort of a 50/50 fashion. Now, should
teachers direct their lesson to majority of the students, or should they make
sure each student is receiving the information fairly? In doing so, making
sure no student gets left behind. The teacher may have every student in
class learning at the same pace and understanding things at the same level
but two or three students. The teacher then focuses on the majority,
forgetting that the minority of students need a little more explanation on a
lesson. Unfortunately, those students not capable of picking up the
teacher’s teaching method fall behind. Teachers assuming that every
student’s thought process are advanced and forgetting that individuals hold
different characteristics can be dangerous. Making such an assumption can
lead to the teacher expecting more than what that student can bring forth
through intellect. It’s been suggested that those not so advanced students
should set aside time after school or between breaks to receive the attention
they don’t receive during regular class time. However, the feeling of being
singled out and viewed as inferior lead those students further astray and
they begin to have negative insights on their education as well as the
school’s system.
My high school experience was tortured because of a situation similar to
this. Being placed into an honors chemistry class where I felt like an
outcast to all the returning honor students changed my view on education
slightly negative. It all began when my sophomore biology teacher
determined, based on my A grade in her class, that I was advanced enough
to learn at the honors level the following year in chemistry. Although she
initiated the situation, it wasn’t her assumption that changed my mind. In
fact, if she would’ve been the chemistry teacher maybe I would’ve been fine
in the class. Why? Because of her teaching style. In her class, “not getting
it” wasn’t an option whether you were advanced, intermediate, or slow. It
wasn’t until my junior year in the chemistry class that I recognized “no
student left behind” wasn’t a value that all teachers lived up to. This
honors teacher only taught honors classes so she was only familiar with the
honors way of teaching, which appeared to be fast paced and lacked a
thorough explanation on assignments. She wasn’t prepared to break down
instructions step by step and didn’t leave room for questions like “does
everyone understand what the lesson is?” or “does anyone need a little more
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explanation on what I’m asking you to do?” Instead she kept the class
flowing at their regular fast pace so she can get her introduction over with
and get back to her own personal work. This brings a classroom memory to
mind. One day, of course at the beginning of class, while giving her vague
instructions I sat and tried so hard to let the directions penetrate. And yet
just like every day no matter how hard I tried it was almost as if everything
she said came out tongue tied. I politely let her finish and then raised my
hand and asked,
“I’m sorry Ms. Bellengee, but I don’t quite understand what it is I am
supposed to do to solve the equation.”
“Summer, what do you mean you don’t understand what to do?”
“Well I know what to do but not how to do it. I always have a hard time
with these equations Ms Bellengee.”
“Summer I went over it on the board yesterday, so if you’re not getting it
like the rest of your classmates, maybe you need to come see me after class
or during break for a one-on-one. The rest of you get to working.”
Embarrassed, infuriated, and fed up I sat and stared at all the inhabitants
of this honors chemistry class hoarding through the assignments, not paying
attention to me as I sat like one of the scientific props that decorated the
room. They seemed so accustomed to her fast pace that it almost seemed
like they were moving in slow motion, no sweat breaks. For most, this
method worked for them. I don’t know if the Asian ethnicity of majority of
the students had anything to do with this and at the time I will admit that
I did believe this was the case, but whatever the case was they all picked
up quickly leaving me to look like the “slower” kid when the year before I
was so used to being advanced. Therefore, I knew my mind was capable of
understanding the knowledge but I felt like my teacher wasn’t reaching out
to my way of learning, and when I reached out to her and went to her desk
for help she asked me to come after school so that she could give me a one
on one. At that point I really didn’t understand and I was filled with
bewilderment because I didn’t understand why she couldn’t give me the
one on one in the classroom when that was the time the education board
gave her to tend to her students learning. Unfortunately, that pushed me
further away and it resulted in an F grade that year in chemistry.
Now that I have matured and attend college, I am not so bitter towards the
education board. However, that year did change my perception on
education itself and what it means to some people. I understood from then
that some teachers are only there to receive an income and don’t dedicate
their desires to insure each student obtains the right amount of knowledge
they need to succeed. At first I felt like there was no point in dedicating
myself to learn if the teacher wasn’t going to make it possible without
making me feel less. That was slightly the beginning of my education
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downfall because I started to miss a lot of days in that class and the result of
that was my truancy record. My mind frame expanded and I grew to
understand that I can still get a lot out of education by self motivation and
dedication and I wasn’t going to let that teacher’s lack of effort ruin my
education and all the things I can get out of it. Instead I start thinking of a
counter method to her fast pace. If they would’ve had a designated hour to
get extra help during class and offered it to every student, not singling out
one, then maybe going to get help or what she called a “one-on-one”
wouldn’t have been so discouraging. Like me, being put on the spot about
not getting it thoroughly the first time made me feel inferior, and coming
during after school hours was even more discouraging when regular school
hours left me exhausted. However, if they teacher would have set aside half
of her class time to be designated to “extra help” time where she met with
these students who need more explanation, or better yet, obligate those fast
paced students to be tutors to their class mates, it would have made it more
engaging for me to reach out. I wouldn’t have felt insecure about falling
behind and the help I needed would’ve been granted. To add to that, a lot
of teachers should try to have a versatile teaching method throughout the
year to satisfy everyone’s style of learning. For instance; movies/notes,
group assignments, artwork, music, etc. Keeping in mind that we all are
different and hold different learning characteristics as well as teaching
styles, the two will meet.
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Welcome F r eaky F r es hy
Ariel Nazarian
Chapter I: The Decision
It was the summer of 2006, it was time to make one of the most
important and influential decisions of my young life. My parents thought I
was a person that would be a lot more successful if I were to enroll in a
boarding school in Los Angeles California; rather than go to Mountain View
High School. At first when I heard the idea I was a bit scared, yet thrilled.
At the time many thoughts were flowing through my mind. If I were to go
to this boarding school in Los Angeles I would open a new chapter in my
life. A chapter of: Freedom, independence, success, and most of all a fresh
start in a new environment. But on the other hand I would start from
scratch. I would have no friends, and I would be alone with no family. I
knew that I was in for a tall task at the age of only fourteen. Once again life
presents another daunting challenge. My parents and I had countless
discussions about this dilemma. I remember there were long and eventful
nights when we would take out a sheet of paper, and write all the pros and
cons for the two schools. Most of the times we would do this activity, the
pros and cons of the boarding school in Los Angeles would outweigh the
pros and cons of Mountain View High School. It was about mid August,
were we came to the conclusion that I was going to be shipped off to a
boarding school in Los Angeles. You’re all probably saying to yourselves mid
August, isn’t the school year just around the corner? How could you wait so
long to make this decision? The answer is short and simple. When it comes
to decisions, especially important ones my family always finds a way to
make the decision just before the clock hits midnight. So the following day
my father and I flew down to Los Angeles for the interview; and to take all
the placement tests. We land in Burbank Airport and after about a fifteen
minute taxi ride we enter the school. I said to myself, “Wow I’m really
uncomfortable. I have never really been put in a position like this, were I
have no idea of my surroundings”. I felt much more comfortable after the
interview than when I first walked into the building. One of the
administrative faculty members took me to a room, and proctored me while
I took the placement exams. The principal and much of the administrative
staff said to me, “We should have the results for you’re exam within a week
and you should receive a letter soon to determine your admission”. Finally
after about a week a large orange postal envelope comes in the mail. My
family gathers around the table, and were all highly anticipating the results.
