Desperately Desiring Frugality
Several years ago, I found some gal on a website...and her page was dedicatedto HOW people can live under very frugal means. I wanted her advice, so I wrote heran e-mail. I never sent it. But I kept it in my e-mail drafts all this time, so I thoughtthat it ought to become a new note, available for any bored person to read. This isone of many efforts I have made to stop living in the fear of what man thinks of me(or else no one would ever read this)...because
none of YOU get to determinewhether my soul is saved or not. So who cares what you think?
12-27-2006Dawn, the frugal chick:I just happened to find your website while searching the phrase "radicalfrugality".As I sit here sipping on a Coca-Cola I just got out of my friends' fridge because Idon't have sodas at home, and I use their Internet because I don't have it at home, Iam faced with an ugly, always-present dilemma in my heart:I am desperately desiring frugality. My heart reaches for it; my mind defends it;my flesh refuses it.Maybe a year and a half ago, the Lord showed me that not only do our idlewords (blabbing about nothing) threaten our faith, but also do our idle possessions.So I actually made an effort to get rid of all my photographs (What help did theyreally do me, anyway? Just another thing to keep up with...) and a few other things Ididn't use. But--not knowing anyone else who'd ever even heard of being frugal inlife--it was difficult to continue on my own. I couldn't talk to anyone about it. So Iwent back.And now, I have such great respect for Rose Mawhorter and her RadicalFrugality website (that's why I looked up the phrase on Google), but it's one of thosethings that seems far, far, far from a realistic goal for my life.I have a habit of deciding I need something or really want something, and itstays in my mind until I finally break down and buy it. Donald Miller, one of myfavorite authors, said in his book Blue Like Jazz that some people are defined byhaving new, shiny things--as though those things validate them. I seem to be one of them. Hatefully so.I read the Radical Frugality website in the summer, and I was hooked to theideas presented. They were so beautiful and made so much sense with what Godwas doing inside me. Then, they faded into the background and were almostforgotten...until last week.I love knitting. I started learning about three years ago. I used to only knit inthe cold months, and I'd make everyone scarfs. But this year, I've learned to expandmy abilities, and I can knit all year round now. But I'm addicted to buying yarn;especially all the fluffy, colorful, soft yarns that have come out; especially the hugevariety Hobby Lobby offers in their own brand Yarn Bee, which is much cheaper thanthe competition. Right now, I have it in my head that I really should keep a bigsupply of Thick 'n' Quick yarn and some fat needles, so I can knit up something in a jiffy, anytime I want to.I love cooking. I started learning about three years ago. My little fridge freezeris so packed I seriously have to consider if I need something else before I buy it,especially because there's no room, and everything is piled up on top of everythingelse because there's no shelf. Right now, I have it in my head that I really should geta big supply of stackable plastic containers for each food. I could label 'em and havea gorgeously organized freezer for once.I love drinking hot tea. I started drinking it about a year ago. Last year, mybrother's wife, who hardly knows me at all, bought me a large, fancy box full of