Both my parents take a deep breath, and open up the envelope. After a
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couple of gut wrenching moments with a big smile from ear to ear say,
“Congratulations Ariel on your acceptance to Valley Village High School!”.
At first I was thrilled, but then as I looked around the room I said to myself,
“I won’t be spending too much time with you guys soon”.
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S chool L ife
Bryan Nocito
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E ducational I nfluence
Danilo Noguera
There is no question about it; I have always been able to excel in all
academic areas. School has always been easy, something I thoroughly
enjoyed. I remember receiving numerous awards as a kid, I remember all
the praise I would receive for my intelligence, and I remember how natural
academic excellence was to me. When I reached high school, my rigorous
course schedule and equally intelligent peers quickly humbled me. For the
first time I was not the best, and boy did it rock my world upside down.
Growing up, I was always the smartest kid in school. I did not have
to spend hours at night studying, it was all-natural. I was able to achieve a
firm grasp on a concept faster than anyone else could. In the third grade, I
was tested for a special program called Gifted And Talented Education
(GATE). I still remember it as the hardest and strangest test I have ever
taken in my entire life. GATE was a program that allowed me to leave my
elementary school campus and bus over to a local middle school. At the
middle school, I was taught basic algebra and had a choice of an elective. I
chose a class about clock engineering.
GATE followed me into middle school where I was placed in honor
classes because of my “gifted” status. I breezed through my honor classes,
and accumulated a 4.0 grade point average (GPA) for three years. At the
end of my middle school career, I had received the United States history
award, principal’s award, and best writer award, became associated student
body president, and was named valedictorian for the graduation ceremony.
When I entered high school, I was confident and charismatic. I took
as many Advanced Placement (AP) classes as they would allow. For the
first time in my entire life, I struggled in school. I my schedule did not
allow for any free time. I had to go to school all day then, study all night. I
felt stress for the first time, constantly worried about due dates, tests, and
time management. It seemed as though there was never enough time in the
day for all I wanted to do. I felt burned out after my freshman year, so I
decided to enjoy life a little more and not completely submerge myself in
schoolwork.
My sophomore year consisted of making friends, playing on the
football team, and having fun. I joined the football team, and was on the
varsity team as a second string running back. I became increasingly popular,
especially with the ladies. I was finally enjoying myself, consequently school
among other priorities fell by the wayside and my grades began to decline. I
went from a 3.83 GPA to a 2.8 GPA. I went from an A student to a C plus
student in one year time.
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My junior year I became the starting running back on the football
team, and was focused on dating girls and going to parties. By my first
progress report, I had a 1.3 GPA. That meant I was failing just about every
class except Football. I was in shock, how could I go from a star student, to
a dumb jock? I felt as though I was throwing away all my potential; all my
intelligence was simply going to waste. I had not only given up on school,
but on myself as well. I decided to make a change.
I worked at balancing my one-sided life. I had to rededicate myself
to school, but make time to maintain healthy relationships with friends. I
began managing my time more wisely, using lunches and breaks to work on
homework. I turned my grades around and even passed my AP exams,
giving me college credit. I learned a valable lesson no one could teach me,
one I had to learn the hard way. To this day, I believe in a balancing life,
enjoying every moment, but making achieving your goals a top priority.
Even though there seems like there is not enough time in the day for all you
want to accomplish, I always remember what a friend once told me, “you
have just as many hours in a day as Thomas Jefferson, Albert Einstein, and
Tony Stark did.”
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E ducation and M otivation
Nick Palaszewski
Throughout my whole educational career I never felt unmotivated
or in a loss for education. There was a series of events that did make me lose
a bit of motivation, and those events happened in the beginning of high
school and at the end of high school. In between those times I had great
time learning and doing the whole high school thing.
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F inal D r aft
Matthew Pray
I have always been a person who literally could not stand to read.
Every time I would be forced to read I would either find the movie for the
reading or have someone else who Is in the same class read it out loud.
Though I hated reading it greatly impacted my education in a negative
way.
I grew up in a decently wealthy family of highly intelligent people
who loved reading. I just did not understand it. I of course failed the
entrance exam for Notre Dame elementary school, and made me repeat the
2 nd grade. So they decided to send me to Fox Elementary school where they
had a personalized literature tutor which I hated. Since my sister was
attending Notre Dame Elementary, they decided to send me too. From
there, I have always barely or even did not pass any of my classes that had
to do with reading. This later started to affect me greatly when it came
around through 8 th grade where I had to start applying to different high
schools. After applying to almost every high school I could think of, there
was only one high school that I did not put me on the waiting list, which
was Junipero Serra High school. I thought to myself “Oh my god” what is
happening. After hearing this I tried going to a public school but my
parents wouldn’t have it.
So during my years at Junipero Serra high school I had never
received over a 3.0 GPA. Not only was it a college prepatory school but it
was also an all guy school which brought my motivation down and mostly
known for sports. [So you tell me? does that really sound like an academic
prospering school where guys can act like themselves and not have to worry
while playing sports year round and be good at it? I didn’t think so.]
Though Serra was known to have good academics it excelled in sports more
than any other high school on the peninsula. Of course this did not help my
reading problem it only made it worse for me. Freshman year all my
concentration was on sports, sports and…… even more sports. I tried out
for the football team and even went to football camp that summer, I played
baseball until I hurt my arm pitching and then I moved onto crew. Crew
was not the best bet for me because of the late night and early practices.
After receiving about a 2.3 freshman year I had to step up my academic
side and get my grades up. First semester sophomore I did a little bit better
with receiving a 2.6 but when it came around to second semester I was
back in the boat to around a 2.1 average GPA. I had to retire from crew
and focus on my academics. This depressed me very much, but I did what I
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had to do. So, junior year I confessed my reading problem to my parents
and they went to have me tested.
Surely enough I had a reading disability. The therapist said I had
excellent knowledge retention when it came to memorizing pictures and
things I did by hand. When it came to reading it was more of a torture for
me then most kids you would find for me. Supposedly my brain can’t
process or retain the information I read which causes me to read really
slowly. When I do end up reading really slow I have a short memory loss
which causes me to literally forget the whole line I had just read. Having
this problem killed me with almost every reading assignment, because I
would be reading the same page over and over and over again.
After being tested I was medically diagnosed as having a learning
disability. Because of this I was enrolled in to the ARC at high school
(Academic Resource Center). This help a little throughout my senior
school year at Serra but I had to step it up if I wanted to get into a good
college. So senior year came around and it was that time to start applying to
colleges. Not only was this a factor either but I had just broken up with my
girlfriend that I had been going out with for 2 ½ years which made my
senior year really hard too. I ended up applying to Fresno, San Francisco,
San Jose, Long beach, and San Diego state. I only made it into San
Francisco, San Jose, and Fresno but that was okay because I already had set
out with a plan for my major studies. I’ve been wanting to study mechanical
engineering, not only was it based in science and math but it also could
take place in my dream of contracting with the Marines. About near the
end of high school I was already signed up into the Marine Reserves 92 day
program and had just chosen that I wanted to go to San Jose state because
they were strong in engineering. But because San Jose state was so late on
signing off on my 92day program with the Marines my contract got screwed
up and was put into the regular reserves. Because of this tragedy I had to go
to boot camp in June, then straight to MCT (Marine Combat Training)
and then to my MOS school (Military Occupation Specialty school). This
made me miss my whole first year of college because I was straining for 10
months straight. Since of my return I quickly enrolled into whatever school
I could that could start me as quickly as possible which was Foothill
because of their quarter system. So not only was my learning disability a
factor my making my education difficult but also my career path.
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M y E xper ience at S chool
Jennifer Samayoa
Studying for a long time, since kinder garden, it hasn’t been too
easy. There will be always something that complicates our feelings toward
education. I have gotten good and bad experiences during my years of
education, but I have more good ones than bad ones.
Something that changes my opinion about studying, it was in
Guatemala. It was in my 7 th, 8 th, and 9 th grade. I was studying in a girl’s
school, in which was prohibited to play any sport using a ball. I think that
the school had that rule because it is supposed that we were all girls, and
basically they thought as “girls do not play games with a ball,” that was
pretty bad thought. I had met friends who also liked to play soccer, just
like me. We used to break the rule of not playing soccer at school; we
always find a way to enter the ball into the building. There was one time
that we kicked the ball from the street to get it into the building. We used
to run away from the teachers, once our counselor made us sign a paper,
and if we sign it three times we were exposed from the school. My friends
started to lie to our counselor, they told her that I was no playing, that
other classmate lied to her. My friends knew if my parents known that I
was making trouble, I was going to have problems at home. My twin sister
was in my class, she and her friends told the counselor that we were playing
soccer in the classroom; then all of us who signed the paper told her that
my sister was mad at me and that she was lying and that we didn’t have a
ball. We told her to ask them for the ball and to give it to her; we had
already hidden the ball in the restroom; so they were never going to find the
ball. The ball was never found, so we told the counselor that wasn’t fair
that she made us signed the paper, and she has to through them away.
With my friends we used to play soccer during our recess that last about
thirty to forty-five minutes. One time, in my 9 th grade, the last year at that
school; we started to play and like fifteen minutes later somebody scream:
“the counselor,” we turn around to see where she, then everybody run away
at the moment that we all run away, I didn’t know where the ball was; then
somebody called my name and through me the ball. I catch the ball and
run away with my other friend who was next to me. The counselor didn’t
see who had the ball by the end of our recess, and she not even got time to
see who was playing because everyone run away and then was acting like
nothing is happening. That year I failed four of my eight classes; I was able
to take a test for each class so I can graduate to transfer to another school
and start to study for my major.
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My dad let me take my four test at the private school where I was
supposed to study architecture, I don’t know how but I passed my exams, I
was so happy for that, it was all I wanted. In that private school all
students studying for different majors were separate, never taking a class
together. My class was known as “The drawing class,” each major has his
nickname. I think that going to that school was the worst choice to make
because we were always bothering; we were outside of the class, always
making trouble. As a class we were friends with “The electronic class,”
there were only boys because it was a class for those who wanted to study
electricity; we were neighbors. However, I still being a bad student, but
this time it wasn’t only me, it was almost all the class; but most of us were
failing English, Mathematics and Statistics. In Guatemala, I have to
recognize that not all the teachers are bad, but there are some that are
really bad. These three teachers asked for money in order to pass us, at that
time it was a great option for those who were able to pay, but not for those
that doesn’t have money. Some of my classmates paid, but others didn’t; it
was the right time to analyze and think about starting to be a good student
and study. It seems that as a teenager, we don’t thing about the
consequences, but next semester we had failed the same classes, and again
the teachers received money to passed us, and again the same that didn’t
pay before…didn’t pay this time. Nobody said anything about students
paying to pass their classes, I failed that year of classes, and basically I
didn’t pass any class, and I dropped from school because it was also my
father’s choice to take me out of school. Until today I still not knowing of
why I didn’t tell my dad about all the problems that were at that school, I
think that it doesn’t matter at all even this professors can still acting that
way. I’d been able to talk with some of my classmates, they said that some
of the students transfer to another school, and others graduated from it, and
we think that the teachers still teaching there.
I have been living four years here at The United States, and it was
really difficult to start high school not knowing English. When I came I had
the opportunity to think about my life as a student back in Guatemala, and
how my life would be in The United States. I started at my junior year of
high school, I had two years to complete my credits and graduate from it. I
have found great teachers; my ESL teacher helped me a lot, not only me
but all ESL students. It had become really easy to get into a class, pay
attention, and kind of understanding the teachers. All ESL students were
known by the professors, and it was comfortable and easy to go to school, I
did great at school, I really like to go to school, it had become interesting
and excited to go and learn more English each day. I had gotten better in
writing, speaking, reading and listening. I feel good for moving to a new
country because it changed my view of studying. In Guatemala I never
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study for a quiz or test, and I didn’t pay too much attention in class. Now I
am a different person at school, and I have a major to complete. Sometimes
I think about how dumb I was when I didn’t put an effort on my education,
now I have to study and look for somebody to help when I don’t understand
something, while in Guatemala I had my older brother or my father to help
me. I tried to do my best in each class, and I have decided to have a part
time job, and to be a full time student.
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D es egr egation
Gina Simas
It was summertime in the 80’s, and I had just finished my
elementary school years. One evening my single mother sat me down to
discuss a change ahead, I listened intently she explained my middle school
destination. I felt confused and didn’t quite understand her reasoning for
changing its destination. I had my childhood friends in place and it was a
well-known fact those in my circle would be going on to our next phase
together. It was her choice to send my away to a middle school outside our
area. At that time, I remember being open to the idea because the school I
was to attend didn’t have the best reputation. At that point there wasn’t
an option, the decision had been made. She sold me by sharing my best
friends mother agreed this experience be shared jointly, I would not be
alone. I’d be with my best friend. My first day of school was not my first
visit to the well-manicured immaculate clean campus. Rather, it was a
visit, a social of sorts to bring new student and faculty together to soften or
prepare us minority students for a new experience to intertwine.
This process I was place in is known as desegregation, which has
long history going back to 1960 but that’s another story in itself. The basis
is that in 1980 desegregation came to mean “reshuffling” disadvantaged
minority students. In my life at that time, little did I know my being a
participant of this program would prove more positively of all my
educational experiences. It would take years for me to explore and reprise
the days I spent as one of the girls who came from far away to go to school.
In each of the back flashes that surface I can pick which I choose to
visualize and explore. The place I return to I see myself as the girl who
appeared different but found her way in a time and atmosphere where
there continued to be difficulties in getting races to interact. With good
memories bad followed and it happened at the end of my first year at my
new school. The bus ride to school was a long trek for a girl my age. The
direction was far west from where I lived, to get there we took what we
called the shame train also known as the bus. It was on these bus rides I
met several kids reaching the same destination I coming from farthest away.
We found commonalities in likes and dislikes from that time such as fashion
to electronics, it was 1984 and I was 14 years old. I was pleased in my new
school life with my newfound friends in this new environment. I was also
engaged in my studies but my best friend was changing. It seemed she was
distancing herself from school and we found ourselves growing apart. While
I had developed new friends, she was showing less interest in school from
associating herself with my new circle of friends. One day before years end,
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just like that. She was gone. She had not said a word to me and before I
knew the circumstances a rumor mill was in full effect. On a memorable
day I remember standing in the quad waiting to meet my friends, as they
approached me with clinched arms to not loose grip on the bags and books
they held. One of them asked me, “So, are you like her, like your friend?” I
immediately realized something happened to her. What followed was a
known fact to all except for me. She was pregnant at 14. The rumors and
attention on the subject was more then I could handle at that time and age.
It was hard for me being judged by everyone. I was viewed as the friend of
someone who got pregnant, she was considered promiscuous therefore my
person was in question.
The focus and attention was more than I could take. At that age
being able to respond to each of the comments or glares seemed like a bad
dream. My studies and engagement was over- shadowed by a thick shield I
created to protect from judgment. The girl back in 1984 could read in the
eyes of faculty and mature students a message of disappointment and
concern. I then delved into acceptance and worked hard to change the
perception of the reputation I developed and I succeeded. The best part of
it all was that my new friends remained true and helped me along. My
teachers were instrumental in my progression. Since this was the first teen
pregnancy that happened in this particular school, the entire faculty in
someway was engaged in the schools handling of the matter. The memory I
hold close, while a difficult part of the desegregation chapter of my life.
The topic of pregnancy in youth at that time very well may have personally
affected my educational pipeline. My reason for stating this is because it
has. When Graduation time came, I decided not to attend. The question
remains why I did this. My course turned another corner. The good and
the bad that followed my path ahead taught me to look back, the
experience has shaped the person I became. In my life, a milestone such as
this, I take and ponder back accepting all things happen for a reason.
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I an T homas
My Attitude Toward Education
High school is where the first time that I can recall having given
much thought towards my feelings for education. I grew up going to a
Montessori school. I had the freedom to help guide my learning. This was
something I wouldn’t realize how helpful this was for me until my arrival to
public school and most notably high school.
High school is a ridged structure that is incapable for flexibility in
educational styles. High school tends to be organized towards auditory and
reading/writing learners. Only in some elective classes will one find the
class geared more towards the visual and tactile/kinesthetic learners. As it
was I was not an auditory or a reading/writing learner. This was not a
problem when before high school as Montessori education tends to avoid
focusing on just one style. High school was when I started to struggle.
High school was broken up in my mind as core classes (with P.E.
the exception) which where the classes I was required to take and noncore
classes which where most electives. Core classes consisted of Math,
Science, History (the one set of classes I enjoyed from this group), English
which would be the blight of high school education experience, and a
handful of other classes. Going through my freshmen year I started to form
an attitude towards education and by the time I graduated from this
mandatory government institution I had an attitude towards education like
a reinforced cement wall.
Besides my conflicting notions of how I wanted to learn and how
high school wanted to teach me there would be one other necessity that
would plague my learning and that was home work. Like most kids at that
point in life I was a world class procrastinator and had the notion that
school was for school and home was for home and that there should be no
mixing of the two. If I had done more work with home work the crushing
wait I felt in high school would have been lessened.
English would be without a doubt the hardest class for me but with
everything there is a silver lining. Many people claim that what makes the
core of a person is what they produce and their final destination. That
belief is for the ignorant. What makes a person great is not that end result
but the journey to the end the challenges and the falls and how they
handled themselves and persevered to reach that goal. This was the silver
ling that I came to believe in while spending those long hours listing to the
lectures in class. Writing was and continues to be one of the hardest things
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for me but my high school had teachers who were willing to help and work
with you and if not for that I don’t know what would have happened.
My freshman literature class was taught by a teacher named Mrs.
Moore. Mrs. Moore stands out in my recollection of high school due to
actions she took during one of the finals. The multiple choice and true false
sections of the final where a breeze but as it appears in all literature classes
there has to be an essay question. At this point my test came to a
screeching halt. The main issue I have with writing isn’t ideas but getting
these thoughts onto the page. My mind moves to fast and I can’t process
and keep up transcribing my ideas onto the paper. As this happens I tend
to get frustrated and overwhelmed and then eventually shut down. But I
digress. Mrs. Moore knowing the issues I had with writing and seeing the
problems worked with me to find a solution and what was settled upon was
an oral dictation. I can spew forth information when I’m free to talk and not
try and find the best way to get the thought onto paper. Due to the actions
Mrs. Moore took I ended up completing the easy and doing well on the
final where otherwise I would have failed.
The sciences and Mathematics where dull and I moved through
them in a lifeless state. Sitting through lectures and doing homework is all
that made up these classes and I did their bare minimum that I had to do.
To offset these classes I packed my schedule with electives including
computer programming woodshop and photography. These where the class
I enjoyed and looked forward to. This is where I found that school can be
fun.
My senior year I took advanced Photography. In the advanced class
you where given almost unrestrained creative freedom. There was a list of
project objectives that had to be met but how and with what was
completely up to you. This class would end up probably being one of my
favorite classes in my whole four year high school experience. I ended up
spending virtually all my time for the class in the darkroom. I was enamored
with trying new and untraditional was of printing. I was able to be very
hands on and learn on the fly a wide range of techniques. I ended up
finding that a lot of my passion with black and white film photography
rested in alternate processes. In high school exploring these where
encouraged. This ability to chose and explore new things and work hands
on was what appealed so greatly to me and was lacking is so many of my
other classes. Unfortunately most other darkrooms I have had experience
with since high school don’t like people experimenting and using alternate
processes.
I took all but my senior years worth of history classes in summer
school. Being one of the only people in the class who is not repeating taking
it helped give incentive to not fail. Having the schedule for summer school I
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found much more compatible towards a way that I would work in. History
was the only core class that I had no problem with whatsoever. Perhaps
because I have been interested in history it helped make it easier as it
became more like an independent study.
All of these events have slowly shaped my attitude towards
schooling like how an artisan would slowly shape there sculptor out of a slab
of marble. Education is by no means a perfect thing. It rarely caters in
individual preferences and it could care less towards your feeling towards
your own education. However there are people that are willing to help you
and that a sign of wisdom is to know when one should swallow the pride
and ask for help. It is worth completing assignments (like this one) and
trying hard to do your best in all your classes regardless if you like them. In
the long run you will be well of and be able to do what you want if you can
buckle down and take care of the stuff you don’t necessarily like. Education
can be tough but it necessarily and you should never stop trying to learn as
life its self is class room. There are some things from high school I’m not
proud of but I wouldn’t change any of it as all of these events have shaped
my attitudes and made me who I am today.
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T he D ifficulties of C hange
Paola Toulet
"Paola! Paola!" I heard as I was playing outside. I ran into the living
room and saw that my parents were sitting on our tree-green sofas like
statues. They are never still...so I knew this was going to be a "serious talk."
I thought to myself, "Crap! What did I do now? "I was a good kid...a little
out spoken but never the less obedient. I quickly said, "What?" But when
they told me to sit down I thought wow, I will never hear the end of this!
As I sat down I noticed a small smile on my parents faces. "You are going to
have a little brother!"They screamed! I was now the statue, frozen, waiting
for them to say something. I don’t really know what I was waiting for them
to say. In fact anything would have satisfied me but it was only giggles I
heard from my parents. When I finally came out of my coma I was thrilled!
I have always wanted to be a big sister! But the next five words that came
out of my parent’s mouth were like bullets to a Nobel Prize. "Oh and we
are moving!" I personally think that "Oh" can only be used when it is a
small detail that is forgotten. Meaning when it isn't really a big deal, when
no one cares. I guess we needed to move into a bigger house to fit our "new
family member" but this was a huge deal to a third grader!
From the East side of San Jose to the South. Although I didn’t
know it then, this was going to be the difference between a children’s book
and a well developed novel. Every aspect of the two sides of the city were
different. They each had different ethnicities, stores, school districts, and
most of all, different academic levels.
"Paola Toulet?" asked my new fourth grade teacher. "Here" I said
still surprised by my own presence in the classroom. As the list of roll
continued I thought to myself "This might not be such a bad thing. People
seem nice, I like my teacher... I might not have to complain about this for
the rest of my life."
A few days went by and we starting getting into review. Review in
everyone’s mind was a vacation before the actual work started. Since we
already knew the concepts this was going to be super easy. First thing we
reviewed was long subtraction and long addition. So I didn’t know long
addition or subtraction... so what? I thought. I could catch up. Second was
sentence structure. Sentence structure? I had no idea what that was.
Maybe they are just seeing what we know...not what we already know.
Reading was third. Instead of reading "Skip ran home" like I was...they
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were reading more complex stories, some stories even had chapters in them.
This was not a vacation for me. Everything that seemed so easy to them
was a mile and a half away from my reach and understanding. I was so far
behind and I did not understand why. A school is a school. A teacher is a
teacher. So why don't I know these concepts?
I was too young to understand that every school, teacher, and
district had its own learning strategies. Different schools were strong in
different areas. According to the area you live in, you are assigned a school.
I guess they do that to even out each school with the same amount of
students. I personally think it is better to choose your school according to
your knowledge of it and its education level. Just like you do when you
choose a university or a college. You choose the one that best fits you.
We were finally done with our "vacation" and ready to learn. Well,
at least everyone else in the class was. Multiplication and division. Then
Long division and long multiplication. Then with decimals. It seemed as if
every time I learned the concept my classmates had learned two more. It
was a never ending race and I was losing. "Why am I so stupid? Why can't I
get this! "I
thought to myself. I was afraid to turn in papers. I was afraid of raising my
hand. I did get "extra help" from the teacher. She always had a concerned
look on her face whenever she helped me. I felt hopeless, embarrassed and
most of all defeated.
My report card came. My first grade below an "A". My very first
"D". The first time I cried over a grade. Both my mother and teacher put
me in extra reading classes. Reading, writing, and comprehension. I had
caught up in Math but could not catch up in English. It was too hard to
battle it on my own. I needed extra help.
At first I did not mention it to anyone. I kept it to myself like a
secret a best-friend tells and you pink swear to seal your lips. I was
embarrassed. How could I need extra help? I guess I thought very highly of
myself at the time. I've always had a problem with pride. As the year went
on though I noticed that I was getting better and my confidence rose once
again.
Although I was still frightened to read out loud, I would actually
raise my hand in class and contribute! Finally my presence was noticed.
Until a few years ago I was still embarrassed of this. I now know
that it was a mountain I had to climb in order to grow. I am willing to
climb over mountains and through seas to learn what I need to. I am more
than ever eager to learn and adapt to what I am given because of my fourth
grade experience. Learning is a never ending process. You learn throughout
your whole life. Through books, teachers, experience, through basically
everything. My third grade teacher did not teach me as much as my fourth
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grade. And my fourth grade didn't teach me as much as my fifth. But we, as
students' should learn to teach ourselves.
Education varies on the city, state, and even country we live in.
Although we can’t always see the difference right away, it is very noticeable
when compared face to face. We should not settle on what we only learn
at a wooden desk in a blank classroom, but we should go out and learn for
ourselves. Why let someone tell you what you need to know or what you
should know? I think we should be in control of our learning. This
experience has taught me to push myself harder than my teacher does,
because you never know when you will need that extra knowledge in the
future.
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Why I B oth L ove and Hate S chool
Roxanne Tuttle
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others wrote an exquisite paper, the boy next to me was the only student in
the entire school that qualified and joined the Navy.
After the majority of the awards were acknowledged, I started
feeling awkward and tense. Had they sent the invite to the wrong student?
Was I skipped? Right when I looked back at the projector screen, a flash of
my senior picture and the award I won appeared, but then it vanished. I
looked back at my mom sitting in the audience, we both made eye contact,
and I could tell by the look on her face that she was going to raise hell after
the ceremony. Because my first time being recognized for success was
ruined. After the ceremony ended, my mom came down from the bleachers
and hugged me. I tried my best to not cry, but I looked like a fool sitting in
the front row, at least half of the audience saw my picture flash by. My face
was hot from humiliation, and my mom was outraged with the
administration in charge of the award ceremony. She walked up to the
podium where each award was announced and demanded to speak to the
principal. I had already walked to the car because I did not want to be
seen.
A week later during graduation practice, our principal Mr.Hege
called my name and another students to walk up and speak to him.
Mr.Hege told us that our awards that were missed last week would be
announced at graduation to make up for the mistake on award night. It
made me feel better, that I would still be recognized, but an apology did
not fix the embarrassment I felt that night. But announcing it at graduation
was better than nothing at all.
Graduation day came, and before we started the cycle of receiving
our diplomas, Mr.Hege asked three students, including myself, to stand up.
He started by telling the crowd that our awards had been skipped on
ceremony night, and apologized for the mistake. When it came to
announcing my award, Mr.Hege said,
“We’d also like to recognize Roxanne Tuttle, for receiving the
achievement award at CCO.” All I could think was, “What the hell?
CCO?” I was disappointed that my principal could not even say the award
correctly. I just wanted to be acknowledged for finally doing something
great in high school, and my principal messes up by one letter of the
alphabet. What made me hate public school was the fact that Mr.Hege
didn’t know my name until the school administration had made a mistake,
and my mother hunted him down. If it were not for my mother, I would
have been just another face in the crowd all four years at Westmont. If our
principal had been more involved in his students, maybe I would have a
more positive opinion on public school.
As much as I despise public school, my experience at CCOC made
me look forward to the upcoming years at college and being as successful as
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I can be. I did not spend too much time being angry with Mr.Hege and
Westmont, because it was my senior year, and I would never have to attend
there again. A bright future was ahead of me and I look forward to school
everyday.
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What S chool M eant to M e
William Viklund
Don’t really know how to start this essay, but I guess I have to start
you off with how I am and where I am from. I was born in a small town in
northern Sweden along the coast. It is a typical small town where
everybody knows everybody and life has the slowest of paces. The people
here believe and have always believed that authorities can cram it up there
a-s, we take care of our own and we do it with our fists. And leads to a lot of
different problems when you bring in a whole new group of people into this
society so built on bonds that have been established for generation and in
this town I was born and raised. A white boy growing up in a neighborhood
that one side was all immigrants and the other side all white. I grow up
learning, Arabic, Albanian, Finnish and Swedish words among others, in
this melting pot we were a group of kids just getting in to trouble and
playing sports.
I used to love school when I was younger; I was always a good
student despite the fact that my school was strange place. My school had
problems in every area, not enough money, teachers who just didn´t care
and always fights, every day people were fighting, mostly the different
immigrants groups vs. the racist and Nazis groups. I remember the day
when this guy I knew got his scull cracked in school, we were just playing
soccer as always even the dark days when the sun doesn´t come up or the
hottest day of summer just when school stops for summer when it starts up
again. This day was no different, this fat short white guy from the richer
part of town actually managed to dribble away one of the really good player
who lived in the immigration camps just a few blocks from my home.
Johan, the name of this fat kid was a guy who was bad at everything could
off course not keep his mouth shut and started to shout out a lot of stuff.
Racist remarks and taunting him and this guy just picked him up, threw
him to the ground and jumped on his head. After that we always had at
least two cop cars at the school so that nothing like that would happen
again. I got in as much trouble as my friends but since I could keep up a
good grade point average despite being absent a lot this didn’t affect me a
lot in the beginning.
When I came to the 10th grade which in Sweden is when you start
high school you do your first choice into what area you want keep on
studying and work in, you can chose between going more for like
Humanities, Science or maybe a program if you want to be a carpenter or
something. These 3 years are extremely important since it is the grades that
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you will apply to Universities with. As I was one of the best in my class and
had been all through junior high I chose the widest and the hardest which
is the Science program because I actually liked math, thought that it would
not be to hard I mean I was good in school and that the other wide
programs had a lot of foreign languages in them and except for English I am
dreadful at them.
As I came there the first day of high school I felt really misplaced, I
only new one or two in my new class, but not really well. And I that was
use to an integrated class room steeped into an almost all white class room,
the second shock came when the first class started. This was chemistry the
teacher started to go through what we were supposed to know before the
class started. Except for one girl that I knew came from my school but
didn´t know, two guys I kind of knew from the north side of town and me
everybody seemed to know what the gibberish the teacher in front of the
class was saying. I had never heard or read almost anything she said and I
had an A in chemistry in junior high and this was the stuff we were suppose
to know.
I sat at the first lunch break with my new class and my friends from
my part of town walked by said hi and moved on, and I heard one of the
girls say when they were out of reach, I did not that their lived black people
in our town, she looked kind of terrified.
I was not smart or mature enough to realize what I have since then
done and that is that my home town is dived by walls, but they are not
walls of stone, they are walls of education. The poor and the immigrants are
being kept down by a system that the rich people of the town have set up
giving all the problem kids and all the immigrants to two school leaving
their two schools who happen to have the same teachers as the high school
and more funding, and off course a reputation of being a safe and good
working conditions for the teachers leading to the best teachers going to
these schools and making the problem even bigger.
The high school was a safe place, but somehow despite not seeing
fights every day this was worse, I was too far behind to get good grades
because I had to spend like half of my time learning things I was suppose to
know, and since I had never learnt how to study and to go to class everyday
was something that I had never imagined in my wildest dreams, so I ended
just passing my way through my three years and know I am here, in part
because of my bad grades.
Sure I wanted to come check the United States out and get to play
soccer at school is lovely I can’t say that my choice was not affected by this,
I had no chance on getting into the Universities that I wanted or the
programs that I wanted to with the grades I had. Here the story for a lot of
my friends and me changes, my parents aren´t poor like most of my friends
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were growing up, they could actually afford to send me to college here in
the US, even though Sweden has a really good system of loans and
scholarships to allow you to study abroad this is based upon the fact that
you haven´t committed any crimes and that you finished high school, most
of my friends didn´t. When I look back at my friends group I kind of feel like
I am part of the song The Kids Aren´t Alright by the Offspring:
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S miling A mbition
Mellicia Villareal
The moist stench of sweat and grease filled the kitchen as sunlight
seeped through the cheap curtain. My eyes peer up at him as I sit on the
other side of the counter and watch him routinely make his turkey and
cheese sandwich. He had washed his hands but the grime around his
cuticles was still visible, he wore dark navy mechanic scrubs that still
managed to flaunt blotchy grease strains in various places, his name tag
rested on his left breast and read "DAVE", but I knew him more casually as
"DAD". He smiled over at me, that same familiar smile that I display as
well. That's one thing I've always appreciated that he gave me, our
naturally perfect smiles: no braces, veneers or caps just naturally straight
envious teeth.
He was without a doubt my biggest hero; no one could convince me
of any different; not even the biggest, baddest, jerkiest bully on the
playground. However, those deep bags he wore under his eyes told me his
story; he was twenty-four, a high school graduate with a nine to five job
with a kid and wife to support. His adolescence was cut short, thanks to
me, and he had to grow up quick. Even though I was just a kid, I remember
him always being tired, exhausted from working. My mom was pretty much
in the same situation as my dad but for some reason I didn't glorify her like
I did with my dad. She was a dental hygienist and I felt like her job was far
from glamorous; don't get me wrong though, I didn't see my dad's job as
anything sophisticated either but there was something about my dad that I
have just always admired. I now realize that quality I praised was called
"ambition".
My dad is what you would call a "go-getter", always trying to do
better. I believe he is the reason I act and think the way I do. Most kids shy
away from giving their parents credit for the way they ended up but I've
learned to accept that they have shaped me into who I am today. This
"ambition" that my dad possessed however, is what has changed my view
on education. Actually, I'm not quite sure it's been changed, more like
shaped or molded, into how I see my education today. My story doesn't end
with my dad being a mechanic, if it did then what kind of go-getter would
he be? When I was about five my dad enrolled in Mission College's
firefighting academy, this is where I feel like he began to have an impact on
my work ethic. I've never seen anybody work so hard, even to this day. He
would work all day; long, grueling, stressful days. Then he would come
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home and study. Study like nothing I've ever seen before. Then he would
take a test, and another test and another. It seemed like this process would
never end, but I was proud of him. So proud I would brag daily
on the playground, especially after he took me to one of his classes and I got
to be a volunteer. It was a mock-emergency situation and they pretended I
had a punctured abdomen. I laid there with my eyes closed, listening
intently to the pretend chaos in the background; the whole time I just kept
thinking how cool my dad was.
My dad finally passed all of his exams and was initiated as a
firefighter, he chose me to pin his badge on him. I wouldn't realize this later
in life but it was all for me. Everything he ever worked for, strived for and
accomplished was for me. He wanted me to have a good life, one where I
was comfortable and taken care of. His sacrifice has meant a great deal to
me and has taught me multiple valuable life lessons: things won't just come
to me, I need to have a positive mentality if I want to succeed, take school
seriously, in the long-run things will pay off and set a goal and reach it,
don't just "give it a shot", do it and do it right. There has never really been
one defining moment in my life, so far, that has altered my view in
education. Its been a small lifetime of lessons and observations I've inferred
from those around me, most specifically my dad.
Without him I would probably be another punk kid without any
idea of what it takes to succeed. My dad hasn't only showed me what
academic success can bring, but also social. People skills have always come
somewhat naturally to him, and I've mimicked that ever since I was a kid. I
had to be the leader and my voice had to be heard. Overall, my dad has
helped not only shaped my views towards educational importance but has
helped form the way I see the world. The other day my dad and I were
having lunch outside The Counter in Santa Row, it was a bright sunny day
and sunlight dripped through the over head umbrella. He was asking how
school was going and I told him I was enjoying myself; learning a lot and
staying focused. He began to ask where I want to transfer to, I replied,
UCLA. He gave me that same old smile and told me I was too ambitious for
my own good, I sat there and mirrored his smile back to him.
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got to do a little art project; we made models of DNA out of candy. We
each got a few red vines, toothpicks, and gummy bears. What we did was
put the gummy bears on the toothpick lengthwise, and then poke the
toothpick ends through the red vines to make a ladder, and then we twisted
it to make it look like DNA. It was a lot of making them, and eating them. I
remember at the end of the day I didn’t want to go home but I knew I had
to. And I’ve been back there a few times since 5 th grade.
Science camp was a mix of highs and lows; it was an overnight
camping trip. The whole 6 th grade got to go, and we stayed there 2 nights
and 3 days. The good part was that I got to share a cabin with my best
friends, and we spent pretty much everyday together. I really liked going to
the lake to collect water samples, and looking at the different types of
plankton under a microscope. The bad part of the trip was that on the first
night it rained on us, it wasn’t that bad. It was just sprinkling a little but,
that made it really cold and the cabins don’t really have heaters that work
well. We also had to do a lot of hiking so that made everyone tired.
Although, we always had a lot of food to eat it was just typical camp food.
For breakfast we would have cereal, scrambled eggs, bacon, waffles, etc. I
remember for lunch, we had a barbecue with hamburgers, hotdogs, chips,
and soda pretty much all 3 days. And for dinner we had pasta and salads
with sodas. We were definitely really hungry so we ate a lot of the food, and
it was tasty at the moment. But after awhile it can really give you a bad
stomachache (at least it did for me) sometimes I felt so nauseated, I felt like
I was going to vomit. But luckily I didn’t. By the time the 3 days were up I
was definitely ready to go home. I was also sad to be leaving because despite
the food making me sick I felt like I really enjoyed the trip. It was a really
great learning experience.
My absolute favorite field trip would probably have to be the Great
America trip I took in 8 th grade. It was toward the end of 8 th grade and we
were studying physics, and as part of the physics unit and part of the end of
middle school celebration my whole 8 th grade class and all the teachers got
to go. I had a lot of fun learning how roller coasters work, and I love
amusement parks. At the entrance gate I found $20 on the ground, I
showed my friends and asked them what should I do with it. They all told
me to keep it so that’s what I did. Okay, at first I felt a little bad about it
but I got over it. When we finally got into the park I was excited. There
were lots of other kids there from middle schools and high schools all over
the Bay Area. It was crowded but I didn’t care. I spent the whole day with
my 2 best friends (at the time) Alexandria and Kassidy. We went on many
roller coasters, and shared popcorn, drinks, and cotton candy. Two of my
most memorable moments of that day would probably be riding Drop Zone
for the first time. Even though I like roller coasters I’ve always had
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somewhat of a fear of heights. So when Alexandria and Kassidy told me
they wanted to ride Drop Zone I was not sure if I wanted to go. But I
waited in line with them for more than 2hrs because I didn’t want to be
alone for that long. As we got closer to the front of the line I began getting
more nervous because it was really loud, and it seemed very high up. When
we got to the front of the line I was still thinking whether or not I wanted
to go. But then Alexandria just pushed me in one of the seats (in a nice
way) and told me it should be fun and my fear of heights would go away. I
just sat in that seat nervously Alexandria and Kassidy told me that
whatever I do, I definitely shouldn’t look down. They said if I keep on
looking just straight-ahead, I should be fine. And it worked I wasn’t as
scared when we dropped as I thought I would be. The whole thing just
happened so fast. The other thing I remember about the trip was playing
this carnival game where you have these little red rings and you have to try
to throw them around empty soda bottles from a distance. To me, it looked
almost impossible. But we decided to try it out because we had some extra
money and it looked fun. We tossed a few and they landed pretty far from
the bottles, and then I just randomly tossed one of the rings and somehow it
landed on a bottle. The next thing I knew was that I won this extremely
huge teddy bear that was almost the same size as me. It was cute and I was
definitely really excited at the moment. But it was really heavy and hard to
carry around. Luckily it was near the end of the day because if it was
sometime in the morning I don’t I would have been able to carry that bear
around all day. That teddy bear is still in my room today, and I definitely
plan to keep it forever because it’s a good memory. Both Kassidy and
Alexandria moved away in high school. I haven’t seen or heard from either
one of them in years. I remember them well, and miss them. Hopefully they
remember me, and also miss me. This teddy bear reminds me of that day
and all the fun we had.
Overall, I like science because it gives you the chance to do hands-
on experiments. Of course in every science class I’ve ever taken I’ve had to
read textbooks, and take tests, that wasn’t much fun. But I got through it.
Even though I’ve always had an interest in science I wouldn’t say I’m
exactly “good” at it. I always did okay on tests, writing research papers.
Now that I’m in college I’m still fascinated by science, but it’s not
something I would ever be able to major in, because of the workload. And I
don’t think I could write that many research papers. But I have lots of other
interests. I’ve always been really creative and the first thing I developed a
passion for when I was really little is drawing. And I still love to draw and
paint during my free time. So right now, I’m looking into different majors in
the art fields.
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Zachary Strausbaugh
I had a lot of memorable experiences from my junior year in high
school. The birth of my little brother Paxton, playing in the state
championship game, the memories shared with childhood friends; the kinds
of great things that I will live with and remember for the rest of my life. But
there was also a particular event that taught me an important life lesson. I
am the stubborn son of a stubborn, hard working single mother of 4, who
busts her ass to support us and do her best to spoil us with everything that
we want, all of this without a college degree or a husband to help out. She
is the best mom I could ask for, unconditionally loving for all her boys. I just
wish I would have listened to her advice before I paid for it. For years I had
heard it from my mom and pretty much every adult figure in my life, “Work
before play.” Unfortunately, it took something to come and slap me in the
face for it to really register.
I was a part of one of the best football teams in the state. The
Union Titans, ranked 2 nd in state all year long and ran over everyone they
played, made up of kids that had been rivals since youth football. Obviously
we had a lot of talented kids, but we were also given every opportunity in
the world to succeed, the areas best coaches, state of the art weight room,
and one of the states best campuses. There weren’t too many kids that were
fortunate enough to be put in the situation we were in. How could we fail?
We brought recognition and respect to southwest Washington that had
been lost for years. Combining kids from three different high schools in the
area and brand new equipment equaled Union High School; the pride of
Camas and one of the top schools in the state.
It was late September in cold, wet Camas, Washington that I
experienced two of the toughest weeks of my high school career. I was
always a smart kid, scored high on all my tests, an exceptional reader ever
since I learned how. Problem was that I never took school seriously.
Homework was never on my to-do list, which probably stemmed from my
elementary teachers who really didn’t seem to care that I didn’t turn in any
take home work. I’m sure they figured that as long as I could nail every test
I took and participate in class discussions, it didn’t really matter that I
turned in unnecessary practice work. After all it probably wasn’t any skin of
their back to have one less assignment to grade.
If only high school teachers saw things the same way. Sure, I could
still record a pretty solid test score, but I forfeited 1/3 of my grade for
choosing not to do my homework, a sacrifice that I deemed necessary up
until that September day. It was week three of my football season and the
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thing that had me worried wasn’t the team we were playing, it was the
potentially more devastating grade check. I knew that my grades couldn’t
possibly be good enough; I’d purposely avoid even looking at them to avoid
any ounce of stress that it may cause me. I had known they were coming for
a month but it still hit me like a sack of bricks. Up until then, I had always
done what I did best, scrape by. I was to be put on academic suspension by
my coaches until I could get my grades above a 2.0, devastating news to a
kid who had played a football game every single week, every season, without
fail since the fifth grade. Hurt or healthy, rain or shine, thick or thin, I’d
always been out there with my guys playing the game that we love. And
now it was the aspect of my life that I really took for granted that was going
to get in my way.
I couldn’t believe what happened, why couldn’t I just had listened
to my mom, who had always had faith in me even through the parent
teacher conferences in which the teachers preached every time, “Poor work
ethic is holding Zachary back.” I’d always get a talking to after but never
took it to heart. My response was always the same, a nod of my head and an
apology. But this time was different, I couldn’t help but feel that I let her
down and was taking all the work that she would do for me for granted. All
of those bizarre hours she would work to put food on the table and get me
and my brothers everything that any other kid in a two parent family would
want. That in itself was beyond difficult, but to find out that her kid wasn’t
taking school seriously and just throwing all of his opportunities for a good
life away must have been heart wrenching. But after I told her what had
happened, instead of responding with anger and/or ground me for months,
she just reminded me what I already knew which was that it was all my
fault and it is my responsibility to fix it. She knew how much football had
meant to me and figured that having to sit out for two weeks of football was
plenty punishment. She was absolutely right.
I was finally being punished for my poor choices and they were
taking away something that was extremely important to me. Probably just
as hard as telling my mother, was what I was going to have to tell all my
best friends on the team. I was extremely embarrassed and when asked how
I let it happen, I would make excuses like “the teacher doesn’t like me” or “I
have no time to do my work” though I doubt that I fooled anyone. In the
end, the hardest part was the deep sense of shame that I had in myself. As
much as I wanted to blame someone else for my situation, I knew that what
had happened was my own fault and that I had to do something about it.
It’s hard to describe the feeling in my gut watching my brothers
play those two games from the sidelines. It was a lot like sitting at the kids
table, watching the adults eat.
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I’d go to practice every day and work as hard as I could knowing
that I wasn’t going to get to play, something that until then I had never had
to deal with up until that point. It was hard even looking at my teammates
or coaches in the eyes without getting a sense of regret that made me want
to break down and cry. The amount of shame that I felt was drastically
more powerful than the enjoyment that I got watching TV and doing
whatever I could fill my time with except for homework. I knew that I had
let my team and my mother down and that it was nobodies fault but my
own.
For a couple days I was depressed, my days consisted of going to
school, sitting through class feeling sorry for myself then going home turning
on the TV lying on the couch and feeling sorry for myself. I could hardly
talk to anyone. But after those couple days I realized that sitting around
sulking in my own misery wasn’t going to fix anything. I was going to have
to face the music and work harder than I ever had before to earn my way
back on to the team. I’d go to class and work intently for all the time that
was allotted, skip out on my lunch period to make up work from weeks
before, struggle through practice, go home and finish that nights homework
plus all that I had so conveniently avoided for the past month, then I’d get a
night of deep sleep and then do it all over the next day. I had no time for
friends or any other potential distractions, if I was going to get back as soon
as possible, I had to devote every single ounce of energy toward school. It
was like going from standing still to a solid sprint for two weeks straight.
Two extremely tough and draining weeks were extremely difficult
but I was rewarded when I was finally able to return to the team and play
not only the remainder of the season, but the next season as well without
any more academic issues that kept me off the field. For the rest of high
school I was able to focus at least enough to never be put on academic
suspension again. I finished high school with a 2.3 Grade point average.
Still, I should have finished with a better GPA but if it weren’t for my two
weeks of academic suspension, I wouldn’t have cared at all about school. It’s
very possible that I wouldn’t have even graduated, and I definitely wouldn’t
have been here at foothill college playing football.
At the time, it was one of the worst things that had ever happened
to me. But now I can see that it really changed the way that I viewed not
only education but life in general. I now better understand that in order to
do things that you enjoy doing, most of the time you will have to do things
that you don’t necessarily want to do. You have to practice before you can
play in a game, you have to go to work to get paid, and you have to work
hard in class in order to get a good grade.
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Nick Palaszewski
Throughout my whole educational career I never felt unmotivated
or in a loss for education. There was a series of events that did make me lose
a bit of motivation, and those events happened in the beginning of high
school and at the end of high school. In between those times I had great
time learning and doing the whole high school thing.
When I first entered high school I was already in the process of
transferring to a private high school. I had almost perfect grades at
Carlmont, which is the school I had originally started out in. I had met all
the requirements to transfer already, and my dad was totally going to help
me out. When I had presented this idea to my mom (my parents are
divorced) she flipped out and didn’t feel like it was going to be a good use of
money. In that case I wasn’t going to transfer to Saint Francis which isn’t
even the most expensive of private schools, and honestly I felt that I would
be a little more motivated to do well in school. Becoming a freshmen at a
high school that was known for drugs, fights, riots, and tom foolery just
didn’t seem to be the school I wanted to put my 4 years into. Keep in mind
I was 14 years old and probably around 5 foot nothing. So that school
looked like a death trap for me, I know some others will have to agree with
me, luckily I never got beat up or made out to be a fool. I ended up sucking
it up and trying to make the best of the situation, by making friends with
the older bigger students, which is always a good thing, and by just
continuing in class like I had done in the past.
Later Freshmen year I tried out for the soccer team, it ended up
being coached by my clubs rival club soccer team, and my clubs original
coach before he made the switch. So right then I knew there was tension for
all the players from my club in the tryouts. I was giving all heart in the two-
week tryout period, running like no other, giving 110% and being the most
aggressive player on the pitch. It came down to the point where we all had
to meet in his office with him alone to tell us if we had made the team, or
what we could improve on to make the team the year after. As I made my
walk in there I had such a great feeling, until I was finally sat down and
told by the dick of a coach that “I was to small” to play on the team. I was
pissed, I asked him “come on how can anyone be to small?!” I wasn’t going
out without a fight, I kept all my anger against him bottled up to long. I
gave him a piece of my mind, it was a little graphic but well deserved. At
the end of the conversation I walked out without a thank you for your time,
by the coach. The moment was pretty depressing, some of my friends made
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the team, needless to say I didn’t think they were too great, maybe they had
some height on me but I could have totally schooled them all.
After I got over the anger of not making the team, I had made a
promise to myself not to try out for any more high school sports, why you
might ask? Probably because the area I grew up in was so damn political, a
stupid, plastic, small suburban town where if you don’t have money, you’re
a nobody, I’m not saying I was poor, but there was no way in hell I was rich.
Not only that but your parents could also pay for you to get out of all your
problems. So not only was I not wealthy but I didn’t feel too in place in the
this town, all though the friends I have made since the start of school
happen to be in a similar situation as I, so all fought this problem together.
Reflecting back on the last paragraph, where I said I didn’t have a
ton of money really hits hard especially in this subject coming up. It came
down to senior year, I saw a ton of my close friends travelling and checking
out schools all around, different cities, states, even a few out of the country.
I never really had terrible grades in high school I ended up maintaining
around a 3.4 cumulative gpa throughout my 4 years attending Carlmont,
(which became an accredited/distinguished school, while I was attending) I
thought that I would definitely be going to one of the 3 schools I had picked
to venture off to after high school and those were: University of Buffalo, San
Jose State University, or Santa Clara university, that is If I had scored well
on the SAT’s. Three weeks before the big test, my dad didn’t ask if I
wanted to go to a community college, he told me I was basically stuck going
to one for the first two years of college. I was quite upset and got into a
heated argument and stated that I wasn’t pleased with the decision HE
made! We weren’t really on the same page for the remaining amount of
senior left. I had to suck it up, and it kind of showed in my last years
cumulative gpa, as of now I have a 2.5, which isn’t so great, and I know I
can do better, but I need a little more motivation. If I continue doing better
I will end up at one of my choice schools, which is my goal up until this
day!
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